Thursday, October 12, 2006
Today we got some information about my son's estate. Now I feel so bad, this was his money, he should be here to enjoy it. Knowing he can't be here to be a part of it hurts so bad.
I would exhange it all just to have him back. But is that selfish? I know it is, because my son would be in pain if he were here, his asthma was really taking a toll on him and that is one thing I would NOTwant, and that is for my baby to have to SUFFER.
Oh RILEY, I miss you so much baby.
GOD if your there I need such comfort now, and tell me how to get through, this time.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Tonight's class increased my passion to be a teacher. As I have the most inspiring instructor who believes in me and my potential.
Before I go into a classroom I want to be knowledgeable in as much of the subject areas as I can. I want to be able to give my futures the best. My instructor again encourage me not to give up my dream, and that is to obtain a doctorate.
This was my dream before my son journeyed to Heaven, so he knew also what I wanted, in fact the 5 months previous, GOD provided me the opportunity to be in a classroom. Not just any room but my son's where I was able to have lasting memories of us together. THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER.
Now I come to realization that I need that same passion to help me get to where I should be. Commitment is my bad, I start strong but end up weak after a few weeks. But with a sentance hanging over me (the insulin thing) then it is not going to be failure it is going to be the one thing to make me JUST DO IT.
I am ready............here we go.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
If anyone is interested in the Christian based weight loss & bible stufy of the FIRST PLACE program, you can find information here.
It is an internet based program where there is a wonderful group of christian women, and the fellowship is great. There are group programs at mostly Baptist churches throughout the U.S., but just so you know it is not specific to Baptist only.
I had just started the Bible study with them (online) when, my son journeyed to Heaven so I know GOD had led me to that place when I would need it most. The group that I am in is BAQ, Begin Again Quicker for those who need to lose 100+ or more.
Tomorrow starts the first week of the Bible study and I am so excited to get going. Also as I had mentioned before the program uses the Diatery Food exchanges but if you want to use WW or a different one that is ok too.
Well I am off to bed, as I have much homework to catch up on tomorrow, and then a presentation also tomorrow night.
GODs love and Blessins to you all.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
I want to say thanks to all those who have commented, and posted to the threads. I know I am in need of support, so I will be back here often, and I hope someday I can help you all as well.
Today, I had a relaxing time just being with family and watching movies, but when that carb craving hit, I was bad. I had popcorn, and snowball cakes, and that led to pizza for dinner.
I know already that I will have swelling tomorrow, I can just feel it. I think I'll go to be early so I won't be tempted anymore. I think I'll make some sugar free jello to so if I want snack tomorrow then I will at least have that.
Anyway thats it for me.
Goodnight and GOD bless
Friday, October 06, 2006
I want to thank ya'll for adding me as friend :) I will do my best to give you support and encouragement.
Today has kinda been an off day, in everything and I think it's because of the rain. I love the rain but it changed most of my plans for this morning. Anyway I will be in better control of my eating or at least get on track.
If doesn't raint this evening, I am hoping ot get in a 20 minute walk.
Thats it for now, see ya'll lighter
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