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Friday, August 14, 2009

My parents are coming up for the day tomorrow; they might stay overnight. So yes, despite my recent setback, I am baking again.

The chocolate chip crumb cake is already done. Move over Enteman's! Yummy. I had half a piece. My plan at the moment is to have a brunch tomorrow -- little do my parents know that it will be a vegan brunch. Since I tried the crumb cake today, I won't have any tomorrow -- because I'm also planning to make a chocolate chip cookie pie (the crust is done). And a broccoli "quiche" and salad to round things out.

The good thing about the pie is that I can freeze it, since my husband will be out of town next week. If my parents do stay overnight, we plan to go out for dinner -- to a place nearby that serves both Japanese & Chinese food, so it should be a healthy dinner & not a problem.

Since my husband is out of town for a week, I'm free to eat the way I want to eat. Which is, actually, quite freeing. I made 2 chickpea dishes this week, & both are very good, but nothing he would touch with a ten foot pole.

I'm hoping that this latest weight gain was at least partially due to water weight & having a potluck the night before. Hoping, anyway! It can be so confusing sometimes: sometimes I eat a lot, and still lose weight; sometimes I can go out to eat before WI, and still lose weight; sometimes I can lose weight before & during TOM -- and then other times I gain. It seems as though sometimes I do the same things with different outcomes, but I suppose that that's the way life is.

Whenever I have setbacks -- not just with eating, with anything in my life -- I always ask myself what I am supposed to learn from them. And sometimes there's an answer, and sometimes I guess it's just that we can't always control the outcome.

The only real major difference in the last few weeks is that I've bumped up my "running". I've been running 3 times a week for a couple of weeks now. I'm on the last week of C25K, which means I'm running 30 minutes straight. It's still difficult for me, and I'm still not actually doing a 5k, which is frustrating, but once again, all I can do is keep working at it.

Could running actually be giving me bigger quads? It's not like I'm really doing that much or am that fast, altho I'm dripping with sweat when I'm done (and a fit grandma could probably pass me walking). But the legs on my jeans have been tighter, and I really don't think the jeans have shrunk.

Through rain, through sleet, through snow . . . ok, right now we're not getting any of that thank God, but you get the idea: I'll keep on keepin' on. My husband asked me if I'd been to my meeting & I basically grimaced. And he said well then you shouldn't go -- and I retorted that the one thing I've learned is that I NEED that accountability. I know where I'd end up without meetings. This is the same man who always wants the largest portion, who thinks vacations are an excuse to eat whatever you want while laying around all day . . . truly, my husband does have his good points, it's just I have no one to vent to about him here so it comes out in this blog. I wouldn't be with him after almost 24 years -- I certainly wouldn't have moved up here if I didn't love him.

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PANDORASBOX820 8/15/2009 8:16AM

    yes-- running will definitely increase the size of your quads... which can be annoying sometimes when putting on jeans, but when i feel the muscles that are developing in my legs, i can't help but feel instantly sexier. :) congrats on your progress, and get a GREAT week under your belt with the hubby gone. it's SO much harder when they're around!!

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MTER67 8/14/2009 9:44PM

    I know exactly what you mean. I found myself telling the kids today, "don't worry; someday your dad will go back to work!" Sometimes it's just easier when you only have to worry about yourself! Good luck with your house guests; I am sure it will all work out fine!

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 8/14/2009 9:21PM

    The body is a marvelous thing; and weight loss is a mystery at times. You know, when I bumped up my activity, I actually had to eat my activity points (at least 4 a day) so I would start losing weight. Perhaps your body is doing the same thing.....with your running. The half hour straight is new(ish) to your body so maybe it's saving calories? Hopefully it was water retention and it will be better next week, but the increase in activity and increase is calorie needs is something to think about. At least that's what did it for me, everyone is different.......

Enjoy your visit with your parents and have a great week with your ME time!

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KARBIE18 8/14/2009 6:31PM

    My DH is gone this weekend, and I love being able to eat what I want, or not. For dinner I had the other half of the turkey and veggie sub I had for lunch. Along with a piece of string cheese and some baked beans, and I'm good. DH would NOT be content with that.

Yep, weight loss is definitely a mystery. I had a brat last night. Though I enjoy them, I rarely eat them because of the 25 grams of saturated fat (or whatever) they contain. But the last two times I did, I weighed less the next day. I don't know why - it's like my body likes to be shaken up every now in then with something less sensible! I forgot to weigh in this morning, so I have no idea if it happened again, but my point is, there never seems to be any rhyme or reason to it.

