Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Have you heard of this? mybodygallery.com
Way cool! You plug in your height & weight & then it shows you photos of women the same height & weight. I know yesterday's blog was semi-Debbie-downer - I blame it on he gray days lately, even if it's been way warmer than normal (NOT supposed to snow tomorrow - yeah! - only rain).
So anyway, yeah, most women my height & weight look pretty much like me. But guess what? 10 lbs thinner they STILL look pretty much like me. That was an interesting reality check.
I haven't had much time for ST lately, what with the travel, the running, the raking. My body really shows the lack. I really hope I can work more in as I work toward the second HM - it makes SUCH a huge difference in how your body looks!
I got a great compliment at yoga Sunday - as we were in pigeon pose, the instructor stopped by me & said I looked wonderful! Would I be in her video? She's not actually making one, but apparently has been asked a time or two & thinks about it.
The funny thing is that while of course it made me feel good about myself, at the same time it made me uncomfortable. I don't like attention.
And we did some crunches, laying down in eagle pose next - pie blasters she called it - I simply cannot wrap my foot around my leg in eagle pose - I don't even come close. So that kept it real.
I'll leave you with the affirmation she shared with us:
I am grateful for everything I have. I have no complaints whatsoever.
Monday, November 28, 2011
What do I see when I look at this photo? A person that's still stuck. She looks good, but of course I narrow in on the flaws. This is me at the wedding:
And with DH:
Not a great photo, but very real: me with my parents - I only tower over them cause I'm wearing 4" heels!
Now here's a side by side photo of me our first night in Key West. Just goes to show you the difference sitting up straight can make in photos (or standing):
You know how some people can't take bad photos? Have no bad angles? Now you know why I carefully edit what I show you, because I have all sorts of bad angles!
And here's the photo that launched me on my journey. I asked DH for them a long time ago, but of course I don't often get what I ask for. He happened to be going thru these for some reason.
This is the bat mitzvah I went to that pushed me to get serious about getting the weight off. On the right is me today in the same dress. Kind of hard to believe it's the same person, and it's not as tho I lost huge amounts of weight, either. This is the photo to look at when I'm feeling down about myself.
And it just goes to show you you can feel unhappy at any weight, too. I tried on a pair of size 6 levis at the store yesterday for grins. It was tight, but it fit -- wasn't too bad. I'm at my heaviest in almost 2 years -- and I feel & see it -- yet my weight has seemed to sort of shift around. Weight is weird, I tell ya.
So while I'm happy that smaller jeans are fitting, I still feel somewhat fluffy. I think I have to come to terms that I might always feel somewhat fluffy. And that can change from one day to the next, from morning to night, even hour to hour.
Which is why, I suppose, we really do need to go by something other than weight & how we look. It's so much more about how we feel about ourselves. But I'll be honest -- it's still kind of painful to look at that before bat mitzvah photo.
I share all this so that you know it isn't just about getting to your goal weight. It really is about getting to your happy weight, which is more a mental game than a number. One I'm still trying to figure out.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Both good - and bad. It has quickly become my habit to have pancakes for breakfast - or lunch, even, if I'm running later in the day - on long run days. I top them with PB2 & use slept flour, so they're at least semi-healthy. But my long run doesn't seem right if I don't have my pancakes first.
I also always use my Las Vegas mug for my tea on long run days - to help me visualize & remind me of what I'm doing. Luckily I have an Austin mug for my next HM, too!
It's just as easy to form bad habits, too: I freely admit that I am addicted to my chocolate multivitamin & calcium supplement after lunch. If for some reason I don't have them, I crave something sweet.
Habits aren't evil - the main thing is to be aware when something IS a habit.
Yesterday was my last "long" run before next week's HM. I did a 10k. It's amazing how much easier a 10 k feels after doing 10, 11, & 12 mile runs! I took a GU with me, even tho I didn't plan to use it (and didn't) because I read somewhere that it's a good idea to have something like that with you just in case.
The park was PACKED like I haven't seen it in months because the weather was so nice. My hip didn't bother me at all except for a twinge here & there afterwards. I haven't had to ice it at all for the last couple of weeks.
I was SO grateful to have a warm run for a change - probably my last for quite some time. I'll admit I really don't look forward to all the cold long runs I'll do in prep for Austin.
A couple more easy runs & then probably way too much walking around Vegas & maybe a couple of swims. The Tropicana has an indoor pool - part of why I changed our reservations - & it better be open because I'm bringing my swimsuit!
Now just praying to get out easily. There's potential for snow the day we leave. And gotta remember to freeze what's left of my chocolate pumpkin pie! No, I haven't had any since thanksgiving.
Are you aware of your habits? Good & bad?
Friday, November 25, 2011
I feel like I'm in a really good place with food. I'm happy with the choices I've made at the wedding & yesterday. What I'm not happy with is the results.
Which is ironic, because my size six jeans still fit. My clothes aren't fitting snug - at least not yet - not like the last time the scale showed me this number.
I tracked everything I ate yesterday. I chose small portions of all the desserts over stuffing & chips, because that's how I roll. Lots of veggies. I wan't in the least stuffed - in fact I was a little hungry when I got hone.
I'm pretty sure I won't be happy with the scale when I get back from Vegas, either.
I guess I just have to be happy that my clothes feel better. And keep working hard to insure that they keep fitting! Because I sure don't want to buy larger sizes.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Remember I shared with you recently that it's not about what you deserve, but about what you're worth?
It's so easy to tell yourself that you deserve to eat whatever you want today. You deserve to take the day off & relax.
But what are you worth?
Are you worthy of having a body you're comfortable in?
Are you worthy of feeling energized?
Are you worthy of loving yourself?
That last question is probably the most important one. It's at the very heart of your weight loss efforts.
Please remember today that you are worth it. That you are worthy of all your dreams.
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