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How hard are yo willing to push yourself?

Friday, February 24, 2012

My buddy IFDEEVARUNS also ran the Livestrong HM. She came in half an hour earlier than me, despite feeling unprepared. She said she really pushed herself . . . obviously - she shaved 10 minutes off of her time from the previous year. She also said she was very sore afterwards.

Which got me to thinking . . . I felt I really pushed myself, too, but I know I was cautious at the same time. With knee pain starting at mile 6 I was afraid of how I'd feel if I didn't ease up more; I could barely move after my 8 mile race when I had knee pain the last 4 miles.

And that is my nature, too: overly cautious. Does that hold me back in life, in many ways? No doubt. Does it hold me back in my weight loss journey? Good question. I'm sure in some ways it does. This is all just sort of jangling around in my mind right now.

I know you have to really want it, sometimes fundamentally changing your very nature. Maybe I still haven't been willing to change enough. Willing to push myself enough. I'm not willing to tackle the full marathon, for instance. I've really no doubt I could do it if I put my mind to it, but I don't want it that bad.

I can easily see in my HM photo that those last 10 lbs really need to go. Don't get me wrong, I think I look good - certainly much better thsn 3 years ago & 3 years ago no way would I be running HMs. but I am not there yet. I also know you're never really there, never really done, but I can see what still needs work.

I guess it all boils down to just what do I really want, anyway? And how badly do I want it?

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REDSHOES2011 2/26/2012 11:42AM

    Everyone runs their own race.. Even if I can't do it as fast as other people anymore, I succeeded 5 years on maintenence anyway.. Exercise should be a joy, not a pain in the joints.. It is me, the elements, the road and some great music in my ears and being at one with it all..

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DDOORN 2/26/2012 11:04AM

    I'm sure you'll find that happy middle ground between pushing yourself, but not into dangerous territory.

Great to keep moving forward!


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DDHEART 2/25/2012 10:41AM

    As is often the case you spoke the words that have been rattling around in my own head. I don't always know if it's my caution or my "not wanting it badly enough" that keeps me where I am. Thanks for giving my mind some additional pondering.

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TYKXBOY 2/24/2012 12:56PM

    Being cautious with pain is different than not pushing yourself.

I know I run a little slower than my potential because I am overly cautious about running out of steam at the end of my races, so I back off too much in the beginning and end up with extra energy at the end that I realize I could have used. That means I'm not pushing myself enough.

However, with knee pain or being sick, deciding to take it easy is being cautious. That's also being smart!

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CINDYHN 2/24/2012 12:32PM

    This is such a personal thing. Only you know how you feel. When I did my first 1/2 my ITBand acted up at mile 10, the last 3 were torture....but I pushed myself to keep running. Fortunatly I did not do any thing major, just really tough to go down stairs for a few days, but I could have really hurt myself. I also new I didn't have a race anytime soon, and my sister flew in to do the race with me, I didn't want to let her down, she felt GREAT and wanted to "run" the whole 1/2. I Amy run the same race this year, I want to see how it is to run it pain free, so I have to be sure I don't stop training like I did this year when it got close to the race.

There's also a time in out lives when we just decide to "Just do it" for whatever reason.

You are doing GREAT!!!

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NATPLUMMER 2/24/2012 12:00PM

    I think you were right to be cautious since you were having knee pain. It's not worth an injury just to have a faster race. It's not like this is the Olympic trials.
I think you're looking pretty darn good in your photo.

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FRECKS96 2/24/2012 11:27AM

    Great question! And with so many things, the answer is subjective. I am much more willing to push myself when it comes to my running than when it comes to eating better.

Could I eat (much) better than I do? Sure. But I don't want it bad enough yet. I've been finding that for me, there needs to be some sort of "tipping point". A decision that I've had enough of X and won't do it anymore. Once I hit that point, it gives me the courage and drive to push myself in that area.

For running, it was setting goals and having them go as yet unmet (a marathon and PR goals). In my personal life it was being tired of letting my ex control my emotions-it gave me the strength to stop engaging him in conversation.

I think our fears can hold us back, but there is a quote that I love...“Change happens when the pain of holding on becomes greater than the fear of letting go.”
¯ Spencer Johnson

Also said: “When the pain to stay the same exceeds the pain to change, you change.”

I love it and it's so true. I have no doubt that you'll push yourself when you need to.

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KKINNEA 2/24/2012 11:08AM

    I agree with DEEVA, there is a balance between over-cautious and cautious - I think you did the right thing.

I believe the key is to choose a time to give yourself a push and see what happens. I did that this past week with stepping up my training times - I'm trying and evaluating to see if I can get past that barrier or if I should fall back and regroup.

