JLITT62   52,035
50,000-59,999 SparkPoints
JLITT62's Recent Blog Entries

Exercise addiction

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Well, exercise is a truly funny thing -- it can be addictive in a good way AND it can be addictive in a bad way. I tend to push myself hard before vacations. I want to be in the best shape I can be. Yesterday was a prime example -- it was Yom Kippur, the holiest holiday on the Jewish calendar. Only we don't spend it in synagogue.

Normally I would not have exercised at all, except for the ever-present dog walking duties. But with just 2 weeks to a vacation, I wasn't willing to skip my routine. Despite not eating (but drinking plenty of water).

And so I had a short run on the treadmill yesterday. I made sure to do it relatively early in the day, before lack of food really kicked in. I'd already drunk 4 glasses of water. And yet, I had to get off the treadmill and put my head between my knees before my last running interval (right now I'm running 3 minutes, walking 1). And yes, I got back on and finished, which was probably stupid -- but I was okay.

I know people do run on empty stomachs, but apparently I really do need my fuel. It's funny, I drank my normal amount of liquid, and I still got a headache by the end of the day.

Right now my goal is to hopefully drop a couple of pounds before I leave -- actually 3 or 4 would be nice, but I doubt that will happen; even a couple is dicey. But I'd love to be in the 130s still when I come back. Which will be hard -- I mean, Germany, Czechoslovakia, and Austria aren't exactly known for their healthy food. How many veggies will I be able to get in? I'm so used to eating lots of veggies. What about fruits (altho I can, and plan to, bring some dried fruit -- probably not 2 weeks' worth, tho).

I've settled into a MWF running routine because that way I don't have to worry about commandeering the tv while my husband is home. I could have just done a different routine this week -- but I chose not to. Probably pretty silly on my part.

But exercise has its benefits, too. I bought one of those vertical, multi-tiered shoe racks for my shoes a while ago. I wanted one for our office, too (which is where we take the dogs outside from, and I change shoes when I go outside).

We took the dogs for an evening walk yesterday, and lo & behold, someone was throwing one out. So I took it. And those things are HEAVY. I'd guestimate 15 lbs. It sure felt heavier than the dogs, who weigh about 10 lbs. And I carried it all the way home. Maybe 1/4 mile. Worth it tho!

So, exercise can be a very good thing, but we do have to watch out that we don't become too obsessive about it.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

DDHEART 9/29/2009 9:13PM

    I'm going to miss your updates while you're gone...I'm assuming that your ability to get on line will decrease if it's not altogether MIA. I think since you are so focused you will find ways to get some exercise in even if it isn't your usual and I'm hoping you'll find some surprises when it comes to food. Seems like when I expect it to be hardest the world surprises me and it's easier than I expect....when we were in New Zealand a couple of years ago, I discovered that good yogurt and mueslix or granola were frequently available for me and I took advantage of it at every opportunity.....maybe you'll make a lovely discovery and find a new love. Anyway, don't stress too much and don't obsess....this is a vacation and you should enjoy. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MOMMA_GRIZZ 9/29/2009 7:21PM

    Way to go! I'm impressed :)

Report Inappropriate Comment
KEAKMAN 9/29/2009 9:15AM

    Glad you were able to finish your run without any ill effects! (you know, this means you are a "runner" - if you are determined to finish a run, despite illness and no nutrition, you qualify!)

And congrats for being so tough - it would have been easy to say "walking the dogs is my exercise" but not you! HOORAY! (and don't overdo it!)

Report Inappropriate Comment
KARBIE18 9/29/2009 7:56AM

    Wow! Way to go getting that workout in, despite the lack of food. I took an exercise break, but I guess I don't have a trip to Europe as my inspiration. I'm sure you'll stay active and make the best choices you can. I would be surprised if you DIDN'T come back still in the 130s. As always, your dedication is inspiring.

Happy belated holiday,

Report Inappropriate Comment
STARTSPARKING 9/29/2009 6:33AM

    Making sensible food choices consistently is still tough for me, but I've been doing well with my exercise regimen. I do agree that we have to make sure we are not too obsessive about it. I know some people would literally eat a sliver of cake and would feel guilty unless they work it off by doing extra exercises. As much as I love my exercise classes, I don't have a scheduled day off because usually something comes up. When that doesn't happen like last week and I end up making it to all the classes, I will take it easier by skipping a class or taking a day off. Today I will deliberately skip the boot camp class because my body needs a little break.

Your upcoming travel plans sound marvelous. Have a great time, and I am sure you will still make good choices while you are on vacation.

