Monday, November 07, 2011
One of the things I've really struggled with on this journey is tracking every BLT (bite, lick, taste). But I've made really great strides in that area.
Today it was time to bite the bullet & figure out what all my little treats disguised as supplements really add up to. I take a couple of vitamin shoppe omega 3 chews, 1 vitamin shoppe vitamin d chew, 1 dark chocolate multivitamin & 1 dark chocolate calcium supplement daily.
Guess what? That added up to 4 points a day. That's 28 extra points a week! Holy moly.
Now, I've been taking all that for probably a year now. I've been on a plateau for 2 years now, so that's probably not the cause but it sure ain't helping.
I won't give up my chocolates. But I will give up my vitamin shoppe chews. They're not THAT good. And I will now count my chocolate supplements as the 2 points that they are.
What have you been turning a blind eye too?
Sunday, November 06, 2011
I liked the yoga class last Sunday so much, I definitely don't want to do long runs on Sunday's because I want o go to the yoga class!
I must've learned something from all those yoga DVDs, because so far she hasn't had to correct my form. She goes around correcting people's form at times during class & has walked around me to help other people.
Don't worry, I don't have a fat head, I know that doesn't mean my form I'd perfect . . . just not as bad as the person next to me, apparently!
When I go home DH was pissed about something. Not sure what. Maybe that I'd been out longer than he anticipated. Or that he's been doing fall cleanup stuff while I've been running, resting, yoga-ing, or shopping. It's not as tho he couldn't go out while I was gone . . . not sure what his problem is.
I'll be walking the dogs soon. And tomorrow I'll be walking them again & tackling the leaves & grocery shopping. I needed to rest after being sick & my long run, but he never sees it that way. Or maybe he's angry because he didn't get to do what he wanted to yesterday because of his foot . . . not my fault. Whatever.
On a totally different topic, I feel like I'm really in a good place with my eating habits - I've made so many positive changes, conquered so many bad habits . . . Part of why it's so frustrating to me to have gained a few pounds. Like all that hard work isn't being rewarded.
I know I'm not perfect, I see people who eat so much better than me (and worse, of course); sweets will always be a part of my life but they're a much smaller part now; I've come a long way with my portion sizes; I'm so much more honest about tracking these days, too.
Well, whatever again! Such a useful word!
I guess I'll have to really buckle down after these HMs & of course not go overboard using the training as an excuse, too.
Saturday, November 05, 2011
The plan was for bagel & lox this morning; followed by chocolate chip pancakes - I had a long run of anywhere from 10 1/2 to 11 miles to do.
Only the bagel turned out to be rock hard. Which was sort of ok, as I admitto some angst about how it would really fit into my plan, despite the fact I'd already planned for it. I turned to old faithful: oatmeal, cashew butter & chocolate chips. Um, um, good. Second breakfast remained the chocolate chip pancakes - pancakes being my go-to breakfast on long run days.
I have been carbo loading the last couple of days, and I must say I really wasn't terribly hungry most of the day, almost forcing myself to eat.
Thank God sports authority had chocolate Gus. I'd been looking for them lately & coming up empty. Vanilla; not he same. Mocha - yuck!
It was mid-40s today, about 10 degrees warmer than last week. Not too many critters around this time. Some squirrels, a flock of geese flew in at the end & of course lots of dogs. When I first checked, I was pleasantly surprised to see I'd already gone 11 1/4 miles.
My hip bothered me a bit, but not too bad. I was wearing my cw-x tights, and I kept them on for a couple of hours after the run. They're compressive tights that supposedly help support your IT band & knees - and very pricey. I think they may have helped - anyway the hip feels pretty good right one.
One month + one day to my HM. Only one more "really" long run next week & then I get to taper. I was happy with my time today, especially considering I was sick most of the week. Running by myself I could definitely run a sub-3 hr HM; we'll see what happens when I have to run with 10s of thousands of other runners!
Friday, November 04, 2011
I admit it: it bothers me that in the last 8 months I've gained 5 pounds. Actually, most of the weight I've gained has been in the last 2-3 months. Training for a HM . . . I know people can, and do, gain weight training for marathons. Knowing that, I've tried so hard to be honest with myself.
I've had many NSVs and breakthroughs in the last couple of months, but none of that is reflected in my weight. It did its usual up & down for a while, but lately it's been up, up, up (albeit mostly in small incrememnts) while I feel that I've been doing at least most things right.
It's not just the number on the scale, either, but how I look and how my clothes fit. They still fit . . . but they're definitely snugger.
So today I decided for a reality check. Below on the left I'm at 138, my lowest, and on the right is my current weight, 143 (ugh, I so hate typing that!).
I can see subtle differences. Mostly in my arms & stomach -- maybe my butt a bit too. Definitely in my face, but you can't see that from this photo.
I saw this photo in a magazine . . . the woman is taller than me (I forget how much) and 10 lbs thinner. Do I really look 10 lbs heavier? I didn't think so when I first saw the photo; I thought I looked better. Putting them side by side I'm not sure. Our clothes and poses aren't the same, either, so it's really hard to tell.
The bad news is I do think HM training, for whatever reason, may be at least mostly the culprit. The bad news is that I'll be training for HMs thru February! And if I enjoy my first HM, most likely I'd like to sign up for others. I like the challenge. But I don't like what it's doing to my body, whether it's just due to the training or to my mental thoughts about what I should be eating for an HM.
Ugh! Talk about damned if you do & damned if you don't. But you look at those oh-so-skinny elite atheletes . . . surely I could at least maintain my weight. I'm beginning to feel that I need a nutrition coach . . . someone who could at least look at what I'm eating & say of course you're eating too much or of course you're not eating enough or you need more carbs or you need less carbs or you should eat this before & after your long runs . . . and now I'm rambling . . . I get so tired of constantly guessing, trying, evaluating.
Thursday, November 03, 2011
That was me roughly 3 years ago. My niece was getting bat mitzvah'd and I'd put on a lot of weight. Most of my west coast relatives hadn't seen me at that weight - ever. I was searching high & low for a dress that could camouflage the pounds.
I did find a nice dress - black, of course - but nothing could really camouflage the pounds. I knew I was gaining weight; I even thought I knew how much I weighed despite the fact hat I hadn't been on a scale for years.
Somehow a cut I didn't even know I had got infected, half my face blew up, couldn't wear my contacts & I had to see a doctor - which meant getting on a scale. I was right about my weight, but seeing the number in glowing red really brought it home to me. I suppose it was a blessing in disguise.
I joined SP, slowly began to use it, changed a lot of things & I think lost 1 whopping lb in the first 3 months. Then I swallowed my pride & went back to WW. Slowly, but surely, the weight began to come off. Until a couple of years ago.
Flash forward to today. I'm going to my cousin's wedding in 2 weeks. I have not one, but two dresses that fit great. Neither one is black. I probably could have easily bought another half dozen.
I'm not writing this to say how great I am - anyone following this blog knows my weight loss came to a screeching halt 2 yrs ago & basically refuses to budge. I'm writing this to share that no matter how frustrating your weight loss journey may be, it's worth it. That you could be doing everything "right" & still not have scale success - but there are other successes.
And just because I have hit a long plateau doesn't mean you will. I have plenty of buddies who didn't and achieved their weight loss goals. I have to assume I just haven't found the last piece to the puzzle yet. That ultimately I must be doing something wrong but haven't figured out what yet.
No matter what, I will never regret the time I've spent at this site & in WW meetings.
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