Monday, April 20, 2009
I cannot walk!
I am training for Ski to Sea, a multi-sport relay race over Memorial Day weekend.
I have to climb up the north face of Mt Baker, and snowboard down.
So....I thought I'd go train and run stairs on Friday. I ran a set of 104 stairs 15 times, it was exhausting and I had jelly legs by the end, but little did I know the full impact of my training activities.
I haven't been able to walk since Saturday, I am SO SORE, my calves and quads are killing me! I sit at my desk at work, and once in a while hobble to the bathroom or to get some water, my co-workers are laughing at me!
But...it's all worth it because if I wasn't sore, then I didn't work hard enough!
Friday, April 10, 2009
I remember the days....before exercise became one of the most important parts of my life. I had always been a rather sedentary person. I was never into sports in school, or any kind of physical activity for that matter. In highschool, I started putting on the pounds and didn't stop. I yo-yo'd through diets for years, and years, and.....YEARS! Exercise was never a part of my diet routine. I was lazy, unhealthy, my job was extremely stressful so I'd grab fast food on my way home, sit on the couch in front of the TV and down a few beers. I was always exhausted, I didn't even have enough energy to go out with my friends. I was sick a lot, my immune system was in the tank, and I would get a cold every month or two. ENOUGH!!!
18 months ago some life changes brought me closer to family, and a job change made life a bit less stressful. My sister talked me into meeting her at the gym after work 3 days a week. What was I thinking???? Oh my goodness, I hated those workouts! They were hard, and they hurt, and they were boring, and I watched the clock and waited for the minutes to tick by so I could get off that darn elliptical!! The ONLY reason why I kept going was because I knew my sister would be there waiting for me. Sometimes we would do kickboxing workouts on DVD at home and I would curse out the instructor on the TV through the whole video. Man alive, my body was mad at me, it sure didn't like all this new activity it was being put through.
Then....one day....it felt good!?!?!?! About 6 weeks into this forced workout routine, I actually felt GOOD!!! Where did that come from? What was this new feeling? Everyone had always said to me over the years "exercise feels so good" and I never had any idea what in the world they were talking about, I thought they were NUTS! But, it actually felt good to me, for the first time in my life I had more energy after a workout than I did when I started. Little by little, slowly but surely, exercise began to creep it's way into my lifestyle, into my needs. It continued to become easier, I started doing different activities, I bought a bike, I started running, I learned to snowboard. My life completely and totally changed for the better. I have become a new person. I am happier, healthier, and more motivated than I have ever been in my life. My sister moved away, but I found 2 friends who became my workout buddies and they still are today. We email on Monday mornings and plan our workout schedule for the week, we usually workout 5-6 days a week. Exercise has become an essential part of my life. I cannot do life without it. It is a huge stress reliever, it gives me tons of energy, and it is the best form of anti-depressant you can find!
On top of all that, Exercise is the only thing that keeps me eating healthy as well. Who knew?? I didn't worry too much about my diet when I first started working out. I felt like the exercise was difficult enough without trying to figure out a diet as well. Amazingly, as I continued to exercise, I found that my eating habits started to change. I felt better about myself, so I was more conscious about what I was putting in my body. Believe me, I still struggle with food, it is a continual battle for me. However, I do know that if I am not exercising, the food battle is a lost one!
What worked for me?
1. Start with exercise, and don't worry about dieting.
2. Establish an exercise routine without the stress of a "diet" on top of it.
3. Commit to stick with it through the pain, exhaustion and boredom for at least 6-8 weeks, it WILL start to feel good. I promise!
4. Let healthy eating habits stem from the exercise. As you start to feel better from exercise, you're going to be more motivated to put better things into your body.
5. Don't give up, keep at it, this isn't a short term thing. It is a huge change to your life as you know it today.
Friday, April 10, 2009
This sort of feels like a 12 step class. Snackers Anonymous. One day at a time!
Success # 1 - I am writing in my blog for the 2nd day in a row! Of all the times I've promised myself to blog about my successes and oopses, I've never made it past day one. So, here's day 2.
Success # 2 - I have avoided the snack monster for 3 days now, and when I make it through today that will be 4! I'm starting a streak, and I don't want to break it!
