Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Sometimes I'm really just amazed at the way the universe works. After the great cookie escapade of yesterday (they're all gone; DH finished them off), today I decided to try the sample I'd received at last week's WW meeting: a chocolate chip brownie bar.
I'm not a real fan of most WW products. They tend to be really unclean (although they always taste really good). I read the ingredients on the bar, and they actually didn't sound too bad.
I opened it up -- and lo & behold, it looked an awful lot like a Luna "cookie" ( www.clifbarstore.com/detail/CLF+280+
I happen to enjoy the occasional Luna cookie, and I've yet to find them in a store here. I can order them off of the Internet. Still, I'm going to take a closer look at these at my next meeting. Sometimes I've found that the ingredients on a sample don't match the actual ingredients. If these do, I'm buying me a box. It's just enough to hit that sweet spot every now and again.
The funny thing is that I've been looking for them, too. And there they were all the time, apparently, disguised as a WW cookie.
It will be interesting to see how my WI goes this week. I'm planning to go tomorrow, which is a day earlier than the last time, because I'm just sampling meetings, trying to decide which one is the right one for me. There's a higher proprotion of older women at the most of the meetings I've tried so far -- no big surprise, really, since I'm going during the day.
But TOM started yesterday, and I've been hungry all week. Eating well -- even with those cookies -- but eating more than normal. Which is normal, I suppose, for TOM. But still no weight training, and I need that.
I got so lucky at my meeting in TX, finding my sushi buddy. One thing I find with the dogs, though, is that I'm never really lonely. Well, not that often. They are always there, ready to warm my lap or make me laugh with their antics (or tear my hair out, as the case may be).
Case in point: DH and I were eating dinner or lunch one time. I heard the telltale clickety-clack of someone's nails on our new laminate floors, and then heard a little whine. It seemed to be coming from behind the couch, which was odd.
When I went to look, there was Lola. She must have jumped up onto the top of the couch (she's not allowed there -- that's cat territory), maybe got into the bay window, then jumped down -- and was trapped back there, as there were large boxes at either end. I almost died laughing.
And yet more synchronicity . . . sort of . . . I picked up a brochure on "Local First" at the deli yesterday. I was surfing some of the Websites in it, and came across a coffee/sandwich place that looks interesting. That seems to have the scones, muffins, cookies, etc. that I was dreaming of yesterday. I'm trying to convince DH to come check it out with me this weekend.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Most people say that if you give up something for a couple of weeks, you're well on your way to giving it up for good.
I have been jonesing for a cookie, a brownie, a piece of cake. Oh, I'm not trying to give up sugar. Sure, sugar is empty calories for the most part, but I don't try to be perfect. I just try to be "good" about 80% of the time.
I am used to having at least one semi-rich dessert a week, usually one I've baked myself. And it's been about 3 weeks now. I swear, I was about ready to hold up a bakery. If only I could find one. Scratch that; if only I could find one that had what I wanted.
I went to the natural foods co-op today. They have vegan cookies & brownies, and other assorted goodies, and I spent some time drooling over them. But decided in the end that nothing was quite what I wanted.
Then on to explore a little, to a store called "It's Only Natural", which turned out to be a little disappointing. It wasn't quite what I'd pictured. But it was in a small upscale outside mall so I decided to walk around and check things out. Surely there was someplace selling a cookie.
No bakeries. A place called "Boutinful Bread" turned out to be a sandwich shop, which had some baked goods, but not quite what I was looking for. "Good Eats", as it turned out, was a deli essentially. Something they really don't have in TX, but there are quite a few here. My husband scored, because I picked up corned beef for his lunches.
I spied them while checking out. Not quite what I was looking for, still, but small chocolate-walnut cookies with an icing filling. Kind of like thumbprint cookies, only with a cream cheese icing where the jam would go. I'd seen them at another deli when we'd stopped to get subs last weekend, but I decided they would have to do. I'm getting tired of frozen yogurt. I enjoy it, but it's just not as satisfying to me as the crunch of a cookie.
They were good, too. I meant to leave a bite, but I didn't. There are 3 left. I could hide them from my husband and save them for another day for myself, but I'll share. I'll be better off that way.
I have every intention of making some cookies to freeze this week, no counter space be damned. I can't go on without cookies!
Of course, I could buy msyelf some Freihofers. You'd have to be from upstate NY to know Freihofers. I used to demolish entire boxes in one sitting as a kid. Entemmans are a close runner-up -- but I could still get those in TX. Freihofers is unique to here. It's home. But I know I just don't need the temptation of an entire box. Boy, I haven't had them in years!
