Sunday, February 13, 2011
Today was my second group run. A lot of people signed up, but when I got there only 2 people were there. Two fast people - even tho the posted pace for this run is slow. Just as we were about to leave, a fourth person showed up. Thank god, cause otherwise I would've been running by myself - I could never have kept up with the other two.
But this woman and I were fairly evenly matched as we huffed & puffed, trying not to lose sight of the leaders.
And we chatted about running, about weight, about menopause, about this & that. And at one point she talked about how she thought she'd be able to run faster if she lost weight, and of course I agreed - about myself. And she said but you're slim!
Idon't feel slim in running gear, and I have such trouble running - still - that it doesn't make me feel slim, either. This woman wasn't that heavy, either, altho she could certainly stand to lose some weight.
We didn't go out for breakfast afterwards, which turned out to be a good thing cause right around this time DH had locked himself out of the house on our raised deck. I was going to go to the food coop, and wanted to get a veggie sandwich for tomorrow; I didn't really plan to go out tomorrow. Now I have to decide if the sandwich is worth going out for tomorrow, since obviously I went straight home to rescue DH - it was supposed to get into the 30s today, but right now it's really cold out there!
Since I didn't get my waffle after my run, I'm thinking waffles for dinner. Thankfully I'd put together a tempeh casserole before I left, with the intention of having it for dinner - I just popped it in the oven for lunch.
Yesterday I picked up a vegan hostess cupcake & twinkie for DH & I to share tomorrow. That was one of the things I tried to do Thursday, but couldn't find parking - that was the day I was so frustrated, and that was just one reason why.
Y'all will really get a laugh out of this. I stopped while writing this to have lunch, and as I'm eating it, all I taste is potatoes. And then I realized that I'd totally forgotten to put the tempeh in it & it was mostly potatoes!
So for today, try seeing yourself as other people really see you, not how that negative voice you hear in your head sees you. And if you can't, ask someone you love to tell you how they see you. It might just surprise you.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
One of the the many attractions of my iPad is I can use it right in my living room, seated on my comfy couch that reclines. So I've got to be aware - weight loss is all about pushing yourself out of your comfort zone, not about hunkering down & getting comfy!
Of course it's a tool that can be used for good as well as evil. I've got my turbulence training DVDs on it, so I can reference them as I workout as my own tunes are playing. I can put recipes into my WW app to find out how many points are in them, then stand it up in the kitchen to follow the recipe as I'm making it. I can input my food, my water, & my fitness into SP.
I just have to be mindful of how much butt-time i'm racking up.
Yesterday's massage was blissful. She had a heated massage table - never experienced that before - and also put something heated on my feet or neck depending on which body part she was working on. She even managed to massage my hands without causing me any pain - cause the cut still kills anytime it's bumped, which happens frequently.
Then we went out for a pre-birthday sushi dinner at my favorite sushi restaurant, and it was great. Not sure yet what we'll do on my actual birthday - which is soon & falls on a holiday so 3 guesses when it is.
And a shoutout to SKINNYPOWELL & DDHEART who are both running races this weekend - and to anyone else. Have a great time & a great PB!
Friday, February 11, 2011
I'd like to think that it can. Those couple of pounds I lost a couple of weeks ago? They've found me again. And despite my pretzel & chocolate foray, the truth is I've eaten pretty healthy. Still have the pretzels, as a matter of fact.
Yesterday's blog was an attempt not to whine, but not today!
Yesterday I was at odds with the world. It was one of those days, where everything seems to go wrong. They didn't, of course, but I let it feel that way. Because there aren't too many really bad days -- we just let ourselves think they're bad days.
I was po'd at DH. I was angry at the world, I felt badly for being angry at the world, which of course only made me even angrier at myself.
The reason I struggle with what to eat on my birthday isn't a worry about backsliding. It's because I've been on a plateau just 8- 10 pounds from my GW - for a year & a half! Every time I lose weight I think I've broken it or at least figured out what I was doing wrong. And then I just gain back the weight.
I am thankful to a couple of my SP buddies for posting blogs yesterday that I really needed read - about being happy with where you're at & making this fun.
Today I get my massage, and I'm really looking forward to that. It's been 2 years since my last massage! It's quite cold - but not windy or snowy & I'll finally get out for an outside run. Next week we might even get up to 40F!
A little cheese to go with my whine.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
I've been going back & forth on what to do on my birthday. I was hoping to go out for sushi - weather is looking a bit iffy, but might be ok, especially since the place I want to go is close to home.
And since sushi is semi-healthy, that might free me up for some dessert.
And then I got to thinking why can't I just eat whatever the heck I want for one meal? People do it all the time and still lose weight. I've done it & still lost weight, too. But sometimes I gain, which is part of what holds me back from treat meals. But sometimes I gain when I eat healthy, too.
And just when you thought this was a total whinefest, I got to thinking about what I'm really missing. When I was a teenager, I totally ate whatever I wanted. And I had frequent stomach problems. And I was fat. I was picked on. I was never asked out on a date.
As an adult, I didn't have much energy. Nothing fit. I had frequent insomnia. I'd come home from work and immediately change into sweats.
Once I first lost the weight with WW 20 yrs ago, I must admit that I've pretty much been eating healthy since then. But portion sizes continue to be a struggle. Still, I know it's a struggle worth fighting, because I know I don't want to go back to the never wanting my picture taken, always wearing black, low self esteem person I was just a few short years ago.
I will most likely have dessert on my birthday. But I won't feel deprived the next day when I don't. Because I'm not missing out on anything!
What are you missing?
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