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Where's your motivation?

Monday, June 01, 2009

Funny, that was the topic of our WW meeting this week, and it was really timely for me. Not because I lack motivation, but because one of the suggestions for keeping up your motivation was clothes -- either clothes you don't want to wear any more, or clothes you do want to wear & can't.

My husband's reunion wasn't initially much motivation for me. We didn't decide to go to it til just a few weeks ago. I don't know any of his HS friends -- except the one that isn't coming, that he drifted apart from.

But I found my motivation by trying on dresses. It was really motivating to see how all my hard work has paid of with flattering dresses I already own! BTW, the reason I have so many dressy LBDs is that they were all cheap, all bought at Marshalls over the years; none cost more than $30 (and some are designer labels). Truly, no one needs so many LBDs, but I probably paid less for all of them than you'd pay for just one normally.

Now I have some new motivation: my little silver dress. It's a great dress, with cut in shoulders, skinny criss cross straps across the back, and a short, flirty skirt. And did I mention it's metallic silver? And that I have the perfect shoes to go with it?

I really was just floored that I could even zip it up. It's amazing what you can get away with in a dress that you can't in jeans. It doesn't fit well yet, tho. Still a little to heavy for it.

On our last cruise, tho, we actually put down a deposit for our next cruise -- first time we've done that. Our 25th anniversary is next year. We have to decide on a cruise in the next few months. And I'm hoping to take that little silver dress with me.

I don't really have much problems with motivation most of the time. I want to be healthy. I allow myself to indulge in my favorite foods, or figure out ways to make them more healthy, so I don't normally feel deprived.

But as I blogged yesterday, I've been here before, too. I've lost a significant amount of weight before -- more than once -- and regained it. And not because I immediately went back to my old habits, either. So yes, it's still scary. I still have a ways to go, and those last 10 (or 12, in this case) lbs really are the toughest.

I'm glad that I have this blog tho. That's something new -- having it all out there in public. Having lots of friends who understand. Who will support me no matter what happens, and give me a kick in the butt if I need it. So once again, I thank all you SP buddies!

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DDHEART 6/1/2009 8:02PM

    My favorite kind of motivation!!.....digging into the closet and finding that things fit or nearly fit the way you want them to...and then having an occasion just over the horizen....Well, you'll wear that little silver number and look great in it too.

now an unrelated question for you..........How much wood DOES a woodchuck chuck?

Thanks for a great blog!

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KEAKMAN 6/1/2009 6:59PM

    I think fitting into the perfect LBD, and having skinny reserevs in the closet, is GREAT motivation! And of course you are part of my motivation - you encourage and cheerlead and advise and gievm e something to work towards....one day I will fit into those skinny jeans my DH that were so hot way back when!

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MTER67 6/1/2009 9:25AM

    Your silver dress sounds really cute. Hope when you do wear it, you will post a picture! SP IS an amazing place and you have certainly built up a loyal following here! There is no way we would let you back track once you lose your final 10 pounds. Woo hoo!

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 6/1/2009 6:50AM

    And thank you for being there for us - SP is great, isn't it?

That silver dress sounds great. I love going to stores and trying on dresses, even if I don't buy; just trying them on is an inspiration and gives one so many ideas. Way to go!

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FITKAT2010 6/1/2009 6:38AM

    That's why THIS time you are learning lifestyle skills. You also have a free lifetime membership to SparkPeople. LOL


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Have I found the secret?

Sunday, May 31, 2009

To losing weight -- AND keeping it off?

It's been a long time since I was this "thin". I actually don't doubt that I can get to my GW, even tho I had many tries when I couldn't seem to get that "low". I have faith that I will do it.

Maintenance, tho, is a different story. I have really never done well with maintenance. Oh, I've kept my weight steady for a few years at a time, but at some point, invariably, it always seems to go up.

I'd like to think I have found the secret this time -- people do find it, after all, even yo-yo dieters like myself. At the same time, I don't want to get too cocky.

I worry every time I donate jeans, and I've donated a whole lot of jeans this last year. But what if I need them again? I spent so much on jeans this past year. Luckily you can get away with the same tops for a very long time, but jeans are another matter. Just 10 lbs, and they're hanging on you. Less, actually, since I've only lost about 27 lbs and gone down 5 sizes in jeans.

I guess it's the proverbial I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. Worry is really a waste of energy, but sometimes it's just hard to silence that niggling little voice in your head.

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KEAKMAN 5/31/2009 11:06AM

    Donating those jeans is an act of faith. Faith that you can maintain. Faith in yourself that you will reach your GW. Faith is hard to lean on. We want guarantees and assurances. I am glad that you have the faith to donate them and buy the next size. I like the faith you have in yourself, and that is what is going to keep you from ever needing the larger sized jeans again!

