Friday, July 09, 2010
I broke this blog up into three seperate sections due to the length that it ended up being.
Iíve had several people ask me to blog about my journey, with a few specific thoughts in mind, I will attempt to address the following thoughts:
1. WHY did I do what Iíve done
2. WHAT did I do to get here
3. How am I going to maintain
Please forgive me, this is longer than I wanted, but I felt it was necessary to get all this information included in this blog.
Why did I decide to take my health back (AKA lose weight)
Allow me to back up few years if you will. I did not grow up heavy, I was quite the opposite. I was not an athlete in school, although I did wrestle for a number of years, I was more of a band geek. Proud to say that too! I was always fit growing up also. Iíve spent more hours on a football field than most would care to think about. Iíve traveled the world Ďmaking music with my friendsí, as I marched in various marching bands and Drum Corps. I was always fit, firm and muscular due to the activities I was involved in. I got married at 21 and taught Band for several years. Both my wife and I were active with my teaching, always moving, always active; therefore the fitness was fairly good into my last 20ís. I changed careers in 1998 and got a desk job, thatís when things started to change for me. I love what I do, donít get me wrong, but sitting behind a desk got easier and easier. It also got easier to sit on my chair at home and do nothing. Obviously as time moved forward, I didnít move and I slowly grew to my top weight of 264lbs without even realizing it!
I suppose that is the underlying reason that Iíve changed my life, are my wife and daughters. My wife deserves a husband who is willing and able to help out around the house. I believe she deserves a husband that she can be proud of, a husband who can come home from work and have the energy necessary to help with dinner, kids, activities, etc. My daughters deserve a Daddy who doesnít sit in my chair asleep all the time. They deserve a daddy who has energy to play with them, get on the floor and wrestle, tickle, and not be a grump all the time. As my kids grow and become more active, I want to be able to keep up with them.
Selfishly though, I did made this decision for me. I knew I wasnít healthy!! I couldnít walk up a small flight of stairs without being winded, I had no energy and I made poor eating choices most of the time. I did not like having my picture taken, but the picture that hung on the break room wall at work scared me I think (blue shirt pic). My swollen face and swollen eyes were not a pretty site to see! I hadnít been to the doctor for a physical in a number of years because I was scared of that they might say or what I might find out. So with all that said, that brings up the question of: WHY NOW Jerome?? Why at the ripe ole age of 40 did I decide to take my life back?? Why, when I knew it was going to take so much discipline, so much work would I make a life changing decision. I knew I would have to give up (or cut back drastically) on some of my favorite things in life like: Dr. Pepper, ice cream and Mexican Food!!
I have been asked these questions a number of times and I always say the same things, ďI got tired of being fatĒ, ďI wanted to be here for my familyĒ, ďIím scared to go to the Dr.Ē. I know thatís a generic answer, but itís really the truth. I suppose my vanity can be blamed too, I didnít like that I saw when I looked in the mirror. I hadnít liked that for several years, just didnít have any desire to do anything about it. That just begs another question to be answered: why the desire now? I simply canít come up with a better answer than what Iíve already stated, my family deserved a better husband and father AND I got tired of being fat. Those are the two biggest reasons I can think of after several weeks worth of pondering.