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A few realizations

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Lately I've felt like I've been working so hard, but getting so little done -- nothing to do with weight loss at all, just RL. At the end of the day I don't feel like I've accomplished much, yet I'm exhausted.

I had a light bulb moment yesterday. I think a large part of this has to do with the fact that I'm living with my husband again. Yup, he's a time suck. Leftovers went a whole lot farther when it was just me, so I didn't have to cook as much. Or clean as much -- I swear that man is almost incapable of washing a pot (but I love him for the fact that he will cook for himself, sometimes). There are the little errands he throws into my days (like dropping off his dry cleaning). And, of course, there's just spending time with him.

Don't get me wrong, I know after spending more than a year apart that I wanted to be a couple again. It's just nice to realize why I so often feel like I work so hard, yet accomplish so little (sort of like weight loss sometimes).

A few ramblings:

I still have one more pound until I can take my 30 lbs lost photo. I'm trying to mind my BLTs this week, because I think I let them get a little out of hand last week, which may explain why I didn't lose as much as I wanted to.

I hope I like the photo. Lately I've been looking in the mirror and thinking "damn! who is that small person?". Yet technically I'm still almost 20 lbs overweight. Weird!

My almost passing out on the treadmill on Monday was almost definitely due to fasting (duh!). At that point the only meal I'd missed was breakfast, but I need my fuel! My 2 others runs went much better; in fact, the only time I walked was during my warmup and cooldown. My hamstring bothered me after my run on Wednesday, which was weird, but is totally fine after yesterday's run.

Oh, and I am so totally in love with the chocolate mousse recipe from "The Flat Belly Diet". I won't list other people's recipes, but you can always take a look at the cookbook (you don't have to buy it!). It's really simple, and just has tofu, chocolate, vanilla & almond extract, and a little yogurt. The texture really is mousse-like, altho it doesn't quite taste like mousse -- but it's still good! I think a little sweetener would actually make it divine, and once I get down to my GW I might add some, but it's still pretty good without it.

And I was so glad I had some waiting for me after my run yesterday! It was already dinner time and I still had to make dinner, but I sure needed something. So dessert before dinner sometimes works!

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KARBIE18 10/3/2009 9:24AM

    That's so funny that you call DH a time suck - that's exactly what I call mine! Sounds bad, but that's exactly what he is.

Congrats on the 29 pounds you've already lost - you are the definition of a success story! I can't wait to see the picture either.

That mousse sounds heavenly! I'll have to try it.

By the way, I didn't get your message on my status until I got home from the store, but that's exactly what I did - got lots of stuff for soup. Great minds think alike!

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 10/3/2009 9:23AM

    It would be quite an adjustment after living on your own for so long. One more person can make a lot of difference when you are use to something else. Glad to hear your running is going to well - you rock! :)

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KEAKMAN 10/3/2009 8:56AM

    I can't wait to see that "30 pounds lost" photo! I am hoping hoping hoping that you return from vacation and find that you have reached that milestone. (honey, we need to go on vacation again so I can lose more weight!)

Scott and I have realized (after being married over 12 years!) that we were single people for so long that we still need to be single people sometimes. Not that we don't LOVE spending time together, but I NEED him to be gone a few evenings a week and he NEEDS me to be gone a few mornings a week. We both use that time to do what we want to do, with the music up loud or not, in our jammies or not, just being selfish I guess, but it works for us. Once we got over the feeling guilty about it and admitted that we work better that way, we love our together times even more.

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BIKERDIANE 10/3/2009 6:28AM

    I just bought the flatbelly pocketbook yesterday! I will have to try the mousse!

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Monkey see, monkey do?

Friday, October 02, 2009

My husband often kids me that my gravestone ought to say "but it was on sale!". I'm thinking "there's always room for dessert" is actually more me. Or maybe both.

When we went out to lunch on Wednesday, turns out he had a coupon for a free dessert -- if you sign up for whatever Fridays calls its club, you get that in the month of your birthday. He asked me if I wanted dessert -- we don't get dessert all that often, there's usually home baked stuff at home, but when we do get it, we share it.

I said no. I'd much rather eat something I've baked, where I know what went into it (and just how good it is) than something that has a gazillion calories. Not that Fridays' desserts aren't good; they are. And I'm not into deprivation, either, we're still slowly working our way through his birthday cupcakes.

