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Fear Strikes Out

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Reasons why I Shouldnít Go To Swim Class Today Ė Monday October 22

1. I hate new things, things I canít control
2. I do not trust the instructor
3. Iím claustrophobic
4. Iím 59, Iíve gotten by this far without really knowing how to swim
5. No one will save me if I start to drown
6. Other people in the pool will laugh at me
7. Iíll have an anxiety attack
8. What if I canít breathe once I put my head in the water
9. I could use the time in more effective ways.

I couldnít think of a tenth one and my well defined sense of order was driving me crazy!!! Iíd dreaded it all weekend. My first ACTUAL swimming class, the one where weíd learn to breathe under water. There are few things that terrify me more than being under water. After Fridays initial assessment at my lumbering attempt to swim Julia told me it would be a good idea to get some swimming goggles. Theyíd keep the chlorine from burning my eyes. I waited until late Monday morning hoping against hope that there wouldnít be the right pair for me and then I could call and cancel and abusage my guilt and anxiety with a bag of orange slices. I walked around with a note pad and kept writing reasons why I shouldnít go. Maybe I could pretend to be sick?It was quite an internal battle. I kept pushing forward and each time Iíd make a small step forward the anxiety monster would pop up and beat me with this huge hammer. As I was sitting on the bench waiting for Julia all the previous swim lessons in my life started floating in front of me, all the failures and botched attempts at doing anything.

Julia came bouncing out of the locker room and took off her sweats ďTime to rock and roll. How ya doing today?Ē

ďIím scared.Ē

Julia flexed her arm and squeezed her bicep. ďDonít worry John, Iím strong enough. I wonít let you drowned!Ē I thought this is where I was supposed to get a hug or something?

Itís really kind of funny, you know, because after about fifteen minutes of doing exactly what she told me to do I suddenly realized I was swimming. I wasnít David Phelps but I was displacing water in a relatively smooth fashion. I let someone have control. Julia clapped her hands and jumped up and down. (I didnít tell you the child is terminally perky!!)

It dawned on me later Monday evening that my first reason for not wanting to come back is the main reason I donít do a lot of things. ďI hate new things I canít control.Ē Between us good friends I hate anything I canít control so I rationalize not doing things for a host of really valid excuses. (Well at least they are valid in my mind.) Iíd like to tell you that I conquered my fear of water and there is a wreath of birds chirping above my head as I walk through life. I have not conquered my fear of water but come Friday at 2:30 Iíll be waiting for Julia on the bench and weíll do another lesson. Between now and then maybe Iím going to look at some of the other things that petrify me and start dealing with them. Care to join me?


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MARITIMER3 10/27/2012 10:45PM

    Love your honesty, John. I've avoided doing things that I can't control for years... and now I'm starting to do them, so I understand how great it feels. Congratulations for facing year fear of swimming.

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NASFKAB 10/25/2012 6:27AM

  great blog

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HLPRATT 10/25/2012 1:46AM

    I know exactly what you are going through. I took swim lessons awhile ago. I've never totally conquered my fearof the water but I do have a comfortable stroke I mastered and I can float. It takes alot of effort though. Hang in there. Anything that scares you is something worth doing

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CARTOONB 10/24/2012 11:15PM

    Is David Phelps Michaels dad? Maybe you do swim like him...I'm just sayin'! Congratulations on going AND learning!

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GEEMAWEST 10/24/2012 11:14PM

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CELLISTA1 10/24/2012 7:48PM

    This is big. Doing something you have feared all your life?! Fear of being underwater is a really big fear. This isn't a little fear. You have taken a huge step and I have a feeling it will have major repercussions in your entire life. Congratulations!

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AJDOVER1 10/24/2012 7:20PM

    I'll bet Julia wasn't surprised.

Now on to the next....

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DOODIE59 10/24/2012 7:00PM

    Way to go, David Phelps:) Swimming really IS an important life lesson, so good job.
Just for the record, no one would let you drown, so you will have to take excuse #5 off the list. Sorry:)

Swimming is one of those magical skills. One minute you cannot, and the next you can -- and nothing has changed except your head set. True! Enjoy the moment!

