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Emotional Eating Assignment

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

One of my "assignments" for this week is to write about my triggers for emotional eating and what I'm going to do about them.

My major stressor right now is my job. I supervise people and for the last two years I have had the boss from Hell. I try to act as a buffer as much as possible between my boss and the people who work for me so that they can do their jobs, but this often means that I throw myself under the bus so to speak in defending them. The nit-picking and micromanagement can be really tough at times, and it's so unpredictable! I just never know what's going to happen.

My boss is also into yoga and meditation and such, but I find it almost laughable that she can be so heartless, needlessly cruel and completely unaware of the negativity that oozes from her every pore. I think she actually does mean well deep down, but when God was handing out empathy and basic civility she must have been off stealing candy from babies. I say it's almost laughable because it is more just really sad for all of us.

All of this being said, I know in my mind that I am not responsible for her actions and I need to take ownership and responsibility for how I deal with this situation. As a middle manager, I am definitely caught between those above me and those below me. It's a delicate dance because I am trying to keep "my" people happy so they can do a good job and at the same time keep my boss happy.

So, this is my reality -- now what am I going to do about it? What I can't do is use this as an excuse to give in to emotional eating -- in other words, "Man Up"! I've actually been pretty good about this. I can feel my stress level elevate just knowing I have to meet with her so I try to take deep breaths, and I sometimes even re-read some of my saved SP articles before I go. Just a reminder that my life is much more than my job and I need to take care of myself is helpful. (It's probably not such a good idea that I consider her my enemy and that if I give in then she wins, but it's working, at least so far).

I am also sure I internalize all of this way too much. I have a habit of hanging on to things that are bothering me and letting them fester. This is the thing that I need to work on the most I think. In this, I could look to my boss as a role model, as annoying as that thought is. She says something hurtful and then she's over it and everything is OK. I need to just live in the moment like she does and not take everything so much to heart. Not everything is earth-shattering or the end of the world. (I guess I should add "Lighten Up!" to "Man Up!")

Ok I'm done, but I don't feel that much better... darn! I'll work on that!

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ILIKECACTI 2/16/2011 6:42PM

    Your boss sounds like a nightmare =p I totally let things fester inside me too much too. I feel for ya... hope you find out how to deal with the situation. Good for you for recognizing that as a trigger to emotional eating though.

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REDHEADMOM2U 2/15/2011 8:18PM

    i hope you feel better .... been there, gone through that. It's super hard...

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So Mad at Myself...

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

I went to a conference today. It seems like whenever I get to do something fun that takes me out of the office I forget almost everything I've learned and just go crazy. I was doing OK until dessert after lunch. I ate 4 cookies! I didn't want them and I barely remember eating them. I certainly didn't enjoy them. It was so not worth it! Ugh!
However, I did say that I forgot ALMOST everything. I do know that I have to pick up where I left off and start fresh RIGHT NOW.
Nobody said this would be easy...

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AUNTB63 2/9/2011 9:10AM

    I get caught up in "mindless" eating so often........I'm really trying to keep this in check.
You're doing the right thing by just getting back on track. Good job. Have a great day....keep moving...eat healthy and smile.


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ILIKECACTI 2/9/2011 8:07AM

    Yeah... going outside the normal throws me for a loop too! I'm now attending lunch conferences, but now i'm kind of glad the food they provide isn't all that tasty, because it's not really healthy either. I have no problems eating really small portions, because it's not tasty, hehe. At least we know how to get back on track :)

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PINKHOPE 2/9/2011 12:47AM

    Hi! Well four cookies aren't the end of the world, but maybe it's a little reality check for you. We all have these little setbacks.

You might want to read my "Fast Fifteen". It's a list of 15 things to get back on track FAST!


Press On!


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KAYE454 2/8/2011 9:00PM

  We need to plan all our meals around our weekly activities it really has helped me I try to find out what is going to be served

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MARSHA1956 2/8/2011 8:58PM

    Don't beat yourself up over the cookies. You have the right attitude to pick up and start over. I certainly can relate, this has been a week where I've craved all sorts of food that are not on the healthy diet menu. I've had good days and bad days in this regard. Good luch tomorrow take it one day at a time.


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ADIPOSEROSE 2/8/2011 8:57PM

    Four cookies???? Firing squad at dawn! Cut yourself some slack, my friend! You were in a situation that has all of the "permissions" of a holiday--everybody's taking advantage of the "freebies," you're out of your normal environment, and there's a party atmosphere to the breaks. SO YOU HAD FOUR COOKIES---SO WHAT??????

I sentence you to one extra set of aerobics (whatever you normally do) in the morning as penance--on the proviso that you then forget about the sins of today, and move on down the yellow brick road!

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SAILSCALL 2/8/2011 8:55PM

    You ate them because you were bored, been there, done that. Work out a little harder tomorrow and call it even.

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CHRISTY60 2/8/2011 8:55PM

    You are soooooo right!!

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Appreciating the Little Things

Thursday, February 03, 2011

I haven't had much of an occasion to go off-campus for anything during the work day because: I've been really busy; it's a long walk; the weather (Upstate NY) is not conducive to foot travel right now and it's really COLD. Plus I always bring something from home for lunch. (Also it's way cheaper!)
Yesterday, however, I had to go to the bank, which is about a 15-20 minute walk (downhill). I didn't get anything to eat because I had some healthy and tasty soup waiting for me, but the walk back to my office is pretty much uphill the whole way and frankly it used to be a big drag. Anyway, I got all the way back to my office and I was eating my soup when I realized that I hadn't gotten winded and my knees didn't hurt AT ALL! The really cool thing was that I didn't even notice the walk at all! It was like no big deal. This is so great. I have many pounds to go, but little victories like this really help keep me going.