Enjoy your time with your family, and then some me-time until DH gets back. You deserve it!

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SEKSUNSHINE 8/14/2009 4:04PM

    I loved it when my husband drove a truck and was gone for weeks at at time. It is just more relaxing without them. I know that sounds crazy but true. You will figure out how to get the weight off, and when you do it will be like, if I had only known, and it will be simple. Just takes a while to get there. Enjoy your parents and stay away from chocolate chips!!

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SLCB1023 8/14/2009 11:55AM

    Enjoy your parents visit!!!! Bodies and weight loss are a total mystery to me too. I just work my plan and exercise as best as possible and let it go at that. I know when I have been working it and when I haven't. I don't need the scale to tell me anything 'cause it is in cahoots with my body to lead me astray. emoticon

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KEAKMAN 8/14/2009 11:43AM

    That time alone is precious to me, too. Not that I don't love my hubby. Not that I don't want him around. But it is SO much easier to to the right thing when you aren't sitting next to the devil!

Have a great visit with your folks, and keep on running!

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Blindsided again

Thursday, August 13, 2009

I feel as tho all I do lately is whine and vent. And no, this isn't a ploy for sympathy or comments (altho of course both are always welcome). The scale is moving in the wrong direction, and I really can't for the life of me figure out why. Sure, I could always eat better, but I just don't think I've been eating so badly lately to have gained back about 4 lbs. Until I put on my WI jeans this morning, I truly thought I'd lost weight. But the minute I put them on, I thought they felt tight -- which is totally weird, considering I thought jeans that were fitting tight earlier in the week were looser.

Same level of exercise. Really been working hard on controlling my BLTs. Working hard on making sure I get in plenty of fluids. Ditto on veggies -- altho a tad light on fruits a few days, but I hardly think that would cause me to gain weight.

I went back & forth on whether or not to blog at all today, but I know that when you least feel like, that's when you need it the most.

At this point, I could deal with a plateau -- I'd welcome it -- but the scale keeps going up! Well, yes, one week I stayed the same, one week I lost half a pound.

I was a pretty good girl at the potluck yesterday. Not perfect, but pretty good. I brought some WW dip with me (home made), and had some of that & some baked potato chips. One hot dog & 1 roll. Carrots & bell peppers. I had both a brownie & a cream cheese chocolate chip thingie -- but I split both with my husband, so that equals one brownie. Altho I did come home and eat one of the PB chocolate bars I made, so that was the not so good part. But I tracked it all, and frankly, I don't see that accounting for me gaining almost another 2 lbs this week.

I am frustrated. My parents are coming up for the day on Saturday, so there will be more baking. I haven't touched any of the cookies our friend brought over a couple of weeks ago. My husband will be out of town next week, so that's a good time for me to eat really well.

I often buy sushi for lunch (or dinner) when I shop, and I didn't this week, not wanting to spend the money. Must be it, right? I'm gaining weight because I'm denying myself sushi! If only. The only thing I can think of is just to redouble my efforts to get back to the basics.

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MTER67 8/13/2009 10:40PM

    If only sushi was the answer! Could it be a hormonal fluctuation? Or if you have not had a lot of fruit, could it be a lack of fiber or something? Hope you get to the bottom of it soon!

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DDHEART 8/13/2009 4:12PM

    I think Kate put her finger on it....salt....hot dog, chips...both high sodium....now you know better than anyone if the accumulation of licks may have added in there too but give yourself a bit of a break....salt counts big time and most women notice this in the jeans too. Take a breath, look carefully at your food journal and move on from there.

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KEAKMAN 8/13/2009 3:54PM

    Although you aren't "eating out" like in a restaurant, you are eating out, as in away from home. Is it possible there has been hidden salt in the foods you ate? Maybe some of this is water weight gain? And are you drinking all of your water? Just a thought.

In the meantime, go look at you in the mirror. Really look at you. Don't you look good? especially compared to a year ago? See those muscles? That flat/ter tummy? Those slender hips? Now pat yourself on the back. Remember all that you have done and overcome. You will get past this bad time, too.