I told him maybe I'd have a few bites if he ordered it, and that he could choose it. Which should be a treat for him -- I'm the one who always chooses dessert, and it isn't usually something he would choose.

In the end, he gave the certificate to the table next to us (total strangers). Apparently if I wasn't willing to have some, he didn't want it either. He's not all about sweets the way I am, although he does enjoy them.

I'm not sure if this was a case of good habits rubbing off, or not wanting to corrupt me.

I do eat dessert out occasionally, though. Everything has its place. This week just wasn't the time for it.

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STARTSPARKING 10/2/2009 10:28PM

    My hat's off to you and your husband for making such a sensible choice. That was awfully nice of your husband to give the certificate to the next table. Keep up your great work. You are lucky to have such a supportive husband, and he is fortunate to have such a good role model in you.

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DDHEART 10/2/2009 6:22PM

    Whatever the reason......good going husband of yours!

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LEONALIONESS 10/2/2009 10:00AM

    My waistline is VERY lucky that 99% of places don't have vegan desserts on the menu. Ha! That said, in the rare instance I'm out someplace that *does* have vegan cake I absolutely cannot resist. It's just sooooo rare and I am weak. Hee.

Good for you (and Hubby!) on making a healthy choice.
Oh gosh, I love me some cake. But cookies or brownies are what's been calling my name lately. I make my stuff with prune puree instead of oil and have been playing with reducing the recipes sugar amounts anywhere from 1/2 to 3/4 (depending on the recipe) to help reduce calories. Banana bread muffins survived a reduction in oil by 50% and a 75% sugar cut really well. Mmmm.

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    Good job!

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 10/2/2009 9:04AM

    Wow that's great and I'm sure your 'neighbors' were surprised and appreciated it. :)

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KEAKMAN 10/2/2009 9:00AM

    What a classy thing to do! He didn't try to force/weasle you into doing it "his" way, AND he gave the coupon to someone else (let THEM get their arteries all clogged!)

I so admire your ability to have just a few bites when it comes to desserts....I love them, the ooey-gooey-er the better, and it would be very difficult to stop after a few tastes.

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SEKSUNSHINE 10/2/2009 8:48AM

    I think that was very nice of him. He is truly thinking of you and that was a sign of respect for how hard you are working! Kudos to hubby! emoticon

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That magic number

Thursday, October 01, 2009

I'm not talking about your GW, or even what you want to weigh this week (altho we'll get to that in my rambling way). I'm talking about that magic number we all don't want to go over. We all have one, and at some time or another, we've probably gone over it. I know I sure did!

So I'm going to put it here in black & white so to speak, to be accountable: I don't want to go over 140 again. I'm barely under it, so there's a pretty good chance I might with this upcoming vacation. But here's what I know: even if I do, I have the tools to get it back under 140 and to keep it there.

I may still in reality be 20 lbs overweight at 140, but I like the way I look. I feel more confident, a tad more outgoing.

So I lost a little weight this week, but not nearly as much as hoped for. Not sure why, there could be any number of reasons, but nothing stands out like a sore thumb to me. Altho in WW parlance, I am now at 18 points; you can't go lower than that. Would 19 points suit my body better? I'm curious. I think I'm going to try & stick with 19 points this week (plus my WPs & APs), and see what happens. 1 measly little point a day doesn't seem like much, but it adds up to 7 points a week. I'm pretty active . . . so we'll see.

Still, despite saying the number wasn't what I wanted, it is: I'm still in the 130s. The only reason I'd really like to lose a couple of pounds before I leave is to give myself some wiggle room. I'd love to come back still in the 130s, but I know myself. I'll walk a lot, but I'll probably spend at least a few days relaxing -- not to mention all the traveling between cities and countries where I won't be able to get much exercise.

I used to think I didn't gain weight on vacations, but this past year of being on WW has proven me to be wrong. I don't usually gain a lot, but those little bits add up. So just knowing I have the accountability of weighing in each week helps.

OTOH, I can already feel the siren call of winter calling. It's been chilly the last couple of days. In fact, I bought 2 new yummy teas yesterday (both Republic of Tea, which I like): Double chocolate yerba mate and Chocolate coconut. Yum! Not all chocolate teas are good, but I really liked both.