I know you'll find a good balance!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 2/24/2012 9:36AM

    There's more to it than that. You were cautious because you didn't want to injure yourself. I've done that before too.

If I'd felt pain while running, I would have slowed down. My pain only started the next day, DOMS. In part due to under-training for the race.

Persistence is what matters here, and you give ample evidence of persistence. The race isn't always to the swift, you know!

And now I have to decide how much I want to lose that weight I've gained back. After seeing some of my race pictures, I'm starting to want it much more. Ugh.... emoticon

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SLIMMERJESSE 2/24/2012 9:18AM

    Every runs their own race - both literally and figuratively. To me, a knee is more important than my best time. So, "pushing hard" is subjective.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 2/24/2012 8:38AM

    You are smart to err on the side of caution during the race, wish I would have done that. I'm still paying for it. You continue to be a huge inspiration to me - you have such a positive outlook. I know we both "want it" really bad and I have no doubts whatsoever that we will both "get it". You are a rock star. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Awesome way to spend my 50th!

Thursday, February 23, 2012

I will always really treasure this past week. I miss Austin sooooooo much; in some ways it was hard to be back, but I'm also really grateful for the opportunity.

We hit a lot of the things we both wanted to do. Got together with a bunch of friends. Had a fair amount of Tex-Mex, something you really just don't find up here. Not the real thing. Had a few other excellent meals. Had breakfast at one of our favorite ehole-in-tbe-walls only locals know about that last day. Wandered around whole paycheck (what whole foods is lovingly known as) & the shops around it. And, of course, ran my second HM & set a new PR.

Now I have to find a flat course & see what kind of PR I could set on a flat course . . . I think the Garmin made a HUGE difference for me.

It's also amazing the amount of water you retain after an event like that. I absolutely could not get one of my rings off until that evening - had to shower with it on. But I bounced back much quicker this time - I was a bit sore Sunday, less on Monday & fine by Tuesday. Really, I feel ready to run again, altho I think I'll wait til next week.

Wouldn't you know the weather was beautiful the day we left . . . 80 . . . in February!

I bought myself a livestrong running jacket, a mug & some jewelry. All sorts of new restaurants & shops have opened since we left . . . Austin now has a lululemon, which I looked at but didn't buy anything at.

Hopefully later today I'll post the photo our friends took . . . right now there's a very happy cat purring away on my lap. Altho I really need another cup of tea. Busy day ahead, tho - think I'm gonna go to my WW meeting but not weigh in (first time I ever skipped weighing in), go to the grocery store. Pick up the dogs - making giz very unhappy. And I have a vet appt. With Chester this afternoon.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 2/24/2012 8:27AM

    You are so right about erring on the side of caution, listening to your body. I totally ignored my body on my half in November and sad to say I am still paying for it. I have been really cautious since then. I did a quick 2-miler on Wed., the hip was cranky then but now after using the foam roller last night I am dying today. I totally thought I was past that, so once again I have to drop it back a notch, dang it. So I have really been focusing on the eating aspects since the workouts are less than stellar. You are such a rock star and you are always "going for the gold" - you continue to inspire me. I know we both "really want it" and we won't stop til we get it. emoticon

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LADYBUG1107 2/23/2012 5:59PM

    Way to go!

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KKINNEA 2/23/2012 11:29AM

    Great job on your race - sounds like the whole trip was a blast!

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FRECKS96 2/23/2012 11:23AM

    Sounds like an amazing birthday week! Welcome home and try to enjoy some down time.

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KANSASROSE67 2/23/2012 11:16AM

    Happy Birthday...sounds perfect!


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NATPLUMMER 2/23/2012 11:05AM

    Sounds like you had a great time! Glad you enjoyed it :-)
Fingers crossed for Chester.

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JLPNURSE 2/23/2012 10:31AM

    Happy Birthday!

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TEMPEST272002 2/23/2012 9:15AM

    Good friends, good food, shopping and a new PR on your HM. I think that's an AWESOME way to spend your 50th! Happy Birthday! Can't wait to see the pictures.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 2/23/2012 9:10AM

    Glad you had a fantastic time, it's always nice to go back to the ole stomping grounds and reconnect with friends, sounds like you got a little retail therapy too.

emoticonon your new PR and having a successful race.

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AJB121299 2/23/2012 8:05AM

    sounds like a fun time

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You paid $$$$ to do this?

Sunday, February 19, 2012

That was just one of the signs along the way today in the running of my second HM. My favorite one was "this is the worst parade ever". I came in just under 3 hrs at 2:57:01 for an average pace of 13:35 - shaving a full 10 minutes off my first HM time.

I wish I could give you a mile by mile - frankly, I don't know how people keep all that straight!

