Sunday, May 18, 2014
Without going all Must-Be-Perfect OCD Crazy about it, I did pretty well yesterday, my new Day 1. I kept my calories under 1550, allowed myself a couple treats but didn't snack the night away (!!), and worked out.
I feel like the story of the day is sort of... good/bad. I did this, but I meant to do this... I meant to run, but my son wanted to play tennis, so I did that instead. Not as good a workout, but a workout nonetheless AND got in some good, quality time with this boy I love so much. Maybe that's the lesson on not being SO OCD. It shouldn't be stick to this plan NO MATTER WHAT. Compromise. Find a middle ground.
Lunch was not the healthiest food, but we were guests at a barbecue, so... well sometimes you just have to roll with it. If I were being all OCD about it, I probably would have eaten something else for lunch. And for sure not had the brownie, but, well, I'm trying to find the balance.
My proud moment of the day was surviving the evening without snacking. We had a nice dinner (turkey breast and asparagus). When the busy-ness of the day was done and I sat down to watch a little TV, I was sorely tempted to make a smoothie. Not an unhealthy choice, but I had already maxed out my calories. So I made a cup of herbal tea instead. HURRAH!
So there you have it. Moderation. Progress.
Saturday, May 17, 2014
I'm still struggling to get back on track. I'll do okay for a day or two, or PART of a day.... It's evening when I go overboard. I'm pretty down about the whole thing, to tell you the truth. But beating myself up about it isn't going to help.
The one good thing in all of this is I am spending more time with my family. We have dinner together and then typically spend the evening together. (I've largely abandoned my evening workouts = LOTS of evening family time!!)
I keep saying this, and I know it is true: I need to find a balance. There has to be time to work out AND have family time. Truthfully, it's not like we're having quality family time 4 hours every evening. Surely I can take one hour to work out and still have 3 hours with my family!
The trouble is when I don't work out, I am generally just watching TV at night and snacking.
I want to say that we're busier lately with end-of-school-year activities. There is some of that. But truthfully I'm just not prioritizing working out. I've gotten really lazy about it.
So my weight is creeping up. Up down up down.
I was okay with a little jump up because I think honestly I was eating too light toward the end of Biggest Loser. That was not sustainable. So gaining a few pounds was okay. Then 5. Ok, no big deal... I can lose it again. Then I started getting closer to 130 again, and I don't want to let that happen!
It is time to break this lazy streak.
It's time to refocus on running.
It's time to set a new amazing goal. All things must align in order to achieve a new awesome goal. Sticking to a running routine and nourishing my body to enable me to run farther, faster.
I know I CAN do it.
So this morning, I'm doing what I do. I'm coming up with a plan and looking at my calendar for the coming week. When will I work out? I know we have a few commitments next week, but there is ALWAYS time to squeeze in a run. NO EXCUSES.
And then the other side of this. The evening snacking. It's like my brain just blanks out and I don't care. Oh what's another night of overeating?! Well, it's 7 pounds. I think, honestly, when I resume running regularly and working toward my new running goal, I will not want to blow a good run by snacking the night away.
This is my new plan.
Get my weight back down. Gradually.
Get back to running 3 days a week.
Keep my calories under 1500.
I know I can do it. So.... just do it!!!!!
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
Real quick... I meant to blog yesterday but didn't get to it. My first day back on track went really well. I managed to keep calories low (1250) and walked 35 minutes. I had a couple small Easter treats (hello middle ground!), but didn't go hog wild.
I'm happy with that.
Sunday, April 20, 2014
So…………….. after my amazing dedication throughout most of January, February, March, and the first five days of April, culminating in a loss of 15 pounds and my 3rd place finish in the Biggest Loser Challenge…………… I have spent the past 15 days stuffing my face with all manner of foods. In massive quantities. Lots. Of. Food. And not so much exercise.
So. It has reached a point of THIS MUST STOP. I know I've gained a few pounds, and I was really okay with that, just to let myself eat “like a normal person” again. But I didn't intend for this to go on for 15 days. A few days and then back on track -- find that elusive middle ground I've never been good at. I’m still looking for it.
I've made a few attempts at getting back to reasonable eating. Not the super restrictive nor the all-out pigfest. Obviously neither one is going to work long term! But then I slipped back into eating whatever the heck sounded good. There’s this mentality of depriving myself of so many things for so long that now I want to EAT again.
BUT I've learned something really cool. All those things I didn't eat while I was super dedicated, and now I've allowed myself to enjoy, I’m not enjoying them as much as I thought I would. I mean, it’s good. but the flavor isn't even as good as I remember. And in some cases I have felt just sick and stuffed after eating. I don't want to feel that way. I love a treat now and then, but honestly I think I was enjoying them more when I was eating lighter overall, and then I’d have a single bite of ice cream (or whatever) and really savor it. And then not feel like a colossal whale afterward.
Last week I realized I let the overindulgence go too far and go on too long. But -- excuses, excuses -- I also knew I wasn't going to do a very good job reigning it in this weekend with a family birthday and with us hosting Easter. How dumb is that? I totally reigned it in for other birthdays and other holidays. I was just making excuses.
That ends now. I am back to tracking and training tomorrow.
Saturday, April 12, 2014
A week has passed since our Biggest Loser Challenge ended, and let me tell you I've been enjoying eating a bit more this week. Honestly, a LOT more! LOL
Initially I thought I'd give myself a few days "off" and then get back to light eating. But I kinda scrapped that idea. I've been "off" all week. I'm up a few pounds. And I'm NOT sweating it! I didn't even track food last weekend. Now I have been tracking since Monday, and I'm over every day, but keeping an eye on it, at least. Last night we went out for fish at this place in town that has the BEST fish. The portions are HUGE. I wanted to split the dinner with my hubby, but he was starving and wanted his own, so I ate what I wanted and got a box for the rest.
I'm still working out. I even took my runs outside and had my fastest time ever. I'm happy about that.
I was going to do a local 5k today, but it's raining. So I'll run on the treadmill later. Not a fan of running in the rain...
So I'll get back on track here eventually. Just giving myself a breather from the obsession!
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