Success # 3 - I started school yesterday, on top of a full time job, and even though the day was completely packed I still found 25 minutes before class to do some kickboxing to get my exercise in, and I found that I had way more energy afterward and was able to pay better attention in class.
Revelation: When I track every single thing that I'm eating, I have less of a desire to snack and eat sweets. When I know I have to fess up to it and see how it impacts my daily calories, the desire for that thing goes right out the window. Unfortunately, as soon as I stop tracking my food, all my resolve goes right out the window and I'm back to dumping in the extra calories.
Anyway, I'm in the middle of day 3 and I'm feeling really good again and I'm starting to recognize the reasons why it feels so good to treat my body right and not polute it with extra sugar and fatty calories. I even went to lunch with friends today, made really good choices, had them modify my chicken burger for me and when I entered it all in my tracker it was just about 500 calories for lunch, and I ate the whole thing! Perfect!
I had so much energy yesterday I was able to make it through a full day of work, a meeting after work, and a 2.5 hour math class last night!!
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Here I am again, almost a year away from Spark, and attempting to get back on the bandwagon. One success, I did not gain any weight over the last 10 months, and I have continued exercising regularly Woo Hoo!! However, I have not yet met my weight loss goal so it's time to get started again!!
My issues are with food....food....food. I have conquered the exercise monster, I love it, I exercise 5+ days a week, I am definitely in shape and have 3 races that I am training for this summer. I don't know how I can be so in shape, but still be 30 lbs overweight!! But no matter how much I exercise, and burn calories, if I'm dumping tons of calories in it doesn't do me any good and I sit at the same weight.
"I just NEED something..." salty, or sweet, or crunchy, or chocolate, or bread, or chips...I love cookies, and I'll eat 3 at a time, or 4 or 5. Candy and ice cream is my major downfall, I crave sugar all day long!! I definitely utilize food to cover up for other emotions that I'm having. When I am stressed I just "NEED" a bag of M&M's, when I'm upset I just "NEED" a cheeseburger, when I'm bored a big plate of nachos seems to be the ultimate cure. That is ridiculous! Those foods will not solve the problem, or make me feel better, in fact I just end up feeling yucky afterwards.
So, I'm going to write about it, write about the times when I "NEED" some type of food that isn't good for me, and then what I did, either succumbed or succeeded. I think facing the food head on, facing the emotion, will help me identify my triggers and why in the world I felt like I needed that hot fudge sundae!!
I'm going back to school, taking a math class at the community college here in town. This week was the first week of classes. I haven't taken a math class in 12 years! I have a bit of a learning curve. So, as I'm sitting at the table last night trying to figure out my algebra problems, I couldn't stop thinking about how badly I wanted ice cream or cookies, I got up 3 times and walked towards the kitchen. I was stressed out about the math, so I wanted food! I talked myself out of it, made myself a decaf coffee with some sugar free vanilla flavoring, and got back to work on my math. I made it through yesterday, and went to bed feeling good about myself, and not overstuffed with sugar, and slept better than I have in over a month. One day down...
Here I go!
Friday, June 13, 2008
Well....here it is, the cold, hard, truth! I screwed up, I failed, I fell down, I JUMPED off of the band wagon. I am in a new relationship, and completely happy, but for some reason it has sparked a crazy pattern of eating, I don't know where it came from. I have been inhaling every kind of food in sight for the last 3 weeks. Even eating more food when I'm still uncomfortably full from the last food I ate. My exercise routine has gone down the drain. I've put on 4 lbs and I'm tired of feeling guilty about it.
Here's another truth...all of those words are in the past-tense. They are not part of me today! Those things may have happened, but today, in this moment, I am not a failure or a screw-up! Over the last 10 months I have learned to conquer my emotional eating patterns, and I will do it again!!
Through this weight loss journey I have discovered a new person inside of me that I did not know existed, and I refuse to lose her! I believe that if it weren't for the changes I have made in my life, I would never have met this amazing guy that has come into my life. Now I have a new challenge....learning to continue the healthy habits in my life even after life changes occur, new relationships, new job, moving etc. I am working to identify the triggers so I can be aware of them and work through them until life evens out into a more even pace again.
Through all of this, I know the most important truths:
I am beautiful, I am strong, and I am ME!!
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