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Tough Week But Good

Friday, October 31, 2014

I can't believe I haven't posted a blog since August. Crazy!

I had to take a few days off from work because my mom had an intestinal blockage and was in the hospital. Nothing like getting a call at 1 a.m. to tell you that your mom is in the emergency room and you're almost 3 hours away.

My husband had double knee replacement surgery on Tuesday and he is going to rehab for a couple of weeks this afternoon. He did a lot of preparation for the surgery, including getting some meditation and mindful eating downloads that he could listen to. We have actually started listening to them together in the morning, and it really does help. We attended a class at the hospital before his surgery, and one of the big things that was stressed again and again was the need to take deep breaths, especially after coming out of general anesthesia. Getting maximum oxygen is so important in ways I hadn't thought of. He's been stellar in that area from what the nurses told me.

The mindful eating downloads have been really great for both of us. In the three weeks that we had been doing them, I have lost about 5 pounds. That doesn't seem like very much relative to what I need to lose, but we have become much more conscious of portion size and eating good quality food, not just good quantity. Before, I've kind of been on my own, but my hubby has been a tremendous help in the last month or so. He works seasonally, so he does almost all of the cooking and it's been great. He used to be insulted if I didn't eat everything on my plate, and he gave me A LOT. Over the years I gradually started eating more. That's a lame excuse for how many pounds I've packed on over the years and I can't blame anyone but myself, but I'm just trying to move forward from now on and it helps to have his support.

One thing we've been doing is using small ramekins and dessert plates for dinner instead of a big dinner plate. We put a small green salad in one ramekin and fresh fruit cut up in another, and then a small portion of meat or other protein on the small plate. It looks so colorful and appetizing!

My friend who moved away and I have started doing weekly check-ins again by email and that helps too. We don't know how much the other weighs, but we tell how much we've lost (or gained) in the week and generally what's been going on work-wise, or anything else that we want to share about what's been stressing us out or giving us a boost.

I was debating on whether to "do" Halloween this year since I'm by myself and the dog goes crazy every time someone comes to the door. I also didn't want the candy around for obvious reasons. Self-hypnosis can only go so far when temptation like that is in your face. So what I did was buy candy and kept it in the car. Out of sight, out of mind -- right?

So generally speaking, despite the family health issues, things are pretty good right now!
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FEISTYLIZARD 10/31/2014 12:26PM

    Sounds like even without checking in, you've been doing great! emoticon

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Hot Diaper Yoga

Thursday, August 14, 2014

First thing this morning I woke up and thought, "Yay, TGIF". Then I realized it was only Thursday. Boo!!

It's been a tough few weeks at work. Lots of people have left, so we are all scrambling to get everything done and classes start in a couple of weeks. It sure didn't feel like summer. I didn't take a vacation per se because my husband is having both knees replaced in late October and we hope to get out to CA to see my baby granddaughter before his surgery -- oh and we'll see my son and his wife too, but mostly the baby! emoticon

They send us photos almost every day, and they really brighten my day. My son sent us this one yesterday. It really cracked me up. That is a pretty good downward facing dog for a five month old, isn't it?

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KIYOSHI04 9/3/2014 8:23AM

    Adorable photo!

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JAMIRBLAZE 8/14/2014 3:14PM

    Too cute!

I hate those, "Yay Friday!" moments only to realize that it's Thursday. The worst.

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My New Best Friends

Friday, August 01, 2014

I am probably the poster middle-aged adult for mindless eating. Yes, I have read Brian Wansink's book and many others on this topic, but I still do it anyway.

I have a desk job. I sit on my butt all day long working on my computer, except when I have meetings. On my lunch hour, I usually do my Sparking. I have no window in my office so I don't see what the weather is like. This is not necessarily a bad thing when you live in Syracuse, NY -- sometimes it's better not to know.

During much of this time, especially in the afternoons, I mindlessly eat. I have been known to polish off half a large bag of Peanut M and Ms. I do this without even thinking about it. I don't remember eating them or how excellent they tasted beyond the first handful. Am I ashamed of it? Of course I am, silly!

So, I finally decided that as long as I'm not aware of what I'm eating, let alone really enjoying the taste of it, I might as well mindlessly eat something that's good for me. So, for the last couple of weeks I have been bringing 1 cup of baby carrots with my lunch. I like baby carrots, but not THAT much. However, since I wasn't really tasting them anyway, it apparently didn't make that much difference because I ate all of them without thinking about it. They are so much better for my health and also a lot cheaper than Peanut M and Ms!

I think this is one of the important things I've learned in reading about mindless eating. If you mindlessly eat when you are stressed or bored or whatever (which I do), if you choose something that's good for you, that's a win-win in my book!

So far this has worked out great! I only do this on weekdays, so I am hoping I won't start turning orange. Although if I could improve my night vision, that would be OK with me!

So here are my new best friends:

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KIYOSHI04 9/3/2014 8:24AM

    You make me laugh. The part about better vision had me rolling. Great switch and wow I'm surprised it didn't make a difference. I guess it really is mindless eating.

