Sunday, April 01, 2007
I'm ready to move forward, in my weight efforts, in my school, in my faith.
I will exercise daily 15-45 minutes per day, I will have my milk & fruit servings daily, I will journal everything daily. I will do my homework, I will read my Bible daily, I will seek GOD in everything I do & see.
Heavenly Father, I need you, please give me courage, confidence, and comfort. Thank you for everything you have done and will do for my family, friends and I. Amen
Friday, March 30, 2007
Last as I was going to bed and I felt so sad, while thinking of my son and I wanted so bad just to hug him. I asked GOD why, why can't I just hold him one more time? Then I remembered this little bean bag lizard that my son had given me and it holds a braided piece of his hair. I held it so close and I felt as if I had my son with me for a moment. I could feel his love reaching me as I stroked his braid and knew he was real. THANK YOU GOD for giving me comfort.
One more thing, I had just bought a solar light (blue with a metal angel that encirles the globe) and I set out in the sun on the weekend. Yet it never lit up and I was about to take it back to the store but last night as I made one more check of the house I saw the globe and it was glowing. I felt so good about that. I finally took it to the cemetary this evening for my son.
Well I didn't to Curves today as it was one of those rush rush things and it just got too late. It will probably be the same tomorrow as my car is getting fixed and I am going to be babysitting my grandbaby. If I can find one of my walk-away-the-pounds CDs then I can probably do that.
Well I am off for my beauty rest.
Blessings to all who read this
mom to Angel RILEY
Thursday, March 29, 2007
I stepped on the scale the other day and it said 273! not I know that couldn't be true, but my thoughts turned YES! I could happen. So I know things are not impossible I can and will get down that weight, I will make one of my short term goals, so 273 here I come.................... :)
(My scale sits by the dog food and someone had spilled some near it and a couple pieces got stuck under my scale which made it read that.)
Sunday, March 25, 2007
As each day passes, I am seeing the hope that my Lord, has given and I am ready to live forward.
I am doing my best to not let myself fall in to dispair as their are many who need my help. I know I must get my body in the best possible shape so that I can do what is required of me.
My goals this week are to attend Curves 3 times, walk 3 times and eat less carbs. I will journal my food, and daily life in paper journal for now. I will seek out those who may need me, and go where GOD tells me. I will read his word daily, to feed my soul.
GOD please give my guidance, comfort and confidence as I begin this new week. Thank you, Father, Amen.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Take a pill!
I wish all of life were that easy. Take a pill to be
Happy, energized, motivated, not sad, not hungry.
BUT it's not.
I did take a pill to help me sleep last night, and I do feel a little better today. BUT, my sadness still threatens to overcome me, and I don't know what to do to get thru it. I miss my son so very much and yet I feel comfort in knowing he is in Heaven so why can't I live forward, why can't I feel happiness?
Yesterday I felt if GOD was ready to take me I would go. But, that was not to be, no matter how much I was willing. I do want to stay here and live to see my gandson grow up, but there is no hope or joy to be found in my life except to see the baby . I know my husband is also feeling so much sadness.
GOD if your there, please lift us of this dispair and bring back that joy, happiness and love to my family, we need you in every part of our life. Amen
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