Friday, March 12, 2010
Well, we did it, we said yes to taking this little girl into our home, our lives. It's gonna take a few days to get things going but we are so excited. I do truly believe that this is a part of GODs plan, especially after today's events.
Today we said goodbye, to our beloved "Kip" our son's best friend. This young man (26) came into our lives when his dear mom and dad adopted him and moved to this small town. We watched as our son's grew up together and when they became young men each going separate ways building their own families and facing adult difficulties Yet, they were still able to come to each others aid when needed and I'm thankful for that wonderful opportunity to be a part of his life.
We have faced this painful tragedy ourselves, when our beloved RILEY journeyed to Heaven. Although we will never understand why, we do accept that GOD had a plan and that these events are a part of it. We just need to keep our faith in GOD and trust him.
Sparkfriends I thank you for your prayers, I know GOD listens, be blessed
Kip and his 2 daughters
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Wow! so much can happen in a few days time.
Yesterday we were asked by the social services if we would take in another foster child, this time a much younger child. This two year-old is literally homeless, not wanted by her mother and her extended family. Our home would be here third move since she was born, and the social services is wanting her placed permanently (guardianship).
Our home is ready, and this is what we wanted, to foster children. But this is permanently and I question my ability, am I ready? Can I open my heart to love someone else's child until they are eighteen? I know we have done this already with my step-graughter, but she came when she was 6, but this little girl is just a baby yet. YES! I know we can, I do feel this a part of GODs plan, this little girl is also family to my nephews children (same Mother just different fathers).
This mother is just a baby maker and has never had custody of any of her children, I think she has 8 total, but two were twins with one who died just weeks after birth. I know GOD will deal with her on His terms and I have no right to judge.
So please, if you can pray for us that if this is GOD's will and plan for that things will work out and that I have faith and courage to accept this. Thank you spark friends :)
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
I know now that things are not all to be understood, so I give GOD my questions, thoughts, and concerns. He knows my thoughts before I even say them, and I trust him completely to help me through each day.
I thank you all for your comments and prayers, please know that I am so thankful for each of you and that you all keep me from falling into deeper depression. You all are Heaven sent, so be blessed my sparkfamily.
Sunday, March 07, 2010
My faith has been shaken so many times, and I don't want to take it anymore.
First in 1999, my mom, Annabelle, the most wonderful woman in this community, was taken to Heaven in a car accident, with my only sister-in-law, Neva. Then a few years later my grandmother Helen, which made me feel so lost that I felt I had lost all connections to my heritage. Then my only brother, Thomas, who was the eldest of my siblings. Then my son, my sweet angel RILEY, my youngest child who was supposed to be with us for many more years.
There have been many others, very close friends of our family, Kip, Susie, Matthew, Robert, Johnny, Deane, Cleave, and Orlando. They were just like family, and all of them so loved and missed, it just hurts to know that we have to live on without them.
It seems just when I am ready to move on to life, something tragic happens and my heart is again torn, weighed down with such sadness, that there is real physical hurt. My family tries to hold me up, or lift this darkness from me, and I love them for trying to help. Maybe it's true you have to hit bottom before things get better.
Don't worry bottom does not mean drinking or drugging to me. It is a point of needing GOD desperately, and only He can help me from this darkness of my soul. I call upon him now to help me through this dark time, to give me peace, strength and understanding. "Please LORD I need you now". Amen
Saturday, March 06, 2010
GOD, why, why does our family have to face such tragedies? Please be with my oldest son Santeo as he and his friends face the sadness of losing their friend. Amen
Rest In Peace, Kip Proper
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