Monday, August 03, 2009
Actually, all in all yesterday went pretty well, even if not quite the way I planned it.
We had a couple & their 2 young children over -- one of my husband's coworkers (actually, his one "employee" now that he's a manager, altho that's about to change). His coworker is a really nice guy, and has been really helpful to us, too.
As I was vacuuming at 8:30 in the morning, the power went out. We decided to take the dogs for their walk -- I suppose that's a good thing, left to my husband's devices, it would have been a later walk, but when he had no tv to watch or computer to surf on, he was ready earlier. As we were heading home, our neighbors stopped and informed us the transformer across the street had blown.
I was puzzled, at first, that I hadn't heard it -- those things are usually pretty loud -- but then I realized that I was vacuuming. Since it was a rainy day like they forecasted, we were a bit concerned about just what would happen with the dinner -- my stove is electric, and my husband doesn't like to grill in the rain. Not to mention what to eat for lunch. My husband was all for using the refrigerator, but I wanted to keep it closed if I didn't know how long we'd be without power. The power came back on around noon.
I planned personal pizzas for everyone. I'd made the dough -- something I hadn't done in a really, really long time, but have been wanting to get back into -- and wasn't quite sure how it would turn out. It was pretty good. I put out cheese & crackers & some chips & guacomole for munchies, but no one was munching at first. Eventually, though, people got into them, thankfully. The cheese wasn't really a problem -- I can control myself with cheese -- but the guac won't last that long and I can only eat a little guacamole at a time.
I also made a vegan cheesecake for dessert. It was ok, which was surprising, because almost everything I've made from that particular cookbook has been really good. Unfortunately, the wife of the coworker brought us cookies. I told them we didn't need anything, and I certainly don't need cookies! You know me & cookies by now. I had one, and I told my husband to put the rest in the freezer downstairs. Hopefully that's far enough away (the garage) so that I'll stay out of them.
Normally I send anything that's tempting to me in with my husband to work, but I feel that would be a bit tacky in this case. I may just take them to my small dog meetup this month.
So things worked out, as they often have a tendency to do, even though it didn't go quite as planned.
Friday, July 31, 2009
I read an SP member's blog a little while ago; she was talking about what part of a healthy lifestyle is due to nutrition, to behavior modification, and to exercise. She was developing her own "formula". But I think that all parts of a healthy lifestyle actually have equal weight -- it's only when we're in balance that things work. Finding that balance is the hard part. And we may have it for a little while, and then have to juggle things again to find our new balance. Which works with yesterday's blog -- we're always under construction.
We were chatting during our WW meeting as usual, and one woman near me was talking about how if she eats a little too much one day, she exercises more the next. Our leader was also talking about a tool she has that tells how much she has to exercise to burn off certain foods.
There was a time when I would agree with these attitudes, but I've slowly come to the realization that that isn't a healthy lifestyle. Exercise addiction is just as bad for you as food addiction.
Exercise and nutrition have to work hand in hand. You can't always expect to use exercise to burn off extra calories. Because there will be times when you simply can't: when you're sick, when you're busy, etc. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying exercise isn't part of the equation; it is. But I just believe (for the moment, anyway), that it's wrong to use it to correct overeating. That will work in the short run, but not in the long run.
And there's a whole other part of the equation I haven't even touched on: the mental aspect. If you never tackle why you overeat, then you're most likely doomed to just keep repeating the same mistakes over and over. If anything should get more weight in the equation, it should be the mental aspect.
All of these have to work together. If you can't get your eating under control, no matter how much you exercise, you're going to continue to struggle. If you can't get yourself to move, you're going to hit a plateau at some point. And if you can't get a handle on why you overeat, all the exercise in the world won't save you.
None of this happens overnight. That's why there's no quick fix. We are battling the habits and problems of a lifetime. It's not easy to turn your life around, but you CAN do it.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
That was my leader's quote at today's meeting. So true! Being "done" (aka, done being fat) was all the rage, but the truth is that no matter how long we are at our goal weights, we're never really "done". And if you think you're "done", you probably really are -- that is, you're done for.
Despite the evil PB Bars, I lost a small amount of weight this week. Despite that fact that TOM arrived in the middle of the night last night, keeping me up for much of the night -- and we're having some people over for dinner this weekend (we think, anyway, DH doesn't even get home til later tonight). I attribute a lot of that to minding my ABCs this week.
