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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Sometimes it surprises me that I have any blood left in my body, considering the times I have to bite my tongue til it feels like it ought to bleed.

I am lucky, I suppose, that I am not married to one of those tall string beans who can eat any crap they want and never have to move a muscle. That actually was the case when we got married -- except for the fact that he's short (in fact, the same height as Michael J. Fox, who always looked so short to me -- yet DH doesn't look THAT short to me). He was skinny, then, too skinny.

But that was many moons ago. Now he could stand to lose quite a few pounds; there's that embarrassing crack when he kneels down; he's on medication for his high blood pressure; and of course the fact that his father got dementia at a young age worries me.

Yet I know I cannot light the spark for him; it must come from within. I want him to feel the same things I do -- how much easier it is to shop for clothes, how much more comfortable those clothes are, how much more energy I have. I want that for him, too.

Yesterday I was tired. It's not like I did that much: walked the dogs, got my library card, went grocery shopping at a couple of different stores, did an exercise DVD, made a rhubarb-strawberry crisp, and made dinner. It doesn't seem like much at all when I relate it, but he pointed out, as he has in the past, that by making things like the crisp when I could be doing other stuff (like, oh, maybe going thru a few more boxes), I tired myself out.

That may be true, but for me, it's the only way I know how to lose weight: to eat real food, not stuff that comes out of a box or from a restaurant or a bakery. Real food with real ingredients where I can control exactly what goes into it. That's what works for me. It may not be what works for you, but it's what works for me.

Real food requires more effort, even if you're not baking desserts, and I personally feel it is time well invested.

So my once again rambling point is twofold:

1. We have to find what works for us, not what works for our friends, our coworkers, our family. We are all different, and what works for me may not work for you.

2. We can't help anyone who isn't ready for help -- not even ourselves. The spark has to come from within.

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KARBIE18 7/22/2009 7:31PM

    Couldn't agree with you more on your first point. And just when you find something that works for you, it stops being enough, and you have to find something else!

I am REALLY concerned about my daughter right now. She wants kids, but her doctor told her she shouldn't even consider it until she drops a significant amount because of her PCOS. I really want to remind her of that, but she's an adult and should be free to make her own choices. UGG!
The only thing that keeps me from worrying too much is the fact that she's walking regularly.

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KEAKMAN 7/22/2009 11:43AM

    Thanks for the reminders! Finding what works (at least in my case) involves getting a lot of input and then sorting through it all, trying some things out, etc. And yes, it is hard, really, REALLY hard, not to tell others (especially my dear son who is grossly overweight) that they need to get their fanny in gear and DO something about it. I find stuffing a piece of hard candy in my mouth at times saves my tongue!

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FITKAT2010 7/22/2009 11:35AM

    I could have written these 2 points myself.

I also am a food preparer. Yes, it takes more $$$, more time, more effort. And, it helps our health and mental/emotional well being.

The only way that you can effect a change in someone else is to demonstrate the change you want to see. Then, let any expectation for them changing go. Accept and respect their life choices. When that is TRULY done, it won't bother us.


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MUSTANG_SALLY2 7/22/2009 10:56AM

    I enjoyed your blog!

1. I'm still looking. It's hard!

2. True, very true. I'm working on that bit.

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Mamma Mia: the secret weapon

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I remember reading a while ago about someone who worked out to musicals. She'd walk on a treadmill, and whenever a showtune came up, she'd run.

This weekend I taped "Mamma Mia!", which is one of the few movies I actually saw in a theater last year. Now, I can't say I was a rabid ABBA fan, but the movie (and I've seen the musical in the theater, too) is just so darn fun; how could you not enjoy it? I'm always in awe of someone with such a creative imagination -- imagine listening to ABBA songs and coming up with a storyline. And their sound was so unique.

So I tried it. Only since my jogging intervals were 10 minutes each, I just upped the speed when a song came on. It worked really well!

I don't normally walk or run to music anymore. I gave that up when I got my first dog -- and I've just gotten used to walking without music, plus it's safer for you, too.

Whatever works for you, right? So what does work for you? New ideas always welcome!

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KARBIE18 7/22/2009 7:25PM

    What a great idea! Between TJ, walking, gardening, yoga, and ST, I'm keeping pretty active now, but I am going to try to remember this for next winter on those nasty days I don't want to be outside.

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KEAKMAN 7/21/2009 7:54PM

    I used to swear that I couldn't work out without my music. I would spend hours painstakingly putting together a playlist that bored me after two or three hearings. But when I got my HRM I found the iPod interfered with the HRM (or else my HR was up over 220!)

I think if I was on a treadmill I would try your idea. And when at home watching TV I will try to crank out situps or pushups or stretches during the commercial breaks.

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STARTSPARKING 7/21/2009 1:01PM

    When I used to work out on a home treadmill years ago, my only saving grace was distraction from DVD's. Otherwise I would have been too bored to even do five minutes on the machine. Prior to getting the treadmill, I used to power walk (then progress to jogging) outdoors. Again, I needed distraction, so music was key. I do agree that it is not the safest practice though.

