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My addiction

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Ok so I did it again, I went and gambled money that we really didn't have and now my family is so upset, that they won't even talk to me. (Hence the dog house) But why is when "mom" does the unwanted it is such a bad evil thing and yet what about their pasts mistakes? To me theirs were worse but did I hate them or even condem them forever? No, but anyway I didn't lose any money, in fact I brought home all that I used, and just to spite them and me, I gave back the money and my cut up debit card..............Maybe that wasn't the right thing to do but it sure did feel good to get that of my shoulders. Nows I will only have whatever money they give me, that includes my pay check on Friday. I will probably keep about $40 for the next two weeks for my lunch ticket. Anyway I know it is a bad habit, but to me it was therapy, some place I could go and not worry about home or work, and today I need it. I mean i was so angry and stressed that I almost walked out on work, I mean I was so frustrated that I even cried. But does my family understand this? Not. Oh well I am praying that things at work and home will be better tomorrow, I mean it can only get better. (I have faith).

  
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FLUTTERBY32 6/12/2009 10:44PM

    My prayers are with you on this difficult issue. I hope that you and your family will renew lines of communication, and that you can hear them and they can hear you. Family is so important, and you need their support...I hope you can find a way to relieve your stresses and that work gets better. Through God you can find peace.

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GODZDESIGN95 6/11/2009 8:17PM

    Call on jesus he can break any addiction. He is a way maker and he frees all who are bound. Just call on him when you want to go and gamble. Something innocent and turn on a dime.....
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TERIE93 6/11/2009 2:54PM

    I think your family is justified in being disappointed in you. Aren't you kind of disappointed in you? I don't want to heap condemnation on you, you don't need me for that. I think that if you consider what the Lord would have us do with our money and other much more healthy ways of blowing off steam you would realize that it wasn't the healthiest choice for you-whether you won or lost money, it is our relationship with God and our family that suffers when we fall short of what Christ has for us. Can you think of other, healthier ways of dealing with stress? Written with much love aand compassison. : ) your sister, teri

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TRACYZABELLE 6/11/2009 5:37AM

    Instead of them getting mad at you, they need to ask if they can maybe go with you to a gamblers anonymous meeting. All of these addictions are all so harmful to us and we need to take them on one at a time. You can do it Joanne I know you can! emoticon

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NEWCARL 6/11/2009 3:09AM

    Excuse me JoeAnne (sp),
I have never replied to your blog before but I do understand addictions from living with an addict (drugs). Your family does love you but the disappointment they get from your addiction just goes on and on and on. Whether you cut up your debit cards or hid them is not going to really stop you from gambling if you really want to go. If you realize that you have the habit or addiction then you will have to want to do something about and really mean it.

Just think, if your family didn't show emotion, would they really care? Understand it from their vantage point if you want them to understand your side. I too will pray for you because I believe that it works. PEACE N BLESSINGS

CARL

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NEVERFORGET911 6/11/2009 12:36AM

    Sorry. I don't know if I agree. I really doubt your family is unhappy because you went gambling and didn't lose any money. They are probably unhappy because you went gambling and have lost money in the past. And probably lots of it.

A "regular" gambler coming back from gambling and expecting their family to be happy because they didn't lose money is kinda like a heroin addict shooting himself up and locking himself in a room. He doesn't do anyone any harm except for the feeding of his own addiction and that, in turn, hurts everyone.

You see, THAT'S why they are not fine with what you did. Feeding a destructive addiction is something they don't want for you. Today you lost nothing. In a few days, you lose $20. In a week, you lose $50. In 2 weeks, they lose you.

Your family sees this as a self-destructing escape. That's probably why they do not see it as a good thing. It's not because you might lose money, it's because they might lose YOU.

PLEASE don't let that happen.

I'll say a prayer for you and your family tonight. God bless all of you.

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MYSHERO 6/11/2009 12:09AM

    Aww, Joe. I'm sorry you had a bad time of it. You should be able to blow off steam when necessary even if that means gambling alittle. At least you didn't blow the house budget. Things will get better and I am proud of you for not emotional eating.