And you are not nearly whiney enough! Try harder next time! :)

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SEKSUNSHINE 8/13/2009 3:20PM

    This is what has been working for me. I eat between 1000 -1200 calories a day. I eat 6 times a day breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, snack, my meals are between 200 and 300 calories and my snack are between 75 and 115 calories. I don't buy "special" food. What I cook is what everyone eats. If it is a more calorie dense food like lasagne, I weigh it so it does not make me go over my calories. I do not deny myself any type of food, I just watch the intake. The only thing I buy that seems to be for me are the snacks that are 100 calories or less, and those can be eaten by everyone, they don't cause they think they are "diet" food. You know if it doesn't come in a Cheetos bag, it must be "diet" food. Maybe you should try eating more meals, but less at each time. It might work. Everyone is different, so just work things in or out of your plan and then see what happens. It could also be water weight gain. There are a lot of women that have problems with that. Knock on wood, I have never had that problem. It could also be hormones. There are just so many things that can effect weight. OK, I stop now that I've written a book! Good Luck!

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SUMMARAH 8/13/2009 2:35PM

    All I can say is stick with it, and eventually the scale will start to go down again. If you are putting some of the weight back on, maybe your body is getting used to some facet of your healthier-lifestyle plan. Consider switching things up a bit. Do different exercises at a different time of day. Eat more small meals. Anything to kickstart your metabolism again is a good thing. Keep in mind, however, that the scale is BY NO MEANS a reliable gauge of fitness. Body measurements (including body fat) are always the best method. And don't trust those WI jeans - they mighta shrunk in the laundry, especially if the others are getting looser. Hang in there, girl! I'll be rootin' for ya!

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Exercise is a funny thing

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

I've had a nagging sore throat for the last few days. I was really hoping it was just an allergy, and maybe it is, but it now it seems to be the beginning of another cold. I don't normally I get many colds, so it's a little frustrating.

My new running shoes came yesterday. I'd hoped they would come in the morning so I could take them out for a spin, but they didn't come til evening. But then I was too tired & achy to run. However, I hadn't gotten in all my steps yesterday.

I was all set to make it a rest day -- I didn't do that badly, despite the fact that walking the dogs in the morning was my only exercise -- but I decided to take the new running shoes out for a walk anyway. And once I got walking, I magically felt better. The aches seemed to melt away. Because my husband wasn't with me, I took the dogs for a longer evening walk. We all enjoyed it.

Exercise is like that -- promise yourself you'll just do 10 minutes, and I can almost guarantee you you'll go longer.

I'm still feeling achy & tired this morning; not very congested -- yet -- but I can feel a lot of pressure up there. To run today or not to run? I'll probably give it a try. I don't have to make dinner since we have the potluck, altho squeezing in a run won't be that easy. So we'll see.

I'm still not in love with running like some of my SP buddies. I like the way I feel afterwards, but doing it is till hard for me. But I do love the way I can bang out a lot of steps in a very short amount of time. I suppose that's the way a lot of people feel about the 30 Day Shred, which I didn't like either. Hmm. But I've kept up with the running.

I use a paper food journal. It's a 6 month journal, and I just got a new one. I've started picking out just one or two goals to work on each day -- actually writing down my goal in my journal. I'm finding that helps me keep very mindful of that particular goal.

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MTER67 8/12/2009 1:07PM

    Sorry to hear that you weren't feeling well, but that your long walk helped you get some energy back. I had a really bad sore throat and cough for most of our Hawaii trip and I am still not completely back to normal. Running has been very hard here in VA and my legs feel like lead. But, I've done this long enough to know that it will get easier.

Hope you're feeling 100% soon!

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EOSTAR_45 8/12/2009 11:08AM

    So true. exercise can be like magic. Lately it has been taking so much motivation to just get out there, but once I do, I feel great. I walk/ jog longer than I thought I would and feel so much better.

Hope you feel better soon.

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SLCB1023 8/12/2009 9:51AM

    Glad you felt better. I have had that happen also where I though that exercise would be the worst thing to do if I was sick.... but it turned out to really help. Lots of new lessons for me revolving around exercise. emoticon

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KEAKMAN 8/12/2009 8:43AM

    I, too, find that getting out and exercising often makes me feel better. I'm glad that your shoes seem to be good for you, and hope that you get many miles, whether walking or running, in them. You may never find yourself loving running, and that's fine, isn't it? You have so many other things that you do, you will always have something to keep you active and moving. (but keep giving running a try! emoticon)

Hope you feel better as the day progresses and that the potluck goes well!

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DDHEART 8/12/2009 8:38AM

    Thank you for saying these things....yes, once we get out there it just is so nice to be moving and with outside exercise, to see the great outdoors, but it does take a little push sometimes. I love your journal too and I find it encouraging to know that a long term successful (mostly) person like yourself needs to tweak the tools and system to make it work for her. emoticon

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KARBIE18 8/12/2009 8:19AM

    Magic shoes! How wonderful! I know what you mean about promising yourself ten minutes then usually doing more. That's how I started my fitness quest on here. I only promised myself 15 minutes, three times a week. Now, a fifty minute day is an easy one.