Now what works for me is exercise classes. I love the variety, including kickboxing, Zumba, Drums Alive, boot camp, and step aerobics. I love the music, choreography, and the social aspect.

I saw Mamma Mia in a live musical production and loved it. I have the movie on DVD but haven't watched it yet. Time for me to dust it off and check it out!

I'm glad your exercise session to the movie worked out so well. Keep up your great work!
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LEONALIONESS 7/21/2009 10:21AM

    Oh god, I love ABBA.
I enjoyed that movie so so so much.

Why do I not own it yet?
WHY? * will buy*

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EOSTAR_45 7/21/2009 8:47AM

    For me, it depends. Most times, I don't listen to music. When I am walking outside, I like to listen to the sounds around me. And I think its safer too.

But when my motivation is low and I have to work out on the treadmill due to weather or something, I will put on music or watch a favorite movie just to take occupy my mind.

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FITKAT2010 7/21/2009 6:47AM


2 weeks ago I watched a Don Henley concert while on the treadmll. I danced and rocked out way past my bedtime....didn't get much sleep.

If I do that again, I'll do it earlier in the day.

I've also watched 3 Tenors concerts while on the treadmill. My cats don't like it, but I do.

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The doubt around the corner

Monday, July 20, 2009

I thought I'd be going another day without blogging. Just not having a whole lot of thought about healthy living or weight loss lately -- not because I'm not keepin' on with it, just because sometimes the well runs dry, ya know?

But then I read this morning's daily Spark. For years and years, she could have been describing me, only I didn't have any health complications at all. I just couldn't seem to lose weight, no matter how well I ate or how much I exercised.

With last week's gain, the doubt around the corner reared its ugly head. I'm "thinner" now than I've been in quite some time. But I also have not been able to get too much below this point for decades. It isn't a healthy weight for my body, and I do have high cholesterol -- that is mostly what fuels my healthy lifestyle.

But then that little voice starts whispering again . . . maybe this is my "happy" weight. The weight my body wants to be. Not everyone can be even a size 8. I've been going up and down for well over a year now, but with the trend ever downward. I believe that this time is different, that this time I really can break through to a healthy weight I can maintain.

But even believers doubt sometimes.

I guess the answer is to accept that I have my doubts, but just keep on with my healthy lifestyle. Reevaluate when things aren't going the way I'd like them to, and accept what happens when I believe that I am on the right path, even when the scale doesn't say so.

There are many schemes and plans people come up with to bust through plateaus (altho I am not in one right now -- at least, not that I know of). In the end, though, I believe that belief is the only thing that will truly help you bust through the inevitable rocky road to health.

I choose to believe I can.

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KARBIE18 7/22/2009 7:20PM

    I'm sorry this is delayed, but I'm still trying to catch up.

I think that last weigh in was a total fluke, and I'd be surprised if it wasn't gone by Friday. Your introspection and determination are truly inspirational, and I've never doubted for a minute that you would reach your goal. Don't let those doubts ruin even one minute - you're kicking butt, and it truly is just a matter of time until you see the number you're looking for on the scale.

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STARTSPARKING 7/21/2009 1:08PM

    Yes, the well does run dry sometimes, and it is bothering me that I haven't blogged in such a long while.

I have had serious doubts. Yours may have been a little voice whispering. Mine has been a booming voice screaming! Good for you for not getting too comfortable with the "happy" weight mentality. I did, and I started getting sloppy and losing focus. Not good...

Thank you so much for another thought-provoking post. I am sorry that I have been so behind on SP, but this one reminded me once more what an inspirational Spark friend you truly are.

I will feed off your positive energy and choose to believe that I can also. emoticon

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SEKSUNSHINE 7/21/2009 9:07AM

    It sounds like you know what direction you want to head, which is half the battle. Don't give into the doubt and it will all turn out just fine! I believe you will resist and move ever forward!

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HEALTHY4JEANNE 7/20/2009 1:43PM

    I plateau a lot. But when i look back and see where I came from, it keeps me moving forward.

Keep the faith!

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KEAKMAN 7/20/2009 11:05AM

    I agree - it's our faith that what we are doing is what is best for us that counts. (THAT was an ugly sentence - hope it made sense!)

You have found a terrific balance for yourself. And you know and understand how to tweak it. Don't throw all of that away (not that I am worried that you will). Keep the faith, and you will find your body responding again.

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FITKAT2010 7/20/2009 10:38AM

    You said lots here, hon.

18 day plateau here. Same thoughts running through my head too. I, like you, am forging ahead.


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Accept what you can't change

Friday, July 17, 2009

I can't change yesterday's WI. It won't drive me nuts, as someone mentioned -- it bothers me, tho; I'm human. I already am all too aware that weight fluctuates no matter how "good" we are, but that was one really big, unexpected fluctuation.

It would be easy to throw in the towel & say what's the use. If I'm going to gain weight no matter how good my lifestyle, why not indulge myself more? The answer is both simple and long:

Because I don't want to go back to the person who can barely move.

