Thursday, April 10, 2008
Why do you want to lose weight? I have a whole list of reasons, and none of them say "to look pretty". Yes, one of them is to be happy when I look in the mirror.
But this morning I was having deep philosphical thoughts. Well, a little deep, anyway.
You can't read a book by its cover. Beauty is as beauty does. The truth is that what makes us beautiful comes from within, not from our looks. Looks fade. People who base their self-worth on their looks are in for a really hard time as they age.
Still, we all want to look our best. It's human nature, I think. I don't really think there's anything wrong with looking your best, either. The trick, the one that I struggle so much with, is accepting yourself as you are now. Not pining for the past when you were thin. Not waiting to live your life when you get thin.
Because now is all we have. The past is gone. Pining for it is just wasted time. The future is the future. I can't wait for the future to live my life.
And what about comparing ourselves to others? I *really* struggle with that one. I do it all the time. But why? The person I'm comparing myself to might be binging and purging. They might be desperately unhappy with their life. They might be physically or mentally abused. Or they might be happy. Who knows? Who cares? It doesn't matter. Because I only have myself.
I have got to learn to accept myself as I am. Right now. Not yesterday. Not tomorrow. I am a work in progress. And I am beautiful. Right now.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
. . . and know when to fold em. Cravings, that is.
I've been having sweet cravings lately. Not terrible, but more than normal. I thought my period was a week away, but turns out it's going to start a bit sooner. The joys of being in your mid-40s. I never quite know when I'll get one. Sometimes it's the normal interval, sometimes it's every 3 weeks (which means occasionally I'll get two in one month).
Anyway, yesterday after dinner I was still hungry. Physically hungry, not just psychologically hungry. And I hadn't had that many fruits & veggies. I was going to have a greens smoothie, but that wasn't what my craving was for.
So I sat down, AGAIN, and really thought about what I wanted. A cookie might have been good, but the cookies I had had gone hard. I finally settled on some soy ice cream. And it was good, and it really hit the spot.
So yeah, I could've eaten healthier yesterday. But that was what I really wanted. It didn't cause me to go out and polish off the rest of the pint, either. In fact, I started out really healthy today, with oatmeal for breakfast and the plan of having a greens smoothie to fuel my walk with the dogs . . . only I got a call from the woman I board the dogs with, and she'd found a newborn kitten.
So my day got kind of derailed (she did find it a home). I did finally get out food shopping, but I hadn't eaten anything since that single serving of oatmeal. Still, I bought what I'd planned to buy, came home, found out the kitten got a home, started my lunch heating, and called everyone I'd called in the morning back to let them know the kitten had found a home.
And then I sat down (without the tv on) and ate my healthy lunch. I was pretty hungry by this point, but I managed not to derail myself.
Would I lose weight faster if I hadn't given in to my craving? Maybe. Maybe not. I might have ended up just eating around what I really wanted, piling on the calories in search of satisfaction.
So you've got to know when just a little bit of something just a little decadent will do the job -- and when it will lead to a lost weekend of eating. In other words, you've got to really think (sometimes) before you eat.
I did blow one thing: I just entered stage 2, and I should've measured my ice cream. My bad. I know my serving was probably a tad over 1 serving, but c'est la vie.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Supposedly there was a poll on Ivillage, and the 20 somethings said they'd rather be thin & stupid, whereas the older people said they'd rather be smart & heavy.
How sad is that?
What would you sacrifice to be thin?
Your eyes? Absolutely not for me; I'm very visual. I paint & draw. While I'm sure I could adjust to being blind, I certainly wouldn't do it just to lose weight.
Would you give up an arm?
Nope; no way. Sure, you can learn to do things with one arm, but it definitely makes life more difficult.
Would you give up a leg?
No, absolutely not. Once again, you can adapt, but even though my legs may be my worst body part and they rub together, which is a pain, I still want the both of them.
Would you give up money to be thin?
I know that money doesn't make you happy. Still, life is easier when you have the money to at least keep a roof over your head and food on your plate. And if you can travel and buy most of what you want, that ain't bad either.
Would you be willing to die earlier if you could die thin?
No thank you. As long as I'm healthy, I plan to be around for a long time. Life is short enough as it is!
So what would I sacrifice? Not body parts. Not my health.
What I will sacrifice is the time it takes to get thin, but it's a sacrifice well worth doing. As the saying goes, nothing tastes as good as thin feels (although some days a good cookie comes close).
And of course, the correct answer is I want to be smart *and* a healthy weight.
Monday, April 07, 2008
Well, that's not exactly true.
But I just find it amusing that it seems every diet book I've ever bought (yes, there are a fair amount I've tried) says oh, diets don't work because yadda yadda yadda, but follow MY plan & you'll lose weight.
I think the truth is that you take a little bit from every book you read. You might not follow everything, but you'll get something that works for you or motivates you or whatever.
The real truth is that if it were easy, we'd all be thin (and what a boring place the world would be, eh?). So go ahead and remember just how special you are today because you're tackling your weight.
Sunday, April 06, 2008
I am feeling kind of blah today. Maybe it's time to go outside & read a little bit. Lola just went out, anyway. I don't know why, it's an absolutely gorgeous day (and I apologize to those of you with bad weather).
Anyway, I was checking email and posts and such, really just trying to waste some time. I was going to go out to dinner tonight, but then I found out the newest sushi restaurant, which wasn't where I was intending to go, has happy hours during the week. Plan changed; I'll do sushi tomorrow.
So, I was feeling tired. Slight headache (yes, I've drunk plenty of water already, almost all 8 glasses). Lonely. Sweet cravings were beginning to whisper in my ear. I don't want to cook dinner tonight!
And then I did a search -- I'm not even sure what I was searching on -- and ending up reading about greens smoothies. I've read about them before, but I decided to give it a try. Basically, you just add greens to your regular fruit smoothie.
Here was my concotion:
1 c soymilk
1/2 c unsweetened apple juice
1/2 frozen banana
1/2 c strawberries
1 c spinach
Keep in mind I hadn't eaten any fruit yet today, and only two servings of veggies (normally I've got a lot more in than that before dinner.
It wasn't bad. You can't taste the spinach, altho it doesn't taste quite like my regular fruit smoothie. And you do have to get past the color, which, sad to say, isn't really all that enticing. Also, I have a Vitamix, which is a very powerful blender. I think that definitely helps. I do love my Vitamix.
I still have my headache, but I do feel better that I made a healthy choice. Wish I could say it gave me a bit more get-up-and-go, but not yet anyway. I will definitely keep experimenting with them.
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