Saturday, November 08, 2014
Posted April 2013:
I have had a really rough four months this year. One virus after another--cold sores, constant congestion, lock jaw. Upside down work schedule, threat of sequestration for dh and dsil, stress, stress, stress. So now it is close to the end of April and I am staring at the size 14 pants I bought on the weekend. My size 12s are not comfortable so I went out and bought a very nice pair of size 14s. However, I hope that in a few months I will be able to put them away and bring my size 12s out again.
Tell me, can I do this? Can I return to that healthy me of 2008-2010? I know one of the things that happened was that I stopped exercising regularly. So that must come back. I have always been a so-so eater but the exercise compensated. However, I do want to improve my eating habits--more fruits and veggies.
Does this sound like a familiar refrain? I know it does, I KNOW it does. But if I keep trying, maybe I will get over that mountain and see my "happy land" again.
And today, November 8, 2014:
A year and a half later and I am still in the same spot I was at in 2013. Still wearing those size 14s which are not only wearing out but also are feeling a bit snug. Although, my doc said (every the optimist) that the fact that I haven't GAINED much (4 pounds) in that time is a good thing. It means I did stop the slide. Just haven't been able to make progress losing or eating healthily. I am motivated though, really motivated. Today. Last night I ate so much sugar, it was like I was trying to literally kill myself by chocolate. Which I could eventually do given that I have pre diabetes. This morning though I woke up resolved to pull myself back somehow. So I went grocery shopping with the Sparkpeople Diabetes Plan in hand. I modified it somewhat in terms of the "whats" on it but am watching those carbs-fats-proteins mixes on the Plan page. It's going to be really hard for me because I am such an undisciplined eater. But it's got to happen for me because I really don't want to die a slow death. I saw a woman in Fry's this morning being pushed in a wheelchair--both legs gone. She looked to be in her 70s which is only 10 years older than I am.
Anyway, I have made a good start at turning my life around. I have eaten healthily, according to SparkPeople's Diabetes Plan. I have exercised--45 minutes walking the dog (which is start and stop) and 45 minutes with Leslie Sansone (which is go, go, go). I feel like maybe there should be something more I could do but I don't know what it is yet. Hmmm….