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 5/31/2009 10:52AM

    I agree - maintaining is harder than losing. That niggling voice is a good thing really, mine helps me keep my focus (80% of the time, anyway, which is good - lol). Have a great Sunday. And, don't worry about the jeans, just store them away until you are ready to donate them. Out of sight, out of mind. No worries.

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KUNGFOOD 5/31/2009 9:00AM

    emoticon Smaller sizes are lots more fun to shop for.... I'm cycling back down to the smaller sizes in my closet and it's time to let a few pair go! Congratulations!

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MTER67 5/31/2009 8:20AM

    FIVE jeans sizes? Wow, that is amazing. In the world of problems, that, my dear, is a very good problem to have!

I don't know you outside the context of your blog and our exchanges on SP, but I have to say that it surprises me that you were ever a yo-yo dieter. You have always been very analytical about your weight loss, doing your best to understand the reasons why your body responds the way it does. You are also not afraid to try new things (eg. recipes or DVDs) in order to mix things up or jump your way past a plateau. I have rarely heard you sound frustrated (other than over this move) and you never sound ready to give up.

I guess I am saying that while you will always need to be vigilant, I don't think there is much chance of you backsliding once you reach your goals. You will stay put this time for sure!

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FITKAT2010 5/31/2009 6:50AM

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What a great accomplishment. We can both keep donating clothes. How's that for a problem to have? LOL


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What am I?

Saturday, May 30, 2009

I wish I had a photo, but it's too far away for photos even if I had a working camera.

There is something grazing on my neighbor's yard. Yesterday was the first time I saw it. It is LARGE -- well, like small dog large. Probably about the length of our dogs, only with shorter legs and much, much wider.

It seems to have extraordinary vision, too, because I can swear that when I was watching it with my monocular it stood up, stared straight at me, then ran out of sight.

My husband suggested a badger, but the face doesn't seem right for that. Actually, it looks rather like a wolverine from my research, but neither badgers nor wolverines ought to be living here. I've never seen anything like it. It seems to be mostly brown, with a black tail, but it's too far away for me to tell whether or not the tail is furry.

Beavers are the NY state animal, but there isn't any water here, and I don't think it's large enough to be a beaver -- altho it seems damn close.

It's a little worrisome that something like that might consider the dogs tasty someday when we actually do have a fence . . . but it doesn't seem to be going anywhere but our one neighbor's lawn -- apparently because that's nearer to the woods. Thankfully we don't have woods behind our house.

Any thoughts? I lived in NY for the better part of my life, but I've just never seen an animal like this before.

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MTER67 5/31/2009 6:42AM

    Yay! Mystery solved! It was a lucky guess on my part (and I was secretly hoping the Sasquatch theory would pan out!)

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JLITT62 5/31/2009 6:07AM

    Oooh, I think MTER takes the prize -- I think it's a woodchuck (aka groundhog). The description matches it very well -- altho it sure looks much larger than 9 lbs, which would actually make it the same weight as the dogs, but smaller than the cats.

The pictures seem very like it, the description of its habits sound spot on -- grazing, living near woodlands, standing motionless when alert.

Whew! Not a carnivorous animal, so the cats & dogs are probably safe.

I've never actually seen one in the "wild" before. Thank you, MTER, I may never know for sure, but I'm pretty sure that is what it is.

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MTER67 5/30/2009 9:45PM

    Wow, what a mystery! Have you met the neighbors yet? Maybe they already know about it and could tell you if it is Sasquash or something. Do they have wild pigs in NY? I can't remember what it was I saw in Georgia, kind of like a beaver, but land-dwelling? Woodchuck or something?

Good luck figuring it out. Could you tell what the animal was foraging for? Maybe they like your neighbor's plants, and therefore your dogs will be safe (unless they just have nasty tempers!)

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 5/30/2009 5:45PM

    What about a large porcupine? My sister has one who has visited her yard since it was a baby and it is quite large now. Plus he now brings his wife, and two babies to eat bird seed and such.

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JLITT62 5/30/2009 5:32PM

    Even if I had a camera, all I'd get would be little specs, because it's too far away & it does run away as soon as it senses humans. It's obviously a mama with at least one baby, because there's some little ones with it.

But this thing is big. I mean, it's not a bear, obviously, but I've really never seen anything like it. It's not a possum (well, especially since you don't see those in the day anyway), not a racoon or a skunk -- but at least racoon-sized.

We have a lot of bunnies, and at first I thought it was one, but then realized it didn't hop & the shape wasn't right.

It rather reminds me of a furry armadillo, but it sits up like a gopher (much larger than a gopher, tho).