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DEE797 10/24/2012 5:02PM

    emoticon emoticon on conquering your fears. I can so relate to what you wrote. Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts with us. Wishing you continued success on your journey! emoticon emoticon

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ANATASHIKI 10/24/2012 3:56PM

    our control is an illusion anyway. congrats for the swimming emoticon . I hate to be afraid emoticon

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GIRANIMAL 10/24/2012 3:26PM

    Please stop jabbing me with a knife in my sore spots, sir! emoticon

Most days you'd think I freakin' invented the concepts of control and fear of the unknown. emoticon

I am so proud of you! I recall swimming lessons as a child and, truth is, they were awful! But at least (I am fairly certain) I can still swim. I may never know since I still loathe the idea of wearing a swimsuit -- even at home, let alone in public! Talk about needing to take a cue from you! Of course, in my defense, I have next to no access to a pool, and sand grosses me out. emoticon

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DEBRITA01 10/24/2012 12:44PM

    Hmmm...taking on our fears and letting go of control. That is huge and you did it! You may have not conquered them but I'm in awe of your determination. As always John, you speak of the struggles that many of us share and I thank you for that. emoticon

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 10/24/2012 12:35PM

    GREAT JOB! WOOHOO! :) I'm proud of you!

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HDHAWK 10/24/2012 12:27PM

    Fantastic John! I hate things I can't control and am so self conscious. This is why I don't dance, even though it looks like so much fun!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 10/24/2012 12:20PM

    good job!! I taught both of my parents to swim when they were adults and I was a lifeguard. You can do it.

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MAUITN 10/24/2012 11:33AM

    You did it!!!!! You swam. You were swimming. You can swim. You are a swimmer. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TRISTAROSE 10/24/2012 11:04AM

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LOVINGKATE 10/24/2012 10:52AM

  So PROUD of you John!! I to have a few of your same fears. I'm someone that fears the swim suit. I am 59 and heavy and afraid to put on a swim suit. I am my own worse enemy. I fear people will judge me or stare at me, snicker behind my back. So insecure. Maybe if I took private lesson, I tell myself, but other people are in the pool. How do I handle that? I have much to work on but if you can do this I can too. That's what I'm telling myself right now.
You are such an inspiring man John. I love reading your blogs because you really hit home for me. Thanks John for always sharing. God bless you.

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REGILIEH 10/24/2012 10:23AM

    I am so IMPRESSED! I really can't swim either although I water skied for years. I can float on my back but I really hate the water and I'm afraid of it. I certainly understand how you feel and to think after all of these years you are doing it! WOW!

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CRYSTALJEM 10/24/2012 9:59AM

    Yes! Way to go! Seriously, that's a huge step. Just think, if you can master swimming, snorkeling and scuba diving could be just freestyle stroke away. LOL. Seriously scuba diving and snorkeling are great fun and you're on your way to being able to make them a choice in your life if you want to.

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SLIMLEAF 10/24/2012 9:44AM

    Well done, John - that's excellent!

As for joining you in facing up to scary things.... I'm not sure. I think I'd rather run away and hide, but I suppose that's the whole point.

Maybe, then...

If I'm not on my own...

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    John..I am so proud of you. I am doing a happy dance for you. Sometimes we need a terminally perky person in our lives to push us in the right direction. Fear is a biggie and I need help in this area.

Since my husband was killed 4 years and 4 months ago I have not dated anyone. I have known someone as a friend for 3 years and he tells me how much he Loves me and wants us to date and get to know each other and see where it goes. I am to scared. Living alone. Totally isolated from family and friends is not a good way to live but the chances of getting hurt are really big reasons of WHY I have the fears I do. I then see people like you and your wife who are best friends and ask myself..Why not take that chance?.

I want to live life before I no longer have a life to live.

I don't know if I can but I want to overcome my fears and have a life. It is hard to do but not impossible. emoticon

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LOSINGVICKI 10/24/2012 9:09AM

  WTG John on facing your fear and doing it anyway. I really think you'll come to enjoy it. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NEWMOM20121 10/24/2012 9:07AM

    Great blog. Way to go.

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JUSTLLAMA 10/24/2012 9:00AM

    You are amazing. I think it's incredible that you are tackling your fears head on. It takes a strong, strong person to do that.