The first time I lost weight with WW I lived in VT, worked full time, and didn't have a treadmill (altho we did get an exercise bike eventually). So I know I can do it. It's just been a long time since I had to deal with a real winter.

It is so much easier to be a couch potato in winter, tho. I've been feeling a bit less energized lately -- not really less motivated, less energized. I don't know if it has to do with this cold (which is getting better, slowly) or the shortening days. But I also love the brisk days of fall. My mom said she hates this time of year, because of the short days, but I love it. Winter is a different story.

So am I being obsessive about vacation and weight? You betcha. Another fine line to walk, and one I don't traditionally walk very well. My husband & I enjoy movies, and we tend to watch the ones we like over & over again. Til we have some favorite quotes. At lunch yesterday, he quoted me a line from "Independence day": enough with the fat lady. You're obsessed with the fat lady (it goes something like that, anyway).

What he doesn't get is that I do have be somewhat obsessed. I know how easy it is for me to gain weight even when I'm being vigilant . . . and just how very long it can take to lose a few pounds.

Still, it came to me today: we do have to plan. We do have to think about what we'll to be successful. But in the end, we have to live in the present or our life will pass us by. What will happen on vacation is my future, what happens right now, right this very minute is what really counts.

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DDHEART 10/1/2009 5:59PM

    We do need to obsess a bit.....we've been there ,done that and bought the t-shirt in a larger size to prove it so yes we do need to obsess a bit, but I like the way you have come to the point at the end of recognising that what happens right now is what counts. Go, have a great time and when you come back if the scale is up a bit get back to basics. emoticon

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 10/1/2009 2:02PM

    I support you 100% - living in the now is good, with an eye on the future. As they say, "fail to plan, plan to fail". I hope you have an awesome vacation - you deserve it!

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KEAKMAN 10/1/2009 12:52PM

    Sorry about another quote, but this relates to your final paragraph, "But in the end, we have to live in the present or our life will pass us by. What will happen on vacation is my future, what happens right now, right this very minute is what really counts." I like that a lot, and I just happened to read a similar thought today...

"The proper function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them. I shall use my time."
Jack London

Hmmm, if you AND Jack London are saying the same thing to me, maybe I had better listen!

Anyway, I like to idea of trying one extra point....I have been reading a lot lately about exercise and weight loss and NOT eating enough. It is hard to say, yes, I will eat 19 points (or for me 2000 calories) and not get frantic about it. But maybe that is what our bodies need.

Best wishes. You are wise and thoughtful, and I know you will do well. (and I am REALLY trying not to be jealous of your trip....can not WAIT to hear all about it!)

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No easy answers, but simple solutions

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

I don't think there's any one answer to our obesity crisis. I think there are many causes: processed foods, social disconnect, lack of nutrition education, sedentary lifestyles -- the list goes on and on, and the reasons are different for everyone.

There ARE some simple solutions, although simple doesn't mean easy. If it were easy, everyone would do it. If it were easy, we'd never regain weight.

But here's one simple solution (that isn't easy) that I've blogged about many times already: get the junk out. The processed foods. Yes, they're very, very convenient, but boy oh boy, they really are evil. Even most of the good ones.

A funny thing happens when you eat mostly real food: your tastes really do change. It happens slowly, but suddenly you realize that something you used to crave no longer satisfies you or tastes all that good. I find that happening more and more these days.

Take Larabars, for instance. Of course they aren't real food either, but they're damn close. Read the ingredient list. There's often only 3 ingredients! I didn't used to much like them. They weren't sweet enough, there's no "real" chocolate (aka chocolate chips or a chocolate coating). Yet upon recently trying them, I find that they really are satisfying.

Don't get me wrong; I will always love me some high fat, highly sweet dessert. It's in the genes. I even still wish I could have one every single night. But the payoff for eating healthy and getting healthy really is even sweeter. It takes time, and it's hard, but it's oh so worth it.

I've eaten healthy for a long time, but there's always room for improvement. I used to rely pretty heavily on Amy's frozen foods, and nice wraps from Whole Foods. Now I make almost all my own meals. Yes, I don't work, and that does give me more time. Someday I'm pretty sure I'll be working again, most likely part time. It will be harder, but I know that making my own meals from scratch is necessary to my healthy lifestyle.

