Thursday, January 13, 2011
Sounds like I'm setting up excuses, right? Or having a reaction to "The Black Swan". But no, this came from Runner's World Complete Book of Running for Women:
"If success were a certainty, you wouldn't have much of a challenge to begin with. There is little point in setting an easily attainable goal. Goals are meant to stimulate you and inspire greatness. A goal that is obviously attainable is without value.That means that any worthy goal comes with the implication that you might not meet it. Learning and growth come only in the struggle to attain your goal".
Remember my blog about baby steps vs big dreams? Now I think I get it! Yes, Virginia, you can have both -- but they shouldn't be easy. Yes, it's important to set yourself up for success, but not to the point that you are not stretching yourself out of your comfort zone.
And if you do fail? You learned something. Maybe you learned something not to do, maybe you learned that method or goal doesn't work for you, but you ALWAYS learn something. It's how we grow.
It's like kids. There's a fine line somewhere between giving kids awards for just showing up & trying, and motivating them without crushing their spirits when they don't attain their goals. It's the same for us. We're all just big kids.
In that spirit, my goal for my first 10k -- which may not be til October -- is to run it in 70 minutes. That may not be fast, but it would be fast for me. I'm not sure I can do that, but that is my goal. I already use that goal to visualize a finish line with that time on the clock.
And, of course, I still have a goal to get to my WW GW by my birthday. About a month away. Past experience says I can't lose that much weight in that amount of time -- not when I'm this close to my goal, anyway. Roughly 8 lbs. In a month. Which is a lot when you're that close to goal, but it CAN be done.
If I do not meet my goals, I will still have learned a lot along the way. Knowledge is power.
What are your big dreams and goals? What lessons have you learnt along the way?
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I have blogged, ad nauseam, it seems, about my oatmeal-cashini-chocolate chip habit. I know this doesn't sound healthy, but it truly can be -- in moderation.
Just as your body gets used to a certain type of exercise and doesn't have to work as hard at it eventually, so to does it adapt to eating the same foods all the time.
Much as I love this breakfast, I knew after almost 3 weeks straight of eating it it was time for a change. A savory change. I do tend toward sweet breakfasts: fruit & granola, fruit smoothies, oatmeal + chocolate chips, pancakes. All healthy.
So I made up some scrambled tofu for lunch one day, and had it for breakfast yesterday. Lots of veggies: broccoli, mushrooms, red onions, & avocado. Yum! And yes, it was back to oatmeal+cashini+chocolate chips this morning.
I believe you really do have to look forward to what you're eating. You have to anticipate it. I wrote a long time ago that food should be something more than fuel, and something less than comfort. But you should really enjoy what you're eating -- just don't get stuck in an eating rut!
Things have a way of working out. Since we did get our heating checked on Monday, and I was productive early in the day, that freed me up yesterday to go see "The Black Swan". If you're a perfectionist, this should cure you of that habit! I found it a bit odd, but thought provoking all the same.
And today the snow is really coming down, so I'll be on the treadmill again. And shoveling again (already shoveled some paths in the backyard, but they'll just have to be shoveled again at some point -- supposed to snow all day). A much shorter, but hopefully faster run.
I downloaded a new app: Running Log Free. It allows you do track your miles, automatically figures your pace, and a whole lot more. There's a more advanced version that only costs $.99, and I suspect this will be useful enough to spring for the full version eventually. Have I mentioned how much I love my Ipod Touch lately?
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Yesterday started out well. I've been making a habit of listing 3 to-dos for every day. And I got started on them early -- got the laundry in the machine, cleaned a litterbox. Then I got on my treadmill for a looooong, slooooow run.
Long for me, anyway: 7 miles. Slower than usual for me, too: a 4 mph pace. i know for some people 7 miles is still nothing, but to me it still seems hard -- and I keep thinking to myself seriously? You want to try doing double that?
But that's why I'm working on distance now. Cause it takes me time to work up to these things! I don't want to take 3+ hours to run a HM -- not just cause that's a slow time, simply cause I don't really want to spend that much time running!
I'm not even planning to run a HM til 2012. Yup, that's me, the planner. Slow & consistent.
Anyway, I did it, felt somewhat good about the accomplishment (hey, it's only been a couple of years since I ran my first mile after all!), and that is when the proverbial s$*# hit the fan.
A couple of months ago we made an appointment to have our heating checked. Had all sorts of problem just getting the appointment made. I didn't remember when the appointment was -- sort of thought it was today, but no, turns out it was for yesterday. Despite the fact that we made the appointment 2 months ago, they couldn't be bothered with a reminder call (a pattern is starting here).
Good thing my group run was canceled, as the window was 2-5. Only she wanted to know if he could come now cause he had some time. Well, no, I'm sorry I'm in the middle of something that can't be put aside (I was already in the middle of cooking my lunch). She seemed shocked that I couldn't just drop everything to accommodate them.
So she asked if I'd be there at 2 and said he'd come right at 2.
I rush thru cooking my lunch, rush thru eating it, and yes, you guessed it . . . waited . . . and waited . . . and waited.
