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Monday, November 17, 2014

Ah, November. I started the month with GREAT ambition. I was SUPER dedicated the first week. And then..................

I got lazy? I felt run-down. I suspected my iron was low again. I started slacking. And eating. I had a bad week.

I tried running a few times and it just didn't go well. LOW energy. Sideache. Short runs.

Did I mention I have a 5K scheduled for this Saturday? Egads. That will be interesting!

Anyhoo............ I'm not panicking. Yes, I'm back up a few pounds and am NOT happy about this. But I know what I need to do. No sense getting down about it and beating myself up about it. Just EAT better and stick to the workouts. As we've seen again and again, the weight drops off easily in the beginning and that's very motivating.

And so........... we begin again.


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BROOKLYN_BORN 11/20/2014 6:57AM

    A 5K this Saturday? Yes, go for it. It will be a good benchmark to determine exactly where you are.

You may not remember, but I wrote a blog about you once. I wasn't ready for a scheduled 5k and you wrote how you were going to get out there and do one that you weren't really ready for. So I got out there too and did mine.

I've got a 10k on Saturday - twice the distance of my comfort zone and it's COLD here in VA.

Good luck Saturday.

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KNYAGENYA 11/18/2014 7:59AM

    You can do this. You are stronger than you think.

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JACKIEWALKS4FUN 11/17/2014 6:50PM

    Hello my friend, yes you do know what to do and you can do it. I know you can. Eat better and feel better for the race emoticon emoticon YOU CAN!!

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JSPIN74 11/17/2014 9:39AM

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Just Like Starting Over

Tuesday, November 04, 2014

I gained 12 pounds. It seemed like every bit I gained since last April's low point went largely unnoticed. I still felt good and my clothes fit. And then, gradually, I felt quite fat again. My pants are tight, and those few pounds that seemed oh so easy to lose again became a whopping 12 pounds.

I had to buy new pants.

I'm not okay with this.

I was sick of tracking food. I thought I could eat reasonably and track the exercise -- focus on my running plan. Surely 3 years of tracking food has taught me enough that I can eat right without plugging it in OCD-style day after day after day. I would like to get to that point, but apparently I am NOT there yet.

Realizing that this pattern needs to change, I re-started tracking food. OCD, I'm back! I put my workouts in the calendar so there IS time for them.

I'm on day 4, and I'm already down a wee bit. Instead of 12 pounds, I'm at 9. (I love how weight drops off quickly in the beginning.)

I'm in the honeymoon phase of eating light. Oh so disciplined. Not remotely tempted. Remembering how it felt to buy pants the next size up helps. More importantly, it helps to remember how it feels to try on the pants that fit me last April and now look ridiculously tight. I should keep trying them on every week, just to keep that fresh in my mind. It's so motivating!

So I begin again with HUGE goals and HUGE expectations of myself. That seems to work for me much better than the middle ground, which is SOOOOO elusive for me. I'm all or nothing, black or white. So I gained 12 pounds in 6 months and am going to see if I can lose a whole lot of that this month. (Don't worry, I'm not starving or working out 3 hours a day. Just eating on the low end of my range and working out 30-90 minutes a day.)

I re-started toning again too, after dropping that like a hot potato months ago. Back when I was really dedicated, I did 5 minutes of planks every day. It got to a point where I thought they really weren't doing much for me anymore because they weren't hard anymore. I did 5 minutes of planks 3 days ago and have been in agony the last 2 days. I can't laugh, cough, or sneeze without feeling every muscle in my midsection. Gee, I guess planks work, and, go figure, I was actually TONED before!

So there's my true confession. I'm back, I'm dedicated, I'm eating right and working out and DOGGONIT am going to lose 9 more pounds!

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BROOKLYN_BORN 11/20/2014 6:52AM

    I just saw your name in my friend feed. I'm glad to see you again. I understand how those pounds can creep up. That's why I can NEVER go by how my clothes fit. There's just too much "give" in today's fabrics and before you know it you've gained double digits.

The good news is that getting back to Spark will get rid of those double digits.

My plan is to stay here forever. I don't always track my food anymore, but I do weigh myself daily. That keeps me honest. I understand fluctuation. Fluctuation means up AND down. If there's only up, up, up, then I start tracking again and using my food scale. I suffer from portion distortion.

Hang in there. I look forward to following your progress.

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KALIGIRL 11/4/2014 8:26PM

    Sounds like an excellent plan to me!

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JACKIEWALKS4FUN 11/4/2014 1:28PM

    Glad to see you back. You got a plan and know what to do.
I remember gaining 9 pounds, I do the jeans test if they get tight I am in trouble. I don't like to weigh myself too much because it became a obsession, but I do every now and than.
Also not were my sweats all the time, put on my jeans, been doing ok. Anyway glad to see you. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JSPIN74 11/4/2014 9:54AM

    emoticon You got this!

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Conquering Fear

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Yesterday I had the thing at work that I was totally dreading. I taught an online class. I've never done anything like this and pretty much NEVER EVER EVER do public speaking. I can get pretty tongue-tied. Deer in headlights.

But I agreed to do this when I was asked two months ago. And I thought, "This is so good for me!" Ha... Yes, I knew it would be good for me career-wise and personal-growth-wise if it went well. If not... well, let's not go there.

So I prepared. A lot. I actually felt pretty good about the whole thing until I did a run-through with a colleague. I wanted some practice and any suggestions for improvement. However, this guy gave me so many suggestions on everything I was saying and doing that it really rattled my confidence. I had to step back and realize that he was trying to be helpful. He's just a real "take charge" kind of person who loves to hear himself talk. I took some of his suggestions and left the rest. It wasn't like I had time to go back to the drawing board. It was my presentation, after all, and it had to flow naturally for me.