Also, you have a gift for writing. Your blog was a pleasure to read.

Keep up the GREAT work!

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The Little But Oh So Important Things

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

I have a lot of friends here at Spark. I'm not bragging just reflecting on how very fortunate I am to be able to sample life's buffet table from all different perspectives. From the very athletic to the beginners I can always find someone to get me gong at the right moment.

I found a friend here that's relatively new to Spark. She blogs daily and if you read her blogs they are short, sweet and to the point. She drinks eight glasses of water each day. She walks or jogs three days a week. She exercises. Like you and I she has to tweak her diet plan to stay on track and like you and I she has challenges. Nothing really exotic, just the meat and potatoes of health.

She ended her blog today by asking "What's everyone elses goals for the day?" Gee, lol, that's right, I have to do this every day. Years ago I had a boss who used to remind me "Take care of the little things and the big things will take care of themselves." The proof is in the pudding?

Thank you my new and dear friend for sharing part of your journey today. It's just what I needed.


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LYNMEINDERS 10/25/2012 4:53AM

    It is so so true...someone always passes by and gives us what we need when we need it....

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DEE797 10/24/2012 5:07PM

    "Take care of the little things and the big things will take care of themselves."

this is something I need to work on as I tend to look at the big things and get overwhelmed by them.

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GIRANIMAL 10/24/2012 3:20PM

    Great reminder, as always. I've spent months lamenting how long it's been since I've done a morning (or any) strength training workout. Monday was gonna be my start again, but I slept terribly Sunday night and was exhausted. This normally is an invitation to say, "See? There you go again, blowing things off." (Let's face it, that translates to "FAILING" in the subconscious internal monologue.

So I resisted the urge for self-berating and instead told myself, "You have the rest of the week to still do well." And I got up on Tuesday and did a 15 minutes of intervals with Leslie Sansone! And you know what? It felt GREAT. In the past, when I was in gung-ho weight loss mode, I would have chided myself for "only" 15 minutes. But darn it, that's 15 minutes more than zero! So Tuesday - that one day in time - I met my goal. One day at a time!

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CARTOONB 10/23/2012 11:18PM

    The proof is in the pudding? I need to go look up the origin of that saying! I've heard it before. Heck, I've used it before! Just curious now where it came from....

Thanks for the reminder.

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NEEDBU66 10/23/2012 1:23PM

    Who is it? Perhaps we want to friend her too. ;-}

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CINDYHOUGHTON 10/23/2012 11:24AM

    One day at a time. One decision at a time. So, what is your goal? Mine is half done. Walk with Leslie and walk with my dog :)

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JENAE954 10/23/2012 10:47AM

  Thanks for the dose of gratitude.

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WISEONE68 10/23/2012 10:26AM

    Truer words were never, uh, written... emoticon
I am making daily goals--feels like I am just starting again--duh, I really AM just starting again. But, the good thing is that I have the CHANCE to begin again.

Every day is a new day...and, it begins with smaller goals which will carry us on to completing the larger goals...pound by pound, inch by inch.

Have a GREAT, goal-filled day!! emoticon

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LOOKY-LOU 10/23/2012 10:03AM

    Man I needed that this morning...thank you!

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HDHAWK 10/23/2012 9:53AM

    Thank you for being part of my journey as well!

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DOTTIEJANE1 10/23/2012 9:47AM

    Yes, we all ( me included) need to get our goals in line each and every day thanks for the reminder. Have a GREAT week .

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NASFKAB 10/23/2012 9:31AM

  great blog hugs

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LOSINGVICKI 10/23/2012 9:12AM

  emoticon Good blog. emoticon emoticon

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BARB5970 10/23/2012 9:08AM

    Blogging is something I think I need to try more often. I forget how many people are affected by something I might share, whether it's good or bad, someone always seems to comment that they can relate. Thanks to my fellow Sparkers who blog daily. I'm always inspired.

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BETHANYBOUND 10/23/2012 8:50AM

    It ties back to your blog yesterday of focusing on the present day/moment.

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REGILIEH 10/23/2012 8:39AM

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John, your are soooo appreciated!

