Thursday, January 15, 2009
It's so hard, isn't it? Yet it's at the core of developing a healthy body. Love yourself, and you feel worthy. If you feel worthy, you'll take care of yourself.
The hard part is to love yourself even if you're overweight. I was not loving myself at 168 lbs. I hated the way I looked, I hated clothes shopping (and I love clothes), I hated the way I felt. It's a catch-22.
Now, at 148, I am not slim by any stretch of the imagination. Not at 5'1". Yet I am amazed at the changes my hard work has brought about. I like what I see (until I see a photo!). I like my strong shoulders, I like my waist, I like the cut of my obliques, I like that you can see my collarbones, I like my shapely back.
I also can imagine how great I will look with 20 more pounds gone, however long that may take. It helps keep me going when I might want to take the easy way out. I know I will never be perfect; there will always be things I don't like; but the truth is I am a perfect me.
If you're just started out and you're not seeing results, ask yourself -- and be brutally honest with yourself -- if you're really doing your best. If you aren't, continue to make small changes -- just one at a time. If you are doing your best, stick with it (and maybe get a physical to rule out any health problems). You WILL see results eventually, and those results will help you to keep going until you see even better results.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
After my small rant about the biggest loser yesterday, I thought I'd turn the spotlight on myself.
OCDD: obssessive-compulsive diet disorder. Sometimes I do think I suffer from this. It worries me, because I'm firmly convinced I've made lifestyle changes and don't diet . . . but am I kidding myself?
I spend a lot of time planning meals, cooking meals, and exercising. I have become borderline obssessed with getting my 10,000 steps in a day. I sit here pondering how early I have to start working out on Friday to get a reasonable amount of steps in, since I need to leave around 10 am and will be sitting most of the day. I'd like to get 10,000 steps in Friday so I can give myself a break over the weekend, when DH isn't working and the temps are supposed to be in the teens (just how I managed to go up on what looks to be the coldest week of the year is beyond me).
I alawys feel I have a good handle on things before going away until those last couple of days, and then everything just seems to pile up despite my having started on everything early, or so I thought. I am in the list-making stage now. Have to make sure I get everything done, and am making lists to keep me on track.
Do I give myself a break and buy a sub this week or eat some frozen dinners? Of course not. I continue to make my own food. Because next week I'm at the mercy of my husband. He only has a few things he cooks, and they aren't low fat. They could be, but he still doesn't quite grasp just how much oil he uses when he makes pepper steak.
I also know that I have had a handle on things in the past . . . cooking my own meals, a house I can actually let someone into without cleaning for an hour first . . . and let it all slip away. Again and again.
In my head I know that not exercising for a week and even eating out for a week won't cause me to gain back 20 pounds. I know I'll go back to my healthy habits when I come back. I know that I'll do the best I can. It's been almost half a year since I was away from home, actually. I can't help but get scared when things are taken out of my control, though. There's that control freak again.
I hope that I have created a sustainable lifestyle. I suppose if I haven't, I just have to figure out how to change it so that it IS sustainable.
This morning I was filling the water pitcher, while all these sorts of thoughts were just running around in my head. And then I thought "STOP!". Concentrate on filling this water pitcher -- because that's what you're doing now. Just stay in the moment. Do the best with every moment we're given; that's all any of us can do.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
I have never watched the show, and the reason I've never watched it is I think -- from what I've read -- that it's an unreasonable way to lose weight.
How many people have 6 hours a day to devote to exercise? Most people can't even mange 30 minutes!
How many people would be successful losing weight when taken away from the stresses of day-to-day living, with all their food prepared for them? It's not a magic bullet, but it's certainly easier if I don't have to deal with the stresses of my life, cook my own food, clean my house, run my errands and so on.
Did you watch Oprah yesterday? That's not the first biggest loser contestant to gain back weight. The reason I think it's so hard for them to maintain their weight loss is because it's such an unrealistic way to lose weight. It's just not a lifestyle that is sustainable for a normal person, and that's really the key.
Of course following regular people struggling with their weight, going about their normal daily business isn't very dramatic. It doesn't make for good tv. But that's real.
Sparkpeople has really nailed the truth about weight loss: lots of support, baby steps, and lots of hard work -- but not so much that you can't sustain that level of activity and eating.
One thing I did like about yesterday's Oprah, one thing that is a bitter pill for me -- and many of us -- to swallow is the fact that for vast majority of us, weight loss isn't something we conquer. We have to work it every single day, even once we get to our goal weight.
I became a leader and didn't go to regular weekly meetings when I became a lifetime WW member. I've struggled for years, gone back to meetings on several occasions over the years, tracked my food sometimes, and always exercised. But it wasn't until I started going back to weekly meetings that I began to truly lose weight. It may just have been that the time was right, but I know one thing for sure now: I need weekly meetings. Not going to my weekly meetings, like not making my own granola, is a sign that I'm in trouble. We all need to recognize those signs.
I know now that my weight will probably always be a struggle for me, even if I'm at goal weight. I'm not a "normal" person, whatever that may be. The first step to changing is accepting yourself.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Gotcha again. No, it's not some weird fad diet. But it's about my diet success.
It's simple: when I make my own granola, I'm usually on program. I used to make my own granola on a regular basis quite a few years ago. Somewhere along the way I stopped. I didn't start buying granola, either, I stopped eating so much yogurt.
Now I am making my own granola again. I'm not real fond of just yogurt and berries, but put on a quarter cup of granola -- which is actually quite a lot -- and I'm totally satisfied. And being the sweets person I am, I put some chocolate chips in there, too. Maybe a teaspoon or less.
Because I'm working hard to cut back on sweets -- always! -- I often have yogurt with granola for dessert nowadays. It's a sweet, but it's good for you -- a total win-win.
In fact, I recently found out that you can make yogurt in a crockpot! I was all set to try that this weekend, only then we made the plans for me to go up to Albany, and I don't want it to go to waste so I'll wait til I get back. If you want to try it out (and report to me), the instructions are at: crockpot365.blogspot.com/2008/10/you
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Next week I'll be going up to Albany to check out the house my husband looked at. It's going to be challenging. It's forecast to be about 5 when I get there.
My husband has no exercise equipment whatsoever. His apartment complex does have a small fitness room, but quite frankly, I don't think I want to don a down coat just to go workout in front of other people. When I was there last summer, his internet connection was iffy, and I often couldn't get the SP videos to play.
Walking, one of my exercise mainstays, will be difficult. There's snow. Right now the forecast is for some bitterly cold weather. I'm addicted to getting in my 10,000 steps, though, so I will try -- although most likely I'll give myself a couple of days off.
I do plan to try to bring a couple of exercise DVDs with me. I'm also trying to pack light, so it's a struggle trying to fit everything in. Oh, and no stability ball, so I guess I can't do my bootcamp videos, either. I will bring my resistance bands. I travel everywhere with them. They're light, they're small, they're easy to pack.
I don't particularly like exercising in front of people who aren't also exercising, so that's a challenge, too. There isn't a whole lot of room in my husband's apartment.
I know that less than a week of less exercise won't derail me . . . still, I'll try to get in a reasonable amount. I'll report back when I get back. Stay tuned . . . did she exercise, or did she use the cold as an excuse to become a great big slug?
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