A Note to Myself

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Dear Jennifer,
You need to do better. Period.
I realize that you've been traveling a lot for work and the traveling will continue until at least June, but honestly that does not give you leave to eat whatever you want and workout (more than 20 minutes and weightlifting) 3 times a week. Honestly.
I let you slack off last week but it has got to stop. Slipping every once in a while is fine but it's been happening a lot lately. It's the end of January and the past three weeks have been HORRIBLE!
This week (starting TODAY) you will eat better (and really, you have GOT to stop eating only twice a day - you KNOW that's not healthy) and workout more. The goal for this week is to eat at least five times a day, and workout at least five times.
If you WANT to look good for your husband when he sees you next and you WANT to be healthy, fit, and more capable for Engineers Without Borders in Guatemala this summer you have got to get it together!
I love you and you're worth it! Never forget that.
Love,
JSZiegler

  

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AMYHOLLIDAY 1/29/2012 10:03PM

Good job on getting yourself back on track! Report Inappropriate Comment

TRUCKERWIFE2 1/29/2012 6:20PM

You're husband won't know who that hot chick is that's picking him up. There are alot of people who want you to succeed and you will! We're there for you! Report Inappropriate Comment

ALLYTHEATHLETE 1/29/2012 5:03PM

Well said! Good job resolving to make tomorrow a better day! Report Inappropriate Comment

New Me in 2012

Thursday, January 05, 2012

So it's the start of a new year and though I've lost 90 pounds I still have more to go. I've decided to start back on SP with tracking my food and exercise. Over the past year I've gotten out of tracking like I should and as a result I haven't lost as much weight as I could. I have lost weight, but not as much as possible. I've decided that this is the year I finally reach my goal. I've lost 90 pounds so far, but I've got 45 more to go.

I'm a goal setter and always have been and as it's the beginning of the year (and semester), I'm reassessing and restating my goals (most people would call these New Year's Resolutions).

So here they are:
1. Get to my goal weight and maintain.
2. Drink at least 8 ounces of water per day.
3. Exercise EVERY DAY (minimum of 10 minutes required).
4. Finish dissertation proposal.
5. Start on dissertation.
6. Find a job in Connecticut.
7. Pass the F.E.
8. Wake up by 7 every morning.

  

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LADYBUG1943 1/15/2012 5:22PM

I love the idea of anyone being a good goal setter. It seems to me that setting a goal for myself triggers some kind of resistance and i start working against myself. So.... I envy that trait in you. My only goal for 2012 is to fight my habit of procrastination. I started today recording my thoughts on that; have not nailed down the best way to approach this life-long bad habit. What we DO share is a common love of homemade cookies [I saw your comment in "foods we're afraid of"]. There is no cookie on the market that is a problem for me. If they're baking in someone's kitchen, though.... Katie, bar the door! [An old saying that just popped into my head] Many congratulations on your huge weight loss. I have only 35 lbs. to lose, and I can't even seem to get started. Report Inappropriate Comment

I've lost a child...

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I weighed today and realized that I have lost the equivalent weight of a child. Over 80 pounds! OMG. It's just now hitting me. And I'm now officially under 30 pounds from my goal! Well, my first goal... I'm also 7 pounds away from moving from obese to overweight! The last time I weighed this much (well, this little) was over 4 years ago. :D

So here are my goals for this year:
1. Move from obese to overweight before next weigh-in (I weigh monthly, so it'll be November 10th).
2. Fit into the jeans I bought a year ago as a goal (I can already button and zip them but I don't like how tight they are).
3. Complete my first 5 K without walking. Even when I was playing sports every day I still couldn't complete a 5 K without walking.
4. Weight train every day.
5.Hit my goal of weighing 200 lbs before the end of the year.
6. Finish training for my first ever 10 K!
7. Set my goals for the second part of my weight loss. I'll need to talk to a doctor and see what he thinks a good weight for me is. I have a number, but I'll need to talk to a professional to see if it's healthy or not.

I'm excited about what the rest of the year has for me. :)

  

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JONICACALDWELL 10/12/2011 10:31PM

So good!!! I'm so proud of you! thank you for sharing your goals AND successes!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

AIYLA1130 10/12/2011 4:34PM

Congrats!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

BLUEANGELLK 10/12/2011 1:24PM

Cool. You are AMAZING!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

DAWNSYOGAFLOW 10/12/2011 12:40PM

You go girl!! I was thinking two weeks ago when I ran a half marathon, might as well strap my 7 year old to my back. When you think of it in those terms, makes sense to lose that 'outer child'!!! Good luck!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Am I being too judgmental about "Big Sexy"?

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

As I was watching tv the other night, I saw an advert for a new show (on Bravo, I think) entitled "Big Sexy" about large models in NYC. I'm not talking about your plus-sized models who happen to wear a 6. I'm talking about larger ladies. Probably larger than I am (I would hazard they all wear clothes in the 20s but it's hard to tell because it's on tv).