So, long story short, I did the class yesterday, and it went just fine. Once I got into it, I got over that heightened fear sensation and was able to just talk through the whole thing naturally. This is HUGE for me. I have a history of panic attacks, so being able to overcome that and function like a normal person makes me SOOOOOO HAPPY!

We have part 2 of the class today, and I know it will be just fine now. Remember that part in Harry Potter where he is able to cast a Patronus because he knew that he already had? He saw himself do it when he had time-traveled back, and he thought it was his dad, but really it was himself. That says so much to me about the importance of confidence. If you believe that you can, you can.

To be honest, trying to build my confidence back up, I reminded myself that I never thought I could run either. And I proved that I could do it. Running has been such a confidence builder for me!!

Ok, that's all for now. I just had to share my success story with you. Thanks for your supportive comments and positive vibes! I really appreciate them!

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KALIGIRL 6/20/2014 8:30AM

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KNYAGENYA 6/20/2014 7:52AM

    I knew you could do it!

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INGMARIE 6/19/2014 2:09PM

    emoticon emoticon congrats.

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JACKIE542 6/19/2014 11:11AM

    So happy for you, good job emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Middle of June Already?!

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Summer is way too short! With our cold start to summer and school getting out so late, it is just now starting to feel like summer. I tell ya what, I'm taking a day or two off as soon as I get this class done. I feel like I need to kick back and enjoy the great outdoors.

Last night I went for a long, fast walk and found a little stray dog along the way. I stopped and tried to find the owner, and contemplated keeping the little dog myself -- he was a little sweetie! Eventually the owner drove up -- she was frantically searching for him. He didn't have a collar or tags. The topic of getting a second dog keeps coming up around here. Maybe.....

Today is a stretch and strengthen day for me, according to the half marathon training plan I'm following. On my last S&S day, I didn't do a whole lot -- maybe 20 minutes. So I'm thinking I need to come up with something a little more rigorous.

Happy Tuesday!

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SAFARIBABE 6/18/2014 11:14AM

    I just read an article about strength training for runners. Here's the link.

As for stretching, I've become a total foam roller fanatic. If you haven't tried it, it works wonders on the IT band.

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KALIGIRL 6/18/2014 8:31AM

    Here's to kicking back and enjoying the summer!

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KNYAGENYA 6/18/2014 7:40AM

    Sounds great!

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JACKIE542 6/17/2014 10:09PM

    Always nice to take time to smell he roses, you deserve time to kick back.

Glad you tried to help the little dog, you are a sweetie, nice the owner came along. I am forever taking dogs home always happy when they have tags.
Happy Tuesday to you too emoticon emoticon

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INGMARIE 6/17/2014 4:12PM

    Aw glad she found her dog, you should surely get another one emoticon
Take some time off sounds great, I am retired so I am always off
(one way or another) so my break is : I am going to work 3 days next week

Have a great day.

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Day 3: Happy

Monday, June 16, 2014

I'm happy to report that I stuck with my goals yesterday!

I ran 3 miles. It was windy and humid, and so my pace was slower. I listen to RunKeeper updates while I run, so I knew my pace was slower than it felt. I tried to push a little harder, but somehow couldn't get much faster. I'm not used to running outside, in heat, so I'm assuming that's what was slowing me down.

By the end of the day I was at 1506 calories! I was so excited about that, because I didn't feel deprived or hungry. Then my husband and son got home from being gone all day, and he made a late supper. Hamburgers. I'm not a big meat eater. He's been experimenting with adding all kinds of flavor to hamburgers lately -- really spicing them up. And boy, did they smell good! So when my son offered me the last few bites of his burger (he was full), I didn't resist. Yum! And that put me over in calories by 20 again. Oh well.

My weight is down 2.5 from the high a few days ago. Thank God. I never ever ever wanted to see 130 again. Jee I guess I have to actually DO something about that other than want it. Eat right. Exercise. Yup yup yup.

The other "news" I should probably just get out of my system is that I have a thing coming up at work that I am absolutely dreading. Let's be honest. When the opportunity came up to teach an online class, I said yes, despite the fact that I have never done anything like this and I have a massive performance anxiety issues. I thought, "This will be good for me!" etc... And it will... if it goes well :) I have 2 more days to practice and prepare.

Any advice or encouragement about overcoming fears and faking confidence would be much appreciated!!

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KALIGIRL 6/17/2014 8:19AM

    You'll do emoticon and emoticon on emoticon

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SAFARIBABE 6/16/2014 5:24PM

    I've done a lot of teaching for work. And over the years I've become very comfortable speaking before an audience of people I know. A few years ago, I was asked to speak at a national conference. I was scared to death. These would all be strangers and some of them might know more about the topic than I did. What I learned was 1) Be prepared. If you know your topic you'll be fine and will be able to handle any question forwarded to you. 2) Do not overprepare! You don't want to come off wooden as though you memorized everything you wanted to say verbatim. 3) Noone throws objects at the speakers. I've attended a lot of regional and national conferences and never saw a single tomato thrown at a speaker. 4) Be yourself! Pretend like you're talking to one person instead of 10, 20, 100, whatever.

Good luck with your lecture!! emoticon

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JACKIE542 6/16/2014 2:16PM

    Hot weather always makes me slow, but I am slow, so the fact that you are out there is a big plus. Good job on just eating a few bites of that burger, my son makes some really great ones too.
I think you will do well on your online class, I use to worry too, but it sure sounds like you are prepared, so don't worry, be happy. emoticon

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KNYAGENYA 6/16/2014 10:47AM

    I'm a big fan of fake it until you make it. You know your stuff...there is nothing to worry about.

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