My husband and I butt heads over this frequently. He likes highly processed foods and fast foods. And if he wants them, he's got to go out and get them himself. I won't enable him. Which is why I don't buy his soda, either.

Do you have a simple solution?

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 9/30/2009 10:41PM

    I agree but I like to call it 'clean' eating. I just feel better if I eat unprocessed foods now. If I do eat a processed food, my body knows it and then I suffer. It is a strange thing what our bodies adjusts to isn't it? I don't think there is a simple solution - it's an overall solution really - changing both physical and mental attitudes towards getting healthy. I wish there was a simple solution - it sure would make it a lot easier and yes, you're right if there was a simple solution there would not be an obesity crisis.

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LEONALIONESS 9/30/2009 10:49AM


I only get processed food from WFM, so I at least feel like that's a big leap over conventional brands. No artificial crap or hydrogenated oils, at the very least.

I've been doing more cooking lately due to being broke all the time all of a sudden. I have bought things like pre-made seitan (because I didn't plan ahead!) but I also usually make my own seitan. I've pickled beets this week, I've dried my own fruit, made my own pickles and experimented with making soy milk. I want to make almond milk, too, once I have some money for almonds and cheesecloth. I make biscuits, soups, muffins, etc. from scratch. I make homemade caramel and the occasional PB cup. Ha. I found a salt water taffy recipe that I MUST do. I haven't had it in seven years(!)

I need to start making my own bread, as well. I have a bread machine, I just need to find some vegan recipes. Oddly enough, the book that came with the machine calls for stinking dry milk in most recipes. Milk in bread? What? Um, no. Gross. I really really want an ice cream maker so I can try making my own ice cream. No one makes the flavors I want commercially (pumpkin! pistachio!) so I intend to do it myself!

There will always be a place for processed food in my life. I enjoy vegan jerky and that amazing Sheese vegan cheese too much. I think, in some respects, the whole vegan thing makes it a tiny bit harder. For omnis, real cheese that isn't something like Kraft counts as 'clean'. If I want cheese and don't want to involve cows, I have to do a vegan processed version. Sheese is clean by WFM standards, so it's WAY above omni "processed cheese food" like Velveeta or Kraft singles but it's more processed than dairy cheese. I'd much rather eat processed foods, personally, than animal products, though, so it's a trade off I'm willing to make. :) I just do it moderately ('cause that Sheese is pricey and I need to mail order it!!!)

Yes, I could eat only fruit, veggies, grains, beans, etc. all day, every day but I really don't want to. Just like I could try raw veganism but don't want to. I like mock meats and I like good vegan cheese and I like soy ice cream. I shouldn't have to give up a taste I like just to wear the 'clean' label (not directed at you, I'm thinking about the other vegans who are big into how clean they are). There is this huge sort of contest amongst some vegans to see who can be more 'pure' and lord it over all the so called 'junk food vegans'... It's tiresome. Ugh. Sometimes, when talking to other vegans online, I know why omnis want to pound us. LOL.

Sorry, I went all freeformy and off topic.
Good blog!

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KEAKMAN 9/30/2009 8:51AM

    My simple solution is similar to yours...no junk in the house. I make what we eat (except for when we eat out). And because we are really trying super hard to get our house paid off ASAP, we are on a tight budget, so that limits our eating out (a bit). I like cooking, when I have time to do it well and carefully, and with my new fall schedule (Tuesdays and Thursdays semi-off) I have more time to cook.

You are right..."simple" does not equal "easy" but it isn't hard to do. And Scott likes anything I cook, or will try it, and knows that my feelings don't get hurt if what i make isn't so great. The rule is "tell me if you like or don't like it - I can't read your mind, and I might make it again and you'll be stuck eating it!"

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Exercise addiction

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Well, exercise is a truly funny thing -- it can be addictive in a good way AND it can be addictive in a bad way. I tend to push myself hard before vacations. I want to be in the best shape I can be. Yesterday was a prime example -- it was Yom Kippur, the holiest holiday on the Jewish calendar. Only we don't spend it in synagogue.