Hope you're feeling better soon.

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SEKSUNSHINE 8/12/2009 7:53AM

    Good for you. Hope you aren't getting a cold. I have never liked to run, so I walk, and walk. I remember in school gym when we had to run and be timed. I was always the last one in, I just flat refused. I would make the teacher so mad. She would say I'm going to fail you. I would look at her and say you can't, I do everything else better than everyone else. Yes, I had attitude then as well as now. Shocking isn't it?!

Feel better soon!

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Losing myself in a bowl of batter

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

No, I have not gone off the deep end and chowed down on some cookie dough or cake batter; don't worry. I still have a lot of organizing to do in this house. A LOT of organizing. We're mostly unpacked, with the exception of books that have nowhere to go at the moment. But many things are still waiting for real homes.

So what do I do? I throw myself into baking, again and again and again. Some people drink to forget, some people clean when they're stressed, some people eat their emotions away. I love to bake. Which is a tad ironic, considering I didn't teach myself to bake until well into my 20s, whereas as a kid I was happy to clean up all my mom's baking (she didn't like help in the kitchen).

Obviously I enjoy the end product, but it goes way beyond that. My cookbooks were one of the first things I just had to unearth here -- at least, my favorite cookbooks, which for the normal person would be 1 or 2, but for me is at least 20. I love choosing which recipe to try next. I enjoy the actual mixing up stage. The only thing I don't like about baking is the cleaning up.

My husband enjoys my baking, too. Oh, he'll complain that this or that isn't done, but when all is said & done, almost every night he wants to know what's for dessert (even if many nights all I have for dessert is yogurt, and he doesn't like yogurt).

I keep musing on how much I could get done in my life if I didn't pour so much time & energy into trying to lose weight, too. Because yes, it takes a lot of time & energy. The things I could paint, the things I could knit, the training I could do with the dogs.

Life is about choices, after all. You make your choice and you pay the price.

Ok, I'm rambling here. We have another potluck to go to tomorrow that we just found out about. Of course I did my food shopping yesterday. Normally I do it today, but I've got an eye doctor appointment and the two just weren't compatible. So I suppose that's the good news -- I have some time this morning (even if the morning is almost over). The potluck is at a state park I've been wanting to go to, altho I've been wanting to go there to hike & I doubt we'll do a whole lot of hiking tomorrow. Still, it should be fun.

I also have a slight, nagging sore throat that I'm hoping is just some allergies.

So here's to all those bakers out there -- you know who you are. You understand the siren call of the beaters, even in the heat of the summer when most normal people do everything they can to avoid the kitchen.

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KEAKMAN 8/11/2009 9:28PM

    If baking gives you peace and makes you happy, then do it. Who cares if the house isn't all put away or the dogs could learn how to type and wash dishes if only you spent enough time with them?! The important thing is that you feel centered and calm and ready to tackle whatever turns up - like surprise potlucks! - and if it takes a bowl of batter to make that reality, then that sounds like a good thing to me!

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KARBIE18 8/11/2009 1:01PM

    When things get crazy, I clean. The last thing I want to do is drag everything out and clutter up my already tiny kitchen. Then again, I don't have a dishwasher, so that makes a difference.

Having an outlet for those feeling of stress is important, though, and it's wonderful that you have found yours. Besides, I think it's great that you have something delicious to show for your efforts when you are finished. Hope DH knows how lucky he is!

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LEONALIONESS 8/11/2009 11:30AM

    I actually have a silly little dream of one day opening a vegan bakery and homemade candy shop here in St. Paul. I make delish baked goods and some MEAN candy (homemade caramel with brown rice syrup instead of corn syrup, PB cups, molasses hard candy, fudge, flavored chocolates, filled chocolate, brittle... hopefully will get around to making "cadbury eggs" and some fairy food soon to try out the recipes. NOM.) I haven't been baking much - just some lemon poppyseed muffins, pumpkin bread and green tea cupcakes in the last month - but I do love it. It's chemistry I can actually understand and play with. And eat!

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VALPO1997 8/11/2009 10:48AM

    I understand your solice in baking I find it to. Ironically, I do not find it in every day cooking or mass baking a day or evening to get things done. Like Christmas cookies...