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Right Here, Right Now

Monday, October 22, 2012

It's no fun being over weight. Whether its fifteen pounds or one hundred pounds we seem to have an internal radar that compares us to other people and I've found that shaky self confidence often goes hand in hand with obesity. We feel pressured dont we? Pressured to be like everyone else. Oh, I know, publicly we spout off mantras that suggest we're our own person and we NEVER, did I say NEVER compare ourselves to others. (I know double negative but its my blog, my rules, lol) Then why do we exist in varying degrees of misery? Why do so many of us fail and give up? If we didnt listen to all the chatter that steadily hums in the background would we be successful?

Each morning I do a short guided meditation to start my day. It guides me into the present, the now. This is vital for me. I usually get out of bed with my mind whirling and in short order I'm stuck in a ditch somewhere feeling tense, frustrated and anxious. This morning my mind moved to that feeling of self judgment I get when I start comparing myself to other people. My first impulse is to panic and try something very radical to get me where I perceive to the need to be in a hurry. I might look at all the Spark success stories on the log in page and tell myself "You need to amp it up John." My mind moves me towards activity and that activity usually goes beyond my bodies capability.

As I allowed my body to relax I had this image of a cut on one of my fingers. I stood before my doctor and said, "I cut my finger, could your amputate my hand?" The inner John laughed but there was an amazing wisdom in that image. How often do I engage my over kill instinct because I perceive myself to be "less than." I have to catch up quick and rather than wait for some healing I employ drastic measures only to find myself with even more issues that I began with.

Close your eyes for just a moment and focus on right here, right now. You'll be glad you did. Warts and all you are an amazing person living in a most amazing time.

And here we are.

Namaste dear ones

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WALKNLOVE 10/25/2012 5:57AM

    My daughter wrote some beautiful positive things on the mirror in my bathroom with a dry erase marker...Now in the morning when I wake up I read these things to myself. Positive affirmations....what a great way to start the day!

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DEE797 10/24/2012 5:05PM

    I can totally relate to this blog as well. Thanks so much for sharing your insight with us. You've given me a lot to think about.

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LYNMEINDERS 10/23/2012 4:28AM

    Am so glad you are takling time for you...woohoo

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CARTOONB 10/22/2012 10:40PM

    If you have a flat tire, you don't get out and stab the oth least I don't! LOL! Good for you for taking time for you. You deserve it!

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LINDA7668 10/22/2012 9:49PM

    Thanks for sharing! This is something I need to work on.

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ONEKIDSMOM 10/22/2012 7:05PM

    Love the image, John! And you know, with the mind of an addict, it doesn't matter how much success you have losing weight or getting fit, or whatever, that tendency to feel "less than" will be there without the meditation and re-centering. Good for you, sticking to your guns. One day, nay, one decision at a time... slow, breathe, we can DO this, and we are worth it!

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ALLISON145 10/22/2012 1:50PM

    "I have to catch up quick and rather than wait for some healing I employ drastic measures only to find myself with even more issues that I began with."

This is me, 100%. Healing. I need to keep that concept in mind. Too often I seem to focus on punishing myself.


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TRISTAROSE 10/22/2012 12:27PM

    Another great blog! emoticon emoticon

You are an amazing person as well!

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DEBRITA01 10/22/2012 12:09PM

    Being in the present in necessary...without it we tend to get overwhelmed by the bigger picture. I liked the cut analogy...puts things in perspective. Here's to enjoying the here and now...Namaste. emoticon

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JENAE954 10/22/2012 10:23AM

  Thanks once again for the wise words. Look forward to reading your posts!
Please keep 'em coming.

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FUN2BAROUND 10/22/2012 10:11AM

    Thanks, John, I needed thos today. When I got on the scale after a weekend of birthday celebration (but also a lot of exercise) my weight was at my all time high. I almost collapsed in shame.
I know that I am more than a number on the scale. The panic that set in when I realized that I have even further to go to reach my goal had me thinking along the same lines. I keep going back to that Jillian Michaels quote "Why do you choose failure when SUCCESS is still an option?". I had a long talk with myself this morning on the way to work and realized that the coming year is going to have to be about my health and being the best I can be. And every year after that should be , too.
I am worth "good" choices.
Hope you have a blessed day!

