Thursday, November 16, 2006
DAY Thursday DATE November 16, 2006
Today’s weather…Sunny, mild/warm
Today’s News…Tsunami, hit parts of California, 6ft wave
Today’s Events…My last class for ECI 330
Today I feel…Some stress, for not getting in all my home work
I am grateful for…My Family, My GOD, My VA school money
Spiritually I…Am needing prayer, and keeping the faith that GOD is with me
People in my thoughts today…My prayer buddy Colleen, Baby Darius
Magical moments (comfort, peace, and love)…Seeing Baby Darius sleep and knowing he is real
Donations of the heart (acts of kindness, sharing, caring & forgiveness)…Watching the baby so his mom can have a few more hours of sleep.
For a better tomorrow. (Goals, ideas, etc)…Pay back those kind people who have helped me in my time of need
Reflections/Notes I am so bad at procrastinating
Thursday, November 09, 2006
All this week many random memories of my son keep flooding my thoughts. It's a good thing but last night, the reality that he is not here hurt so bad that I cried all the way home from class. I miss my son, my RILEY.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS, BABY BOI!
For my weigh in on Tuesday at TOPS, I gained 3/4 of a pound but I kinda figured that since I was eating out most of last week while at the hospital. I am hoping to stay the same for next weeks weigh in as this week is pretty much the same with the eating and not having time to exercise. I am doing my best to make better choices but sometimes same ole gets old.
Anyway we will be out of town by tomorrow so will see how it goes.
You all have a Blessed weekend with your famlies
mom to Angel RILEY
Monday, November 06, 2006
I am starting back to my routine of exercising as I had missed 6 days in a row and am feeling kinda swollen. I guess all that stress, anxiety, anticipation is gone now and I can begin again.
My emotions are so jumbled though, and I am doing my best to be happy, content and prideful. BUT my grief, my saddeness of not having my son RILEY here is great. It's enought that I am dreaming of him often and am always at points of needing to protect him. I am grateful for the dreams to see my son, those make me happy too.
I only have two weeks of school and I am doing my best to catch up, but I don't know if my teachers will cooperative. I am praying about this. As for my healthy eating, I know I need to be consistant in it and not eat what is most handy (takeout). I will try to make the best choices if it comes to that.
Again, I want to say thank you for your comments, and messeges, they are much appreciated.
mom to Angel RILEY
Friday, November 03, 2006
Please meet my grandson, Darius
Born, Wednesday November 1, 2006 at 11:06pm
Weighing 8 lbs 4 oz and 19" long
You can see him on my Photo Gallery
It has been a Blessed week and I thank GOD for all that he has done for me and my family. I thank you all, my friends who have kept us in prayer. Many blessings to you all.
mom to Angel RILEY
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Today is again one of those hard times. I miss my baby so very very much, that my whole being hurts. I want him home, but yet to think that would mean taking him away from something good and that thought hurts even worse. WHY GOD, does it have to hurt?
With Halloween just a couple days away, makes me sad that my son won't be here to enjoy this Kids holiday. But, for his friends and family will we celebrate it. Today we are finally going to get some candy, make our scarecrow, and carve the pumpkins that our friends have given us.
I am trying so hard not to eat unconciously but still I get hungry and find the quickest thing, or nearest which is not always good. In a few days it will be payday then I can plan my meals and buy the stuff for it. I think also just getting past Halloween will be relief for my stress too.
I guess also being in a financial strain is making me more stressed, that I worry constantly but again just a couple more days then we will be ok. It's not like we are starving or have no shelter, or gas for the car, it's just the what ifs that can come up that got me worried.
Oh GOD if your there now is the time I need you the most. Amen
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