I know I started out fast - for me - 12 minute miles. And it didn't seem fast at all. But by mile 3 I was already slowing down.and I REALLY slowed down miles 4-6, one of the long hills. I began to get concerned because my knee started to bother me.

But when it was downhill miles 6-7 I flew down, my knee felt better & I almost did a 10 mm for a whole mile.

The last 3 miles? OMG, killer! A lot of hills. Seriously, who puts so many hills in the last few miles? I was definitely tightening up, and was walking up yet another hill when one of our friends called my name around mile 11, took my photo & high fived me. So sweet of him! He just got in from CA late Friday night.

DH was tracking me online & texted me congrats. I got my photo taken with my medal after finishing.

Came back, showered & then a friend came by & took me to one of my favorite Tex Mex places down south. It's been a really long time since we connected & it was a great time. And I had migas on a croissant . . . to die for!

Speaking of food, yesterday I met up with IFDEEVARUNS & she & her friend were nice enough to drive me to lunch. Yup, maybe you guessed it - I got my pre-long run pancakes! So nice to meet her in person. And she did awesome for someone who wasn't prepared - she's way faster than me!

I guess I forgot to mention - picture perfect weather. It has drizzled and/or poured since I got here - but not today. Clear blue skies. Low humidity. 50 thru most of the race. Really, you just couldn't ask for better weather!

DH gets in way late tonight. My sleep has been interrupted by partyers in the middle of the night almost every night - we're not even that close to the infamous 6th street - so even tho I'm looking forward to seeing him can't say as I'm real happy to be woken up in the middle of the night again.

A little sore & sure to be sorer tomorrow, but not too bad. Not sure when my next HM will be, but I have a 4 mile race in a bit less than a month so I'll be out there soon.

Run happy!

I don't run to add days to my life, I run to add life to my days (saw that at the expo).

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DDHEART 2/23/2012 7:25PM

    What a great run! And it couldn't have been in a better locale...at least as far as being able to spend time in Austin. Great job!

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G_TWINS 2/22/2012 7:52AM

    Awesome WTG!!!

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SLEEPYDEAN 2/21/2012 6:38PM

    Woo Hoo on a successful event! I saw the "worst parade ever" sign many times during my half this weekend - which was extra funny because we ran along where the Pasadena Rose Parade goes each year.

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KANSASROSE67 2/21/2012 5:56PM

    Great job...enjoy yourself!


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JUSTCHELLE75 2/21/2012 4:34PM

    Sounds great

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DEE797 2/21/2012 2:07PM

    CONGRATS on your race! emoticon

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FRECKS96 2/21/2012 1:17PM

    Congrats!!! I'm happy that your run went so well. Enjoy the rest of your time there!

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KKINNEA 2/21/2012 1:01PM

    Great job!! Sounds like you had ideal weather. I think they throw hills in the end of races to slow us all down - it's crazy!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 2/21/2012 12:11PM

    I can hardly walk today, after my 4 hour drive - rush hour Houston when I arrived!
Can you believe we didn't take a picture together? What was I thinking???????

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DDOORN 2/21/2012 9:56AM

    Congrats on running what I consider to be *INSANE* distances...lol! You are so amazing and inspiring!


ove the expression "I don't run to add days to my life, I run to add life to my days!"

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TEMPEST272002 2/21/2012 9:40AM

    Congrats on finishing your 2nd HM & doing it in under 3 hours. You are AMAZING!!!! I'm glad you had fine weather & the support of friends. And hills at the end of a HM? Seriously? You'd think they were planning on torturing you or something. lol

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SHEILA1505 2/21/2012 9:27AM

A new PB and you got your pancakes :))

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STARLIGHT615 2/20/2012 9:26AM

    Great job!!!

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SKINNYPOWELL1 2/20/2012 8:11AM

    emoticonGreat new PR - woo hoo. Glad you enjoyed a great race with great weather and I love slogan you mentioned at the bottom, great words to live by. Now enjoy a brief rest and pamper yourself a bit, you've earned it.

did you get some nice bling????????

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LEONALIONESS 2/19/2012 9:37PM

    Excellent job! Congrats!! So proud of you. :D

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LADYBUG1107 2/19/2012 9:33PM

    Congratulations on finishing the HM and shaving the time! You are such an inspiration! Way to go.

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NATPLUMMER 2/19/2012 6:06PM

    YAY!!! Glad you got to meet, Dee :-)

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FREELADY 2/19/2012 5:50PM

    Fabulous performance! All those hard-working, well-thought runs built up to a GREAT day!

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SMALLERSHEEP 2/19/2012 5:00PM

    Congratulations and that pace is great, especially with hills. My first HM was FULL of hills and they are such a bear! Seriously, who puts the biggest hill of the race at mile 10??? Lol, anyway, MB was SUPER flat, so if you're ever looking for a flat race, check it out. Lots of fun and the people were terrific.

