Tuesday, July 17, 2012
I have come to the realization that I need new shoes for working out. The pair I have had since last summer are literally falling apart. That is no good!
Now comes the hard part- what brand, style, color, etc?
Buying shoes is a tad difficult for me since I have high arches and wider feet. Buying shoes has never been fun and I typically end up with an Adidas running shoe of some sort, but I am really interested in other brands as well.
Can you share your shoe experiences with me? Both the good and the bad!!
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
I had a breakdown last week. Not the "I am so stressed, life sucks" type of breakdown, but the type where you realize that you CANNOT do anymore, you cannot add one more thing to your plate or that crack is going to cause a deafening shatter.
As some of you know, I lead a chaotic life. Work, school, kids, husband, kid's activities, etc... I have taken the back burner for far too long. What has this accomplished? Nothing. I am tired, crabby, look horrible and I have made horrible choices nutrition wise. I managed to gain back all of the weight I fought to lose. As if that isn't bad enough, the feeling of defeat has taken over. I know it's time for some serious re-vamping.
I am still up in the air about my fall semester. I am currently enrolled for 12 credits. I am debating whether or not to take the semester off. With work and a family, school has been pretty stressful. I think my body has had it! I have permanent dark circles under my eyes and let me tell you how sick I am of hearing "you look tired today! " from at least one co-worker during the day...I know I look tired, I FEEL tired too!
I have started to work out again. NOT crazy like I was....but my goal is SOMETHING every day. I still have summer semester to finish up, so time is limited, but I have to start somewhere.
My mini goals (goals that should be easy to instill, at least I hope!)
Fit in Fitness
Get more sleep
Set a better example for my children
Try to avoid the pressures of losing weight quickly and remember slow and steady wins the race!
I think my biggest problem is I am 150% dedicated at first and then I fizzle out...maybe I need to just be 90% dedicated consistantly. I don't know, but I DO KNOW that I have to keep trying.
Friday, May 04, 2012
So, here I am yet again. Sometimes I think I like the drama of failing! I seem to let myself do it way too often.
BUT. I am back, and I will do my best yet again. I hope these blogs begin to resonate wtih me...they are somewhat therapeutic but I fear I am on a teeter totter.
My last REAL work out was on Thanksgiving Day. I remember going to the gym and getting a good run in and I felt prepared to handle any food situation that came my way. Boy was I wrong. What I didn't know was that Thanksgiving Day would mark the beginning of a downward spiral for me. This particular downward spiral has lasted about 5 months during which time I gained back about 12 pounds.
12 pounds that I cried for, sweat for, said no for so many times prior to Thanksgiving. If that doesn't make you feel defeated ....
What will be different this time? I honeslty do not know. I do know that I will not push myself so hard like I did last time. I was working out 6-7 days a week, but come on, let's be realistic here. YES I want to lose weight fast! BUT, I also want it to stay gone. I am a fulltime student , wife and mother and I have to accept that somedays just won't work for gym time. Instead of beating myself up over this, I need to realize that I should take what I can get for gym days and make the most of them-right?
I know that some will make comments like, "Get up earlier", "make time", etc....well let me just break down a typical day for you:
4am- wake up, get ready for work
5am- commute begins
6am- work is well under way
12 -noon- lunch time!
4:30-5pm- work is done for the day- back on the road
6pm- Get home, make dinner
7pm- Spend time with my kids, clean up messes, do laundry, get everyone cleaned up, read stories, do tuck ins and say good night to my kids.
9pm- time to try to do my homework
11pm or 12 am- time to try and get some sleep! (yes I only get 4-5 hours of sleep M-F)
This isn't exaggerated at all...this is my typical Monday through Friday. Kinda sucks :)
So, new goals. I have to figure out how to make losing weight and getting healthy manageable in my schedule. Does anyone have advice or ideas?
I only have about one year left and my schooling will be complete ( finally!!) Until then I do have homework (I am also taking summer courses), I do have three lovely children and a husband (who works second shift, so I kind of feel like a single parent) and I have a full time job that I am at about 50 hours a week or more. Oh how I wish we had family near to help!!
How can I stop doing the teeter totter and get healthy once and for all??
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