I heard the advert before I saw it (I was in another room washing dishes when it came on). At first I thought, "Finally! A show about models who are regular-sized" (which I happen to think is anywhere between a 6 and a 14 or so. According to statistics, the "average" pants size of women these days is a 12-14). One of the women even said "Not all big girls WANT to be skinny". And I agree. I don't want to be skinny necessarily. I want to be healthy and have a healthy body composition.

So I was thinking about watching the show. Then, I actually SAW the advert. And the women are LARGE. Now, I can appreciate being happy with your body. But how are you being appreciative and respectful of your body if you don't try to be healthy? I'm not saying you have to eat only 1200 calories and exercise 3 hours a day. But at least watch what you eat and do moderate exercise.

Watching the advert immediately put me off of watching the show and now every time the advert comes on I want to instantly change the channel and honestly, it kind of grosses me out. I was once that big (actually, FAT) and I can't believe I thought it was okay. Watching it makes me sick with myself and the fact that I let myself get that fat (no, I don't mind calling myself fat. I was.).

Do you think I'm being too judgmental about the show? Do you think I should wait to watch it before drawing any conclusions?

  

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ANGIE121 8/30/2011 4:37PM

I was thinking on the same exact note...... Its not about being skinny, its about being healthy. At the rate they are eating there I no way they are being healthy at that size. Honestly its quit the opposite. I also feel I'm being judgmental..."well if they are happy then"....i dont think they are happy either, i know i used to pretend to be happy and I knew I had a pretty face.....and I also wanted to be a plus size model at one time.....I do NOT anymore.....just want to be healthy and out of the fat girls stores!!!! I know my progress is slow...and I have back slided a few times...but I keep coming back and keep on keeping on......I wish u luck on ur journey and I don't think i will be watching that show...or maybe I will you never know might even get me more motivated to keep on keeping on Report Inappropriate Comment

TWNOMWE 8/30/2011 4:20PM

Probably but you are also being honest. While we know that fat is not beautiful or healthy, we also should recognize that people that size should have fashionable clothes. I have not seen the show though. Sometimes I watch the largest people show to remind myself I d not want to be that fat again. Getting normal size and loving it. Report Inappropriate Comment

SIGNALSELLER 8/30/2011 4:18PM

That shows the change in your thought process. You now know that it's not ok, it's not healthy to be that big. Way to go for changing your thinking and working on changing your lifestyle. Report Inappropriate Comment

GONEWLIFE 8/30/2011 4:10PM

I kind of agree... not right to advertise really big as being ok... it's not healthy... Report Inappropriate Comment

Somebody Called Me Skinny Today!

Monday, August 29, 2011

I was leaving my office today to get a coffee before a meeting when I ran into the undergraduate coordinator for the Aerospace Engineering department. I haven't seen her in a couple of weeks so it was nice to see her. She asked about my husband (after all, she did deal with him for eight years!) and we discussed how he'd left New Orleans just to end up in Connecticut with hurricanes (irony of ironies!). In the conversation she called me skinny! :D

Now, I know I'm not as skinny as I could be, nor am I as skinny as I will be but it's nice for somebody who hasn't seen you in a while to notice! WooHoo!

And another friend of mine who sees me about twice a week noticed that I'm getting smaller. Actually, he (notice it's a he...) asked if I'd gotten taller. Of course not. I haven't grown in years! However I look taller because I'm losing inches (that's what he said when I told him I haven't grown taller...).

Also today I had to put on a pair of jeans I've never worn before because my current favorites are too large and I can't deny it anymore. :) It kind of makes me sad as I haven't nearly worn out the favorites but at the same time, I'm about to go on vacation this weekend and it gives me a reason to buy more jeans (as I only have 1 pair that fit now).

All this said, I weighed in today and I hadn't lost any weight. Now, I haven't gained but I haven't lost. I was a little bummed about it until two people noticed my efforts.

Lesson? It's not all about weight (I KNOW this but I tend to forget sometimes) and I NEED to start measuring again!

I know some people don't like it when others notice that they've lost weight, but I sure do! How about you? Does it bother you when people comment on your weight loss?

  

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TWNOMWE 8/30/2011 4:24PM

and I take a compliment any time!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

JENS_LOSING_IT 8/29/2011 4:30PM

That must have felt great. Good for you, you deserve to buy yourself more clothes! Keep up the good work. Report Inappropriate Comment

EVA_AISLING 8/29/2011 2:49PM

I would definitely take it as a compliment, if someone noticed I lost weight! Way to go! Report Inappropriate Comment

AGRLNKY 8/29/2011 2:36PM

It's always a good feeling when other people notice! Good for you! You are doing great! Report Inappropriate Comment

DZSWEETIE2005 8/29/2011 2:32PM

I loveeee it when people notice my weight loss! i work hard for it, so i enjoy every compliment!!! Granted there are certain days I still feel gross and awful and get annoyed when i hear someone talk about it, but that's more rare!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

CHANGINGSAM 8/29/2011 2:13PM

Congrats on your weight loss! It's always nice when people notice! Good luck with your goals! Report Inappropriate Comment