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Managing My Feelings

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

I am blessed to have good friends. Whether they live up the road or on the other side of the globe they encourage me, poke and prod me, call me out when I need it and generally love and accept me just the way I am. I learn from them. There is never an end to their wisdom and knowledge and because of it I grow. So I wasnít very shocked when one of them made the following pronouncement: ďFeelings are deceptive and over rated!!Ē I settled in expecting a minor rant about insensitive people but instead I walked away with a new perspective on my life and how I view it. My friend went on to say sometimes the only reason an opportunity escapes us is because we change the way we feel about it. Ever get all amped up about a project and suddenly someone says something or does something and your entire perspective changes? You ďrethinkĒ your commitment and ďplay it safe.Ē

A number of years ago I had an opportunity to invest in a startup company that was going to sell things via the internet. The investment was moderate and the business plan looked solid. I happened to mention the opportunity to a friend who told me the person involved in brokering the deal, while a man of strong moral fiber and character, wasnít much of a business person. As a matter of fact he had failed at just about everything heíd attempted. ďBetter be careful, John.Ē That was the warning. I passed up the opportunity. ďA bird in the handÖ.Ē And all those other reassuring phrases. The company struggled at first and then it took off. Itís well known today by just about everyone, even if you never plan on purchasing anything on the internet. I am one of their biggest customers.

The opportunity never changed, only my feelings about it did. I placed faith and credence in someone else and missed an opportunity. Iíve had close to twenty years to think about the ďwhy.Ē Itís really simple: I had little to no faith in my own judgment and acquiesced control of my life to another person. Itís simpler and easier when we can find a feeling to match our indecision. It takes away the personal responsibility.

So moving forward Iíll heed my friends advice as best I can. Sometimes itís not the situation that changes itís the way I feel about it.

Be blessed today

  
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NASFKAB 12/29/2011 4:15AM

  Great as always

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LYNMEINDERS 12/28/2011 11:55PM

    Brilliant point...thankyou....
We so often doubt ourselves and our abilities to achieve.....

Random question.....

Where did you find the info on the books you shared in your video blog yesterday.....Kathy's books....

I went to get one of them today and was told that Veganist hasn't been released as yet????? Fascinating....

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CARTOONB 12/28/2011 9:15PM

    Good point. Excellent blog!

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7356WILMA 12/28/2011 9:11PM

  Negative thoughts can change the way we think about something even ourselves. Thank goodness we can make our own decisions good or bad. And are lucky enough to have friends and family who care about us!!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/28/2011 4:03PM

    It would be nice to be able to see into the future and how things will work out but sometimes you just have to take chance. You try to make informed decisions on what information is available but you have to trust your gut feelings too. Sometimes you will get it wrong. I have found over the years that I often was wrong more from failing to act than from acting. The bold decisions I made often turned out to be my brightest.

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TAMIPCHICAGO 12/28/2011 12:17PM

    That rings so true in so many ways. Sorry you missed out on a great opportunity, but, we all have to learn the hard way sometimes, LOL You really have me curious about what company it is. Was it Amazon.com? That's about 20 years old. If so----OUCH. lol

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RR1_RR1 12/28/2011 12:12PM

    Its true when it gets right down to it, only the individual can be in charge of their own life. I feel this way a lot, like I need advice or to be consoled and it will make me feel better and it does to a certain extent. But in the end, I have to rely on myself and taking control of my own life and decisions and if they are bad, sit with the consequences..

And, I always feel like sitting down to a cup of coffee when I read your blogs- very enlightening.

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KKINNEA 12/28/2011 11:00AM

    Interesting thoughts - I'm going to give this some consideration.

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HDHAWK 12/28/2011 10:22AM

    I can say I've given in to other people's advice too many times. Trust your gut!

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SILLYHP1953 12/28/2011 10:20AM

    So very, very true. Negative comments can throw a wet blanket on me and struggle hard to get out from under it. Even when I do I find my feelings have changed. You've given me new perspective on feelings. Sorry about that opportunity and that you aren't still kicking yourself.

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DDOORN 12/28/2011 10:12AM

    Friends like yours sound so precious! Kudos for "growing" such friendships...not so easy in this day & age of so many competing demands!

