Sunday, April 20, 2014
So…………….. after my amazing dedication throughout most of January, February, March, and the first five days of April, culminating in a loss of 15 pounds and my 3rd place finish in the Biggest Loser Challenge…………… I have spent the past 15 days stuffing my face with all manner of foods. In massive quantities. Lots. Of. Food. And not so much exercise.
So. It has reached a point of THIS MUST STOP. I know I've gained a few pounds, and I was really okay with that, just to let myself eat “like a normal person” again. But I didn't intend for this to go on for 15 days. A few days and then back on track -- find that elusive middle ground I've never been good at. I’m still looking for it.
I've made a few attempts at getting back to reasonable eating. Not the super restrictive nor the all-out pigfest. Obviously neither one is going to work long term! But then I slipped back into eating whatever the heck sounded good. There’s this mentality of depriving myself of so many things for so long that now I want to EAT again.
BUT I've learned something really cool. All those things I didn't eat while I was super dedicated, and now I've allowed myself to enjoy, I’m not enjoying them as much as I thought I would. I mean, it’s good. but the flavor isn't even as good as I remember. And in some cases I have felt just sick and stuffed after eating. I don't want to feel that way. I love a treat now and then, but honestly I think I was enjoying them more when I was eating lighter overall, and then I’d have a single bite of ice cream (or whatever) and really savor it. And then not feel like a colossal whale afterward.
Last week I realized I let the overindulgence go too far and go on too long. But -- excuses, excuses -- I also knew I wasn't going to do a very good job reigning it in this weekend with a family birthday and with us hosting Easter. How dumb is that? I totally reigned it in for other birthdays and other holidays. I was just making excuses.
That ends now. I am back to tracking and training tomorrow.
Saturday, April 12, 2014
A week has passed since our Biggest Loser Challenge ended, and let me tell you I've been enjoying eating a bit more this week. Honestly, a LOT more! LOL
Initially I thought I'd give myself a few days "off" and then get back to light eating. But I kinda scrapped that idea. I've been "off" all week. I'm up a few pounds. And I'm NOT sweating it! I didn't even track food last weekend. Now I have been tracking since Monday, and I'm over every day, but keeping an eye on it, at least. Last night we went out for fish at this place in town that has the BEST fish. The portions are HUGE. I wanted to split the dinner with my hubby, but he was starving and wanted his own, so I ate what I wanted and got a box for the rest.
I'm still working out. I even took my runs outside and had my fastest time ever. I'm happy about that.
I was going to do a local 5k today, but it's raining. So I'll run on the treadmill later. Not a fan of running in the rain...
So I'll get back on track here eventually. Just giving myself a breather from the obsession!
Saturday, April 05, 2014
Today is the grand finale for our Biggest Loser Challenge. I came in third, and I'm thrilled with that! I couldn't have beaten the two guys ahead of me.
This last week has been tough. I did a good job eating and exercising throughout most of the challenge, with a couple slips along the way. Especially toward the end, I was super dedicated. OCD. So much so that honestly I was burning out this past week and fantasizing about what I was going to eat when this challenge is done!
I've been thinking a lot about what I've learned and accomplished and what I want to do going forward. I thought it would be helpful to write it all out, before I shove massive quantities of food into my pie hole.
1. I can stick to a workout plan. I enjoy it! Many nights I went to the Y and felt soooo good about my workout and the slight improvements I saw over time. I felt like I was being smart about it, varying my workouts, increasing gradually, stretching... I'm really happy with my progress there.
2. There is such a thing as too much working out. Granted, the dedicated workouts I was doing earned me good weight loss results. But as time went on, I started feeling bad about neglecting my family. My husband was doing most of the evening meal preparation and chauffeuring the boys around. I tried to at least be present during meal time with the family, even though I usually didn't eat what they were eating. We'd at least sit down together, and then I would go the Y and eat my small dinner when I got home. I thought about trying to rearrange my schedule and work out at a different time of day so I could still have family time at night, and, well, that just didn't work for me. I also thought about trying to turn workouts into a family thing so that could be our family time, but my family is not on board with that. I'm hoping to make that happen a little more often now that the weather is warming up and we can walk/bike/etc. outside. But for myself, I also intend to cut back on my workouts -- the duration and the frequency. I guess we'll see going forward if I can maintain my weight loss with this plan. I just know that spending 1-2 hours at the gym every night is not sustainable while we have kids living at home. Maybe in my empty nest years, but not now!
