Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Ok so I did it again, I went and gambled money that we really didn't have and now my family is so upset, that they won't even talk to me. (Hence the dog house) But why is when "mom" does the unwanted it is such a bad evil thing and yet what about their pasts mistakes? To me theirs were worse but did I hate them or even condem them forever? No, but anyway I didn't lose any money, in fact I brought home all that I used, and just to spite them and me, I gave back the money and my cut up debit card..............Maybe that wasn't the right thing to do but it sure did feel good to get that of my shoulders. Nows I will only have whatever money they give me, that includes my pay check on Friday. I will probably keep about $40 for the next two weeks for my lunch ticket. Anyway I know it is a bad habit, but to me it was therapy, some place I could go and not worry about home or work, and today I need it. I mean i was so angry and stressed that I almost walked out on work, I mean I was so frustrated that I even cried. But does my family understand this? Not. Oh well I am praying that things at work and home will be better tomorrow, I mean it can only get better. (I have faith).