Saturday, October 03, 2009
Lately I've felt like I've been working so hard, but getting so little done -- nothing to do with weight loss at all, just RL. At the end of the day I don't feel like I've accomplished much, yet I'm exhausted.
I had a light bulb moment yesterday. I think a large part of this has to do with the fact that I'm living with my husband again. Yup, he's a time suck. Leftovers went a whole lot farther when it was just me, so I didn't have to cook as much. Or clean as much -- I swear that man is almost incapable of washing a pot (but I love him for the fact that he will cook for himself, sometimes). There are the little errands he throws into my days (like dropping off his dry cleaning). And, of course, there's just spending time with him.
Don't get me wrong, I know after spending more than a year apart that I wanted to be a couple again. It's just nice to realize why I so often feel like I work so hard, yet accomplish so little (sort of like weight loss sometimes).
A few ramblings:
I still have one more pound until I can take my 30 lbs lost photo. I'm trying to mind my BLTs this week, because I think I let them get a little out of hand last week, which may explain why I didn't lose as much as I wanted to.
I hope I like the photo. Lately I've been looking in the mirror and thinking "damn! who is that small person?". Yet technically I'm still almost 20 lbs overweight. Weird!
My almost passing out on the treadmill on Monday was almost definitely due to fasting (duh!). At that point the only meal I'd missed was breakfast, but I need my fuel! My 2 others runs went much better; in fact, the only time I walked was during my warmup and cooldown. My hamstring bothered me after my run on Wednesday, which was weird, but is totally fine after yesterday's run.
Oh, and I am so totally in love with the chocolate mousse recipe from "The Flat Belly Diet". I won't list other people's recipes, but you can always take a look at the cookbook (you don't have to buy it!). It's really simple, and just has tofu, chocolate, vanilla & almond extract, and a little yogurt. The texture really is mousse-like, altho it doesn't quite taste like mousse -- but it's still good! I think a little sweetener would actually make it divine, and once I get down to my GW I might add some, but it's still pretty good without it.
And I was so glad I had some waiting for me after my run yesterday! It was already dinner time and I still had to make dinner, but I sure needed something. So dessert before dinner sometimes works!
Friday, October 02, 2009
My husband often kids me that my gravestone ought to say "but it was on sale!". I'm thinking "there's always room for dessert" is actually more me. Or maybe both.
When we went out to lunch on Wednesday, turns out he had a coupon for a free dessert -- if you sign up for whatever Fridays calls its club, you get that in the month of your birthday. He asked me if I wanted dessert -- we don't get dessert all that often, there's usually home baked stuff at home, but when we do get it, we share it.
I said no. I'd much rather eat something I've baked, where I know what went into it (and just how good it is) than something that has a gazillion calories. Not that Fridays' desserts aren't good; they are. And I'm not into deprivation, either, we're still slowly working our way through his birthday cupcakes.
I told him maybe I'd have a few bites if he ordered it, and that he could choose it. Which should be a treat for him -- I'm the one who always chooses dessert, and it isn't usually something he would choose.
In the end, he gave the certificate to the table next to us (total strangers). Apparently if I wasn't willing to have some, he didn't want it either. He's not all about sweets the way I am, although he does enjoy them.
I'm not sure if this was a case of good habits rubbing off, or not wanting to corrupt me.
I do eat dessert out occasionally, though. Everything has its place. This week just wasn't the time for it.
Thursday, October 01, 2009
I'm not talking about your GW, or even what you want to weigh this week (altho we'll get to that in my rambling way). I'm talking about that magic number we all don't want to go over. We all have one, and at some time or another, we've probably gone over it. I know I sure did!
So I'm going to put it here in black & white so to speak, to be accountable: I don't want to go over 140 again. I'm barely under it, so there's a pretty good chance I might with this upcoming vacation. But here's what I know: even if I do, I have the tools to get it back under 140 and to keep it there.
I may still in reality be 20 lbs overweight at 140, but I like the way I look. I feel more confident, a tad more outgoing.
So I lost a little weight this week, but not nearly as much as hoped for. Not sure why, there could be any number of reasons, but nothing stands out like a sore thumb to me. Altho in WW parlance, I am now at 18 points; you can't go lower than that. Would 19 points suit my body better? I'm curious. I think I'm going to try & stick with 19 points this week (plus my WPs & APs), and see what happens. 1 measly little point a day doesn't seem like much, but it adds up to 7 points a week. I'm pretty active . . . so we'll see.
Still, despite saying the number wasn't what I wanted, it is: I'm still in the 130s. The only reason I'd really like to lose a couple of pounds before I leave is to give myself some wiggle room. I'd love to come back still in the 130s, but I know myself. I'll walk a lot, but I'll probably spend at least a few days relaxing -- not to mention all the traveling between cities and countries where I won't be able to get much exercise.
I used to think I didn't gain weight on vacations, but this past year of being on WW has proven me to be wrong. I don't usually gain a lot, but those little bits add up. So just knowing I have the accountability of weighing in each week helps.
OTOH, I can already feel the siren call of winter calling. It's been chilly the last couple of days. In fact, I bought 2 new yummy teas yesterday (both Republic of Tea, which I like): Double chocolate yerba mate and Chocolate coconut. Yum! Not all chocolate teas are good, but I really liked both.
