Thursday, May 01, 2008
Got your attention, didn't I? Well, I do have a dirty little secret: it's my pantry. Or rather my whole house now, but it started with the pantry.
I must have bought some flour or something at some point that had bugs in it. I'm not sure what these bugs are; not weevils. They're small, they're black; maybe about the size of an ant, altho a bit wider. And they multiply like rabbits.
Now, when I did notice them, I didn't do the obvious: clean out my pantry. Take everything out, throw out what was infested, clean it all up, and put everything back. I would vacuum up the ones I could find, kill the ones I caught, but pretty much just left it up to nature.
Only nature laughed at me. I played the victim, too, oh woe is me, I can't bring in someone, because anything they'd spray would be toxic to the animals.
They have slowly spread to our entire home. You probably wouldn't even notice them if you came (although you might), unless you took a good look in my pantry.
And this is why I have some boxes of food on my counters; I can't put them in my pantry, because they'd just get infested.
I have been on a big decluttering kick, though. We might move at some point. This seems to change daily, but it's still a probability. I have 14 years of clutter to wade through.
So I have been going through everything, and the last few weeks, I've been concentrating on my kitchen. I've cleared out some cabinets (and put in some non-toxic diatamaceous earth that might kill the bugs, but not the animals).
And you know what? There seems to be a tad less bugs. Although for some odd reason they're now taking over our bathroom. I can't figure that one out; there's no food in there!
And now I am going through my pantry. Throwing away stuff that has been in there literally years. Finding stuff I didn't even know I had. Slowly, a little bit at a time.
Anyone notice a parallel with weight loss? I knew I was gaining weight. I even tried to do something about it a few times, but it just didn't seem to work anymore, and so I played the victim. I had a million reasons I just couldn't lose weight. But the joke's on me, because I have managed to lose some weight in the last few months. Obviously, it can be done.
But it needs to be done a little at a time. Small steps. If you try to make huge changes in your habits, you get overwhelmed and you give up. But if you just change one small thing at a time, before you know it, your jeans fit.
Just like someday, hopefully, I'll have a bug-free pantry. And house. Well, except for the spiders, ants, and lizards, but I do live in Texas, after all. Bet you want to run right over here & eat now, don't cha?
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
I've come to a decision on what to do about weighing myself on my upcoming trip. It's not exactly a vacation, but sort-of (long story).
I won't weigh myself at my mom's. That scale has probably been gathering dust for the last two decades.
However, we are going to a hotel for my husband's conference, just for a couple of days. And it turns out this hotel has a spa (I just love spas). So I'm pretty sure somewhere there is a scale, and one that's probably calibrated on a fairly regular basis. I'll weigh myself there. And maybe start going to the occasional WW meeting when I get back.
This spa also has nutritional consultations, and a chef for a half a day class . . . it's a pity we're only there a couple of days! Oh, and they have an indoor pool, and classes (don't know how often). But they have things like water aerobics, which I love & haven't done in ages since I no longer belong to gym, and t'ai chi, which I've always wanted to try. I'm really hoping I get the time to try some of that! But I'm also meeting with an online friend, who lives about half an hour away, one day (and hoping maybe I can convince her she needs a spa day).
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
If there's one thing my dogs try to teach me, it's to stop and smell the roses. And the weeds, and the grass, and the garbage . . . well, you get the picture. In other words, don't look at the big picture!
I'd like to lose, ultimately, somewhere around 35 pounds. While I'm sure to some that seems relatively small, to me it seems big. It's about what I lost the first time I was on WW (only then I was smaller to start with, but also a heck of a lot younger).
So looking at losing 35 pounds, especially when you lose less than a pound a week, can be daunting & depressing. Which is one reason they suggest focusing on just losing 10% of your body weight at a time, which for me is about 17 lbs. Even that could take a year -- or more!
So I concentrate on the little things. The jeans that were always tight that are now comfortable. The knee fat that is noticeably less. The shrunken double chin, which actually shows me I do have a neck.
They're small, they're subtle, they're things no one else will notice . . . but I do. And they make me smile.
Is what I see in the mirror what I want to see? No. But it's better than it was just 4 months ago. And I know that if I just keep going, eventually I'll see what I want to see. No matter how long it may take.
Monday, April 28, 2008
Ever wonder why you might see a weight gain when you're just sure you've been good?
Think about whether or not you ate out just a few days before you weighed in -- it doesn't have to be the day before, it may take a few days for your body to normalize again. And the culprit may be sodium.
Sodium is sneaky. Apparently a lot of chefs load up low fat options with sodium to make them taste better. I had no idea! I mean, I knew a lot of restaurant food had a lot of sodium -- especially Chinese food -- but I had no idea that low fat entrees could be just crawling with it (sometimes).
And it's sneaky. Because unless you get a complete nutritional breakdown, you'll probably have no idea. And some not-low-fat entrees have more sodium than you should get in an entire day!
No wonder as a nation we just get fatter & fatter. It's not just sodium, of course, but my eyes were just opened to that recently. Sugar is another big one. They put sugar in the weirdest things (like crackers, for instance). So we just get used to things tasting sweeter and sweeter all the time, and begin to crave sweets because it's in everything.
I'm not saying you should never eat out. I don't eat out a lot, but I need to sometimes for my own sanity. I like to be pampered once in a while. But buyer beware!
Sunday, April 27, 2008
For those who don't know me, I don't own a scale. I don't have access to a scale anywhere. Scales make me depressed. They rarely say what I want them to say, or what I think they ought to say.
I will be visiting my mom on mother's day, as things turn out. I'm pretty sure she has a scale. I'm pretty sure that scale hasn't been calibrated since the day she bought it, years ago.
I am debating with myself whether or not I should get on it. I was weighed last month when I had to go to the doctor. I don't lose a lot in a month. Of course, I don't really know how much I do lose, but if I'm lucky, it's only a pound (how's that for everyone who laments at only losing a pound a week!).
I have not reached a decision.
I do want to know what I weigh occasionally. I hadn't been weighed in a couple of years when I went to the doctor recently. But to set up my profile here, and at other weight loss sites, I had to put in my weight, even though I didn't know it. I guestimated it. I was actually just about spot on, just a couple of pounds off.
The funny thing is when I look at myself, I don't feel like I weigh that much. It was almost 20 pounds more than what I weighed when I first joined Weigh Watchers all those years ago!
Of course, I could start attending the occasional Weight Watchers meeting. As a lifetime member, I only have to pay the meeting fee; I never have to pay a registration fee even when it's been years since I've gone. I know they calibrate their scales. And I know they're always motivational.
I went to meetings regularly a while ago, after gaining weight again, but this time the weight just wouldn't seem to come off, I was busy with work, and eventually I threw in the towel.
And I admit it: I am ashamed to go and get on the scale, being so heavy and far from my goal weight, being a lifetime member and a former leader.
Yes, I know it's ridiculous. When you're heavy is the time you need WW the most. And I also know that the leaders will be nothing but kind and encouraging. I really don't have the time or the money to attend regular meetings right now, and I actually find that SP is working great to keep me motivated.
But I also know I do need to be accountable. So I'm thinking about it.
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