Thursday, July 10, 2008
I've been wearing my new jeans. I tried the size 10 first, because I was a bit worried, but they fit well. A little tight, but not too tight to wear out in public. Then I grabbed the size 12. Too loose, really. Uh oh, I thought, I'm going to have to return them.
But then I looked at the tag. Size 14! I didn't think I tried on any size 14s. But I folded them, grabbed the receipt, and got them return to take back to the store. And then it occurred to me . . . I'd grabbed my old "skinny" jeans! Which are now definitely too loose.
The moral is, if your clothes are too loose, go out and buy yourself at least a couple that fit well. You'll feel so much better about yourself.
I'm not getting cocky yet. I had my hair cut yesterday. It is still not pretty when I'm sitting down. All those rolls front and center. I am very happy with my progress, but there's a lot more progress to go.
I also did the TurboJam Total Body Blast yesterday . . . boy, that kicked butt. It's a 60 minute workout, and it wasn't easy to get through -- and that's with no weights, just using a stability ball. I wish they had a similar workout in half the time. They do have shorter workouts, but not shorter ball workouts (other than Kickin' Core, which I haven't tried yet).
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Have you heard about Dara Torres? She's a 41-yr-old mother of a toddler. And she's just qualified for her fifth olympic games. When asked how she does it, she said you have to believe in yourself -- and have a really great support system.
Sound familiar? It better. Because you have to believe you will lose the weight, and maintain that loss. If you don't, you won't; it's that simple.
More than that, you need a great support system. Thank God for Sparkpeople, because that's probably what is different for me this time. I don't have a lot of close friends, and until SP, I never had a diet buddy, either.
WW is great, but it's only once a week. SP is here for me 24/7. If I'm faltering, I can ask for help. If I feel good, I can motivate others. I can find out what other people are eating, what they're exercising to, what they're reading. I've made some great buddies here -- people I never would have met without SP -- and I have a couple of buddies I email most days for support, too.
Make sure you use SP to the fullest. Blogs aren't lame. They're a great way to vent, to think through problems, to get and give support. Sparkteams are another way to get motivation and support. The articles can educate you about nutrition, fitness, goal setting, and keep your motivation from flagging. You can track your exercise and food for free -- you can even get exercise videos right on your computer for free!
What are you waiting for? Believe. Because you can do it.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Yesterday someone did something that hurt me. I know they didn't intend to, but it hurt all the same. It raised all those feelings of I'm not good enough, nobody wants me, yadda yadda yadda.
In the very distant past, I probably would have turned to food to soothe myself. But I really don't do that anymore, and the thought never crossed my mind. My problem, however, is getting all those negative feelings out of my head.
I turned to my journal. My journal is different from this blog. It's hand written, and it's private. It's where I work out a lot of my feelings. Normally I only write about one page, and the second page is a page of lists: of what I'm grateful for, what I want, nice things I did.
Yesterday, however, I wrote a letter to the person who hurt me. I let out all my feelings. Writing is an excellent way to vent (exercise -- especially something like kickboxing -- is another). I felt a lot better after getting all the hurt out.
Most of the hurt out. I still find myself dwelling on it sometimes. I have a really hard time letting things go; I don't know why. At least, now, I am aware of it. And I try to turn those negative feelings into more positive ones when I find them creeping in.
Monday, July 07, 2008
It's never a good thing. Or is it?
I really do think that balance is the key to most things in life. It's just too bad that it's so darned hard to stay in balance.
I know that the first time I seriously tried to lose weight, before my wedding, was a very unbalanced way: I used Slimfast, and that was before they had all the yummy food. I got to eat one teeny, tiny bar for breakfast and lunch, and then a normal dinner. It worked, too, I did lose weight and fit into my sister's wedding gown.
I didn't learn anything about eating well, though, and of course the weight came back on.
The next time was with WW. I did learn a great deal, but one thing I don't think I really learned was to enjoy the journey. I was very focused on my goal -- a little too focused, I think. I don't think I really stopped to appreciate the changes in my body along the way; I was too busy getting to that goal.
Some people just naturally take longer than others. We're slow learners, I guess. I do know my journey this time is different. While both times on WW I learned how to indulge while still losing weight, this time I also concentrate a whole lot more on just plain eating healthy.
I know that cutting out whole food groups isn't a healthy way to eat. I never jumped on the Atkins craze, because I think healthy carbs are an important part of our diet.
There was a time I bought into the whole low fat thing, and certain things are better low fat (soymilk and regular milk come to mind), but I read ingredients carefully. I like to eat real food. I'll have full fat cheese, for instance, but not too often & I'm very aware of portion sizes. I like the idea of the 100 calorie packs out there, but most of them are just filled with junk & chemicals.
I do believe that you can cut out meat from your diet and be healthy, but you do have to be careful there, too. Too much cheese, for instance, isn't the answer. You might need a multi-vitamin.
The one time I do think it's okay to cut out an entire group from your plate is when you're struggling. For me, that's usually cookies. I generally don't bake cookies or have cookies around the house, because it's just too easy for me to overeat them. There was a time I couldn't have chocolate in the house, either, but now I've found things that satisfy me for small portion sizes, so I'm okay with some chocolate in the house.
That's the trick: figuring our ways to indulge in your favorite things, less often, in smaller portion sizes. In the end, nothing should be off limits.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
I went shopping this weekend. I didn't really want to do it, but I just can't stand having to hike up my jeans every few steps. I don't wear jeans a lot in the summer, because it's so hot here, but I do in the mornings & evenings because of the mosquitos. And sometimes I do just wear them.
I went to one discount store, tried on a cuple of 12s, but they were too small. Yesterday I went to a sporting goods store, because they sell levis (which fit me well) and they usually have a decent price.
Don't get me wrong, my present jeans aren't falling off me. With hips & a butt like mine, you'd have to lose a lot of weight to have anything fall off you! But they are still too loose.
Anyway, I ended up with two 12s & one 10. One 12 & the 10 are both in the relaxed fit bootcut, which is what I normally wear. The 10 is a little small, creating a little bit of muffin top, but with some wearing & less weight, they'll probably be just fine.
The other 12 is in the regular bootcut. They normally don't fit me, but once again, I figured what the heck, let's try them on. Yes, they are actually too tight right now. More than a little muffin top. But I'm pretty sure I'll fit into them eventually -- I'm hoping they fit by the cruise. A little incentive (since it's a cruise to Alaska, you can understand why I'd wear jeans).
Now here's the interesting thing: supposedly it takes about 10 pounds to go down one pants size. I've lost not quite 10, yet I've gone from a size 16 to a comfortable size 12 in my levis (although, as pointed out, the other 12s, the not-levis, didn't fit).
So even if your scale isn't moving as fast as you like, there really are other ways to judge. It's not all about the numbers. It's about how you look & feel, too.
Which brings me to another benefit. I add jogging intervals into my walks with the dogs three times a week. I've had just a glimpse of the runner's high a couple of times this past week. Where all of the sudden I felt light on my feet, not as though I had cement buckets for sneakers, and felt like I could just keep jogging (if I wasn't pulling 2 little chihuahuas around with me).
And that's because instead of lugging around a 40 lb bag of kitty litter with me everywhere, now I've just got the equivalent of my two cats attached to me permanently (they are big boys -- not fat, pure muscle).
P.S. I forgot to add the really weird part. I also bought some exercise clothes, since I only have 1 pair of exercise shorts -- and the shorts I ended up buying were an XL!
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