Don

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Ahhhhhhhh Those Dreaded Resolutions

Tuesday, December 27, 2011


Looking at change in a new light via Kathy Freston

  
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CARTOONB 1/1/2012 10:13PM

    Lean on, my friend!

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NASFKAB 12/29/2011 4:13AM

  Good

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NASFKAB 12/29/2011 4:13AM

  Good

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SILLYHP1953 12/28/2011 5:33PM

    Leaning into my goals...I like that, I think I can do that, I can do that, I am leaning into my goals. Sometimes it takes me a while to actually write an affirmation in it's proper format. I show up here every day, too, and can't imagine my life without spark in it.

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LYNMEINDERS 12/28/2011 4:07AM

    Just what i needed to hear....
Kathy's books sound great....will look to purchase them and read them....

Thanks heaps....

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AJDOVER1 12/27/2011 9:24PM

    Thanks for this, John. I always wait until my birthday before I make my resolutions -- that's the real New Year for me.

I know you'll find your way to first place by the end of 2012!

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REDSHOES2011 12/27/2011 12:36PM

    Nope, I don't make resolutions.. I keep basic's 1.track the food, 2. exercise and 3. keep working on habits.. All the rest are irrelevant- some goals happen when we work with the first three "basic needs" from the bottom of Maslow Needs Pyramid...
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TERRIPAL1 12/27/2011 10:20AM

    Thanks for being here every day ! Your blog was perfect!
I loved the "rock paper scissors "lol!
You're so right regardless we all learn something!
Thanks again and Happy 2012!

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HDHAWK 12/27/2011 9:45AM

    You hit the nail on the head John. I could consider this year a total failure as far as weight loss and health goes, but like you, I show up here every day. Even when I have months where I gain or maintain I'm learning something and not quitting. I truly hope we can both figure out what we need to to get and stay healthy in the coming year. emoticon

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Practicing The Basics

Thursday, December 22, 2011

ďÖ..But practice it in the quite small things, and then you will find you will do it easily, naturally, lovingly, trustingly, in the big things of life.Ē

My dad has been in and out of the hospital since early September. Heís 88 and my mom is 81. I am 450 miles away and the lionís share of taking care of all the details involved Ė doctorsí visits, rehabilitation, physical therapy, home health care Ė has fallen to my youngest sister. At times this has included transporting my mom to the hospital in the middle of the night when dadís had a setback. She is tired and stressed. In the midst of all this her oldest daughter was married. Iíve been where she is and I know you feel as if the walls are closing in. A lot of what she has to deal with involves phone calls to health providers and the like Ė time consuming.

I have struggled with what I could do to help. The other morning I asked her to make me a list of people she called daily. I have started making those phone calls for her. Itís not a big thing and all told it takes about thirty minutes of my time in the morning. Itís removed a small burden from her.

My sister called yesterday morning. She went to her exercise class for the first time in over a month. She felt great and when I spoke with her last night she said it really made a difference in her day.

Simply put, the basics of life, love and no one really knows how wonderful (lol) I really am. A small thing making a huge difference in someoneís day.

ďÖ..But practice it in the quite small things, and then you will find you will do it easily, naturally, lovingly, trustingly, in the big things of life.Ē

  
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MARCYNA 12/25/2011 8:56AM

    Helping someone in your family sometimes makes a difference, glad you've made it, John!
Merry Xmas!!! emoticon

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/24/2011 3:25PM

    It's so nice that you can help her from that far away. I have been through what she is going through and it's very stressful. I hope your father has a complete recovery soon and many more healthy years.

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GEEMAWEST 12/24/2011 12:11AM

    That is so awesome, John. You have done more than you can ever know for your sister.

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NASFKAB 12/23/2011 4:19AM

  WHAT A THOUGHTFUL THING TO DO SHE IS LUCKY TO HAVE YOU FOR A BROTHER

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LYNMEINDERS 12/22/2011 5:19PM

    Thta is so so true.....
Something to take into 2012 and work on for me.....

Thankyou

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BLACKROSE_222 12/22/2011 11:48AM

    Wow, you and your family have such an amazing bond. I'm thinking of all of you.

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KENDRACARROLL 12/22/2011 11:04AM

    Thirty minutes to you - I bet it feels like 3 hours to your overburdened sister.
You are wonderful indeed :)
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KKINNEA 12/22/2011 10:02AM

    Wonderful, love this.