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ANATASHIKI 10/22/2012 10:09AM

    I always knew I was different .because it was only me that way I presumed it was bad different. because I was almost the only fat kid I presumed it was the fatness. but somewhere deep down I knew it wasn't that . after that there were some(too many) years when I tried to be like the others . after a while I decided I liked myself more(some modesty , I know :P ) .after another while I discovered I was happy I was different. other people discovered that too and were also happy .so why the fatness remained like a vestigial body structure? because I didn't integrate properly what other people do naturally , put yourself and your needs on the first place. make yourself happy and after that you'll be able to help more the others. take care of your needs first and you'll be strong enough to support others . great theory , huh? wish me good luck with the practice :D
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CRYSTALJEM 10/22/2012 10:07AM

    Oh so true. So often we have a cut only to seek amputation. Great reminder. I seem to experience the same thing. Thanks for the wake up.

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BETHANYBOUND 10/22/2012 9:35AM

    I think we can only try to commit to this moment, on this day. The broader list of must/should - dos is too scary and overwhelming. So today - no, this morning for breakfast - I shall think about something healthy for my body. If I succeed or fail - I will then move on to lunch.

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LOSINGVICKI 10/22/2012 9:33AM

  Thank you for my morning cup of cheer. emoticon

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REGILIEH 10/22/2012 9:27AM

    AMEN!!! AMEN!!! AMEN!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NASFKAB 10/22/2012 8:52AM

  great thoughts thanks

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NEWMOM20121 10/22/2012 8:49AM

    Wonderful blog.

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DONNALYNN22 10/22/2012 8:49AM

    emoticon John, great insights, great imagry. I'm so glad I selected your blog this morning! THANX for the words that heal. emoticon

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HDHAWK 10/22/2012 8:46AM

    So very true!

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There Is Less of Me To Love This Week and I Really Don't Mind

Saturday, October 20, 2012

I lost 3.2 pounds this past week. Even I was surprised. I sat here for a few moments and tried to reach out and capture some pearl of wisdom to share with you that caused that type of loss. I apologize, I simply can't. I can't come up with anything other than I've stuck to the three goals I set for myself a few months back.

I stayed within my calorie limits.
I exercised for 30 minutes 6 days per week.
I practice mindful meditation at least once daily for 10 minutes.

There's a fourth and its hard to capture in words but I will try.

My daughters stopped over with a pizza last night. It was thin crust with cheese and veggies. I didnt stress. We hadn't planned anything for dinner. I had three slices. I was content and was well within my calorie limits. Did I say I didnt stress? What was important is the time I spent around the table with my wife and daughters. I may never have that moment again and I know what you're thinking "You could have sat there and not eaten." Yeah, probably, but I wouldnt have had as much fun. I know the plan I am following is a good one. I know I'll stumble and fall and I know one day I'll reach my goal weight. In the interim if life allows a few slices of veggie pizza into my universe so be it.

Yeah, I know we had the cookie fiasco earlier this week but we dealt with it. And really, isnt that what life is, dealing with stuff? So no worries, right now. I'm sure someday soon I'll have them again. This morning I just want to enjoy the 3.2 pound loss.

"We just get one ride around the sun in this dream of time.
It goes so fast that one day we look back and we ask:
Was that my life?"
Jo dee Messina


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CARTOONB 10/21/2012 11:22PM

    I agree! If you can't enjoy your food, it's not worth it. Congrats!

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HLPRATT 10/21/2012 9:14PM

    Way to go! That's great and enjoying pizza and your family! emoticon

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SLIMLEAF 10/21/2012 7:19PM

    Congratulations, John - that's great!

In contrast, though, I've GAINED over three pounds this week - don't know why, very demoralising, but I've got to face up to it and do something about it.

It's really encouraging to hear of your success this week, though - it shows it IS possible!

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CANDOSUE52 10/21/2012 3:52PM


I really enjoyed your blog and way to go, about your weight loss!

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KELLYPAQ 10/21/2012 12:50PM

    Sharing a meal with your family is truly one of lives little blessings. I'm glad you had enough confidence in yourself and your program to be able to enjoy the moment.

