Sunday, May 31, 2009
To losing weight -- AND keeping it off?
It's been a long time since I was this "thin". I actually don't doubt that I can get to my GW, even tho I had many tries when I couldn't seem to get that "low". I have faith that I will do it.
Maintenance, tho, is a different story. I have really never done well with maintenance. Oh, I've kept my weight steady for a few years at a time, but at some point, invariably, it always seems to go up.
I'd like to think I have found the secret this time -- people do find it, after all, even yo-yo dieters like myself. At the same time, I don't want to get too cocky.
I worry every time I donate jeans, and I've donated a whole lot of jeans this last year. But what if I need them again? I spent so much on jeans this past year. Luckily you can get away with the same tops for a very long time, but jeans are another matter. Just 10 lbs, and they're hanging on you. Less, actually, since I've only lost about 27 lbs and gone down 5 sizes in jeans.
I guess it's the proverbial I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. Worry is really a waste of energy, but sometimes it's just hard to silence that niggling little voice in your head.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
I wish I had a photo, but it's too far away for photos even if I had a working camera.
There is something grazing on my neighbor's yard. Yesterday was the first time I saw it. It is LARGE -- well, like small dog large. Probably about the length of our dogs, only with shorter legs and much, much wider.
It seems to have extraordinary vision, too, because I can swear that when I was watching it with my monocular it stood up, stared straight at me, then ran out of sight.
My husband suggested a badger, but the face doesn't seem right for that. Actually, it looks rather like a wolverine from my research, but neither badgers nor wolverines ought to be living here. I've never seen anything like it. It seems to be mostly brown, with a black tail, but it's too far away for me to tell whether or not the tail is furry.
Beavers are the NY state animal, but there isn't any water here, and I don't think it's large enough to be a beaver -- altho it seems damn close.
It's a little worrisome that something like that might consider the dogs tasty someday when we actually do have a fence . . . but it doesn't seem to be going anywhere but our one neighbor's lawn -- apparently because that's nearer to the woods. Thankfully we don't have woods behind our house.
Any thoughts? I lived in NY for the better part of my life, but I've just never seen an animal like this before.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
LBD = little black dress.
I have a dilemma. Only it's a nice dilemma.
We're going to my husband's HS reunion next weekend. I finally tried on a few dresses yesterday. 4, to be exact. They all fit now; they all look good. I've eliminated 2 -- one is nice, but I have worn it before & not quite what I want to wear; the other is too casual (altho I don't actually know how fancy the reunion will be).
It's a nice dilemma to have. It's made all this hard work so worthwhile.
But that leaves me choosing between 2 dresses. One is the one I bought for my niece's Bat Mitzvah last year (don't you love stretchy material?). It's not the dress that launched me on my weight loss journey, but it is the one that got me back into WW in a roundabout way. I look so much better in it now, and altho it's light, it does have sleeves, too. The other I've had for years, but never worn. It's sleevleless and sparkly and it really looks good on me.
I'll bet my husband will vote for the Bat Mitzvah dress, because it's somewhat sexy -- he likes me in sexy (not trampy, just sexy) clothes. I am totally torn. They both look great on me.
I'm sure I won't like the pictures of myself in whichever dress I choose -- but I'll make him take pictures anyway -- but boy, I look good in the mirror!
I even tried on my red velvet dress. Still too tight, but in 10 lbs I think it might fit again. Then I'll have to find a function to wear it to!
I think I have settled on 130 for my GW, and have adjusted my ticker to that. A full 15 lbs higher than my WW GW way back when, but I'm also 20 years older and I know that GW was unrealistic for me.
Would I like to weigh less? Sure. But I can stop paying when I hit 134 lbs. I could go to work for WW again then. I am actually pretty darn happy with myself now, in the 140s. And I don't think I've ever been able to maintain a weight outside of the 130s. So if I can get to 130, that gives me a little wiggle room with my WW GW of 132 (the top of my range), and I'll hang out there for a while & see how it feels -- and whether or not I'm actually motivated to go lower.
It's ironic, isn't it, that here I've gone thru this stressful move, things are still pretty unsettled, and yet I've blogged all these blogs about happiness?