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SILLYHP1953 12/22/2011 9:29AM

    I'm sure taking over those phone calls helped you as much as your sister. I only hope I never reach a point where a lot of care for me is needed. I wish the very best for you and yours today and all days.
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CARTOONB 12/22/2011 9:26AM

    I'm glad you found a way to help your sister. Sometimes the smallest things do make the biggest difference.

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COCOONGIRL 12/22/2011 8:28AM

    So true...what a loving and kind thing you have done for your sister!! I take care of a lot at home ( I have a sick husband, a teenage son, a son in college and a full time job)...but when someone does even the LITTLEST thing it is SO helpful!! What a kind and loving thing you have done for her! It really does go to show that the smallest of things make a HUGE difference....

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My Two Year Anniversary: Thoughts and The Like

Monday, December 19, 2011

It wasnít until this morning that I realized Iíd been part of Spark for two years. I knew it was in December, just not sure when. So I guess I need to write the obligatory look back/ look ahead and all that other neat stuff.

I began this journey weighing 326 pounds. At one point I was all the way down to 250 pounds and then then everything unraveled. In the spirit of total candor and honesty when the weight started coming back on I freaked. My confidence went in the toilet. I felt ashamed and more than once just thought about deleting my account. I was going to be fat my entire life. There are 1118 reasons I didnít. They are the friends Iíve found here. They are the people who have alternately slapped me and hugged me depending on what Iíve needed. They are the folks who sent a kind word or a Goodie or simply made me laugh hard and forget what I perceived as problems and issues.

I have learned about balance. I learned that no matter how far you run, how fast you run, spin or swim that unless you balance body, mind and spirit, you simply replacing food with exercise as an addiction and as an avoidance mechanism so you donít have to address the issues in your life that derailed you to begin with. Iíve learned that no matter how much karma you pour into it your body is a machine and no machine can push itself forever without breaking down. Donít misunderstand, I believe in a balanced exercise program. I just learned that dragging me out of bed seven days a week at age 58 only gave me back and leg issues.

Iíve suffered a lot of physical pain in the past six months. There are days I could hardly stand up and I only shared this with a few people. I felt totally and completely disconnected from the world around me. I was reminded of something I heard years ago. ďGod creates from nothing and until we are nothing God cannot create.Ē I have seen my physical activity limited to painful walks to the car. I spent money on MRIís, physical therapy, chiropractors, neurologists and the like, only to be told to lose weight and exercise. I looked in the mirror and discovered my pain and my limitations all came from inside of me and that maybe, just maybe if I began getting back to basic activities and started looking for positive outcomes, life would be much better. It is.

I am learning to balance my life and am realizing itís not all about awards, recognitions and the like. Itís about looking deep inside and resurrecting you. Maybe you never really knew you or maybe you just got lost in all the stuff that piles on top of us and makes so terribly unreal. It means balance comes from letting go of people, places and things that gave up on you or took a vacation once you hit a bad patch in your journey. Itís learning to grieve fore that loss, the friends who lost interest when you could no longer, run, jump or cycle to very well.

I have learned it is not about food but my relationship with food and all its come to mean in my life. I learned idolatry is not always an altar with a three headed monster and incense.

Bottom line, if The Spark Dude and all his minions asked me to rate the process after two years, on a scale of one to ten I would have to give it a fifteen. I donít believe Iíd have discovered as much about me as I have.

Long term goals? When I write a year from now I want to be more balanced in my life then I am today. Thatís as good as it gets. Itís a journey and all that rot we pump out but itís also a voyage of discovery that requires an amazing amount of courage. BTW: I have managed to keep off 26.7 pounds in the past two years.

Thank you for being part of my life

ďIím gonna sing till my feet turn blue
Iíll sing loud enough to go through
the mountains to you

Iím gonna dance when the music stops
When soft hearts they canít sit still

Oh wake up the day
Darken the night
Lighten my eyelids cause I donít wanna sleep
While youíre shining so brightĒ
The Wailliní Jennyís

  
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TRACEY5280 1/3/2012 10:35AM

    As usual, well said. Balance is a long journey. The important thing is that you choose to continue the journey.

