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Worse than I was expecting...

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

So I knew I was going to be up about a 1 lb this week but no I am up 2.2lbs. Its just me...I can't seem to get my moom under control. I do great for a few days then indulge way too much the next. I HAVE to get this under control and really bump up my cardio/ST...

I keep expecting this everyweek and I know I say then I am moving on and not looking back but I can't help it. I am really angry with myself. I am angry that I cannot control myself, that I am no longer consistent, I have no movitation or energy.

This extra weight is really taking its toll on my hips, knees, breathing, the way I feel about myself, my energy, just hundreds of things...yet I cannot get myself motivated anymore and when I do I lose track and become inconsistent...

Guess its time to really dust myself off and TRY AGAIN!
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JULIETTECAKE 2/16/2013 6:36PM

    Your blog could have been written by me too. Since, January 1st I have gained & lost absolutely nothing. I understand it's because I am so busy right now and have so much stress. The stress causes me to not sleep. When I don't sleep I eat food to stay awake and the last thing I want is to exercise.

So how do we get through this? Well, I am trying for balance in my life. That means, I don't expect perfection of myself. It means finding ways to be more active everyday. Sometimes, it's not formal exercise. Just taking extra stairs, 10 minute walking bursts at home. I do this when I am tired and need sleep.

When I am well rested, I do formal exercise and my eating habits are much easier to manage. Under no circumstances should you beat yourself up for not achieving perfection each day. Give 100% and try to find small things that will make your life healthier each day.

I am making progress even though it is not necessarily measured by the scale. The number of times I wake up each night is down. I am working on clearing the items from my life that stress me out. Finally, bottom line, I have to change my response to stress. That I think is the hardest part.

OK, realized I rambled. but hope there is something from my experience that you can use to make your life better.

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SVELTEWARRIOR 2/13/2013 7:22PM

    emoticon You only fail if you quit trying. You can do this!!!

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HEALTHYGRAMMY49 2/13/2013 1:37PM

    Remember you are loved, by your family, your team members, and me! Don't give up...that is definitely a downer. I Know! Hang in there and resolve Not to give yourself permission to slack in nutrition or fitness. The repercussions are Not worth it. emoticon Push through this negativism! You Are Worth It!

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KATELOSS2009 2/13/2013 12:11PM

    that anger is exactly what you need... be tired of it!! be done with feeling like this!!! when you look at the cookies and stuff you know you shouldn't overindulge in, hate it for what it does to your body!!

and then find the love. love the vegetables and lean proteins for how they fuel you perfectly. love the workouts because even though they wear you out and make you tired, every 10 minutes gets you closer to your goal.

you can totally do this. you can. look in the mirror, into the eyes of the woman who is tired of the crap and find the woman who can do an extra 5 squats while waiting for the shower to warm up, who can push aside the potatoes because they truly don't appeal to her, and who can look at her children and say, "I want to play with your grandchildren."

you are worth it. you are worth every single ounce of strength it takes to win this. it's not easy, but you're not alone.

use the anger, and use the love.

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AMARILYNH 2/13/2013 11:55AM

    If weight loss was easy we wouldn't need SparkPeople and BLC. So listen to Becky and be gentle with yourself. Just keep trying - things will begin to click. One day at a time - work on eating more freggies, drinking more water, doing a little bit more exercise. emoticon

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NEW-CAZ 2/13/2013 9:59AM

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ANDYINBC 2/13/2013 9:16AM

    You can do it!

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JUSTME29 2/13/2013 8:46AM

    I could have written this too. I know that doesn't help you in any measurable way, but know that you're not alone. We just have to keep trying every single day.

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NUOVAELLE 2/13/2013 8:22AM

    One tiny step at a time, one good choice at a time, you'll get there. Even if you make one step forward and two steps backwards, you're still one step ahead than where you would be if you hadn't tried at all! I know how disappointed at yourself you feel but don't judge yourself so harshly. It's not perfection we're trying for. Try to focus on good, healthy habits and it doesn't matter if you slip some times.
Choice by choice, you'll find your way back on the right track.
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GODZDESIGN95 2/13/2013 8:09AM

    One day at a time. I agree with Becky. emoticon

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BECKYQUIGLEY 2/13/2013 7:39AM

    emoticon Be nicer to yourself! Yes, set goals to move more, but on the days you don't, don't beat yourself up! You'll get there, one goal at a time!

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MAGGIE101857 2/13/2013 7:17AM

    You sound just like me! I start the day out great, by dinner time I am on the downslide. I know I am making the wrong choices, I am watching my weight climb and my body add fat and lose muscle, yet I can't seem to get on track.