P.S. I also spent some time in an independent bookstore there. Some good new cookbooks out there. Isa Chandra Moskowitz's "Vegan Brunch" -- can't wait! I love her cookbooks, and if you don't think vegan food can be good, get "Vegan with a Vengeance". Also perused "Vegan Scoop", which I'd read about. Vegan ice cream. Has been getting good reviews. I already have "Vice Cream", a similar cookbook, and I've never used it. Maybe because I no longer have an ice cream maker (used to have one, used to make ice cream -- it was fun, and hey, I used to live near the home of Ben & Jerrys in VT -- but never quite seemed to have enough room in the freezer).
Monday, May 11, 2009
This applies to both weight loss and moving.
Every time I think I've made progress -- and obviously I have -- I get depressed again when I start counting up all the boxes in the garage just waiting to be moved into the house, not to mention the boxes in the house still waiting to be unpacked -- mostly office boxes right now, although there's still too many kitchen boxes unpacked, too, mainly because I have nowhere to put stuff.
Oh, we moved a book case and my utility cart into the kitchen, but they're almost completely filled already. As is the hutch in the dining room. The counters still aren't clear.
But weight loss is like that too. We feel on top of the world when the scale moves down; crushed when it moves up -- even if we know that there's a good reason for the scale to go up.
The fact that my husband had been living here before we moved in is both a blessing and a curse, too. Because there's all his already-there clutter to deal with -- some of it cluttering up my kitchen, for instance. It's one thing to move into an empty kitchen, quite another to move into one half filled already.
Yet if he hadn't been here, we wouldn't have had our custom made litterboxes ready, we probably would have had to go out and buy new towels in desperation, we wouldn't even have had a refrigerator.
I just can't really seem to make headway in my kitchen. Everytime I clear out some space it immediately gets sucked up with more stuff. Sometimes it's hard to figure where to even start. Just like sometimes the whole thought of losing weight is so overwhelming that we just don't know where to start.
All I can do is dive right in. Take my baby steps in the kitchen, just like I took my baby steps in the beginning of my weight loss journey. Do what I can every day, and have faith that in the end, there will be not only a slimmer me, but a clutter-free house (well, a girl can dream, right?).
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Julia Cameron writes about synchronicity in "The Artist's Way". Basically, if you're open to it, you'll start to see how everything is connected.
I took the dogs for a long walk at a park today. I learned about the park in my WW meeting. If I weren't a WW member, it probably would have taken me much, much longer to find this park.
It's close to home, even closer than we were to the hike & bike trail in Austin. The trails are almost all paved, but there's a lot of them -- there's a small man made lake with ducks, an "orchard" (it's a fairly new park, so the trees are still smal), a wetlands, and quite a bit more.
It's not as crowded as the hike & bike trail tended to be, but Lola still got lots of training meeting dogs -- something she needs constant work with. There are picnic tables and places to grill. All in all, a lovely park.
It's a cool & blustery day here, so we even did a little jogging, which I haven't been doing since we moved; too tired most of the time.
I'm also doing a happy dance because I think I've finally found my other sneaker. We're still searching for some things -- our towels (my husband already had some of our old towels here), the key to my treadmill (still buried in boxes, but if I had the key, I'd be making sure it was usable). Things are slowly, slowly falling into place.
We're going to move some furniture around in the kitchen today which should hopefully allow me to clear off our counters and make cooking easier. We have a lovely wooden utility cart we had custom made in VT years & years ago -- back when I had a tiny kitchen and needed more space. In Austin, it became a huge pet bed for the cats & the place I stored my Mexican blankets. Here it will be pressed into service again.
Of course, there's still the next wave of boxes to move into the house. We're not quite done with the first wave, but we've sure made a dent.
Getting back to the title, there's an old Chinese proverb that says when the student is ready, the teacher appears. It's amazing, sometimes, what life has to offer you if you're just open to it. Of course, I'll get back to you in the winter. I may not be so cheery then.
Friday, May 08, 2009
At least some of the time. Or maybe it was the different scale. Who knows? I'm just happy to have had a larger weight loss this week, and to actually know I've not only maintained, but continued to lose weight even with so much out of my control these days.
I suspect I wasn't eating enough food during the move. It felt as though I'd lost weight, but the scale disagreed. This week, as I've written, I've been a bit hungrier than normal. I've had a few more snacks after dinner, something I don't do too often, because I've been really hungry. I still don't quite have all my ducks in a row with my normal snacks & meals & such; it'll take some time.
But there are still things I CAN control Since walking is the only thing readily avaiable to me right now, I've made sure to take longer than normal walks. Today I'm going to unfish my food tracker and begin tracking again. I bought one of those food journals (non-WW) a while back. I like my leaders idea of highlighted days and/or weeks when your eating is particularly on track, not to mention having it all in one place so I can go back a month if need be.
I hope that maybe we'll get the DVD player hooked up this weekend or maybe next week, so I can start getting back into a normal workout routine. Not sure what next week will bring, as I think I'm getting close to TOM. But I will just continue to do what I can do, and pay close attention to the signals my body is sending me.
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