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CATHERINEL66 1/3/2012 5:41AM

    Happy (belated) 2-year spark-versary. Wow, time went by fast!

Congrats on the weight you've lost. I'm choosing to focus on that piece!

I think the challenges, particularly the health issues, are the stuff life throws our way, always, that we have to cope with. And you're coping, and moving forward. There were days in the last year in particular, where a walk back and forth to the mailbox was a feat. Really. And it made me want to cry, because nope, it wasn't something I was getting a blue ribbon for, but dang, I should have!

I think the important thing is to just keep going. Which you are. And to keep learning during the journey -- which is about WAY more than food / counting calories.

You ROCK buddy, and I'm so glad to have connected with you here!

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SILLYHP1953 12/28/2011 5:40PM

    Balance...that really is it, isn't? So simple, but not easy. I'm glad you've been here two years and glad you plan on staying.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/24/2011 7:32PM

    I hope the next year is the best yet! Congrats on sticking with it and keeping off those pounds.

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NASFKAB 12/23/2011 4:22AM

  YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION GOR ALL

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HDHAWK 12/22/2011 8:16AM

    I'm sure she feels a huge burden has been lifted. The bigger thing may be that she doesn't feel she's in this alone since she's the closest and has to deal with any immediate needs. I'm sure she appreciates your help more than you know.

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MARCYNA 12/22/2011 3:36AM

    Hi John, glad you've made it!!!!
I am really becoming aware exercising can be my new addiction....I wish I could let it go , and stay in shape, but I am afraid it will not happen!!!!
Let's keep on finding our stability & balance!!!!
Hugs,
marcyna

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PINETREEGIRL 12/22/2011 1:11AM

    John, I am glad that you are still here. It always makes a difference to me to see you here. You're a part of my fundamental 'just getting going' friends, and seeing you is very important to me! Congrats on the anniversary! May you have many more to come!
warmth and affection,
Pine Tree Girl

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CARTOONB 12/21/2011 11:06PM

    Happy Anniversary. I'm glad you've stuck around.

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HLPRATT 12/21/2011 11:50AM

    great blog I admire your honesty- Just keep plugging away

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CLOVER2 12/20/2011 2:16AM

    I agree with the consensus here, we would all have missed a wonderful opportunity in getting to "know" you! I always check to see if you've left anything for us, I agree that when we take the time to listen we can learn so much from ourselves and each other.
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LYNMEINDERS 12/19/2011 7:37PM

    Awesome as always.....

Congratulations on your anniversary....thats superb emoticon

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SPARKLISE 12/19/2011 5:48PM

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Cheers to your 2 years and I can't tell you how glad I am you didn't give up on yourself and on us!
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RR1_RR1 12/19/2011 4:04PM

    Awesome- happy anniversary! I love the part about God:) your right too, sometimes its not about overdoing it- everything in moderation...go with the flow and learn from the good and bad! emoticon

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MARYMO22 12/19/2011 3:41PM

    so true - it's an amazing journey with all it's ups and downs.... I too have learned alot about myself - enlightening
thanks for sharing

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IRISHBEANERGAL 12/19/2011 1:50PM

    Life is about the journey not the destination.

Glad you are sharing a virtual path with me.

~Irish

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GETFIT2LIVE 12/19/2011 1:47PM

    John, I too am glad you have stayed; it's not all about the number of pounds lost or the miles run or cycled or whatever else. Those are not nearly as important as the things we learn about ourselves along the way. The times when we are tempted to give up or disappear are the very times we most need to reach out to others and hang on for dear life; we really do need one another.

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GEEMAWEST 12/19/2011 12:48PM

    I am so happy to know you, John. And that wouldn't have been possible if it wasn't for Spark. Let's hang in there together!

Happy Holidays to you and yours, Cheryl

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WORKINGSTIFF 12/19/2011 11:04AM

    Right on, John!

It's been 8 years for me (see my latest blog), and honestly, the greatest part of the journey has been learning about myself, just as you say in your blog.

Take care and know that there are people here who truly care about you and will be there for you on your journey.

Helen

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HAPPYSOUL91 12/19/2011 9:48AM

    Spot on John! If we aren't in balance some part of our life will fall apart and it is the part that always fall apart. Glad to read that your insight has opened up a new world for you.