The first time I lost weight with WW I lived in VT, worked full time, and didn't have a treadmill (altho we did get an exercise bike eventually). So I know I can do it. It's just been a long time since I had to deal with a real winter.
It is so much easier to be a couch potato in winter, tho. I've been feeling a bit less energized lately -- not really less motivated, less energized. I don't know if it has to do with this cold (which is getting better, slowly) or the shortening days. But I also love the brisk days of fall. My mom said she hates this time of year, because of the short days, but I love it. Winter is a different story.
So am I being obsessive about vacation and weight? You betcha. Another fine line to walk, and one I don't traditionally walk very well. My husband & I enjoy movies, and we tend to watch the ones we like over & over again. Til we have some favorite quotes. At lunch yesterday, he quoted me a line from "Independence day": enough with the fat lady. You're obsessed with the fat lady (it goes something like that, anyway).
What he doesn't get is that I do have be somewhat obsessed. I know how easy it is for me to gain weight even when I'm being vigilant . . . and just how very long it can take to lose a few pounds.
Still, it came to me today: we do have to plan. We do have to think about what we'll to be successful. But in the end, we have to live in the present or our life will pass us by. What will happen on vacation is my future, what happens right now, right this very minute is what really counts.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
I don't think there's any one answer to our obesity crisis. I think there are many causes: processed foods, social disconnect, lack of nutrition education, sedentary lifestyles -- the list goes on and on, and the reasons are different for everyone.
There ARE some simple solutions, although simple doesn't mean easy. If it were easy, everyone would do it. If it were easy, we'd never regain weight.
But here's one simple solution (that isn't easy) that I've blogged about many times already: get the junk out. The processed foods. Yes, they're very, very convenient, but boy oh boy, they really are evil. Even most of the good ones.
A funny thing happens when you eat mostly real food: your tastes really do change. It happens slowly, but suddenly you realize that something you used to crave no longer satisfies you or tastes all that good. I find that happening more and more these days.
Take Larabars, for instance. Of course they aren't real food either, but they're damn close. Read the ingredient list. There's often only 3 ingredients! I didn't used to much like them. They weren't sweet enough, there's no "real" chocolate (aka chocolate chips or a chocolate coating). Yet upon recently trying them, I find that they really are satisfying.
Don't get me wrong; I will always love me some high fat, highly sweet dessert. It's in the genes. I even still wish I could have one every single night. But the payoff for eating healthy and getting healthy really is even sweeter. It takes time, and it's hard, but it's oh so worth it.
I've eaten healthy for a long time, but there's always room for improvement. I used to rely pretty heavily on Amy's frozen foods, and nice wraps from Whole Foods. Now I make almost all my own meals. Yes, I don't work, and that does give me more time. Someday I'm pretty sure I'll be working again, most likely part time. It will be harder, but I know that making my own meals from scratch is necessary to my healthy lifestyle.
My husband and I butt heads over this frequently. He likes highly processed foods and fast foods. And if he wants them, he's got to go out and get them himself. I won't enable him. Which is why I don't buy his soda, either.
Do you have a simple solution?
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Well, exercise is a truly funny thing -- it can be addictive in a good way AND it can be addictive in a bad way. I tend to push myself hard before vacations. I want to be in the best shape I can be. Yesterday was a prime example -- it was Yom Kippur, the holiest holiday on the Jewish calendar. Only we don't spend it in synagogue.
Normally I would not have exercised at all, except for the ever-present dog walking duties. But with just 2 weeks to a vacation, I wasn't willing to skip my routine. Despite not eating (but drinking plenty of water).
And so I had a short run on the treadmill yesterday. I made sure to do it relatively early in the day, before lack of food really kicked in. I'd already drunk 4 glasses of water. And yet, I had to get off the treadmill and put my head between my knees before my last running interval (right now I'm running 3 minutes, walking 1). And yes, I got back on and finished, which was probably stupid -- but I was okay.
I know people do run on empty stomachs, but apparently I really do need my fuel. It's funny, I drank my normal amount of liquid, and I still got a headache by the end of the day.
Right now my goal is to hopefully drop a couple of pounds before I leave -- actually 3 or 4 would be nice, but I doubt that will happen; even a couple is dicey. But I'd love to be in the 130s still when I come back. Which will be hard -- I mean, Germany, Czechoslovakia, and Austria aren't exactly known for their healthy food. How many veggies will I be able to get in? I'm so used to eating lots of veggies. What about fruits (altho I can, and plan to, bring some dried fruit -- probably not 2 weeks' worth, tho).
I've settled into a MWF running routine because that way I don't have to worry about commandeering the tv while my husband is home. I could have just done a different routine this week -- but I chose not to. Probably pretty silly on my part.
But exercise has its benefits, too. I bought one of those vertical, multi-tiered shoe racks for my shoes a while ago. I wanted one for our office, too (which is where we take the dogs outside from, and I change shoes when I go outside).
We took the dogs for an evening walk yesterday, and lo & behold, someone was throwing one out. So I took it. And those things are HEAVY. I'd guestimate 15 lbs. It sure felt heavier than the dogs, who weigh about 10 lbs. And I carried it all the way home. Maybe 1/4 mile. Worth it tho!
So, exercise can be a very good thing, but we do have to watch out that we don't become too obsessive about it.
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