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Thursday, April 07, 2011

My last blog entry was a year and a half ago and was a celebration that I had lost 75 pounds and was halfway to my goal. As I sit here today, I have gained 55 of that 75 pounds back and am balancing at the precipice of going over 300 pounds again.

I promised myself that I would never be over 300 pounds again!

So, time to get healthy. Get serious. Get focused on taking care of me.

I am restarting this process with my sisters and looking forward to feeling more fit.

  
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ALISONVP35 4/8/2011 12:40PM

    I'm happy to journey with you guys :-) I hope we can get mom involved too. I'm scared of her pre-diabetes.

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SAMMISAN 4/7/2011 6:24PM

    Yay! We will all support each other this time!

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GUAVAGIRL3 4/7/2011 2:59PM

    Great!! Welcome back!!!! Everyday is a fresh start!

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Finally Half Way!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Well, I finally broke the holiday/business travel plateau and lost two pound this week which puts me at 64 pounds lost and over half way to my goal. Woohoo! I am super relieved. The plateau was getting frustrating.

  
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HUGGERS1 12/18/2008 12:33PM

    That is so awesome :) I am so proud of you

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Amber

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COWARDLYLION59 12/15/2008 12:10AM

    AWESOME!! 64 lbs kicked to the curb
baby and half way to goal whoo hoo!
way to go. The week is anew and will
get even better. You have a good one.

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CINNIEMAY 12/12/2008 12:07PM

    way to go!!!!

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FAIRYDANCER1 12/11/2008 10:10PM

    Congratulations, 64 pounds, thats amazing and you are totally awesome. Keep up the good work!!!

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SUPREME5 12/11/2008 7:01PM

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Happy Thanksgiving

Sunday, November 30, 2008

I hope all of my American friends had a Happy Thanksgiving. I visited family and took two days off of working out. But, as a result, I gained 5 pounds. Yuck. I worked out really hard today at the gym and will continue through the week in the hopes thatI can get it back off.

Workout:
I worked out from 1pm to 2:30pm
-65 minutes on the elliptical
-mix upper and lower body strength training
-ab workout
-extra long dog walk

  
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CINNIEMAY 12/1/2008 10:17AM

    Thank you! I did have a great Thanksgiving. I hope that you enjoyed your days off and now get back to work so you can lose those pounds! I know you can! emoticon

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HUGGERS1 12/1/2008 9:52AM

    I actually haven't weighed yet, too scared LOL. Actually I am not worried, I am on track and still feel great.

I did eat a little more pumpkin pie than I meant too, oh well. It is not like I do that every day. I will make it this month :)

hugs
Amber

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MARTY19 11/30/2008 6:52PM

    Thanksgiving is just one day - you will get back on track now that it is over. I believe in you.

Marty

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COWARDLYLION59 11/30/2008 4:10PM

    Same back at ya girl. Hope you have a great week
and get a chance to get back to the routine like
you want.

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SUPREME5 11/30/2008 3:02AM

    hope your school does what schools do best help to teach. if your sister is not working could she not come in and spend some time with your mother and free you up to do what you need to do. i hope so shes her mother to or does she live to far away if not she may need to rember its her mother too. it should not be on your shoulders alone to take 24/7 care of your mother. even if she came and stayed overnight it would be a help. the way you are going darling you wouln't last long you do need a break now and than. correct me if i am wrong and tell me to shut up but you can't carry the world on your shoulders .
dorene
sending prayers for you and family.
(((((((((((((((((((( hugs))))))))))))))))

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Could Use Some Prayers

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Hi Goonies. I could really use some prayers.

Many of you prayed for my mother when she had a freak accident and busted both of her legs. I so appreciate those prayers; she is still disabled but getting better everyday. I have been caring for her since September. I am a full time student who teaches for the university; they pay for my tuition and give me a small stipend, but it is barely enough to survive on. Now, I am supporting my mom because she is unable to work. And my sister is currently unemployed and can't help. I have applied for another part time job at the University, but I haven't heard back.

In addition to worrying about paying the house bills and medical expenses, I now have a crisis at school. Most of my professors have been incredibly understanding about giving me extra time with assignments this semester and allowing me to learn from home when my mom needed me. But, one class' professors are refusing to allow me extra time and are saying that I will fail the semester. A failing grade could mean dismissal from the program. I am fighting the decision, filing an official grade appeal tomorrow, but students rarely win.

I am a year and a half into my Ph.D. program, a program I moved across the country for and that is directly linked to my ability to affect positive change in my life and my family's life. I don't want to drop out of school, but everything seems to be conspiring against me right now.

We are in serious financial trouble. I am in academic trouble. I am home sick. I am working ridiculous hours on schoolwork that may not even count. I am tired.

I keep praying and waiting for guidance; I could use some extra prayers.