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TEACHING1ST 12/19/2011 8:29AM

    John, every time I read what's on your mind or in your heart, I learn something more about myself! Thank you for staying with it...you have so much insight to life in general and for that....and your 'virtual' friendship, I'm so thankful!

Christmas blessings and happiness throughout the new year. Balance will come!

Mary

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NASFKAB 12/19/2011 8:24AM

  sO GLAD YOU ARE STILL HERE TO INSPIRE

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GLORY63 12/19/2011 8:18AM

    I think we can all say the same thing about ourselves. Until we look at the reasons why we are doing the things we already know are bad for us, we can only have small victories.

emoticon - here's a little ringing of the bells to a more balanced you in 2012.

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HDHAWK 12/19/2011 8:17AM

    I for one am glad you've stuck around. Sometimes I wonder why I keep my account open when I've managed to do nothing but gain since summer. At least I'm in a holding pattern now. I would miss the friends and support I've made here too much to quit. I know I'll get to a healthy, "balanced" place with nutrition and exercise at some point. It's just taking longer than I'd like. emoticon

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WENDYSPARKS 12/19/2011 7:25AM

    I hope you start to feel better! Stay with Spark and read The Spark Book....it has helped me alot. Wishing you a Merry Christmas! Keep Sparking!

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MUPPETB 12/19/2011 7:20AM

    I'm glad you stayed to continue using Sparkpeople. Especially when you feel most alone, it is so nice to know there are so many people you can turn to. We all have one thing in common..... love of Spark! Keep on with your journey and I know you will continue losing weight and hopefully feeling better every day. Take care. Ann

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Sharing a Bit More Wisdom on Life (Not My Own, LOL)

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

This is from the wisdom of Robert Fulgham

Most of what I really need to know about how to live and what to do, and how to be, I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate school mountain, but there in the sandbox at nursery school.

These are the things I learned:

Share everything.

Play fair.

Don't hit people.

Put things back where you found them.

Clean up your own mess.

Don't take things that aren't yours.

Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody.

Wash your hands before you eat.

Flush.

Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.

Live a balanced life.

Learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work every day some.

Take a nap every afternoon.

When you go out into the world, watch for traffic, hold hands and stick together.

Be aware of wonder.

Remember the little seed in the plastic cup? The roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that. Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the plastic cup -- they all die. So do we.

And then remember the book about Dick and Jane and the first word you learned, the biggest word of all: look.

Everything you need to know is in there somewhere. The Golden Rule and love and basic sanitation. Ecology and politics and sane living.

Think what a better world it would be if we all -- the whole world -- had cookies and milk about 3 o'clock every afternoon and then lay down with our blankets for a nap. Or if we had a basic policy in our nation and other nations to always put things back where we found them and cleaned up our own messes. And it is still true, no matter how old you are, when you go out into the world, it is best to hold hands and stick together.

  
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WALKNLOVE 12/20/2011 5:53AM

    I remember thnis well...It was posted in my classroom whnen I used to teach K4. Thanks for the happy memory you brought to me by posting this reminder.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/16/2011 10:25PM

    Great advice!!

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AJDOVER1 12/15/2011 12:13PM

    very cool. Let's stick together.

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CIVIAV 12/15/2011 8:30AM

    Siesta!

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SPARKLISE 12/15/2011 7:19AM

    I LOVE the idea of a nap in the afternoon.! emoticon
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CARTOONB 12/14/2011 11:13PM

    Too true!

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LYNMEINDERS 12/14/2011 3:55PM

    Thankyou so much for having this and posting it...
I love it....
One of the Graduation speakers at last Saturdays Grad had this as part of his speach and wasn't able to write fast enough....
Thankyou so much

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HDHAWK 12/14/2011 2:47PM

    I wish more of our parent would send their kids to school with these ideals. It seems common sense has gone out the window for many.

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BLACKROSE_222 12/14/2011 2:18PM

    Thanks for sharing!

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ERINBEAR1876 12/14/2011 11:17AM

    I love this list. It was fun to read it!!

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JUNEBUGABEE 12/14/2011 8:34AM

    Wonderful! I work with 1st graders, and these little things are so important for all of us to remember. Thanks for sharing.

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