Tuesday, November 09, 2010
DH decided not to take his laptop to his evening session, and I actually have a blog in mind, so here I am.
Another beautiful day in paradise. We've gotten very lucky with the weather so far -- apparently there was quite a bit of rain the week before we got here. It still usually rains at least once a day, but in general, it's been very nice -- ESPECIALLY considering they had snow in Albany today! More than an inch! I am quite happy to have missed that, since it wasn't forecast and I would've missed my morning swim.
I actually did miss my morning swim here, but only because I chose to run instead and we had a tour in the afternoon so no time.
But as I people watched around the pool yesterday, I thought that I was actually one of the thinner women there. Yes, I'm sorry, I still do compare myself. Oh sure, there were a few babes in bikinis, but I felt good about myself and my body. Delusions of grandeur, perhaps. I'm sure I wouldn't feel as good about the pictures; I so rarely do -- they just don't show me what I see when I look in the mirror.
But after weeks of seeing the anorexic-looking soccer team girls as I'm dressing after my morning swims, I looked around me and thought: you know what? I'm not that much heavier than most of the women wearing bikinis. Most of them don't have perfect, leggy bodies, either.
It's given me renewed ambition to reach my GW. It wasn't that far away when I left, and even tho I'm sure I'm going to gain something while away, I know how to take it back off when I get home (even with Thanksgiving in there). I CAN do it. I want to DO it.
Because if I can get to my GW by next year, and if we go to the conference in Miami, I just might buy myself a bikini.
I was beginning to see some definition in my arms before I left. Eating has been a bit of a challenge today. First there was no fruit at breakfast (seriously? in Hawaii?) -- but I loaded up on the grilled veggies. Then we had to gobble our lunches down in about 10 minutes. And then I REALLY had to go on a scavenger hunt for veggies at dinner (buffet reception), and everything was really rich. I did amaze quite a few with the dent I made in the broccoli garnish.
I did my best, and thankfully I got my long run in (even got rained on just a tiny bit). And am really thankful there weren't any desserts at all to tempt me.
So there you have it: I may be delusional, but I also know what to do, and I know what a difference that could truly make in my body. I want to wear a bikini, thunder thighs in all.
Sunday, November 07, 2010
DH wanted to lay down a bit, so I get the computer for a while. Unfortunately, there is no wireless here (for free, anyway) and I've discovered while I can read blogs on my Kindle, I can't write them on it.
I love to people watch. I love to see what they're wearing, what their expressions are. And I was struck yesterday at how few people were smiling as they boarded planes.
Now, I get that traveling is a PITA. Hey, we arrived almost literally 24 hrs after leaving our house yesterday. I get it, believe me.
But especially on that last flight, we're going to Hawaii, people! Seriously, you can't smile about that even if you are in a total haze?
Actually, I feel fine today, just exceptionally hungry. We'll get back to that.
So I made it a point to smile as much as possible. Cause I'm going to paradise, and I know just how lucky I am. And I thought about living life passionately.
It's so important, no matter what we're doing. It's so easy to get all wrapped up in the minutiae of our daily lives. The news is always terrible. The weather could be, too (OMG, it was absolutely FREEZING on that jetway in MN). And, of course, maybe we've just binged or we gained weight when we thought we'd lose.
Doesn't matter. Tell me that the next time I'm complaining about those very things!
What really matters is to live your life with passion, with pleasure -- even when you're struggling. Because really, what's the point of being pissed off about everything? Does it make you feel good? Is it working for you? Remind me I said that the next time I'm pissed off, please!
Apparently it's been very rainy here for the last week, but today is gorgeous. We walked along the beach at sunrise (normally DH would never be moving at that time of day, but of course we haven't quite adjusted to the time difference yet).
We discovered a little shack that had reasonable, good breakfasts. We sat out by the pool and I swam in circles around it. We had a nice (if expensive) lunch outside near the pool.
I have, for some odd reason, been extraordinarily hungry the last couple of days. I had great food yesterday, despite traveling, and plenty of water. And despite having breakfast, lunch, and dinner and a few snacks, still found room for sushi when we got here. An open air sushi bar right by the beach. Definitely my idea of heaven!
Today I am still hungry.
I made the decision not to bring my pedometer, not to track my food (other than mentally). But I had a fruit smoothie for breakfast (with protein powder) and an avocado salad for lunch; I stive to have a couple of healthy meals at least a day if I can manage it.
Not sure how often I'll get to blog -- but today I already had the idea for this one so wanted to get it out there, even tho it's sort of rambling. And speaking of rambling, when DH saw my bathing suit all he said was "wow!". I kind of feel like Rip Van Winkle, slowly waking up after a long sleep.
I'm going to try to remember that if if I lead a normaly small, unexciting life, I can still be passionate about what I do.
How bout you, when was the last time you felt some passion in your life?
Saturday, November 06, 2010
What happens when you let yourself get distracted by life? Well, someti
es you drive into the car in front of you. That's what happened to me, anyway.
But we all have distractions in our lives, and after my accident (no one was hurt, "minor" damage to the cars -- altho nothing is minor these days), I got to thinking about what I was supposed to learn from it.
