Monday, February 21, 2011
Back on January 9, 2011 I decided to start a Spark Streak to help me stop biting my fingernails. Well, it's been 45 days and so far my streak is still going!
I wouldn't say that I have been completely reformed because I've quit for longer than this before, but I'm pretty encouraged. I'm not ready for a manicure yet, but getting there. I have never had a manicure in my life. I'll turn 55 next month, so maybe that would be a good present to give myself!
Saturday, February 19, 2011
I went to a lecture yesterday at lunchtime and one of the attendees came in a little late. She is a dietitian and I work with her classes sometimes. Anyway, after the lecture she came up to me and told me I looked great. She said I looked like I had lost a lot of weight and she said if she had to guess she would say I lost 22 pounds or so. She completely nailed it! I have lost exactly 22 pounds! This was so exciting because nobody else has noticed anything. I haven't seen her in a while, so that probably had a lot to do with it.
I actually hadn't minded that nobody noticed. In a way I was keeping it all undercover. Everyone is so bundled up around here in the winter, so I was hoping for some dramatic "ta-da moment" when I showed up at a meeting without a bulky sweater and tons of layers.
So this was great and this person is someone I really respect and like a lot, so it's extra special!
Today is Day #1 of my second Spark Challenge. I am off to a pretty good start. I generally jog through one half of S.U. basketball games when they're on TV (which is every game), and I chose the second half today. Well, the game went into overtime, so I got over an hour of jogging in today. Plus S.U. won. Cool!
I'm on a new team this time (the Butterflies), so I'll have lots of chances to make new Spark Friends along the way too.
My strategy is pretty much the same as my last challenge. I have become addicted to my pedometer and I am committed to at least 6,000 steps per day. I also want to add some strength training this time. I will faithfully track EVERYTHING I eat!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
One of my "assignments" for this week is to write about my triggers for emotional eating and what I'm going to do about them.
My major stressor right now is my job. I supervise people and for the last two years I have had the boss from Hell. I try to act as a buffer as much as possible between my boss and the people who work for me so that they can do their jobs, but this often means that I throw myself under the bus so to speak in defending them. The nit-picking and micromanagement can be really tough at times, and it's so unpredictable! I just never know what's going to happen.
My boss is also into yoga and meditation and such, but I find it almost laughable that she can be so heartless, needlessly cruel and completely unaware of the negativity that oozes from her every pore. I think she actually does mean well deep down, but when God was handing out empathy and basic civility she must have been off stealing candy from babies. I say it's almost laughable because it is more just really sad for all of us.
All of this being said, I know in my mind that I am not responsible for her actions and I need to take ownership and responsibility for how I deal with this situation. As a middle manager, I am definitely caught between those above me and those below me. It's a delicate dance because I am trying to keep "my" people happy so they can do a good job and at the same time keep my boss happy.
So, this is my reality -- now what am I going to do about it? What I can't do is use this as an excuse to give in to emotional eating -- in other words, "Man Up"! I've actually been pretty good about this. I can feel my stress level elevate just knowing I have to meet with her so I try to take deep breaths, and I sometimes even re-read some of my saved SP articles before I go. Just a reminder that my life is much more than my job and I need to take care of myself is helpful. (It's probably not such a good idea that I consider her my enemy and that if I give in then she wins, but it's working, at least so far).
I am also sure I internalize all of this way too much. I have a habit of hanging on to things that are bothering me and letting them fester. This is the thing that I need to work on the most I think. In this, I could look to my boss as a role model, as annoying as that thought is. She says something hurtful and then she's over it and everything is OK. I need to just live in the moment like she does and not take everything so much to heart. Not everything is earth-shattering or the end of the world. (I guess I should add "Lighten Up!" to "Man Up!")
Ok I'm done, but I don't feel that much better... darn! I'll work on that!
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
I went to a conference today. It seems like whenever I get to do something fun that takes me out of the office I forget almost everything I've learned and just go crazy. I was doing OK until dessert after lunch. I ate 4 cookies! I didn't want them and I barely remember eating them. I certainly didn't enjoy them. It was so not worth it! Ugh!
However, I did say that I forgot ALMOST everything. I do know that I have to pick up where I left off and start fresh RIGHT NOW.
Nobody said this would be easy...
Thursday, February 03, 2011
I haven't had much of an occasion to go off-campus for anything during the work day because: I've been really busy; it's a long walk; the weather (Upstate NY) is not conducive to foot travel right now and it's really COLD. Plus I always bring something from home for lunch. (Also it's way cheaper!)
Yesterday, however, I had to go to the bank, which is about a 15-20 minute walk (downhill). I didn't get anything to eat because I had some healthy and tasty soup waiting for me, but the walk back to my office is pretty much uphill the whole way and frankly it used to be a big drag. Anyway, I got all the way back to my office and I was eating my soup when I realized that I hadn't gotten winded and my knees didn't hurt AT ALL! The really cool thing was that I didn't even notice the walk at all! It was like no big deal. This is so great. I have many pounds to go, but little victories like this really help keep me going.
Also, thank to everybody who sent me well wishes about my ribs. They are feeling MUCH better. It still hurts to drive, but it's definitely improving! Take some advice from someone who learned the hard way... DON'T COUGH!
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