Normally I would not have exercised at all, except for the ever-present dog walking duties. But with just 2 weeks to a vacation, I wasn't willing to skip my routine. Despite not eating (but drinking plenty of water).

And so I had a short run on the treadmill yesterday. I made sure to do it relatively early in the day, before lack of food really kicked in. I'd already drunk 4 glasses of water. And yet, I had to get off the treadmill and put my head between my knees before my last running interval (right now I'm running 3 minutes, walking 1). And yes, I got back on and finished, which was probably stupid -- but I was okay.

I know people do run on empty stomachs, but apparently I really do need my fuel. It's funny, I drank my normal amount of liquid, and I still got a headache by the end of the day.

Right now my goal is to hopefully drop a couple of pounds before I leave -- actually 3 or 4 would be nice, but I doubt that will happen; even a couple is dicey. But I'd love to be in the 130s still when I come back. Which will be hard -- I mean, Germany, Czechoslovakia, and Austria aren't exactly known for their healthy food. How many veggies will I be able to get in? I'm so used to eating lots of veggies. What about fruits (altho I can, and plan to, bring some dried fruit -- probably not 2 weeks' worth, tho).

I've settled into a MWF running routine because that way I don't have to worry about commandeering the tv while my husband is home. I could have just done a different routine this week -- but I chose not to. Probably pretty silly on my part.

But exercise has its benefits, too. I bought one of those vertical, multi-tiered shoe racks for my shoes a while ago. I wanted one for our office, too (which is where we take the dogs outside from, and I change shoes when I go outside).

We took the dogs for an evening walk yesterday, and lo & behold, someone was throwing one out. So I took it. And those things are HEAVY. I'd guestimate 15 lbs. It sure felt heavier than the dogs, who weigh about 10 lbs. And I carried it all the way home. Maybe 1/4 mile. Worth it tho!

So, exercise can be a very good thing, but we do have to watch out that we don't become too obsessive about it.

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DDHEART 9/29/2009 9:13PM

    I'm going to miss your updates while you're gone...I'm assuming that your ability to get on line will decrease if it's not altogether MIA. I think since you are so focused you will find ways to get some exercise in even if it isn't your usual and I'm hoping you'll find some surprises when it comes to food. Seems like when I expect it to be hardest the world surprises me and it's easier than I expect....when we were in New Zealand a couple of years ago, I discovered that good yogurt and mueslix or granola were frequently available for me and I took advantage of it at every opportunity.....maybe you'll make a lovely discovery and find a new love. Anyway, don't stress too much and don't obsess....this is a vacation and you should enjoy. emoticon

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 9/29/2009 7:21PM

    Way to go! I'm impressed :)

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KEAKMAN 9/29/2009 9:15AM

    Glad you were able to finish your run without any ill effects! (you know, this means you are a "runner" - if you are determined to finish a run, despite illness and no nutrition, you qualify!)

And congrats for being so tough - it would have been easy to say "walking the dogs is my exercise" but not you! HOORAY! (and don't overdo it!)

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KARBIE18 9/29/2009 7:56AM

    Wow! Way to go getting that workout in, despite the lack of food. I took an exercise break, but I guess I don't have a trip to Europe as my inspiration. I'm sure you'll stay active and make the best choices you can. I would be surprised if you DIDN'T come back still in the 130s. As always, your dedication is inspiring.

Happy belated holiday,

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STARTSPARKING 9/29/2009 6:33AM

    Making sensible food choices consistently is still tough for me, but I've been doing well with my exercise regimen. I do agree that we have to make sure we are not too obsessive about it. I know some people would literally eat a sliver of cake and would feel guilty unless they work it off by doing extra exercises. As much as I love my exercise classes, I don't have a scheduled day off because usually something comes up. When that doesn't happen like last week and I end up making it to all the classes, I will take it easier by skipping a class or taking a day off. Today I will deliberately skip the boot camp class because my body needs a little break.

Your upcoming travel plans sound marvelous. Have a great time, and I am sure you will still make good choices while you are on vacation.

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HEALTHY4JEANNE 9/29/2009 6:29AM

    And people think that I am determined. Whoa lady! You top me!

Good score on the shoe rack.

I am glad you made it through the day.
I am impressed you are planning your attack with the food for your vacation already.

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