Today starts Lent for me. I have decided to "sacrifice" alcohol and chocolate; oh boy! Even the good for you occasional glass of red wine and dark chocolate. I am exercising a bit more but still can't do what I was doing, and I am allowing that to defeat me. Time to change that - I need to "sacrifice" self-pity for Lent!!!

Let's do this together - let's challenge each other!!! emoticon

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AZMOMXTWO 2/13/2013 6:50AM

  keep trying I know you can do it emoticon
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Such a long, exhausting week

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Been going going going as always. Not much fitness or eating well though. Too busy and honestly I was such in a whirlwind I have no idea what I did this past week :/

Kids sick, snow days, my classes...I feel like a crazy person! I feel so lost here because I haven't had the time to be sitting on the computer as much.

Venuses...I am sorry I have no idea what has been going on on the team. I haven't had a chance to read the posts. I am not sure that I will have time to do it now either. So I hope I didn't miss to much. Only 435/1000 for the weekend challenge. Got to get my LCW in today. Not sure what it is yet :/

I think I saw some happy bday's so to those with bday's I missed emoticon

So I am cheating today. I feel since I am Polish I have no choice but to have me a nice Paczki today seeing that today is Fat Tuesday! emoticon

Tomorrow is WI but I am sure I will be up with all the horrible things I ate this weekend...pizza, wings, burger king italian chicken sandwich...oh well just have to dust myself off on continue on my journey...slow journey lol

Well lots to do so Have an Awesome Day!!!

  
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SVELTEWARRIOR 2/12/2013 6:02PM

    I truly hope things slow down a bit for you!!!!! Like you said pick yourself up and continue on. Don't let the past week get you down!!!

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2BEABETTERME 2/12/2013 10:53AM

    We all have days, weeks (for me months) where we are off track. Sometimes life gets in the way. Keep trying...you are amazing and do great with all you have on your plate!

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LYNCHD05 2/12/2013 10:34AM

    You have such a busy life I don't know how you do it. Just keep SpRking as much as you can and you know we are here for you!

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ANDYINBC 2/12/2013 8:36AM

    Yep, days and weeks can be like that! I hope and pray your days get better, your load easier and the week brighter.

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GODZDESIGN95 2/12/2013 8:23AM

    Praying for the supper moms all of you. emoticon it pays to take some time for you. I have been there and done it. But of course 2 of my kids are over 16. One gone on his own and the second one is college and 19 working part time. Got one that special needs 15. Praying for your strength. emoticon

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BAKER1009 2/12/2013 7:52AM

    I can certainly relate - I feel like a crazy person too! Just hang in there, that's all we can. We can try to just make the best choices along the way...grab a healthy snack, drink more water, etc. Hope things settle down for you soon!!

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MAGGIE101857 2/12/2013 7:50AM

    Life does get in the way - if we are blessed we get to wake up another day and have a do-over!! Enjoy your Paczki and then wake up tomorrow and start your do-over!

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Such a long, exhausting week

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Been going going going as always. Not much fitness or eating well though. Too busy and honestly I was such in a whirlwind I have no idea what I did this past week :/

Kids sick, snow days, my classes...I feel like a crazy person! I feel so lost here because I haven't had the time to be sitting on the computer as much.

Venuses...I am sorry I have no idea what has been going on on the team. I haven't had a chance to read the posts. I am not sure that I will have time to do it now either. So I hope I didn't miss to much. Only 435/1000 for the weekend challenge. Got to get my LCW in today. Not sure what it is yet :/

I think I saw some happy bday's so to those with bday's I missed emoticon

So I am cheating today. I feel since I am Polish I have no choice but to have me a nice Paczki today seeing that today is Fat Tuesday! emoticon

Tomorrow is WI but I am sure I will be up with all the horrible things I ate this weekend...pizza, wings, burger king italian chicken sandwich...oh well just have to dust myself off on continue on my journey...slow journey lol

Well lots to do so Have an Awesome Day!!!

  
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JUSTME29 2/12/2013 7:16PM

    You sound swamped. I hope your kids are healthy now and the weather will cooperate from here on out.

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CYCLINGSANDY 2/12/2013 3:12PM

    It can only get better! emoticon

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To the point

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

Hi Everyone,

Not very happy at the moment so this won't take long. I am up a lb this week. I have been super busy with homework and sick kiddos this week. Kids going back to school today. Hitting Curves to take out this anger. So mad at my husband I could spit fire! Life goes on I guess!

Well Have a great Day!

  
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VINOTEA 2/7/2013 1:37AM

    emoticon I'm proud of you that amidst the struggle you are still taking time for you and working out. Maybe a good time to sort through some thoughts. Hang in there.