At 4:15 the phone finally rings. Did I still want him to come today? The previous stop turned out not to have heat so he was running late.
Well, I was upset. Not that they were taking care of a customer without heat, that they couldn't call to tell me they weren't coming at 2 when they had made it seem very important that I be here at 2. Had they called, I would have been able to walk the dogs. They didn't get walked Friday or Saturday due to the weather, and we have more snow predicted our way for tonight & tomorrow.
The girl starts getting upset right back at me, seemingly forgetting that she made a big deal out of the fact he'd be here right at 2, kept quoting that our slot was 2-5. Then going on about how they were helping someone without heat.
Totally missing the point. All I wanted was a call when they knew they would be late! That's it; so I could have gotten on with my life.
Then she asks me if I wanted to hear how her day went. This was my chance to be a big person, but of course I said no, I really don't care, I'm YOUR customer not the other way around. I was not abusive to her, I was not mean -- I was annoyed however. And that is when the phone cut to elevator music.
Seriously? Are you s#*%%ing me? After listening for about a minute I hung up. Apparently she went to get her supervisor, who called me back. Who actually did remember we'd already had problems with them. To say I am unimpressed by this company would be a mild understatement (remember, we've only lived here a year & a half).
Well, long story short, the dogs didn't get walked, but the guy did get here at 5 pm (then took an entire hour -- probably cause DH got home soon after & chatted him up).
So, how did I eat in response to this? Well, I'd already planned some rather high calorie, leftover pasta for dinner. Pasta, butter, garlic, cheese. Not exactly healthy (but it's a small amount of butter and not too heavy on the choose either, about an ounce per serving). I had originally planned a dessert, too, but had decided earlier in the day not to have it.
Well, I did have it. I was hungry. Did I eat in response to my emotions? Maybe. But at least I thought about it. It was just what I wanted, and I savored it. I don't feel guilty. Of course I'll feel angry if there's another gain -- I know I'm pushing it with that dessert -- 7 miles isn't as much energy expenditure as you like to think it is (which is why it's easy to gain weight when training for a race).
Well, I know people love to hear how we're still human & all, so there you go. Very much human.
Monday, January 10, 2011
I'm beginning to think I may be jinxed from running in groups. Last year I signed up for a running tour of NYC, only to have it canceled when my guide got an acting gig & we couldn't set another time.
I joined a local running group, and even signed up for my first group run this afternoon. Only the leader got sick so it's canceled.
No worries, I will still run. But it's cold & it's breezy & I am not my buddy DDHEART & I'm gonna do my long run on the treadmill today. Cause I don't fancy running loops around my neighborhood and I don't really want to give up the time to drive somewhere now that I don't have to.
While I was looking forward to finally running with people and (maybe) conversing -- considering the official pace was much faster than I can run -- I wasn't really enthusiastic about running in the late afternoon, especially as it would get dark before the end of the run and that would make it even colder.
I know I'm not really a jinx, and I know at some point I WILL do a group run. Just not today. And since I have a bunch of chores to do around the house (already got laundry started and one litterbox drip drying), the extra time (and warmth) will be appreciated. I'll just have to give up my hot cocoa!
So where does motivation come from? Well, it can come from many sources, but one great source is actually having an exercise group/buddy/partner. It's way easier to wimp out on exercise when you're only effecting yourself.
For all the reasons stated above, I would never choose to run at that time at this time of year. But I was motivated to at least try running with other people -- that would've worked to get me out the door.
So even if you think you're a lone wolf, give a group/buddy/partner a try. Even if you're very shy, as I am (no, really, I am; you'd know that if you met me in RL without having met me here first).
And if you don't have any RL groups/buddies/partners, that's the beauty of SP. You've got them just waiting to join you here.
You don't want to disappoint your buddies, now do you? I thought not.
Sunday, January 09, 2011
It already looks like my goal to be at my WW GW by my birthday may already be out of reach, but I haven't thrown in the towel yet.
One of my goals for this weekend was to think long and hard about a reward that would motivate me. I was having real trouble, cause pretty much everything I was thinking up that was REALLY motivating cost money, and of course one of my other goals is to save up for my Ipad.
Finally I hit it: use one of the house cleaning coupons my husband got us. Perfect. Very motivating to have to do less cleaning around my birthday. And it's already paid for.
Now, what exactly do I reward, tho? I already know that try as hard as I might weight loss isn't really under my control. Oh, I suppose it could be if I never ate any sugar again and never ate out. I don't eat out a whole lot, and even less than usual lately -- but those aren't really realistic goals for me.
I'm having a bit of a problem coming up with something that is truly measurable and something I'm not already doing. Exercise is not a problem for me -- and I already feel like I spend most of my spare time exercising (altho I suppose I need to really do the math like my buddy Carolyn) -- maybe just a bit of extra exercise 4 times a week? Or one extra run a week (I typically only run 3 days a week)?
Maybe weigh & measure everything a certain number of times per week?
Record every BLT?
A savory breakfast x number of times per week?
I've got to think some more about this, but I've got to make a decision soon! Before I know it, my birthday will be only a month a way!
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