Thursday, September 06, 2012
My journey towards health has included a really hard look at the things that upset my sense of balance and wholeness. I’m sure you have them too and when we stop and look at them we discover they are the tiny and inconsequential issues, like a penny on a rail track that seem to dislodge our sense of balance and equilibrium.
My sister-in-law posted a comment on Facebook that I disagreed with. As Joan will tell you I’ve never met a discussion I didn’t like. I usually jump in with both feet, as I did with this one. Apparently my sister-in-law took so much issue with my comment that she decided to no longer be my friend on Facebook. I have to admit, it hurt.
I went to the bank to deposit a check shortly after I found out I’d been kicked to the curb, lol. The teller in the drive thru is an old friend. I asked her if she was behaving and she laughed. “I never behave John. I’m the black sheep. You know what that’s like. You’re one yourself.”
What the He** did that mean?
I drive away wondering if there is some cosmic and karmic plot to derail my bliss. But, ahhhhhhhhh, instead of grabbing a cookie or pie or putting on a disguise and slinking down the narrow carbohydrate alley of sin, I took three or four deep breaths smiled inwardly and went on with my day. I nodded a prayer of gratitude to the Divine within me and realized I am one fortunate person………. For a lot of reasons.
The door swings both ways, doesn’t it? Those little things that often send us into a tailspin can also be the things that keep us on course.
Wednesday, September 05, 2012
I was listening to a podcast on gratitude yesterday when the speaker made a suggestion. She challenged us to find a Gratitude Buddy. We’d email this person daily and share one thing we were grateful for in our lives, at that moment. She suggested we do it once a day and that we keep our Gratitude Buddy accountable and vice versa. We could be as brief or as detailed as we like.
I could say “I am grateful for my wife,” or say “I am grateful for my wife because of the wonderful, caring person she is. I’m grateful because she is supportive of all the stuff I do and when she has to be critical she does so as gentle and as loving as possible.”
It causes me to pause for a moment and honor the people and things in my life I am grateful for and to stop and take a deep breath and see what is here, right in front of me. It is part of my awakening.
I just thought I’d share this with you. I’m looking forward to uncovering all my gratitude. What about you?
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
So I was thinking, I know you know that there's the "you" that you know you are - adventurous, good-looking, and fun to be around.
And I know you know that there's another part of "you" in the unseen who you've kind of temporarily forgotten - who completes you, loves you, and knows what's really going on.
Well, how'd you like it if I removed the veils? Just for a second? Gave you a glimpse of who that special, divine, otherworldly essence is, so that you might at last begin to comprehend how extraordinary, sublime, and divine you really are?
The entire Universe
Sunday, September 02, 2012
I lost another Spark friend the other day. I’ve been there myself. You are ready to hit the “delete” button on your account and find some corner to hide in. You are frustrated, you are ashamed, you are scared and most of all you just do not understand why “this thing,” doesn’t work for you. You tell yourself it is time “for a break,” or “time to move on.” I’ve been there, I’ve done that and I proudly possess the scars, wounds and insecurities to prove it.
I started my journey almost three years ago believing that if I ate right and exercised daily I’d look like a cross between Tom Cruise and Matthew McCounaughey. I lost 80 pounds, looked good, felt good. I worked with a personal trainer ran a few 5K’s and life was good. It was after about 6 months that I hit a plateau. I used all the traditional wisdom and nothing seemed to work. That plateau lasted close to two years. Truth be told I regained all the weight I lost because the only logical explanation for my issues were that I was a goof, up, screw up, sort of guy who wasn’t worthy of health. I pushed myself physically to the point where I incurred two moderate to severe injuries. The downward spiral steepened. My dad died in March and I immediately put on 10 pounds. I was right back to where I started.
Jesus tells the story of the Prodigal Son. There is a passage in the story that sees the father looking at the son returning home, “While he was a long way off.” The son, tired and dejected was coming home; hat in hand to ask forgiveness. The father, miles away leapt for joy. In so many ways I am that son. My head would spin, the scale would groan as much as my back and legs did. I felt eons away not realizing I was millimeters close to finding the right combination.
I wouldn’t give up.
I’d like to tell you it was because a few angels appeared in the corner of my office and showed me the light. Plain and simple, at age 59 I want to live a long time. I lost 6 pounds this week. I didn’t do anything spectacular. I discovered what worked well for John, put blinders on to the rest of the world and showed a bit of success. I exercised 30 minutes each day, I stayed within my calorie limits and I took time to “be present,” at least for ten minutes each day. Tomorrow I’ll write a blog on my September goals.
Today I am going to bask in the glow and joy of success. It was a long time coming. My confidence level is high right now. That’s because after 3 long years I do believe, in my heart, my own mantra, “I am worth all the effort I put into myself.”
Don’t give up dear friend. The road may be steep and long but every now and then there is an oasis of enlightenment that makes this journey worthwhile. As Cat Steven once said “Oh I’m on my way I know I am, somewhere not so far from here……”
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