  
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CTHUNDER 11/30/2008 10:52PM

    Prayers to you and your family. emoticon emoticon

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LINDA! 11/28/2008 12:36AM

    Praying for you and your mom.

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BERNIE2952 11/27/2008 12:42PM

    JL Sometimes we have to take 2 steps back before we can go forward again. I know having your Mom to care for is emotionally and physically difficult. Go ease on your self if you need to drop the class and take it during summer maybe that would be best. Con gradulation for working towards your PH.D

I took care of my Dad for 5 years and ran a business at the same time. It was impossible but we got through it. I asked for help from family members-some pitched in and others couldn't be bothered, but that wase their choice. Bernie

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TRAVIS07 11/23/2008 7:36PM

    I am keeping you and your mom in my thoughts and prayers and am so happy things are looking up at this point.Whoo Whoo! emoticon emoticon

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JERSEYGIRL24 11/23/2008 9:13AM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you. Aside from filing the appeal I don't know what kind of advice I can give you. Is it possible to go to some kind of Student Assistance counselor? I think these people are geared primarily toward undergraduate students, but maybe they can give you some ideas.

Please keep the faith and your chin up. It sounds like in spite of everything you really have a lot going for you. emoticon

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PATTYCKAE 11/23/2008 8:52AM

  praying for you that the lord will bless you and make things better. there is alot of programs for help taking care of a family .medical leave act. find out about it. also you can get for careing for your parent. do some checking. pat emoticon

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KAIRIS 11/22/2008 12:55PM

    I will pray that things work out for you. Just have faith. Maybe you need a semester off to sort things out. People do it all the time, and just get started again after that.
Do proceed with speaking with the professors. You won't know the outcome unless you try. emoticon

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DEBPONZIO 11/21/2008 11:25AM

    Even with the overwhelming circumstances you are facing.... your positive spirit shines through in this post!
I am thinking and praying for a good outcome to you situation.
You should be blessed for your willingness to bless others with your help and support!
Debbi

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JUWAHNI 11/21/2008 2:43AM

    I am so sorry to hear about the problem with school. I had similar problems when I went through college with my mom. It was tough but, with a little prayer and talking with my professors and the head of the department I was able to get some relief. I hope that the same will apply to you. I'll continue to pray for this problem to quickly resolve so that you can get back to sanity, and becoming a better you.

Good luck, and God bless you.

April Dawn

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CINNIEMAY 11/20/2008 11:26PM

    I will pray for you! I know how bad financial burdens really stress you out! Take care of yourself!

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JANEYJ. 11/20/2008 5:16PM

    I definitely will pray for you. Maybe you would also like to be on the Goonies prayer list. emoticonJJ

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QUILTINGB52 11/20/2008 4:52PM

    I would break all barriers & go directly to the head of the school to make yourself heard! You will find compassion if you seek it out & it sounds like you are just the person to handle the job.

Hang in there ~ life is throwing a lot at you right now, but in the end YOU will be the winner!!

Take care ~ I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers. Hoping that God gives you the strength to handle every mountain you need to climb, to succeed.

HUGS

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ALZADAGRACE 11/20/2008 4:27PM

    I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I hope something works out for you, so you can have a stress free holiday.

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COWARDLYLION59 11/20/2008 4:21PM

    Chunk is right, go to the head fellow and
explain everything. He must have a heart
there somewhere. In mean-time we will
send positive vibes that things will work
out for you and pray for your momma
for a quick recovery. Take it easy honey. emoticon

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CHUNKSTER63 11/20/2008 1:43PM

    You are in my thoughts and prayers and please don't give up go as high as you have to not to make waves but to ask for help in this particular time of ned explain to the dean what your going through and what you are willing to do i can't see the dean not letting you try it your way while you strive to become better but also help your mom he has to have a heart. I will pray that things do go in your favor and that God helps in mysterious ways. This is the time of year for peace and giving maybe the school will remember just what that means and find it in there heart to work with you.

God Bless.

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GRAYGRANNY 11/20/2008 1:36PM

    May God guide you through these troubled times..praying for you and the family emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PAYES97 11/20/2008 1:34PM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Hugs,

Mistie

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MARTY19 11/20/2008 12:41PM

    My warm thoughts and prayers are headed your way. I would talk to the professor and then the boss. There usually are extenuating circumstances built it that wwould help you. Don't give up.

Marty

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SUPREME5 11/20/2008 12:02PM

    sending prayers your way for you and your mother.
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3-DGIRL 11/20/2008 11:35AM

  I know sometimes you feel so overwhelmed that you do not think there is a solution. Make sure to take a deep breath and calmly think about your options and people you can turn to for help. You are not alone in this.