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For today

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

O Lord GOD, you are the one who holds my future and sees my tomorrows. I thank You for allowing me to leave the details to You so that I can simply say yes to Your request that I follow You. Amen

  
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PEPPERLEAH 6/10/2009 3:59PM

    Wonderful.

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STACEYSTAR 6/10/2009 3:22PM

    Amen!

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NELLIEC 6/10/2009 1:23PM

    It is very comforting to know that whatever challenges we may have, that God is there to help us every step of the way!

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NELLIEC 6/10/2009 1:23PM

    It is very comforting to know that whatever challenges we may have, that God is there to help us every step of the way!

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MOV4WARD 6/10/2009 11:40AM

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SJACQUITA 6/10/2009 9:31AM

    AMEN!!! I needed that!!! Thanks for sharing. Peace and blessings, Kita

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1/2 day failure

Monday, June 08, 2009

Oops what was supposed to be good turned out half bad. An unexpected stay at home and my clean eating was way off, with carbs and fats, but now that it's all gone I am ready to make the rest of the day positive.

  
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SJACQUITA 6/9/2009 8:08AM

    Wonderful mindset!!! Peace and blessings, Kita

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TRACYZABELLE 6/9/2009 5:54AM

    See you never say the day is shot because of a slip up, you done good!

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QUEENLATIFA 6/9/2009 1:23AM

    Everyone seems to agree, you are right on track here! Good way to look at the day. Keep your goals in sight and you will be all right! emoticon

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JANRTEACH 6/8/2009 8:47PM

    That's the spirit. Don't waste energy over the small things.

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2BLEAN_N_FIT_AZ 6/8/2009 6:14PM

    Keep thinking positive that it is a half day positive...always think positive...
and tomorrow will be even a better day...

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CORPEEGIRL1 6/8/2009 6:02PM

    And you will make it positive!! Way to catch it and turn it around emoticon

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Not to difficult

Friday, June 05, 2009

O Lord GOD, Help me to choose life by faithfully following Your commands as I walk in Your ways and love You with all my heart, mind, spirit and strength, Amen

  
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MOV4WARD 6/6/2009 3:27PM

    Amen emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NELLIEC 6/6/2009 1:30PM

    Amen!

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Not beyond our reach

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

That is the title of my FP4H bible study for the week (actually 4 weeks ago, got behind) The scripture is Deuteronomy 30:11 "Now what I am commanding of you today is not too difficult for you or beyond your reach" How true this is, but I sabotage myself by using excuses. Todays title was family obligations (the study is found in Luke 9) I know this is a problem for me especially in my exercise time. I know now it is not really a good excuse and I am trying daily to get in at least 15 minutes of any type of exercise. I know that following Jesus' command is not difficult and that it is a commitment I can do. So here I go to follow my Saviors command that I care for this body He gave me.

  
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NELLIEC 6/4/2009 2:45PM

    I know when I get that feeling of "the faster I go, the behinder I get" that it is time to think carefully about what is really important.

May God bless you!!!

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KENNESAWGIRL733 6/4/2009 10:58AM

    the more I affirm that I CAN DO something, the more likely I am to DO IT!

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REVEBEV 6/4/2009 10:27AM

    That scripture verse is so timely! It's about TODAY. God wants to give us our daily bread... which for us... is our daily resolve, ability and will do do HIS will. You go girl!!! He's got your back!

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TERIE93 6/4/2009 9:56AM

    Go girl, I try to be a good steward of all that the Lord has blessed us with. I overlooked the wonderful body and good health for years, but now we are on track-right? : ) teri

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JANRTEACH 6/4/2009 9:02AM

    Just knowing something is hard for us sometimes makes it easier to do. I always try to do the hard stuff first. Nice post.

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MARIADALE 6/4/2009 8:15AM

    Believe that you can and you will!

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ERNURSERN 6/4/2009 8:11AM

    wonderful!! NOTHING is beyond your reach....YOU GO GIRL....exercise today..no matter what get moving!! You can do this!!! emoticon

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ANGORA4 6/4/2009 1:14AM

    Great post, thanks for sharing.


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