Congrats again!

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What to do when you've had an unexpected gain

Friday, February 17, 2012

1. Give up. You've probably done this dozens of times - and you know exactly where that gets you.

2. Deprive yourself, because obviously you overindulged. Deprivation never works, and you need to fuel your body.

3. Examine what you did that week. Were you honest with yourself? Is there room for improvement? Did you exercise more, which can cause water retention? Ditto on more carbs & more sodium? Did you track?

4. Accept that it's a fluke & keep on keepin' on.

5. Use it to refocus your efforts & really eat well.

It's frustrating - I know - been there, done that, too many times to count - including this week, which was a really big shock. It'll be a challenge this week, since I'll be eating out a lot. But I know I need to keep the indulgences to a minimum - not that I can't indulge; but I can't do it all the time!

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LADYBUG1107 2/17/2012 5:41PM

    Good luck with eating out this week. That is a challenge to manage.

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FREELADY 2/17/2012 1:35PM

    How did you get inside my head so accurately?

I think you were the one who told me long ago: Trust the process!

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NATPLUMMER 2/17/2012 10:43AM

    emoticon Very frustrating. Totally been there and done that waaaaaaaaay too many times to count.

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LJCANNON 2/17/2012 10:32AM

    emoticonIt is all about Choices. We choose what we eat, how much we exercise, and how we react to the Scale.
Keep On Keeping On!! emoticon

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LOOOKINGOOD 2/17/2012 10:17AM

    Keep on keeping on!!

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FRECKS96 2/17/2012 10:02AM


The last 10-15% is killing me too. Again. I totally know how you feel.

Good luck this week and have fun!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 2/17/2012 9:52AM

    In one word: sushi! emoticon
You'll be fine.

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It's so tempting to treat yourself with food

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

It's truly bizarre that I was made MOD today - something I wouldn't have e er known without all the comments - because today is my fiftieth birthday. Yup, the big 5-0.

And how did I spend it? All by my lonesome. DH is at a conference. My parents are in CA. Don't have any close friends, just people I'm friendly with. I might've asked someone to a movie, only of course it's also valentine's day - & I'm insanely busy getting ready to go on a trip. Throw into that all the recent vet trips & my lack of sleep . . .

Well, I'm really not going for a pity party. There were good things about today, too. DH called twice; and left me a necklace & earrings. My brother sent me a cool birthday card with all sorts of factoids about the yr I was born (really, how was that 50 yrs ago?). I got an awesome massage. I got to sleep a little better last night. And I got sushi for dinner.

Which brings me to the subject. Birthdays & food are definitely all tied up together for me. I found myself wanting to treat myself with food. Not because I'm stressed & worried but because in my family, that's how you show love.

In the end, I wasn't even terribly hungry today. Sometimes stress can make me lose my appetite. I even had to throw away a few pieces of sushi - probably ate more than I should have even so.

Celebrations = food. It's hard to break yrs of conditioning, but I keep working on it.

It may be quite some time before I can respond to so many of your comments - as I said, I'm about to leave on a trip to run my second HM & really am insanely busy at the moment. Please know, even if you don't hear from me, that your comments mean so much & really helped to brighten my day.

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DDOORN 2/17/2012 9:52AM

    Congrats again, and YES it's an ongoing struggle to resist the old, ingrained lessons that somehow Celebrations = Food!

There are SO many other ways to love and celebrate ourselves and truly LIVING our lives!


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KKINNEA 2/16/2012 5:46PM

    Happy belated and have a great race!!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 2/16/2012 1:31PM

    There's no such thing as too much sushi!
When do you leave? Or have you already?

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SLIMMERJESSE 2/16/2012 10:25AM

    Happy belated birthday and congrats on being MOD. Not a bit surprised as you are one of the best on SP. Here's to another fun and rewarding HM for you.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 2/15/2012 3:21PM

    emoticonHappy Birthday. Good luck with your race, can't wait to hear all about it when you return.

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XFITSTRONG 2/15/2012 6:03AM

    Your comments always brighten my day too! I cannot wait to read about your HM! WooHoo!!!! Happy Birthday to you!

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SHEILA1505 2/15/2012 12:52AM

    Good luck
Happy birthday - 50 was fabulous!
I'm out of here for several days too, unless I can find WiFi on an island in the Indian Ocean - I'm off to Mauritius with my Energy Buddy :))


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LADYBUG1107 2/14/2012 9:33PM

    Happy birthday! This year will be the best one yet.

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NATPLUMMER 2/14/2012 8:28PM

    Happy Birthday!! Better sleep, a massage and sushi make it a pretty darn good day. I'm sorry DH wasn't there to share your day but I'm sure he'll make up for it when you are both together.

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