"Things always work out in the end, if they haven't worked out yet, then it's not the end" emoticon

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 11/20/2008 11:16AM

    I can so relate to what you are going through, almost anyway.

Isn't your mother eligible for assistance while she is unable to work? At least that would take some of the financial pressure off you. I don't know where you live but it never hurts to ask for aid.

You don't say but I know you are mentally and physically exhausted too.

I shall pray for you.

Hugs,
Linda

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GMRKITTY 11/20/2008 10:59AM

    emoticon things are so tough right now. I hope that it all works out for you.

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NOMORESTALLING 11/20/2008 10:49AM

    Sweetie take it to the board of faculty (Dean) and explain your situation If every other professor is giving you a break because then this one is just being cantankerous just because he can. This is all temporary but you don't know just how long this will be. Explain that to him/her I know it's going over the professors head but sometimes we do what we have to do.

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TRAVIS07 11/20/2008 10:28AM

    I am sending my prayers along your way and hoping that everything will work out foir you and yours.
SPARK FRIEND, Delores emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BONMACK 11/20/2008 9:32AM

    Sending many, many prayers up in your behalf. I so hope you win your appeal and that things get better for you quickly. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HUGGERS1 11/20/2008 9:22AM

    You definitely are feeling stress. I am so sorry that you are dealing with so much. I have been there and I hope that you find strength and courage to get through the appeal.

I pray that God comfort you and guide you as you have to work so dilligently and so hard to help others while at the same time trying to help yourself. I pray that the committee is understanding to your situation and is helped by the fact that your other teachers are helping you out. This should be a plus. I pray that Satan leave you alone and stay away from those who you love. I pray that your finances can be figured out. Remember don't hesitate to go ask for help, that is what it is there for. I want my tax money going to people like you who can really use it. It is not wrong to ask for help and I pray that those you ask will be compassionate and provide what you need.

I am sending you big hugs and know that we love you and lift you up constantly.

hugs
Amber

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MOB8/2009 11/20/2008 9:08AM

    This sounds like a serious load to be carrying right now! First question....can you apply for home health care or whatever it's called in your state to help with your mom? In your current economic condition, I would think there would be some options open to you. If your sister isn't working right now, can she take over a bit more with your mom's care so you can re-focus on your schoolwork? Is it too late to drop this course that's threatening your degree??? Finally, there HAS to be a counselor within the framework of the Ph.D. program. I've been at 3 different schools and ALL of them have such a person in place. GO TALK TO THEM! If nothing else, they can help with your mental anguish right now.

Of course, prayers are going up. Lots of them.

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RODEOMOMSK 11/20/2008 12:26AM

    I find things pile up on us when we think we can handle it the least. It sounds like something crazy, to simple to try, but instead of seeing everything that is wrong. Start listing the things that are right. Think "Wow, I am a year and a half into my Ph.D. program!" That alone is a HUGE accomplishment. Start with the small basic things. Since I have consciously thinking the proverbial "glass is half full" things have moved better. And the stronger I feel about something, the more 'right' it ends up being.

Sorry, I'm not trying to preach, I just know how I was thinking 2 years ago to now, and it has mad a difference for me. I'm here if you want to chat or just plain vent.
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I've been in the only breadwinner person in a family, it isn't easy. Sometimes just venting helps clear the mind to move forward. Blogging/journaling helped me out immensely.


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Progress--11/15--Late weigh-in day

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Well, I couldn't get to the gym on Thursday or Friday, so I am weighing in 2 days late this week. But, I lost four pounds which puts me at 60 pound lost total. Nice!

And I looked at my goal tracker on the bottom of my Sparkpage and realized that I only have 3.5 more pounds to go before I am halfway to my goal. That motivates me to work really hard this week to see if I can lose those pounds. I can't wait to say that I am halfway there!

Workouts:

Saturday, 11/15, I worked out from 7:30am-9:00am
-Elliptical 50 minutes
-short upper body strength training on machines
-ab workout
-extra long dog walk

  
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BERNIE2952 11/17/2008 5:14PM

    Sounds like you are doing great. I am inspired by your activity level and will try to match you in some activity Bernie

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LIFES*2*SHORT 11/16/2008 11:31AM

  WAY TO GO!!! That is some GREAT news!

Naomi

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MINORCANLDY 11/16/2008 8:03AM

    Hey! AAAAAMAZING progress you are making! Good Going! 4 more pounds! WOW!

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Mino

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KAIRIS 11/15/2008 6:37PM

    60 lbs? Your doin it girl!! Keep up the good work. I just can't imagine 50 mins on the elliptical, I can only do 15 tops! I'm happy for you. Love your halloween picture I can see a change in your face you look slimmer. emoticon emoticon

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HAKKIES 11/15/2008 4:47PM

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CINNIEMAY 11/15/2008 3:57PM

    Great job! You are doing great!

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