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CRYSTALJEM 10/21/2012 10:09AM

    You are one smart cookie! I applaud your choices And attitude. -3.2 sounds great to me. Enjoy!

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LIFEISPURRFECT 10/21/2012 8:49AM

    Congrats on the weight loss. This is a lifestyle change, every moment to be enjoyed with family and friends.

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ADELE66 10/21/2012 8:38AM

    Pizza with the family and a little self-control - good choice!
Self denial with a lot of resentment and a miserable face at the dinner table - bad choice!


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GOANNA2 10/21/2012 7:34AM

    Good job John.
Congratulations on the weight loss. emoticon emoticon

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 10/20/2012 4:00PM

    Great job! Hope the pizza was tasty!

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DEBRITA01 10/20/2012 3:50PM

    Veggie pizza once in awhile isn't a deal breaker and you spent some quality time with your loved ones. It's all about the LIFEstyle... emoticon

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NASFKAB 10/20/2012 2:37PM

  Congratulations greay hugs way to go

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SHERIO5 10/20/2012 10:50AM

    I think you are totally on track! Remember- this is a lifestyle- a marathon- not a diet or sprint. With that in mind- a few slices of veggie piazza or even cookies - fit in just fine! emoticon

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HDHAWK 10/20/2012 10:50AM

    Congrats on the loss! I think that's the key to this whole lifestyle change thing. We have to have food we enjoy. You can't stay in deprivation mode forever.

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LOSINGVICKI 10/20/2012 10:41AM

  Fantastic on the weight loss John, and also for seeing what was more important when you were with your wife and daughters. I'm proud of you! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Caught In The Act Part Two

Friday, October 19, 2012

I try to limit my blogs to 500 words. I've found as a writer you obey the old adage "You tell someone what time it is, you don't tell them how to build a watch." It's the reason I wish we could all sit around a large virtual table, share a beverage and our thoughts. I don't always get my point across in a clear manner. (I have this compulsion to entertain people. emoticon )

The point I was trying to make yesterday was that in the old days I would have rationalized NOT throwing the cookies away. I would have convinced myself that with people going to bed hungry each night it was my moral duty to eat those cookies. Once they were gone I'd find a reason to buy more, along with cakes, candy and the like. The fact that I drug my sorry butt out of bed at 2 AM to throw them away shows real progress on my part.

I cant have sweets in the house. I simply run amuck when I do. It is, as they say, what it is. It was a huge step towards mindfulness to remove them right then and there along with the fruit slices I didnt tell you about emoticon A grape and a cookie can be sitting side by side and I'll grab the cookie every time, if it's there.

Joan finally spoke on the issue and told me she believed I wanted to get caught or I would have tossed them when she wasnt home.

This is a huge step for me and I wanted to share it with you because I know some of you struggle with the same issues and I want you to know I do to. So do lots of other people. But there is hope!!! If I can hang in there, so can you!!!

There!!! LOL What time is it?


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GOANNA2 10/20/2012 8:38AM

    It is a struggle for me too when I know that there is something
'forbidden' there in the pantry and now I don't buy any sweet stuff.
Mindfulness is important and we have to try and be mindful all the time.
We fall, but we get up and keep going. emoticon emoticon

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ANNE-ELIZ 10/20/2012 1:13AM

    My friends and I were just talking about what a struggle it is to get over that particular piece of programming...those starving children in other countries (they varied over the years) were certainly part of the dialogue in my childhood and in all of theirs.

Thanks for sharing that.


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HLPRATT 10/20/2012 1:05AM

    I find it hard to waste anything. I clean my plate most all the time. And sweets call to me. Until they are gone, I'm not satisfied but I've yet to throw any away. I can relate.

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NASFKAB 10/20/2012 12:08AM

  no trigger foods should stay in the house

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CARTOONB 10/19/2012 11:12PM

    I trigger foods in the house! I believe you that you were throwing them away...want me to talk to Joan for you? LOL!

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REGILIEH 10/19/2012 8:02PM

    Yu ARE the best!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MARITIMER3 10/19/2012 7:39PM

    Good for you! If I throw food away, I do it when DH isn't around because I know he would absolutely have a fit... food isn't thrown away around here... at least not when he's around.

