Friday, July 15, 2011
Know thyself! We are all in different stages of our journeys, and our personal stages change, too. There was a day I couldn't have a jar of PB in the house brpecause I'd just stand up & eat it by the spoonful. Which is very ironic because now I probably have at least 5 - different nut butters & flavors - and always measure out my portions (and don't go back for seconds).
Eating sweets doesn't cause me to go into search-and-destroy mode. NOT eating the occasional treat causes me to eat all around what I actually want. Some things - like ice cream, for instance, I don't keep in the house & only go out for.
I will probably never fall into the food-as-fuel camp - not completely, that is. I do view it as fuel, but I also view it as treats sometimes, too.
But I think I do have to take a good, long, cold, hard look at my treats. I'm thinking of actually making up lists. Rating them. Assigning them points plus values. Thinking about and writing down what swaps I can make - for when I'm feeling strong & much more importantly when I'm feeling weak.
Too much work, you say? Eating shouldn't be so complicated?
I like my cute clothes. I like that I can wear my wedding ring without worrying about getting it back off. I like liking what i see in the mirror & more importantly how i feel on the inside. I like people thinking I'm at my GW even tho I'm not (NOT! That one actually drives me nuts). You get the picture.
This is going to take some time, but I'm worth it & so is my goal.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
That question is probably one of my biggest struggles, & most likely part of what holds me in a holding pattern.
The first week on the wendie plan (pts cycling) I lost a pound; the next I gained 2! yikes! And I wouldn't be at all surprised if I've gained this week, too - totally feeling those extra pounds.
I get one day a week to eat more than normal, altho I'm not stuffing myself by any means. But I'm sometimes eating things I consider "treat" rather than "cheat" foods - frozen yogurt or ice cream, veggie stromboli, a brownie, etc.
But sometimes those treats creep into the rest of the week, too. Like today I'm having half a veggie Stromboli - planned for. But today isn't actually my big point day. Am I cheating myself or treating myself? The $64,000,000 question!
But what if I don't treat myself? Will I go off the deep end & consume an entire pan of brownies?
How many treats are too many? Are treats even necessary? Can I redefine what constitutes a treat?
I try to. Some high point days I eat healthy foods, just more of them than I'd normally eat. The volume thing.
Some people eat really clean. All the time. And it shows.
I eat clean. A lot. But obviously not all the time. And it shows.
Obviously I don't yet have the answers, or i'd be at my GW already. I do promise to keep questioning & searching for the answers & to share what I come up with.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Ok, breakfast was just so yummy I have to share it. Especially good for those volume eaters like me out there.
I call this a pancrepe, because it's not quite a pancake & not quite a crepe:
6 egg whites
1/2 cup oatmeal (uncooked)
1 tsp cinnamon
1/4 tsp baking soda
Blend all together. It's a thin batter, so I always end up with one huge one. Cook like a pancake. If you're not a volume eater like me, this might be 2-3 servings; yup, I eat the whole thing.
Then I made some raw jam- blend together 1 cup berries & 3/4 cup dates.
Spread your pancrepe with 1 tbsp chocolate peanut butter if you're evil like me, raw almond butter if you're virtuous & some raw berry jam. Words cannot describe. Course, now I want raw blueberry jam on everything . . .
So let's talk about hunger. There are so many different kinds:
Real hunger - few of us ever actually allow ourselves to experience this. How privileged we are not to have to.
Hunger cause we've worked out hard - could be real, could be IDI (I deserve it syndrome)
Emotional hunger - most of us have experienced this one; often, that's a huge part of why we're here
Tiredness hunger - I separate this one out from emotional hunger, because while it IS feeling, it's not really an emotion to my mind
Hormonal hunger - don't know if guys experience it, but w girls sure do
Weather hunger - cold can amp it up, hot can suppress it, gray skies can trigger it & so on
Last night all 3 of those last ones struck. Talk about a trifecta!
TOM was supposed to arrive almost a week ago. I think it's getting closer, as the cramps are more pronounced. Imagine having those hungry feelings drag on an extra week.
It was a miserable walk yesterday morning - hot, humid, & buggy. I was not a happy camper. I did my ST later that afternoon, but boy did I have to push myself through it. I shouldn't complain, since I haven't forgotten what summers in TX were like & I know what you folks are going thru - it was just a couple of days for us.
And tied into all that was the crushing fatigue that accompanies the above.
Well, I caved to the devil last night. I'm already up more than I want to be, at the topmost of the range I can't seem to get out of. Taking the bag of PB2 crackers & eating straight out of it was not the answer but I did it anyway.
