Sunday, September 09, 2012
As cats go Mickey wasn’t with us very long. A little over five years after we rescued him he became listless and wouldn’t eat. He spit up a lot. The vet gave him the once over and closed the door to the examining room. I’ve seen that look before. Over 39 years we’ve had four dogs and four cats. Based on the blood work his determination was Mickey suffered from pancreatic cancer. There was a large mass in his abdomen. Treatment was expensive and had about a ten percent success rate. This type of cancer was extremely rare in cats.
We were shocked and not quite ready to part with Mickey, so we bundled him up, made an appointment to have him euthanized the next morning. We took him home. He slept with us that evening, lying at the foot of the bed, curled up in a ball. I didn’t sleep too well and when my anxiety washed over me, trying to figure out why this poor cat had to suffer I would hear a soft “meow.” Somehow, for some reason I couldn’t explain until today, it soothed me. Lying there in pain; Mickey was sending me a message that it was going to be okay.
This morning at church I thought about Mickey and his soft “meow.” Amidst the choir trying to reach a decibel level not known to man, readers reading, and preachers preaching I closed my eyes, a bit perturbed at all the noise. As I sat there I heard that divine “meow,” so soft and gentle like a rain washing over me. There was a moment of warmth, security and peace and then a bit of a chuckle inside as I saw the voice of God through my long gone cat and again as The Scripture says in the whispering of the wind.
Saturday, September 08, 2012
A strong cold front blew through late last night and so we were able to open the windows this morning for the first time in what seemed like months. I sat in my chair and began my morning meditation period. I try to take ten minutes each morning to open myself to what is present inside of me andto the workings of God within me.
As I relaxed I became aware of a breeze blowing gently across my face and upper body and the thought rolled through my mind that within that breeze lie the breath of God. My inner self smiled a bit. I asked myself how many times I’d shook my fist at heavens and asked God to “show himself!!!”
He’s been there all along, just as the scripture says, in the whispering of the wind.
Thursday, September 06, 2012
My journey towards health has included a really hard look at the things that upset my sense of balance and wholeness. I’m sure you have them too and when we stop and look at them we discover they are the tiny and inconsequential issues, like a penny on a rail track that seem to dislodge our sense of balance and equilibrium.
My sister-in-law posted a comment on Facebook that I disagreed with. As Joan will tell you I’ve never met a discussion I didn’t like. I usually jump in with both feet, as I did with this one. Apparently my sister-in-law took so much issue with my comment that she decided to no longer be my friend on Facebook. I have to admit, it hurt.
I went to the bank to deposit a check shortly after I found out I’d been kicked to the curb, lol. The teller in the drive thru is an old friend. I asked her if she was behaving and she laughed. “I never behave John. I’m the black sheep. You know what that’s like. You’re one yourself.”
What the He** did that mean?
I drive away wondering if there is some cosmic and karmic plot to derail my bliss. But, ahhhhhhhhh, instead of grabbing a cookie or pie or putting on a disguise and slinking down the narrow carbohydrate alley of sin, I took three or four deep breaths smiled inwardly and went on with my day. I nodded a prayer of gratitude to the Divine within me and realized I am one fortunate person………. For a lot of reasons.
The door swings both ways, doesn’t it? Those little things that often send us into a tailspin can also be the things that keep us on course.
Wednesday, September 05, 2012
I was listening to a podcast on gratitude yesterday when the speaker made a suggestion. She challenged us to find a Gratitude Buddy. We’d email this person daily and share one thing we were grateful for in our lives, at that moment. She suggested we do it once a day and that we keep our Gratitude Buddy accountable and vice versa. We could be as brief or as detailed as we like.
I could say “I am grateful for my wife,” or say “I am grateful for my wife because of the wonderful, caring person she is. I’m grateful because she is supportive of all the stuff I do and when she has to be critical she does so as gentle and as loving as possible.”
It causes me to pause for a moment and honor the people and things in my life I am grateful for and to stop and take a deep breath and see what is here, right in front of me. It is part of my awakening.
I just thought I’d share this with you. I’m looking forward to uncovering all my gratitude. What about you?
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
So I was thinking, I know you know that there's the "you" that you know you are - adventurous, good-looking, and fun to be around.
And I know you know that there's another part of "you" in the unseen who you've kind of temporarily forgotten - who completes you, loves you, and knows what's really going on.
Well, how'd you like it if I removed the veils? Just for a second? Gave you a glimpse of who that special, divine, otherworldly essence is, so that you might at last begin to comprehend how extraordinary, sublime, and divine you really are?
The entire Universe
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