3. Food, glorious food. I love food. But I CAN eat light. I learned that I CAN do this and feel satisfied and not starving or deprived. Well, I can for awhile. Like I said, this past week, I think I reached a point of like OMG I just want to eat some big naughty thing and NOT obsess about the calories. Just get that mental monkey off my back and feel free from all this obsessing! So.... how this works out to MAINTENANCE MODE remains to be seen. I don't see me sticking to a 1200-calorie diet every day for the rest of my life. I want to indulge now and then, and I think that's okay. If you eat light most of the time, but have a piggish day now and then, you're not going to gain 10 pounds overnight. It's when you start slipping into old habits and letting that piggish day turn into 2-3-4-5-10-20 piggish days and the pants are getting tight....... This is going to be the biggest challenge for me!
4. A contest like this is a great motivator, but I need to keep in mind the BIGGER goal. Was I working so hard to lose weight to win a friggen contest or to get myself in better shape for the long haul?! Of course it's the latter, but I honestly did have thoughts of "I'm gonna eat _____ and _____ and _____ when this is done." I had to stop myself and remember that throwing it all out the window when the challenge is over would TOTALLY defeat the purpose. It's not a temporary diet!
A certain level of OCD, I believe, is almost essential for weight loss. But for me, I know I need to lighten up a bit on the obsessing. I don't think it's good for me, and I think it's probably annoying to people around me (LOL). Not that I comment on what other people eat. But pretty much everyone I hang with knows I'm working hard on losing weight. I'll talk about it if they ask, but I don't in general anymore. Oddly, people do ask me a lot... maybe now that the Biggest Loser Challenge is over, the questions and comments will stop.
So, when it's all said and done, I lost 10.91% from January 1 through April 5. 15 pounds! Some people said, "You don't need to lose any more!" But I did this for me cause *I* felt like I needed to lose more. (I actually would still like to lose 2.5 pounds to get down to 120 and lose some more belly fat... if that's possible after having kids?!?!).
Today, after all those thoughts of "I'm going to eat _____" when this is over, I had a 3-egg no-cheese omelet for breakfast (no cheese in the house??? :( and am still stuffed 3 hours later. That was a treat and also a good lesson -- eating light FEELS GOOD. Eating more than your body needs FEELS BAD. I need to remember that!
Well I do believe I rambled on long enough. If you actually read all this, jeez I should give out prizes! Thanks for all the supportive comments along the way. I credit Sparkpeople with helping me reach my goals.
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Monday, March 31, 2014
I've been doing great and am working hard on achieving my goals. We've also been super busy as a family -- lots of activities going on with our kiddos.
Last week in our Biggest Loser Challenge, I went from 5th place to 2nd. Our final weigh-in is this coming Saturday. I sure would like to be in the top 3!
This week I'll stay very focused on eating light and working out a lot in an effort to lose as much as possible. My goal is still 4.5 pounds away.
So here's my funny story for the day. My family got together yesterday for Mom's birthday. My brother-in-law commented on my weight loss. He said, "I can really tell in your neck." Ugh. I shot back, "DID I HAVE A FAT NECK?" My mom heard this conversation and added helpfully, "As we age, our necks do become more wrinkly." So there you have it... the downside of losing weight and aging.
Monday, March 17, 2014
I dropped another half pound (down to 125.5 now), which surprised me because I was closer to my max in calories yesterday. We had guests over and I had a small serving of lasagna, a big salad, and a light beer. I figured the sodium in the lasagna, if nothing else, might bump up my weight, but nope.
I also had a bad run yesterday. It was supposed to be a speed run, but I had an awful side-ache and had to walk for most of it. I haven't had side-ache issues for YEARS, so I'm not sure what the heck happened there. Oh well, I'll try to get my speed run in tonight instead.
Happy St. Patrick's Day!
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