Wednesday, October 15, 2008
I've written about HALT before. When you're hungry, check whether you're angry, lonely, or tired -- if you're eating for those reasons, you're eating for the wrong reasons.
This serves me well most days. Yesterday wasn't my best eating day, though. It wasn't terrible, and I'm okay with it, but I could have made better choices. I didn't have any fruit at all. I had some veggies, but not enough. I was really hungry for some reason most of the day, maybe because I missed my mid-morning snack, although I had a nice, filling lunch.
I decided to have popcorn after dinner. We'd just had popcorn, but I felt like it. By the time I actually got to sit down and make it, I wasn't really all that hungry anymore, but I ate it all anyway. If you can't eat just one chip, you certainly can't leave popcorn in the bowl!
As I was eating it, I realized I was angry, lonely, AND tired. I suppose the good news was that I was at least aware of my feelings.
And I broke my other cardinal rule: I ate it while watching tv.
Sometimes it's better to give into cravings than to eat around them, and I think last night was that case. I didn't eat anything more after the popcorn, and I'm back on track this morning.
Life happens sometimes. I'm not perfect, and that's something I need to be okay with, although sometimes it's hard. Not that I'll ever be perfect (how boring would that be?), but I have to reign in my perfectionist tendencies. Funny, I have no problem letting my house go to pot, but when it comes to eating and exercise, it's a different story.
Here's a reminder to take our baby steps:
"Many things which cannot be overcome when they are together yield themselves up when taken little by little."
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
It is easy to blame everyone but ourselves for our weight. We blame our parents, we blame our spouses, we blame our coworkers, we even blame our genes.
Yesterday my husband left his backpack unzipped on our living room floor. I didn't know that it contained what was left of the peanut butter chocolate cupcakes I'd given him to bring into work -- and I especially didn't know it containted the box of chocolates he'd brought from Germany (which I requested he bring into work!).
He had walked the dogs, and I was in my office. After about ten minutes maybe, I went into the living room to find the cupcakes on the floor and a scared looking Lola on our chaise. She hadn't actually gotten into the cupcakes, but she had dragged them out (if it had been the cats -- if the cats liked that sort of thing -- they'd have simply chewed through the ziploc bag to get at it).
When my husband came in to see what the fuss was about, he saw the box of chocolates also on the floor, which I hadn't noticed. He immediately got very upset, while I was calm, asking him to try to remember how many were in there & how many she'd possibly eaten.
We called the vet, who told us to give her 1 tablespoon of salt to make her vomit -- which worked, by the way (I mixed it in some peanut butter). It took a few upchucks, but some chocolate did come out. She is fine, btw, or apparently so (this was almost 24 hours ago, and we already did agility today).
My husband immediately got angry at Lola, and railed at the fact that he couldn't just leave anything anywhere he wanted to. He never did accept responsibility.
By now you probably wondered where I was going with this, but that's the moral of the story: we have to accept responsibility for our actions, and hopefully learn from them. Unfortunately, my husband has done this sort of thing before, and I know he will do it again. It is very frustrating.
Still, no one forced him to leave his backpack on the floor -- especially not an open backpack -- *especially* not an open backpack containing chocolate. Just as no one forced us to eat too much of the wrong things. We have to accept responsibility for our weight, and hopefully learn from past mistakes -- otherwise, as Edison said, insanity ensues, because that's the definition of insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
That was the tagline of a radio personality whose name now escapes me. I hated his broadcasts, actually, but obviously his tagline stuck with me.
With DH home, it was photo time again. And this time I decided to tell the whole story. At top is what 5 months can do for you; on the bottom is the change over one month.
This was a good month -- I lost almost 5 pounds. I didn't weigh in this week, because of a schedule conflict, so maybe I lost a tad more. But weight is funny. The jeans I was wearing in the photo yesterday? Earlier this week they suddenly felt tight; yesterday they felt loose again. That's how it often works for me -- I feel fat, I feel fat, then suddenly I feel lighter overnight.
The hard part for me to reconcile is that I've lost 16 pounds so far, and yet I have something like 22 more pounds to lose. When I told DH that, he was astounded. He asked if that was possible, that I could actually still have that much weight to lose, and I sassured him it was.
I have made a big difference in my life, and I am proud of it. But I still have to own the fact that I am *still* fat. But I am much less fat, and I am so glad of that. I'm fast approaching that magical 10% of body weight gone, and that was my first major goal.
Right now, my major motivator is the fact that I will most likely be moving in the spring. I know life will be crazy then, and there's a good chance that I may gain some weight during the move, even though I will try my best not to. So I need to work hard now, while I can still have more control over when I move and what I put in my mouth.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Getting your mind right is so important. If we think we'll fail, we will. As I've written in the past, I really thought for a long time my weight problem was due to a physical problem (and I wasn't alone), and that at my age, it was just a battle I couldn't win.
Whether or not I make it down to my goal weight, I know that just isn't true. People older than me lose weight, too. It does get harder, but in some ways it gets easier, too. You do battle a slowing down metabolism as you age, but for me, at least, it's become a lot more about being healthy than being slim.
And that means that while I do think about food a lot, I really don't think I'm obssessed with it the way I used to be. I won't suck down a package of rice cakes because I'm hungry and they have almost no calories, not to mention no taste (to me, anyway) anymore.
We CAN do anything we set our minds to. That doesn't mean it will be easy, or that it will happen when we want it to happen. But there are no limits; and that doesn't only apply to weight loss, it applies to life.
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
That's what the basics are for me. Here's what I consider the basics:
1. Prepare most of my own food. I might eat one or two frozen meals a week, and sometimes I get some goodies at the farmer's market, but otherwise, I'm making my own breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Yes, sometimes I don't feel like it, but I know it works for me.
2. Drink at least 8 glasses of water a day.
3. Get approximately 60 minutes of exercise a day.
4. Track my WW points.
5. Get 2 fruits & 3 veggies in each day.
Those are my five basics. They're non-negotiable. Sure, there are times I do fall short, but I know these basics are what works for me, so I do my best to get them done every day. Sometimes that means I have to give up doing something I wanted to do, like yesterday I chose to exercise rather than get started on the birthday cupcakes I wanted to make for my husband (he's coming home late tonight).
Nothing much has been going on in my life, really, other than some long days and some stress. But I'm getting the basics done even so. And I suspect my "long" days are most people's "normal" days, but hey, they're longer than usual for me.
The main reason I haven't blogged is simply that uncharacteristically for me, I haven't had anything to say. I also haven't been getting notices of comments to my page lately, so if I haven't replied to you, it's because I didn't know you commented -- sorry!
What are your basics? What works for you? What won't you give up?
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