Report Inappropriate Comment
HEALTHY4JEANNE 9/29/2009 6:29AM

    And people think that I am determined. Whoa lady! You top me!

Good score on the shoe rack.

I am glad you made it through the day.
I am impressed you are planning your attack with the food for your vacation already.

Report Inappropriate Comment

Self awareness vs. narcissism

Friday, September 25, 2009

Like so much in life, it seems like there's a fine line between being aware of how you present yourself, and being narcissistic. Sometimes I wonder if I've crossed the line. Sometimes it feels like all I think about is how I look!

I do know this, tho: unless you live alone, you have to be selfish to lose weight. It's true -- you've got to stand up for the things that you need, the foods you do or don't want in your house, your "me" time, and so much more.

Yet it's time well invested for everyone. Not always easy to convince the others of that, but when you become healthier, you are able to give more of yourself in return.

Yet I feel sometimes as if losing weight has become my job. I still spend so much time thinking about how I look . . . is that wrong? When do you cross the line?

I think about my MIL & my SIL, who between taking care of my FIL & my nieces and nephews, barely have time to themselves. And I have almost nothing but time to myself. When I'm not taking care of DH or the animals, of course, which also occupies much of my time. Still, if I were in their shoes, I wouldn't have so much time to exercise, to prepare healthy meals, etc.

And I suppose that just means that I need to be thankful for what I do have -- and I am. I am a lucky person.

I've been on something of a buying binge lately. It's deliberate, and thought-out, not impulse buying. I've lost almost 30 lbs -- only 1 lb away from that -- and yes, my body has changed quite a bit. I'll get DH to take a photo for a before/after comparison when I hit those 30 lbs gone. I am spending some of the money I saved while I was working, but it's still hard to do sometimes when you aren't currently working.

I still plan to lose another 10. Which would probably still leave me about 10 lbs overweight, but I think it's a good weight for me, hopefully one I can maintain, and from everything I've read, those extra 10 lbs will help me make an easier transition through menopause when it hits. I hope so anyway!

So I guess you do need to be at least a little bit narcissistic to lose weight. And it's something you have to hold onto after you've lost the weight, too. Because losing yourself in others is part of what lands a lot of us here in the first place. We have to keep the spark alive, thru good times and bad, and remember that we always have to put on our oxygen mask first before helping others with theirs.

On the good news front, I will be going to Vienna with my husband. It's going to be a whirlwind of planes & trains (but probably no automobiles). I've always wanted to go to Austria. I didn't think my husband had been there, but apparently he's been there once before -- but just very briefly, and this time at least he'll get to play tourist just a little.

I am hoping to get a short run in today. I probably shouldn't, should probably just rest, but it's my last day for vigorous exercise this week & it's just half an hour. Surely half an hour would be helpful, not hurtful, right? I have the rest of the weekend to rest up in. And I'm probably spending most of today on the couch anyway, after I walk the dogs.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

THINMOM2BE 9/25/2009 9:47PM

    Wow - this is soooo true! I think that we must be focused on our self, and our appearance in order to be motivated to make changes. How many times have I heard an obese person say, "Oh, I hate the mirror, and I hate pictures". THAT, my friend is denial. Once you get past that, it's a HUGE revelation that some drastic measures must be taken.

We wouldn't be here sparkin' together if we never focused on ourself. And to be successful, we MUST carve out some "me" time. It's the only way.

I do have busy days occasionally when I can't exercise, but I'm OK with that because this is life! I just make sure that EVERY day that I can squeeze in some time for ME to exercise, I do it.

I'm green with envy over your upcoming trip. Have a GREAT time!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MOMMA_GRIZZ 9/25/2009 8:02PM

    "losing yourself in others is part of what lands a lot of us here in the first place" - how true. I need my 'me' time just to focus on myself and this journey.

Have a wonderful time in Austria - lucky girl! Enjoy :)

Report Inappropriate Comment
MTER67 9/25/2009 5:52PM

    I am not sure if taking care of yourself and caring about your appearance automatically translates into narcissism...I mean, could it? I think, too, it's a little bit like putting your own oxygen mask on before assisting others on an airplane--if nobody takes care of you, how are you going to take care of others?

You must be focused on your appearance, diet, exercise, etc., if you have any hope of being successful at weight-loss in the long term. So in that case, a little bit of narcissism is really good for everybody!

Have a great time in Austria--when do you go?