Also, thank to everybody who sent me well wishes about my ribs. They are feeling MUCH better. It still hurts to drive, but it's definitely improving! Take some advice from someone who learned the hard way... DON'T COUGH! emoticon

Thanks SparkPeople!!!


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NANASKNOLL 2/3/2011 11:26PM

    Thats great!

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PARAMAGIC66 2/3/2011 7:54PM

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REDHEADMOM2U 2/3/2011 2:20PM

    Oh I am SOOO happy for you!! That is awesome! It's great when we have "proof" we are getting healthier.

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MOMOF2TONI 2/3/2011 1:13PM

    The little victories are great! I love when the little surprises happen. Hugs! (gentle hugs because of your ribs)

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THINAGIN2 2/3/2011 11:34AM

    I love those little victories! Especially the way it just "dawns" on us that there has been a change. Glad to hear that your ribs are better, too! I did that once and so I know how miserable it can be.

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ILIKECACTI 2/3/2011 10:51AM

    Isn't it great to see those kinds of changes!!! Glad to hear your ribs are feeling better!

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Reached my first goal today!

Friday, January 28, 2011

Today I met my first SparkPeople goal of losing 22 pounds. I'm ready to start my next one, but I want to savor my completed ticker just for tonight. This means I also met my 5% challenge for the Winter Challenge.

I still have so much to go, but I've made it through the first "leg", despite cracked ribs!

Onward and downward!!!!

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KJMPEACHES 1/29/2011 4:41PM

    Awesome!!!! WTG

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ILIKECACTI 1/29/2011 10:31AM

    Yay! That's so great!!!! I just made it to my first goal of 10 lbs lost today too!!! I missed my 5% winter challenge by 1 lb, though, but that's ok. The next challenge I will do better :)

Cracked ribs and all... you rock!

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LILDEE4370 1/29/2011 9:37AM

    emoticon and emoticon

Keep up the good work!

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AUNTB63 1/29/2011 8:44AM

    emoticonmeeting goals just gives us more power to continue on our journey. You are doing a great job. Keep it up. Have a wonderful day....keep moving.....eating healthy and smile. emoticon

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NANASKNOLL 1/28/2011 11:00PM

    Great-so glad you met a goal. Gives me encouragment to keep it up even though I have not lost yet. At least I don't think so-can't see my scales-need to get digital one. emoticon

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MOMOF2TONI 1/28/2011 10:09PM

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THINLIN07 1/28/2011 10:02PM

    Hey be careful for those cracked ribs I know from when it happened to my husband that its very painful. Congrats on your 22 pound loss that is awesome. emoticon

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MOMMEG327 1/28/2011 9:43PM

    Way to go!!! You should savor your completed ticker for a moment!! What an awesome accomplishment! emoticon

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MISSY455 1/28/2011 9:36PM

    emoticon on meeting your goal! Even with cracked ribs..you are a trooper! Best of luck as you go forward on your journey!

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It Only Hurts When I Laugh... cough, and sneeze

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Almost a month ago I wrote about injuring myself in the rib area when I got a hacking cough that lasted for about 3-4 days. Sneezing and coughing were torture and driving was difficult, as well as BREATHING!
Well, it didn't get better and my husband had been on my case for a while to have it looked at. I went today and the doctor told me that I cracked and/or separated some ribs on my left side! No wonder. There is, unfortunately, nothing they can do about it and it takes 2 months or more to heal.
I'm actually glad I went, though, because I was afraid he would tell me there was nothing wrong and that I was just getting the creaky achy stuff that happens when we get older.
There is a silver lining to this: It may get me out of shoveling snow for a while. Doctor's orders you know.

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MIZZSB 1/26/2011 11:31AM

    take care of yourself!

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ILIKECACTI 1/26/2011 10:51AM

    Yikes! Hope you heal fast!

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AUNTB63 1/26/2011 9:36AM

    Hope you heal soon........some people will do anything to get out of shoveling snow...(haha) Have a great day.......stay positive and keep smiling. emoticon

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NANASKNOLL 1/25/2011 11:26PM

    Glad you now know what was going on.
Take care of yourself and rest and get healed quickly.
Hot cocoa for relaxing time.

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DESERTDREAMERS 1/25/2011 10:53PM

    Owie - did your doc tell you to hold a small pillow to your bad side when you cough? It keeps the ribs from moving as much - we tell surgical patients to use a pillow, too. Keep taking deep breaths and coughing, even though it hurts, so you won't get a pneumonia. Hope you're better soon - it does take a long time for cracked or broken ribs to heal.

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MOMOF2TONI 1/25/2011 10:46PM

    Sounds so painful. I hope you heal quickly.

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SPARKIE1964 1/25/2011 9:34PM

    OMG...I've heard of cracking a rib from coughing...Rest up....

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ACROSONIC 1/25/2011 8:05PM

    Yes, you can crack a rib from coughing. Glad you got it checked out. Hope it heals soon so you can get moving without pain!

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