Because I don't want my double chin to resurface.

Because I don't want my collarbones to disappear.

Because I don't want my legs to rub together.

Because I love the light feeling eating well gives me.

Because I have more confidence now.

Well, you get the picture.

On the upside, I hadn't told my DH about the WI. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't, whether they're good or bad. But this morning he commented again that I looked good in what I was wearing, which was simply jeans and a tshirt. But form fitting jeans and a form fitting tshirt (the laundry is in the machine as we speak, I was running out of workout clothes).

I've become hooked on the blog www.eatliverun.com . I've even begun to consider taking photos of my every meal (too bad I recently got my camera wet) and posting it to my cookbookmaven blog. I also know how much work it is to do that every day. I'm still thinking about it. But it's harder to eat unhealthy when you're showing the world what you're eating every day!

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STARTSPARKING 7/21/2009 1:15PM

    Sorry I'm late in commenting, but I just want to say that I LOVE your reasons for not wanting to go back to your former self. I need to come up with a list of my own to motivate myself.

I continue to admire your diligence and determination. As always, thank you for another brilliant post.

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KEAKMAN 7/18/2009 4:11PM

    How's that go again??? "The serentiy to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference?"

Sounds like you have the wisdom and know the difference.

And sounds like your sweetie said EXACTLY the right thing at the right time. Gotta love it when they do it and don't even know how perfect it was!

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FITKAT2010 7/17/2009 10:28AM

    I am so glad you listed the BECAUSE's.

The journey you are on is for a life time. You are doing well.

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Need some cheerleading

Thursday, July 16, 2009

I admit it: I was flabbergasted by this morning's WI. It's a couple of weeks pre-TOM, and I definitely felt I'd gained something. But the scaled said I'd gained 2.8 lbs! WTF? I don't normally use that expression, online anyway, but really, I was in shock. In more than a year of weigh-ins, I've never, ever gained that much in a single week -- not on a cruise, not in moving halfway across the country, not with eating a high calorie meal the night before (none of which took place this week).

I can't for the life of me figure it out. I had a pretty good week workout-wise, and while that could cause a gain, my clothes aren't feeling smaller (but they aren't feeling almost 3 lbs tighter, either; maybe 1 lb, 2 at the very most). Maybe there were a few more BLTs than there should have been, but nothing out of the ordinary. No OOC syndrome going on this week, altho I was quite hungry some days as I blogged about. No more sodium than normal, not that I know of.

I sure hope this goes away as quickly as it appeared. I'm going to try to be more careful about portion sizes & BLTs this week. Was it a scale malfunction? Should I have asked for a do-over?

Funny, going in, as I said, I was expecting a small gain. It just felt like it. Last night I wore a dress I hadn't worn in a while; a simple cotton black dress, but DH commented that it looked nice. I said it wasn't new, I've had it for years in fact, but the body was new. We walked the dogs while I was wearing that dress, and my legs didn't even rub together (I hate that!). And now with one bad WI, I feel as if I've gained 10 lbs. Because it takes me so long to lose weight!

This too shall pass, and I know that. I just wish I knew why it came to pass in the first place.

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EOSTAR_45 7/16/2009 3:37PM

    I say chalk it up to scale malfunction :-)

But seriously, it is just a single weigh in, don't give it too much weight. Our weight fluctuates all the time. Even this moment, you could already weigh less.

This may be the week to go with NSVs and you have many--the black dress that fit you again, walking with no rubbing thighs (I hate that too!), walking as you do every day, the progress you have made and continue to make. Why let one weigh-in undo all of that?

Chin up. Without a doubt, it will pass.


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DEBBIEKAY1 7/16/2009 1:51PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonYou are doing it !
You are making a difference! Don't be down on yourself
Wow! to wear a dress that you haven't worn in years is AWESOME!
So here you go....
Go Girl Go!
I think you are Great, I think you are swell!
Good Luck Girl Good Luck!!
Go Girl go!
Ok I am not a cheerleader, but I know you are going to do GREAT!


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COUNTRYBUMKIN65 7/16/2009 1:42PM

    Try not to let this get to you. I have to admit I am rather intimidated by the scale. I am weighing only once a month. I'm concentrating more about what my tape measure says.

Have faith sweetie, you are now more aware of what your eating and doing. It will pay off..


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    Our bodies are not machines, so sometimes it doesn't compute as easily as a perfect balance between IN and OUT. Altho scales are one measure, there are other measures that are important, too. How do you feel, how do your clothes feel, etc.

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FITKAT2010 7/16/2009 1:00PM

    emoticon emoticon

If all it did was to make you more conscious of your habits, than great! It's a small price to pay for paying attention.

If it makes you nuts, then let it go!

The scale is only one way of measuring progress. Your LBD, your DH complimenting you wearing it, the legs not rubbing together anymore(me too!), all of these factor into how you are truly doing.

Using a tapemeasure also works well.


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