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDHEART 9/25/2009 10:07AM

    I loved this blog....as in everything else there is the difficulty of balance but you are so right, the losing of self is often what got us here and if we are to be able to give more we have to take more for ourselves. My parents were people who instilled a very strong sense that it was improper to be selfish and prideful....it's hard sometimes to separate some of those feelings with the natural pride of accomplishment of losing weight and gaining strength and fitness. Often my sparkfriends remind me that I should be proud and it is easy to see in our blogs that the time we spend running or whatever we do for ourselves is so restorative....that time to focus and think about what's important (and even what's not! LOL)

Congrats on your nearly hitting a goal...enjoy the shopping and even more enjoy your upcoming trip...I can't wait for the pictures and trip report!

Report Inappropriate Comment
KEAKMAN 9/25/2009 9:16AM

    First of all WOOHOO on the going to Vienna part! I am excited for you. After not getting a vacation in a year, you get a little one and then a (business) trip to Vienna. Sounds nice to me!

As for the self-aware vs. narcissistic.....great observations and mullings....I often worry that I am spending too much time on "me" But I argue that if I want to live long and healthily I must. Perhaps once I get a real, honest new lifestyle in place there won't be so much time devoted to thinking and planning, but running will always take some time out of my life.

But then, how much time am I NOT spending in front of the TV, etc? So I think it all balances out fine.

Happy shopping!

Report Inappropriate Comment

My pre-vacation goals (warning: rambling ahead)

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Well, the big goal has already been met, sort of: to be in the 130s before I left (I am as of today). However, yesterday my throat was scratchy again, today I'm a bit sniffly & am losing my voice . . . seems like this cold isn't giving up as easily as I thought it would.

It's always puzzling to get sick when you're eating well & working out. Last time I was able to lose a little weight even with the cold; TOM is over. But I only have 2 WIs before I leave -- I might squeeze in an extra one, but it will be one that's less than a week. I'd really love to lose at least a couple of more pounds before I go, because I really can't imagine not gaining some weight. Especially since we might be tacking on a few more days.

DH has to go to a meeting in Vienna now. I told him I'd much rather go to Vienna than Dresden, personally, but he doesn't want me flying over by myself (altho I've almost always flown back from Europe by myself -- much nicer with someone tho, last time I was next to this lovey dovey couple making out almost the whole way back).

So DH is trying to extend my visit, altho it's very tricky with the flights. Not to mention leaving the animals that long. Not to mention being gone more than 2 weeks -- in Europe -- during TOM -- is a bit scary in & of itself. Not that I'm complaining, mind you. Trying to figure out how to pack the food I want to bring with me is a real challenge -- without checking anything.

I'm still totally loving the FBD (flat belly diet) cookbook. This really seems to be working for me. Do MUFAs (monounsaturated fatty acids) really make the difference? I don't know. All I know is that both DH & I have liked most of the recipes (and that is truly amazing, considering how different we are in what we enjoy foodwise). I've begun to seek out all Prevention's publications just so I can find new FBD recipes!

Today at my WW meeting there were little cards on every seat, basically asking people to consider becoming leaders/receptionists if they're at or near their GWs. I'm near mine, but not as near as they used to allow you to be before working there. I talked with my leader after the meeting anyway. As of today, I'm about 5 lbs away from being 2 lbs over my GW (confused yet?). Anyway, long story short is that she took my name & number, and had me also write down that I was a leader in another lifetime -- and seemed to think the fact that I'm available during the daytime might help also. So we'll see what happens there. Of course, I could gain next week, and I'm already expecting Europe to push me farther away again.

But I've got some concrete goals here, and a way of eating that seems to be working for me. Now if my health would just cooperate, maybe I could start earning a little money again. And then I wouldn't have to feel quite so guilty for all the clothes I've bought recently! But I've lost almost 30 lbs, and it was time to get more than just new jeans.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MOMMA_GRIZZ 9/24/2009 8:33PM

    Well it sounds like you are doing great - way to go! Aside from the cold - get better soon....do they have chicken soup in that recipe book perhaps? Hope you had a great day - sounds like you are - yeah!

Report Inappropriate Comment
KEEPSAKES66 9/24/2009 7:21PM

    hope the scratchy throat feel better

Report Inappropriate Comment
DDHEART 9/24/2009 4:00PM

    Well, I thoroughly enjoyed this ramble and I wish not only that you beat the scratchy throat but that all your vacation plans and weight goals are met as well. Since planning for a trip is stressful, let me urge you to make some serious you time with a nice warm cup of tea....concentrate on how well you've been doing and don't stress about how the WI's will go...you will have a wonderful time and I can't wait to hear all about it. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment

To everything there is a season

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Even after a year and a half, I'm constantly amazed at the brilliance of SP. Sparkguy is a visionary, that's for sure -- and too few people know about it! We do, of course, but I bet if you talk with you friends, most have never heard of SP (unless, of course, you've talked it up).