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1STMOMMY1991 2/6/2013 12:00PM

    Sorry things aren't going well at the moment...that's your key. This "moment" will pass. I know it's hard to handle at the moment but soon it may not even be a memory. Do you still remember your daughter's first skinned knee or your son's first fever? Take a deep breath, tell yourself "this too shall pass" say a prayer for stength and workout like crazy cause the Venuses need you. LOL. besides, it'll make you feel better. emoticon

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NEW-CAZ 2/6/2013 11:16AM

    Hope your workout saves your marriage emoticon

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ANDYINBC 2/6/2013 9:31AM

    Watch out hubby, fire spit is dangerous!

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AMARILYNH 2/6/2013 9:10AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon Jennifer, I hope your day gets MUCH better!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AEROBISAURUS 2/6/2013 8:57AM

    A good workout will make a huge difference in your mood and stress level. Go sweat it out! Good luck and emoticon

~Nikki

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JUSTME29 2/6/2013 8:50AM

    Sorry you're having a rough time. Curves is a good place to go for that.

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MAGGIE101857 2/6/2013 7:17AM

    Sending you emoticon emoticon and more emoticon ! Life does goes on, but some days it's a struggle! Good for you for going to work out!!!

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Last week WAS a fluke...

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

I knew my 4lb weight loss last week was just a fluke. This week I am UP 2.2lbs which is EXACTLY what I expected seeing that I was so ill last week. Although it sucks I am not that upset. It didn't help that I ate too much over the weekend and have not done any workouts in the last couple days. Today I don't have time to get to Curves once again, I have a Spanish test and I am not confident on a few topics so I must study more. I have been busy with my other class and my mother in law whos house was almost broken into yet again. This is the 3rd time since July. This time they didn't get in but they did break the window on the garage had it been the house part the alarm would have went off. But my father in law went over and they took out the window, boarded it up then this spring will put up the siding. We are pretty sure its the neighbor but no proof. Can't believe these people...she just got the ADT right after the 2nd breakin. Just been crazy the last couple days...nothing new I guess.

I have been feeling a lil depressed. Not sure if I am just stressed or that I haven't been working out. Friday I am back to Curves so hopefully I can bring myself back soon!

Not much else to report. Take care :)

  
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JBELICIOUS5 1/31/2013 4:22PM

    Hope your Spanish test went well! Been thinking of you!!

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JAZZEJR 1/31/2013 4:57AM

    Hey, you're still down 2 lbs. Whoopie!!!!

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SVELTEWARRIOR 1/30/2013 7:14PM

    emoticon Hang in there Sweetie!!!

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 1/30/2013 5:57PM

    I hope you feel better soon. Take excellent care of yourself and don't worry about the vicissitudes of the scale! I know that your life has been rough lately.

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HEALTHYGRAMMY49 1/30/2013 12:04PM

    Hang in there. BTW, weight fluctuations happen to the best of us. I'm also dealing with that this week. Down 2 lbs and up 0.7! It's frustrating, but it will all balance out in the end if we just keep doing what we know is healthy for our bodies!!
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JUDITHANNIE 1/30/2013 8:51AM

    Hang in there

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ANDYINBC 1/30/2013 8:50AM

    Might not be today but you will be exercising and losing more weight. You've done this weight loss thing successfully but right now things are busy.we still love ya!

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JUSTME29 1/30/2013 8:43AM

    Can ADT add the garage to the system? Maybe a perimeter alarm or something too for overnight or when she is away. It's even scarier that it's maybe the neighbor than if it were just a random series of bad luck.

Curves is only 30 minutes, but it makes a huge difference doesn't it?

I'm glad you're feeling better, even if it does mean a slight regain.

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EILEA73 1/30/2013 8:36AM

    The good news is--you are still DOWN!! emoticon
I was thinking of joining Curves--how do you like it? Yikes, that's scary about your MIL's house. Have they considered placing cameras? It stinks to have to go to that length and hopefully the break-ins stop.

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Hope you enjoy the rest of your week!

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JULIETTECAKE 1/30/2013 7:33AM

    The four pound loss was not a fluke, but probably fluid loss due to being ill. So, of course when you began to eat normal it came back. Still, you did NOT regain the entire 2 pounds and that does count as a loss. When life calms down the weight will drop off again, but not as fluid as fat. I think finding the right balance, especially during winter time is hard. It's hard for me too, but we can both do it!

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TINADEE86 1/30/2013 6:41AM

    I know all about a crazy week. Don't give up! I had mouth surgery a week ago.Couldn't eat anything but soft foods. and I only lost 1 lb. I thought it should have been more. You and I wll both get this moving again! we can do this! Hope you have a Great rest of the week! Smile! i'm here for you!

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