Thursday, March 04, 2010
I cried . . . .just before I went to sleep. I guess I had been holding onto those tears all day yesterday and when I was ready, awake alone, I felt them fall and I couldn't stop. I did not moan or sob, just gentle tears rolling continuous down my cheeks and the ache of my heart that will be there for awhile. (Until I see my son RILEY again)
I was listening to my playlist of Inspirational music and just imagining what my son sees in Heaven was so, so, heart wrenching. I want so much to there with him, and yet knowing that my place is here makes it hard to get up to another day.
But I did, My last memory before sleep over came me, was praying that GOD would get me through this and will reveal his will for me soon. Although the day is late now I feel I can come here and just write, about what? I don't know.
I do want to thank you all for your comments, for your hugs and for being my friends.
I think I've lost my groove, my momemtum for exercise. No, maybe just for today. I mean I will get back to it, it's just I need today to recollect, rejuvenate, to pause. I will be back tomorrow, so have a great evening with your families sparkfriends.