Thursday, November 20, 2008
Hi Goonies. I could really use some prayers.
Many of you prayed for my mother when she had a freak accident and busted both of her legs. I so appreciate those prayers; she is still disabled but getting better everyday. I have been caring for her since September. I am a full time student who teaches for the university; they pay for my tuition and give me a small stipend, but it is barely enough to survive on. Now, I am supporting my mom because she is unable to work. And my sister is currently unemployed and can't help. I have applied for another part time job at the University, but I haven't heard back.
In addition to worrying about paying the house bills and medical expenses, I now have a crisis at school. Most of my professors have been incredibly understanding about giving me extra time with assignments this semester and allowing me to learn from home when my mom needed me. But, one class' professors are refusing to allow me extra time and are saying that I will fail the semester. A failing grade could mean dismissal from the program. I am fighting the decision, filing an official grade appeal tomorrow, but students rarely win.
I am a year and a half into my Ph.D. program, a program I moved across the country for and that is directly linked to my ability to affect positive change in my life and my family's life. I don't want to drop out of school, but everything seems to be conspiring against me right now.
We are in serious financial trouble. I am in academic trouble. I am home sick. I am working ridiculous hours on schoolwork that may not even count. I am tired.
I keep praying and waiting for guidance; I could use some extra prayers.