Thankfully there were only a couple of servings left, which only equals 200 calories, but I should know better - things like that are my Achilles' heel cause they're not filling & I eat too much (back to the volume eater thing). I bought them because I thought they'd be good on a long run - still think that, but I ate the entire bag over a week's time & not a single piece was while running.
And I chased that with a prograde craver cause naturally I was still hungry - at least that stemmed the tide.
Since this is already a novella, I think I'll muse some on treating ourselves tomorrow. Enjoy those PB&j pancrepes!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
I was finally able to raid my husband's computer for the photos from Vegas that I wanted (the ones of me). I didn't even take a camera with me, so all the photos I took were with my cell phone. Vegas isn't really all that photogenic unless it's your first time (which it wasn't for me).
We stayed at the JW Marriot which is out in the middle of the desert, far from the strip, because that's where my husband's conference was. It had this enormous jacuzzi built for 2 - yes, I used it almost every night and I had to brace my legs against the sides so I didn't float!
We drove out to Red Rock Canyon.
So named for the veins of red rock (not sure you'll be able to see them in these photos.
We had been here our very first trip to Vegas, somewhere around 15 yrs ago, and remembered being disappointed. We weren't this time. And even tho it was a relatively hot day there was a lovely breeze.
If you squint you just might be able to see me standing on the trail.
The first time we came, we also went to Valley of Fire -- couldn't cajole DH into a trip this time, but we liked that park even better. It's a bit further out, but not as crowded, either.
Looking out over the desert; cropped for my new profile photo.
We moved to the Venetian for the last couple of nights. This was just one of their many pools, as seen from our 24th floor hotel window.
Yes, this is actually me swimming in my bikini -- thankfully you can't really see it cause it's in the middle of the breaststroke and almost borders on pornographic.
I am still kind of undecided about yesterday's dress. Which I suppose says a lot. I took some photos of myself in a dress I've had for about 15 yrs -- I did actually wear it once. Not a whole lot of call for long dresses.
I know, I know, bad cell phone photos. The dress is chocolate brown. Side view.
I feel pretty much the same way about this one as I do about yesterday's . . . almost there.
What I like about this one:
Shows off my shoulders
It's form fitting without being skin tight
What I don't like:
Doesn't show off my legs. I never in a million years thought I'd write that sentence. But with the right dress, my legs are actually pretty shapely. They're totally hidden in this one. It does, of course, show off my ass-ets tho.
And, of course, it's already bought and paid for. I just feel it doesn't show off the whole body I've worked so hard to get -- only parts of it.
What I like about yesterday's dress:
It hugs my curves
What I don't like about yesterday's dress:
In the photo I think I look a bit frumpy. Not sure why? The hair? Definitely a mess. Summer isn't kind to it. Maybe a bit overwhelming for my frame? But the ruching is part of what hides all those lumps & bumps!
You would think I was really close to this cousin or would know lots of people at the wedding . . . you'd be wrong!
Monday, July 11, 2011
I took advantage of DH being home to spend some time at the mall without feeling like I had to rush right home. Usually I'm combining it with other errands and the dogs can only go about 5 hrs, so the truth is I often feel rushed. Which may explain why I buy stuff then decide later it wasn't right.
First stop was H&M to buy a blouse I didn't buy the other day when I was there. Just a casual blouse I can wear with my pencil skirts or just around the house that the animals won't destroy.
The one I'd bought previously in the week, same deal (except too casual for skirts). Simple, but feminine shaping & I like it more than I expected to.
Yes, I actually have a skirt in the exact same material that I shared with you not long ago. What can I say? I love what this dress does for me. Will be good for Miami in Oct, hopefully.
Side view (this isn't the dress for the wedding, btw).
THIS, hopefully, will be the wedding dress. I was walking by Burlington Coat Factory, & decided to go in since I had time for once. I so rarely go in there. You've got to hunt for it, but they do have some good stuff. This dress was actually in the window, and yes, it took some hunting to find it.
Love the color. Even tho it's a November wedding -- could be snow! or Indian summer! - it's a heavier material so it may work. I like the cut a lot, but it's a size 6 and the truth is even tho I can't zip it by myself because the zipper's really hard, it's probably just a hair big for me - like the shoulders stand up just a tad.
I tried on a size 4, which probably was the right size, but it was ripped. Opinions appreciated. I'm a bit afraid I'll find another dress I'll love even more later, but I like this dress a lot. Did I mention how much I love the color?
Not sure what color shoes are best with it; it's a very bright color. Sort of like the red pumps, but maybe purple, or silver . . .
Actually feeling a bit fluffy & looking it in those photos. So little definition in those arms! But I hadn't been doing as much ST as usual til last week -- and it shows, to me, anyway. And still waiting on TOM which is a few days late. But there's plenty of time between now & Oct & Nov . . . now it's time to do some intervals on the treadmill.
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