Friday, May 29, 2009
I believe pretty strongly in a whole foods diet as much as possible -- aka, very few processed foods. Trying to eat food as close to nature as possible. Oranges instead of orange juice, home cooked meals instead of microwave meals, and so on.
It's served me well. I definitely do better when I'm cooking my own meals -- especially since when I eat out, I tend to want the fattening stuff, not the good for me stuff.
It's a way of life that I've come to slowly, over the years. I can remember when I first did WW, I used to long for a candy bar. I thought my life would be complete if I could just have a Snickers bar once a week. I still enjoy Snickers bars, but I hardly ever eat them and I don't crave them.
I also used to eat a lot of WW products: microwave dinners, and especially the desserts. OMG, the desserts are good.
My eating has evolved and really changed over the years, tho. From carnivore to almost-vegetarian/vegan. I totally enjoyed the TLT (tomato, lettuce, and tempeh-bacon) sandwich I had the other day (store-bought, but you can be sure I'll be trying it on my own).
I've also become a real ingredient snob. Not just a food snob -- altho I am that, and I'm still willing to spend more on quality food altho I watch what I'm spending more -- but I'm vigilant about reading labels, and not just for fiber content and portion size, either.
I try as much as possible to stay away from HFCS. And that means none of the "diet" staples that so many people enjoy: the skinny cows, the fiber ones, the 100 calorie snack packs.
Oh, I used to love my skinny cows as much as the next person. But I've definitely realized that when I limit my sweets (never actually getting rid of them altogether), I crave sweets less, and I do better. The problem with HFCS is that it's so darn sweet and it's everywhere.
WW desserts are good. Really good. But they're so full of junk. Artifical this, artifical that. I am better off making my own. The nanaimo bars were awesomely sweet -- maybe a wee bit too much -- and not a HFCS to be found, or an articial preservative or color, either. I had 2 last week, and lots of pasta, and I still lost weight.
What works for me may not work for you. And this isn't something I did overnight, either. But I will ask you to start thinking about what you're really putting in your body. You are what you eat; I truly believe that. So decide what you are and are not willing to put up with. Stick with it. You just may find some cravings go away.
Re: the house. Apparently, despite the fact that the offer is as is, they can still ask for stuff after the inspection -- or even back out. So I definitely still need those vibes!
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Food, as we all know, can be immediate gratification. We may regret it at our leisure, but boy, that burger, ice cream, insert your fast food of choice, sure tastes good as it's going down, right?
I did break down thru into 141 or so today, after flirting around 142 - 143 for a few weeks. I may go up next week, but I was pleased to see it wasn't a true plateau (yet). I know I really need to pay attention to BLTs next week. I know I could have eaten better this week; maybe finally getting on my treadmill is what helped pushed me over. Too bad I haven't been motivated to be on it this week!
I have often pondered my addiction to cookbooks. It goes beyond loving food, I think. Almost anything is an excuse to buy one -- and no matter how many I have, I always want more. I admit to being weak today: I bought a new cookbook, not even one of the couple I've had my eye on for a while (simply because they weren't available at Target, which is where I was). I told my husband I'd wait til I had enough Mypoints rewards to cash in for books, but I didn't.
I went for the immediate gratification.That's what occurred to me today -- that that's part of what it is. I look through them, I read recipes I want to try, and I just must have them. Now. Never mind I shouldn't be spending the money or I no longer have room for all the cookbooks I already own. I just must have it. NOW. Right this minute.
I don't know how to break the addicition, either. It's an ingrained habit of many, many years. My only feeble excuse is that I actually use a lot (but not all) of them, because I also like variety -- I enjoy trying new recipes. A lot.
I suppose, as addictions go, it's really not that bad. Yeah, it costs me more money than I should be spending. But it's not drugs, and it actually helps me with my weight loss.
The cookbook I bought today didn't even get very good reviews on Amazon -- I happened to be reading its reviews a while back -- but looking thru it, most of the recipes looked pretty good to me. Especially the chocolate peanut butter dream bars. Yes, I have often bought cookbooks based on one recipe alone.
The good news is that we have 2 offers on our house in Austin. The first wasn't very good at all, but the second was for full price, as is, and the buyer is already pre-approved and guaranteed for that amount. Please cross your fingers for us that he doesn't back out -- it would be so wonderful to sell that price for our asking price; we really didn't expect that would happen.
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