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SIRENNEA 8/1/2014 1:01PM

    Mindless eating is a hard one to get over. Maybe try just bringing the correct portion of whatever food with you for a snack?

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What's WRONG with me?

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

I have been feeling kind of lost lately. I don't know why -- I have a lot of nice things in my life, including a beautiful new granddaughter, but still I can't seem to shake this funk I'm in.

I don't feel well, but I don't want to go to the doctor because I am going to feel embarrassed that I have gained so much weight. I know I would feel so much better if I wasn't carrying around all this extra baggage, but I guess it just seems too overwhelming. I am not a stupid person, and I know it's pretty simple: burn more calories than I eat, but yet I can't seem to actually DO it. I don't know why. Is it because I have so much weight to lose that it feels impossible? I am so ashamed of myself, but I don't know how to stop it.

My feelings are so childish, like I am getting what I deserve in terms of physical ailments because I knowingly mistreat my body.

Some days are better than others, but this has been quite a long stretch of not so good. I hope it ends soon! Meanwhile, I keep logging in to SparkPeople and reading success stories and uplifting articles. I have often heard that you should "fake it 'til you make i", so that's what I'm doing!

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KIYOSHI04 9/3/2014 8:25AM

    We all let our bodies or mind or house go at some point. It's how you handle it that's key. From your more recent blogs sounds like things are on an upswing. Don't be so hard on yourself.

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JANET552 6/17/2014 1:13PM

    Take it easy on yourself!! I sometimes get down because, although I've been here on Spark for 6 years, I've only lost about 5 lbs. We know what we should do and it doesn't seem like a tough equation but it is sooo complicated!!! Be kind to yourself first and foremost. Next, concentrate on small steps and not too many at one time. I believe it's the building of good habits that creates the Spark. Good luck!!! emoticon

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CBRINKLEY401 6/13/2014 10:41PM

    Take care. Don't beat yourself up. Accept that this is where you are now - you can't change the past, you can only change the future. Just take it a day at a time and try to do your best each day, try and make healthy choices. Take small steps. Small changes add up over time to big results. Old habits are hard to break, so just work on one thing at a time to create a new habit.
If you need to go to the doctor, just go. Don't wait until you lose the weight to go. It may very well be some medical reason why you've gained and waiting just means it will be that much longer before they can do something to help you correct it.

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    Hey your not alone! Been there, still there some days! Hugs! Miamirn said it well.
Our inner critic or inner beast is our worst enemy. The good news is we can learn to tape that beast quiet! And yes it seems overwhelming when we have a lot of weight to loose but the one thing I am learning ( I can be a very slow learner sometimes emoticon ) but I am learning that it is a process that happens daily. For me being in a funk and gaining weight is a cycle I want out of! So just for today I will drink my water, walk and track my food. That is start. If you want a private place to vent, drop me a spark message, I am a good reader :)

That new granddaughter is going to give you lots of warm cuddles! Enjoy!

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MIAMIRN 6/11/2014 2:22PM

  I know how you feel. Do you know you are being too hard on yourself? Your embarrassment is normal, but just be careful you don't beat yourself over it. If you focus on something else like one minute of exercise as a starter you will be on your way. You can go to your doctor and get a physical. Get your thyroid checked out to make sure you aren't hypothyroid. It's a common problem that should be checked every 10 years after age 20. You have to start from somewhere, so find a support group that will give you good feelings. Try and stay away from people that are not supportive, you need good feelback not negativity. You can do the SparkPeople starter program, Or you can, for $5.00 a month, do the SparkPeople Coach program to get some direction. I found SparkPeople a year and a half ago and just became serious 6 months ago about the program. It grows on you in time. Come on here every day and read an inspiirational article, do the trivia, find a forum you can relate to. It's great that your blogged! Not only are you helping yourself, but you are helping others, like me for instance. Every time I answer a blog I reinforce my own motivation. Thank you for helping me! :) Message me any time if you like. I can be a support for you. Sometimes a buddy is all that you need to get started feeling better about yourself and getting motivated.

Congratulations on your grandchild! Happy Day!

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Enjoying the Little Things

Monday, April 28, 2014

Not too much is new, except that I look forward to my almost daily photo of my new granddaughter, Ava. Seeing her tiny face just makes me think that everything in the world is OK. Even though we live on the other side of the country, I feel like I can almost reach out and squeeze her! Sometimes I'll just feel like I need an Ava "fix" and I'll text my son asking for a photo and he sends one on demand. Not as good as being there, but not too bad!

The only other times I feel that relaxed are when I hang out with my dog, Beanie. Yes, I do believe she is the best dog in the entire world and no matter how yucky my day is, when I get home she's always there to give me her special "happy dance" followed by a toy dropped at my feet to play fetch with.

I wish it could always be like this, but if it was, would I appreciate these special moments as much as I do? I don't know. I'd like to try it, though!

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