As I was unpacking yet more books yesterday, today's blog subject came to me. Unpacking happened in stages. First there was try to organize everything, and try to open the most important boxes first.

Then it became just put things anywhere just to get them out of boxes. Then it was just stack the boxes you knew you wouldn't be getting to somewhere they wouldn't be in the way -- you had most of them unpacked, anyway, and it was just time for a break. Unpacking boxes can get pretty boring after a month or so, after all.

Finally, it's time to tackle those last few boxes.

And we're back to why I think SP is so brilliant: the 4 stages. Baby steps are all well and good, but you need some proof of progress, too, and so Sparkguy created the 4 stages to go thru. You're all fired up at first, willing to do whatever has to be done. Eventually, your weight loss slows down and things become routine.

Maybe you fall off the wagon. You forget that it's a healthy lifestyle, and maybe you've become too restrictive and you get bored with what you're doing.

Finally, tho, you do whatever it takes to get the job done. You try new things, you push yourself a little harder, you begin to look at food in a whole new light like I blogged about yesterday.

Which was all well and good until the afternoon hit and I got the munchies. I hate it when my appetite doesn't go along with the plan, don't you? So much for fueling my body! OTOH, we ended up eating late, and that munching in the afternoon helped tide me over.

Still, the whole choosing food on what my body really needs is something that is truly new for me. After all these years. So yes, everything really does have its season!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

DDHEART 9/22/2009 11:00AM

    I loved these thoughts! It's great to be back on line so I can get my motivational boost from you and other sparkfriends. Thanks.

Report Inappropriate Comment
HEALTHY4JEANNE 9/22/2009 7:16AM

    I love your blog! You are a very wise woman.
:) Jeanne

Report Inappropriate Comment
SEKSUNSHINE 9/22/2009 7:08AM

    This is all so true! I love the unpacking. I did the same thing when we moved.

Report Inappropriate Comment

Fueling yourself

Monday, September 21, 2009

You can, as they say, teach an old dog new tricks (or an old dieter, whatever). Recently I've fond myself ready to reach for a snack -- maybe some cookies to go with my tea, for example. Now, these are Healthy Choice Amaranth crackers, which almost don't qualify as a cookie -- pretty healthy.

Then suddenly I find myself thinking . . . is this what your body truly needs? Wants? Will this fuel your upcoming workout? This morning I found myself reaching for a banana instead. I wasn't planning on a snack at all this morning, but my body during TOM has other ideas.

The change here isn't that I'm eating healthy. I've had pretty good eating habits, with some minor lapses, for a long time. I just suddenly find myself thinking more and more often about what my body really needs, rather than what my mouth wants.

Don't get me wrong, if you read my blog regularly you know that I think pizza, cookies, and even cake has a place in a healthy lifestyle. But these are most definitely treats, and my body only needs the occasional treat.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MOMMA_GRIZZ 9/21/2009 9:11PM

    What a great blog - you are SO right. Thank you.

Report Inappropriate Comment
HEALTHY4JEANNE 9/21/2009 1:49PM

    You are inspiring me. Food is the spot I have the hardest time with. I love how you are treating your body as a machine that needs to be fueled!!
:) Jeanne

Report Inappropriate Comment

First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 112 113 114 115 116 117 118 119 120 121 122 123 124 125 126 127 128 129 130 131 132 133 134 135 136 137 138 139 140 141 142 143 144 145 146 147 148 149 150 151 152 153 154 155 156 157 158 159 160 161 162 163 164 165 166 167 168 169 170 171 172 173 174 175 176 177 178 179 180 181 182 183 184 185 186 187 188 189 190 191 192 193 194 195 196 197 198 199 200 201 202 203 204 205 206 207 208 209 210 211 212 213 214 215 216 217 218 219 220 221 222 223 224 225 226 227 228 229 230 231 232 233 234 235 236 237 238 239 240 241 242 243 244 245 246 247 248 249 250 251 252 253 254 255 256 257 258 259 260 261 262 263 264 265 266 267 268 269 270 271 272 273 274 275 276 277 278 279 280 281 282 283 284 285 286 287 288 289 290 291 292 293 294 295 296 297 298 299 300 301 302 303 304 305 306 307 308 309 310 311 312 Last Page