Well, things get done when they get done. I have baking to do as well this week for at my work the person's birthday means they bring in treats (bought or made). With my garden going into overload, I have been in the zucchini bread making business and have not stopped oh well.

I agree solice in the midst of it all. The one thing is that I baked for years even as a teenage. I ate the end results then, but rarely touch it now. Just don't. I like the process of baking, clean up is ok, tasting from time to time...

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What do you call baby turkeys?

Monday, August 10, 2009

While I never felt I got off track, I must have subtly. I could feel the difference in my clothes. 3 lbs may not seem like a lot, but when you're as short as I am, it is -- in fact, it's almost 10% of the weight I've lost.

This past week I've really concentrated on minding my BLTs (bites, licks, tastes) & not having so many sweet snacks. I can work in sweet snacks like nobody's business, and they're healthy, too, but I have a tendency to go overboard with them.

I made an awesome peanut butter chocolate pie this weekend for our company (Smlove pie from Veganomicon, for those that want to know -- a real production, but totally worth it). Yes, there were tastes along the way. But I was mindful of what I was doing and kept them to a minimum, often putting the fork or spoon into soapy water after a lick or two.

My clothes are feeling looser. My collarbones seem more pronounced again. The scale may or may not validate me, but I'm pretty sure I'm heading in the right direction again. Only this weekend my parents might come up! So much to do, so little time, or so it seems.

On the bizarre front, we apparently have wild turkeys in our neighborhood. Took me 3 months to discover this -- I don't know where they were hiding. I was out finally starting my container garden yesterday, when I happen to see a very large bird in the neighbor's yard.

I quickly went inside to tell my husband I thought I'd seen a wild turkey. I'm sure he doubted me, but he did go grab his camera. And he concurred. It's a momma turkey, too, with babies. Baby turkeys, btw, are apparently pullets -- or so my husband says (he had to google it).

The momma flew over the neighbor's fence into the next neighbor's yard - and the babies kept walking back & forth in distress; it was so sad! I couldn't believe the momma had apparently abandoned them. Our neighbor came out, said the same thing had happened yesterday, and he had to "chase" the babies until they, too, flew into the next yard.

I've only ever seen a wild turkey once -- maybe twice -- before, but certainly never in my own neighborhood! We aren't deep in the country here, so it was pretty surprising.

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SLCB1023 8/12/2009 9:55AM

    My family and I were driving along Skyline Drive in VA last fall and had to come to a complete stop to allow a flock of about 30 wild turkeys to casually stroll across the road. I thought the parade would never end. I have hear that wild turkeys are much more intelligent than farm raised ones. That doesn't seem to help a lot though. emoticon

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KEAKMAN 8/10/2009 11:17PM

    What great focus and awareness you have of your body and what it needs! I hope to have something like that one day.....

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DDHEART 8/10/2009 9:15PM

    Here in WI we never had turkeys in this part of the state but I think they re -introduced them about 10 years ago or so and they are just crazy all over the place....looks like they are in other places too from the comments.

I don't care what your husband says....I would call them Huey, Louie, Dewie let's see how many are there?

Last winter my husband called my attention from the computer to look out the windo and we had full grown turkeys sitting in the crab apple tree just eating away....the tree is not that big and the branches with the weight of the birds were just hanging...funny.

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KEEPSAKES66 8/10/2009 5:21PM

    I live in the city just about 15 minutes from downtown, and have seen them in the woods of two of our parks right nearby.
Good idea watching those licks and taste - somedays they get me in trouble too! emoticon

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PANDORASBOX820 8/10/2009 1:06PM

    haha, you're not going to believe this-- but i see the same 3 turkeys every morning on my morning run... and they're always in the same spot. And i live in NEW JERSEY!!! i guess i shouldn't be so surprised when they're over-developing in this area like nobody's business.

welcome to suburbia-- where they cut down the trees and name the streets after them.

i'm glad to hear that your visual signs of progress are back in the right direction! it's a relief, isn't it??

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KARBIE18 8/10/2009 1:02PM

    Glad your extra efforts are paying off. I guess that is the only downside to knowing we can have our cake and eat it too - we know that no matter what, we will lose it in the end, so we don't stress over the decision to take an extra bite or two. Those extra licks really do add up, darn it!

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NANNACAT51 8/10/2009 12:38PM

    I hope the momma turkey came back for the babies. Otherwise, that is so sad. emoticon on the mindful licks and tastes. They sure can add up.

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LADYAUTUMN 8/10/2009 12:38PM

    How cute? Poor babies - they don't know momma has such a small brain emoticon

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