I'm still not really sure, but I do know we let the distractions of day life derail us from a healthy lifestyle. Only most of us call them excuses. I hear them from DH a Loy, and I know I've made quite a few of my own.
Only I've found that for every excuse, there is a solution. Sometimes it's simple, sometimes you have to search long & hard, & sometimes you have to ask for help.
What excuses have you been using?
What solution can you think of?
Friday, November 05, 2010
I got to thinking yesterday, about how my buddy Donna will bring our buddy Kate on her runs sometimes, and how our buddy Kate will sometimes bring a whole gaggle of spark buddies on her runs with her.
And then it came to me. If I'm struggling while away, I just have to think WWMSBD? aka what would my spark buddies do?
Here's what I think some of you would tell me, in no particular order:
KARBIE18 would tell me to just be really present in the moment (which could be a blog for tomorrow, if I get a chance, talking about my accident).
DDHEART would tell me just go for that run, have fun, and I know how awesome I'll feel afterwards.
KEAKMAN would remind me what an awesome, inspiring person I am.
GEODAWG would remind me that laughing burns calories, too.
DAYHIKER would remind me I already know what to do, so just do it!
TEMPEST272002 would remind me that you have to live each moment to the fullest, cause you never know when God is going to throw a huge detour into the road (her husband is doing much better -- thanks everyone for their prayers).
SKINNYPOWELL1 would tell me I'm rockin' those swimsuits so step away from the sugar!
THERUNAWAYBRIDE would give me some of her boundless energy (actually, I really do believe her spark name ought to be energizer buddy).
DEIRDREJ1TX would remind that it may feel hard while I'm doing it, but I'll feel so good when I'm done, so just do it already.
SHEILA1505 would remind me how much better I feel when I'm eating whole foods -- and a whole lot less sugar.
And if I missed you, it definitely wasn't on purpose. This blog could be miles long!
So I'm taking you all on vacation with me. No, I'm not Oprah, tho I wish I had just a smidgen of her money so that I really could take you all with me. How awesome would that be? Spark girl night's out -- in paradise!
But I'm taking you all with me in my head. I decided it was time to peak at my weight. No, I don't get to move my ticker -- but it is actually accurate again. 4 lbs in 3 weeks, which is awesome for me. And it's just amazing how much better I feel with those 4 lbs off. You can see everyone of those pounds on my face. I have to hold onto that feeling.
I'm not actually nearly as stressed about it all as I sound, this is just where I get it all out. Sure, there's a little stress -- I really don't want to go back up. I want to move forward.
Right now I am thanking my lucky stars that I don't drink anymore. Cause I know good intentions have a way of flying out the window when you drink.
So, when you feel yourself floundering, just ask yourself:
Thursday, November 04, 2010
Yesterday's blog got some people thinking, which is always a good thing.
I got a lot of responses along the lines of "you can have everything in moderation." It's something I've often said myself. And I still do believe that.
However, come talk to me again when you've been very close to your GW -- and then stuck on a plateau for a year. And not because you're stuffing your face or slacking on exercise. And I think I've heard pretty much all the plateau-busting advice as well. And tried the vast majority of it.
So you may get to a point where you're willing to give up a little more than you thought you would -- at least temporarily. And it's funny how sometimes temporary can become at least semi-permanent. Which was sort of the point of my ramble yesterday, at least partially, but of course even I didn't know that.
So here I am, about to leave on a vacation in a few days, having worked really, really hard and seen progress. Often I've worked so hard and seen no progress, so I am very happy that my hard work has paid off.
Which leaves me with a bit of a dilemma, even tho it's actually a good dilemma.
How do I eat while away? What sort of choices do I make?
I said to one SP buddy that I almost hate to take this body that's looking pretty good on vacation where surely it will get bloated from what I'm eating, no matter how careful I am. I've worked so hard!
This is where goals come in. What do I want out of this vacation? Ah, there's the rub; I'm not sure. Is it ok to gain a couple of pounds? Do I strive to maintain? Do I continue to avoid sugar as much as possible? Will that even be possible?
The first few days will be eating from DH's conference -- we've paid so that I can go to breakfast & dinners with him (we're on our own for lunches -- oddly enough, he will have a break in the middle of the day). Conference food can be very good (sometimes too good) or very bad.
I don't think I'll be finding a whole lot of brown rice (altho I'm sure white rice wouldn't be hard to come by). Fresh fruits should be abundant. I'll bring some cereal/granola with me.
I have been avoiding dairy for the last 3 weeks too. No cheese. I love cheese. Still, cheese doesn't figure in that much to Hawaiian cuisine, so I may be safe there.
I plan to leave my pedometer at home, but I will run, swim, and do yoga. And maybe some weights -- I have a nice short routine on my Ipod. I hope that we get to do some hiking.
It has been a long time since I've had a truly relaxing vacation. In fact, I think the last time was the last time we were in Hawaii, which was 5 years ago. Not that I'm really complaining, as I've had some pretty awesome vacations between then & now. Just that I love a vacation where I can swim and relax at a pool, and it's been way too long since I've done that.
And yes, this is all veeeeeeeeeery narcissistic. Yes, I get this way before vacations.
The bottom line is that I intend to enjoy myself, but not to throw all my hard work away. Accept that I won't be perfect, and most likely will see a gain when I get back.
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