There are things I shouldn't have in the house. The worst temptations for me are chips and other salty foods. DH likes chips, salted nuts, crackers. He "hides" them, but I always know where they are, so it doesn't work. I'm trying very hard to learn to eat a few chips, or a few cashews, but I really wish I could keep them out of the house.

Problem is, I'm an emotional eater, and when something is bothering me, and I know there are chips upstairs, the apples and baby carrots don't seem nearly as interesting.

Keep up the great work, and please keep blogging.

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JENAE954 10/19/2012 6:27PM

  Sounds like your fruit slices and cookies are MY large bag of mixed nuts.
Congrats. Awareness is the first step toward positive changes.

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JLLOVETT 10/19/2012 3:13PM

    Great going!! emoticon

If I can clean my pantry I feel everyone should be able to! emoticon

I went to my brother's house last Saturday and I had to go outside because of all the WONDERFUL things to eat - but I beat temptation emoticon

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LUCYJOY 10/19/2012 2:02PM

    This is why it drives me crazy when parents tell children to eat everything on their plate. Seriously? Shouldn't we encourage them to stop eating if they're full?

I read somewhere once that you can either waste the food or waist it-your choice.

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GIRANIMAL 10/19/2012 1:31PM

    Joan is soooo smart! It's obvious why you too make a powerful team. That's nearly more intelligence and wisdom than the world can handle! emoticon


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CRYSTALJEM 10/19/2012 12:28PM

    Huge step, way to go!

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 10/19/2012 12:17PM

    Great job! I'm proud of you!

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SCHNEBL 10/19/2012 11:22AM

    I am the same way with tortilla chips. If they are in the house I will eat them, regardless if I am hungry or not, especially if there is cheese in the house which can be melted over them! Sweets can stay forver with nary a glance from me. We have a deal at our house. When the last party guest has gone (we entertain alot) then I go to the living room to clear glasses and plates while my honey goes into the kitchen and throws away the tortillas and takes the garbage out. (If the bag is not opened we send it home with whomever brought it or wants it.) Recognizing the pattern is half the battle! Carry on!

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ANDI571 10/19/2012 11:11AM

    I enjoyed your last two blogs. I think as foodies, we are all in the same boat. My husband loves sweets. I have told him I use him. I won't usually get in the car and head down to the store for something, but know if I bring it up he will. He's easy, lol.

I have gotten to the point I can throw away food. I tell myself, how is "not" throwing it away going to help that starving child somewhere. They are still going to go hungry whether I throw it away, or if I eat it. A foodie will always play mind games so we can go in for the kill.

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ONELUCKYSUSAN 10/19/2012 11:06AM

    I understand your accomplishment, John, and I can totally relate. Your act of mindfulness is inspiring and I thank you for setting a good example.

I don't believe you wanted to "get caught"; you were acting in the moment and Joan just happened to walk in. You did nothing wrong and everything right FOR YOU!

Have a fabulous and blessed weekend!

Namaste. emoticon

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DEBRITA01 10/19/2012 10:58AM

    Throwing away or "wasting" food is a fairly new concept to me since SP also. If a food isn't a healthy fuel for the body, the garbage can is where it belongs anyway. Your former blog resonated with me and made me smile. And Joan's comment got me thinking about our need to be punished or caught....something to ponder.

Have a great weekend, John...Namaste emoticon

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TRISTAROSE 10/19/2012 10:30AM

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LOSINGVICKI 10/19/2012 10:24AM

  Small steps make giant leaps!! emoticon
Like you, I can't have sweets in the house. Especially cookies. But I have a hubby that doesn't understand that so he insists on having them and them being center front on our kitchen table. So he makes it difficult for me. But I'm hanging in there. emoticon

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BARB5970 10/19/2012 10:15AM

    Congrats. You've made a positve change. emoticon emoticon

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HDHAWK 10/19/2012 9:41AM

    I fight that battle too. If I spend hard earned money on something I better not throw it away. Same goes for eating in restaurants.

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XANGELSTEARZX 10/19/2012 9:39AM

    I was raised on that adage that if I didn't eat everything I was given some poor kids in a third world country would starve. So taking that step and tossing out the sweets is a huge task and one you should feel pretty accomplished about. emoticon

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