Yesterday I had cookies after lunch, AND strawberry-rhubarb crisp after dinner. But they were conscious decisions, I put them on a plate, and I savored every bite (plus had plenty of fruits & veggies throughout the day).
I wouldn't be human if I didn't admit my latest freakish weight gain does bother me. I still can't see anything I did that week that would account for it -- or in previous weeks, for that matter. And it puts me back to what I weighed in April!
But, I've begun to think of myself as Sleeping Beauty. I haven't really quite hammered out the details of the analogy, it doesn't quite fit, and yet it does. I'm not waiting for my prince to come along -- there's no quick fix to weight loss, and I know that. But I do feel that sometimes while I am working on all my healthy habits my body is sleeping -- or even gaining weight -- and that all those good habits will catch up to my actual weight at some point. Something like that, anyway.
It wasn't a fluke of the scale, because I could feel it in my clothes. Yet I'm still very well aware of how far I've come, how much better I feel & look, and I don't want to lose that. So for now, I'm trying to mind my ABCs as much as possible, and also eliminate more of those little touches of sweetness I like to throw into my day; or just be a bit more aware of them. I'm trying to, once again, wean myself away from sweet snacks. I'll still have my treats, but I want my snacks between meals to be more savory, for the time being at least.
It's true, we're never "done". There is always something new to try, there are always little tweaks to be made, there is always something new to learn. And that can be exciting, if you allow it to be.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Well, it IS. We all know what to do -- we really do, unless we're just starting our journeys. Way way back, before WW, I had no clue what healthy eating meant. But now I do. There are no excuses.
Why do we let OOC take over when it feels so good to be in control?
I wrote down my points for the peanut butter bars I ate. I'm still within my points, altho there's a good chance I undercounted the number of points in the bars I scarfed down. The last couple of days I have made sure to go back to the basics, and I feel much better. I may not feel quite so good after my WI tomorrow, but I'll get over it & move on with my life.
I am making sure to write down what I eat, have a treat everyday (and really think about just what it is I want), eat that treat in a mindful way, get plenty of fruits & veggies, get plenty of water, exercise, and most importantly -- eat every meal in a mindful way.
That is what bothered me so much about the PB bars -- not so much that I ate them; they weren't truly that terrible. The recipe came from a book called "Cook Yourself Thin", after all, altho I had to modify it somewhat. The problem was that I didn't just take what I wanted, put it on a plate, sit down & savor every bite. Every time I don't do that, I know I am OOC. Even if I don't eat that much -- I don't enjoy it as much when I don't eat it mindfully, and if I'm going to indulge, I want to enjoy it.
Funny thing is, too, when I do indulge and eat mindfully, I don't normally gain weight. Which is exactly s it should be.
Here's to mindful eating.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Everything, I think. I think most overweight people are fearful people. They may not appear so on the surface, but deep down inside, fear is weighing them down.
Yesterday I had some errands to run. I had planned to take the dogs with me, as they were to places where dogs are allowed (Lowes, a pet food store). The prediction for yesterday was afternoon thunderstorms, and it sure looked like it was going to deliver.
I went back and forth on whether or not to push these errands back to another day. I had lots of stuff to do around the house, after all. Finally I decided I couldn't let the fear of storms get in the way of living my life, and we left. The dogs love to go shopping with me -- so many new smells! And you never know what food you just might find on the ground!
As I was driving over to the pet food store, it was getting darker and darker. I will say that I did have one legitimate fear: Lola is afraid of thunderstorms. Even heavy rain can get her shivering. It's always a concern what she might do if we were to get caught outside in a bad storm. Still, it didn't rain.
I debated whether or not to stop at Lowes on the way back, but as we got closer and closer, the sky didn't seem so dark, so we did. I narrowed down some of my choices for the new kitchen cabinets. We didn't get rained on at all. In fact, yesterday we barely had any rain at all.
It easily could have gone the other way. There were some pretty good storms close by, but they didn't get this far.
It's so easy to let fear paralyze you:
Fear that your friends won't like the thin you.
Fear that it will be too hard.
Fear that you'll fail.
Fear that you'll succeed.
Fear about keeping the weight off.
Fear that you'll have to give up the things you love.
Our fears are legitimate, but they shouldn't rule our lives. The other side of fear is power. It's time to take the power back! Let go of the fear, trust in a higher power, and live your life. Sometimes you WILL fail, and it WILL be painful. But that just makes the times you succeed that much sweeter.
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