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KEAKMAN 5/30/2009 2:44PM

    No clue. I wish I could see it, then I might have an idea. But then again, I have mistaken bison for both bears and large rocks, so what do I know?!

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FITKAT2010 5/30/2009 2:18PM

    An alien??? LOL

Wish you DID have a camera, then guessing would be easier. Hmmmm

Glad it is running away when it senses you are looking at it. If it was running towards you it wouldn't be great.


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Happiness is 4 LBDs

Saturday, May 30, 2009

LBD = little black dress.

I have a dilemma. Only it's a nice dilemma.

We're going to my husband's HS reunion next weekend. I finally tried on a few dresses yesterday. 4, to be exact. They all fit now; they all look good. I've eliminated 2 -- one is nice, but I have worn it before & not quite what I want to wear; the other is too casual (altho I don't actually know how fancy the reunion will be).

It's a nice dilemma to have. It's made all this hard work so worthwhile.

But that leaves me choosing between 2 dresses. One is the one I bought for my niece's Bat Mitzvah last year (don't you love stretchy material?). It's not the dress that launched me on my weight loss journey, but it is the one that got me back into WW in a roundabout way. I look so much better in it now, and altho it's light, it does have sleeves, too. The other I've had for years, but never worn. It's sleevleless and sparkly and it really looks good on me.

I'll bet my husband will vote for the Bat Mitzvah dress, because it's somewhat sexy -- he likes me in sexy (not trampy, just sexy) clothes. I am totally torn. They both look great on me.

I'm sure I won't like the pictures of myself in whichever dress I choose -- but I'll make him take pictures anyway -- but boy, I look good in the mirror!

I even tried on my red velvet dress. Still too tight, but in 10 lbs I think it might fit again. Then I'll have to find a function to wear it to!

I think I have settled on 130 for my GW, and have adjusted my ticker to that. A full 15 lbs higher than my WW GW way back when, but I'm also 20 years older and I know that GW was unrealistic for me.

Would I like to weigh less? Sure. But I can stop paying when I hit 134 lbs. I could go to work for WW again then. I am actually pretty darn happy with myself now, in the 140s. And I don't think I've ever been able to maintain a weight outside of the 130s. So if I can get to 130, that gives me a little wiggle room with my WW GW of 132 (the top of my range), and I'll hang out there for a while & see how it feels -- and whether or not I'm actually motivated to go lower.

It's ironic, isn't it, that here I've gone thru this stressful move, things are still pretty unsettled, and yet I've blogged all these blogs about happiness?

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CITABRIA 6/3/2009 10:20PM

    This was so great to read! I'm looking forward to having an experience like that with some of my clothes, hopefully soon. :)

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TRECECOOKS 5/31/2009 5:08PM

    How lovely to have so many lovely clothes! I'm with the others - let DH choose "which" wife to present to his reunion.
You're doing great, and sound wonderfully sane!! Glad you found the cookbooks. DD21 found the park you were talking about. Thanks for the heads up!!

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KEAKMAN 5/30/2009 9:45AM

    Great news! And what a hapy dilemma. I was going to suggest take pics of both, post them, and let us vote, but I llike Katmomma's idea better. Let him present the wife HE wants his classmates to see (it's all about him that evening!)

Congrats on the little black dresses and on being at peace with yourself and your decision about where you want to end up in this journey. You have done so well!


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FITKAT2010 5/30/2009 8:35AM

    Since it is your DH's reunion, have him choose which dress. He'll be p;roud to have you on his arm, walking in, looking beautiful.

Stress is part of life. Happiness is an internal condition too often dictated by what is going on "outside" of our own minds.

Be happy no matter what. That is a true choice.

Hugs and have a great time looking sexy.


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MOMMA_GRIZZ 5/30/2009 8:09AM

    Yeah for the lil black dress! I love mine too. You are doing great and I'm glad write about happiness - it's a great motivator. Have a fantastic Saturday!

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Become an ingredient snob

Friday, May 29, 2009

I believe pretty strongly in a whole foods diet as much as possible -- aka, very few processed foods. Trying to eat food as close to nature as possible. Oranges instead of orange juice, home cooked meals instead of microwave meals, and so on.

It's served me well. I definitely do better when I'm cooking my own meals -- especially since when I eat out, I tend to want the fattening stuff, not the good for me stuff.

It's a way of life that I've come to slowly, over the years. I can remember when I first did WW, I used to long for a candy bar. I thought my life would be complete if I could just have a Snickers bar once a week. I still enjoy Snickers bars, but I hardly ever eat them and I don't crave them.

I also used to eat a lot of WW products: microwave dinners, and especially the desserts. OMG, the desserts are good.

My eating has evolved and really changed over the years, tho. From carnivore to almost-vegetarian/vegan. I totally enjoyed the TLT (tomato, lettuce, and tempeh-bacon) sandwich I had the other day (store-bought, but you can be sure I'll be trying it on my own).

