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Thursday, September 27, 2012

I wasn't hungry - I had lunch with an old friend today. We had a long conversation to catch up on stuff and some of the stuff I had experienced was painful and caused me great anxiety. Talking about it left its residue it seems. After we parted ways, I went to Trader Joes to buy some coffee and see if the peanut butter I had bought was a recalled jar. It wasn't they told me so happily off I went to buy my coffee. While on that isle, I perused the cookies, looking here looking there. Oh, this only has 1.5 grams of fat and you can eat 17 pieces and it's only 23 carbs, etc. On and on I went considering which I would buy.

And then it struck me-this is a trigger food-if I start to eat this ( mindless) food, I probably couldn't or wouldn't stop myself. I recently started SparkPeople and I'm very successful with this program so far. But, I don't do well with success, I have to mess with it.

I'm am so tired of messing with any and all accomplishments that it might be a sign!

I did not walk away with those cookies, I think that is a SIGN. I'm getting a little stronger. emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 9/27/2012 8:38PM

    The title of your blog caught my eye. :)

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DEBBYNATION 9/27/2012 8:38PM

    Yeah u stayed on track! :)

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I felt like eating last night

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Yesterday I had gone thru a learning curve with some computer information I was gathering. It feels so over my head most of the time. Well I made it through and got to the other side after researching and going into stores and talking to geniuses and technicians on the phone which was something. So now I'm relaxing and I'm wanting food. I'm wanting food the way I do when I want to over eat. I went to the kitchen and looked at food, all types and then realized-I didn't want to eat anything. Old habits, they die very hard. emoticon

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NEPTUNE1939 9/26/2012 6:57PM

    Yes old habits do die hard; my primary goal is to make healthy food choices become common place. God bless your progress, Earl

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Working through depression

Monday, September 24, 2012

I had horrible depression this whole week-end up until a little while ago today. I thought that I had to do something that I did not have to do. I finally confronted someone involved that put my fears to complete rest. Why I'm blogging is because this was one of those rare times that I couldn't eat. The other side to that is - so far, in the past, I wouldn't have been able to stop myself from binging.

So really, SparkPeople give me the space to vent, all I want and I do use it. Then my hugh problem goes away (bye huge problem) and I'm not left with such horrible feelings of remorse and self-loathing from my compulsive over-eating disease.

Thank you SparkPeople, you have saved the day and so did I by reading blogs and blogging myself. emoticon



Sunday, September 23, 2012

First off I just did a blog that I really felt good about and then I failed to post it, by accident! Story of stuff I do. Anyways, I felt like a failure - I ate wayyyyyyy too many calories yesterday when we went to the movies and then out to dinner.

The good thing - I posted those calories - the bad thing - my weight jumped up immediately to what it was when I started SparkPeople about a week ago.

You get the picture-My husband and I are doing SparkPeople together. We took goodies to the show and measured out the amounts. I took extra for my friend that went-she didn't want them-I did, and I ate them.

Then I looked up popcorn and how much we could eat, if we choose too, and we choose too. I'm not done yet, then we decided to go out to dinner, which I had not counted on. All my good decisions kinda flew out the window-open window-watch them fly out-I ordered (taking responsibily here) sweet potatoes fries (oh no you didn't) oh yes, in a restaurant. Well the damage to me is if I took a loan out and have to pay it back, with interest because I just lost that week and I don't know how quickly I will be able to recover.

I've got to say that I'm right back here blogging and entering consumed food - and looking at my disease. I need to have respect for something that can and well get me everytime if given the opportunity. emoticon


I'm on a wonderful journey

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

I'm on a peaceful journey toward my goals. This week so far and I've lost a little bit more than a pound and a half. I'm feeling secure at least right now. If I conjure up anything I'll try and deal with it before it deals with me.

All my life I've had this war with food and my emotions. Sparks People is the first place that I've ever seen break down all the necessary barriers that I need to accomplish my goal-to lose weight before it kills me, in a couple of different ways.

I have everything to live for and I'm a fighter. Thank you Spark People for being a part of my forces.

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ARNETTELEE 9/18/2012 2:42PM

  You go go go ....

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