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Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Well I have really screwed up these past few months. On the 23rd of September I weighed in at 228.8 and today I am at 239.8. That is 11 pounds. I am not happy. I have been so stressed out and depressed over family matters lately that I have been eating any junk food I can get my hands on. I have been miserable and lashing out. I need to get myself under control and stop letting my youngest daughter get under my skin because of her actions. I have to believe in me and get back on track. I found myself putting Christmas decorations away that I had gotten out last week to put outside. I found myself sitting in a chair crying and feeling sick of what she has done with her selfishness. I am to blame as well as I let her do this to me. My granddaughter came into the room and asked me why I was putting things away. I told her I had lost the Christmas spirit. She gave me a big hug and kiss and told me we would look for it together. I LOVE HER SOOO MUCH. We got other decorations out and started putting them up. I can do this and I will believe in myself and move on past this.

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JUST VENTING

Monday, October 22, 2012

Just Venting. I have really screwed up. I am back up to 236.2 pounds. I was 228.4 on September 24,2012. I have put on 8 pounds in a matter of just over 3 weeks. I allowed myself to get stressed out and snacked hear and there. Now I'm paying for it. I new better but did it anyway in a minute of weakness. My granddaughter started Junior Roller Derby on Sunday. So getting her outfitted for it was a nightmare. This age group is new and there was only one place to get the stuff. Found that out after going to five stores and it was the last. Then go out and get her a costume and accessories to wear was another nightmare. It cost over $650.00. Thank goodness $500.00 was paid for me or she wouldn't have been doing her dream of 3 years. I am not going to let this stop me. I am going to start today and continue to loose for me. I can do this. Thank You for letting me vent. She needed roller boots, extra wheels for outdoors, wrist protectors, knee pads, elbow pads, mouth guard, extra shoelaces, helmet, gloves (fancy lace). fishnet stockings, panties, dress, loob for wheels, tool for wheels and socks.

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NEGATIVITY TO POSITIVITY

Friday, June 29, 2012

Started this month off at 233.8 lbs. and now it is the 29th of June and I am 233.2. That is only .06 lbs. I am not happy with that but I will take it and better it next month. I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP. I HAVE TO LEARN TO BLOCK PEOPLES NEGATIVITY OUT AND ONLY CONCENTRATE ON THE POSITIVE. I HAVE TO LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH TO MOVE ON AND UP TO A BETTER, HEALTHIER LIFE. I CAN, I WILL AND I AM GOING TO SUCCEED. YYYEEESSS. I started my journey at the end of January 2012 at 252.2 lbs and am now 233.2 lbs. That is a 19 lb loss. I know I can do better.

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FRUSTRATED

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Well I started this Month off good and then get totally stressed out over my grandchildren that I started screwing up. I am gaining instead of loosing. NOT GOOD I have to turn this mess around for me and my health. I know I can do it and I am confident that I can. Since June 2 I have put on 3.4 lbs instead of taking it off. Feeling yucky and blotted with the whole gain. Need to feel good about myself again and I will.

SABATOGED

Saturday, May 05, 2012

Well I blew it. I was too rushed and feeling rough, so instead of making a healthy meal I bought pizza. Well that pizza lasted for two days. I am ashammed of myself . but I am not going to let this defeat me. I am going to continue on my journey of getting to my goal weight. I will conquer any obstacles when I come to them and not let them defeat me.
(1) I WILL SUCCEED
(2) I WILL MOVE ON
(3) I WILL MAKE IT TO MY GOAL WEIGHT ONE DAY AT A TIME
(4) I AM A SURVIVOR

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