I've also become a real ingredient snob. Not just a food snob -- altho I am that, and I'm still willing to spend more on quality food altho I watch what I'm spending more -- but I'm vigilant about reading labels, and not just for fiber content and portion size, either.

I try as much as possible to stay away from HFCS. And that means none of the "diet" staples that so many people enjoy: the skinny cows, the fiber ones, the 100 calorie snack packs.

Oh, I used to love my skinny cows as much as the next person. But I've definitely realized that when I limit my sweets (never actually getting rid of them altogether), I crave sweets less, and I do better. The problem with HFCS is that it's so darn sweet and it's everywhere.

WW desserts are good. Really good. But they're so full of junk. Artifical this, artifical that. I am better off making my own. The nanaimo bars were awesomely sweet -- maybe a wee bit too much -- and not a HFCS to be found, or an articial preservative or color, either. I had 2 last week, and lots of pasta, and I still lost weight.

What works for me may not work for you. And this isn't something I did overnight, either. But I will ask you to start thinking about what you're really putting in your body. You are what you eat; I truly believe that. So decide what you are and are not willing to put up with. Stick with it. You just may find some cravings go away.

Re: the house. Apparently, despite the fact that the offer is as is, they can still ask for stuff after the inspection -- or even back out. So I definitely still need those vibes!

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-KELLYKAT- 5/29/2009 10:40PM

    Going vegan (for animal rights) had the lovely side effect of really changing my outlook on foods I put in my body. Reading labels to avoid certain items made me take a hard look at all the junk that was in the foods I had been eating all my life!

I'm getting closer and closer to a whole foods diet as time goes by and I love it! Not to mention how much more you can eat when it's mostly ripe delicious veggies and fruits! :) Now instead of wanting ice cream I want a bowl of berries, or for a snack instead of chips I reach for a few nuts and some carrot sticks.

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LEONALIONESS 5/29/2009 12:08PM

    Between going vegan six years ago and working at Whole Foods for five years this May, I'm a total ingredient snob, too. ;) I shop pretty much exclusively at work and we don't allow a lot of the crap in our products. Our quality standards include no hydrogenated oils, no artificial colors/flavors/preservatives, no sulfured anything, no MSG, etc. ... there is still HFCS in some items (since it is considered "natural") but I generally avoid those things. I also buy 9/10 organic, so that's useful for my health and the planet, IMO. Even my rats eat organic food. :)

If I go into a conventional store and look at labels, I'm normally shocked (and a bit digusted) to see the chemicals, fillers and JUNK in food most people eat regularly. I can't bring myself to buy 99% of it, vegan or not. I think my only splurges (and they are rare) are the one vegan flavor of Dorito and Tomato & Basil Wheat Thins. The Doritos hit me with MSG and HFCS, the Wheat Thins just have HFCS, I believe. I crave them very very rarely and eat them even less. My tastebuds have changed, for sure, in the last few months at Spark.

This is a very good blog.
I do eat out a fair amount (at places like Chipotle, Noodles and Co. or Panera for "fast food", since they all have good quality ingredients and it's easy to find vegan food - or Chinese for sit down stuff, we have a lot of very vegan friendly Chinese joints, mmm...fresh veggies and tofu!) but I'd say that I do a good job eating the healthy stuff due to my dietary choices. Heh. My only real vice is the fried vegan spring rolls at Evergreen. OMG.

I love that St. Paul is such a foodie/vegan paradise but it also makes me want to NOM a lot.

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KEAKMAN 5/29/2009 8:44AM

    You are a great role model for me. I didn't know or care diddly squat what was on a label until about 5 years ago. Slowly I have been moving away from bad things and towards good things on my plate and in my tummy. I have my own little garden so that we have plenty of fresh produce this summer - I find I eat a whole lot more if it is fresh and not shipped in from halfway around the world. I think I have a genetic sweet tooth, so giving up sweets has been difficult. I am down to one skinny cow for "dessert" each day, so that is progress for me (there were days when I could and would bake a 13x9 pan of brownies, eat the whole thing, bake a second one, and eat a brownie or two out of it so that it appeared that I had baked it and eaten what a "normal" person would eat!

Keep on telling us about what and how you eat - it rubs off you know!

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FITKAT2010 5/29/2009 8:13AM

    I am totally freed from processed food stuffs. Part of my program of managing hypoglycemia.

I cook/prepare everything from scratch and I don't eat out. Why spend 10 times the money for 1/10th the quality?

Good for you that you are dedicated to eating healthy. It saves on the cost of medical in the later years. Hopefully eliminating it altogether. This is my "health care" program and it works!

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