Thursday, July 22, 2010
That's what's inscribed on the small silver ring I bought at Target today. They have a variety of rings (online, too, apparently) and bracelets and necklaces inscribed with different words and sayings. This one spoke to me.
Actually, several others spoke to me too (but I resisted) as well as a pair of earrings and a bracelet (which I didn't resist).
I wish the inscription were on the outside so I could read it more often. Because it's so powerful & so true.
Folks, never let yourselves become too hungry. Too hungry is always trouble. No matter how much I tell myself that it will pass like everything passes -- I fast once a year for 24 hours (ok, ok, usually it's more like 20) after all.
Last night DH got home about 2 hours late. He tells me he told me he had a late meeting, but apparently I forgot about it. I was starving. It wasn't the sort of meal I could easily make for myself and then just reheat for him.
I ate the better part of a box of cherry tomatoes and at least one serving of kashi crackers (maybe more). After last Thursday night's sugar dive, I did say I'd be happy to maintain, and I actually lost a tiny bit of weight. I should be happy. I'm not. I ate so well 80% of the time, but let emotions and going too long without food derail me about 20% of the time. It doesn't take much extra food to derail my weight loss efforts.
Well, it's a new week, hopefully with better sleep, less emotions, and less food deprivation. TOM is coming, but I know if I'm focused (and hoping to use my new ring to focus) I can beat TOM. I can do it. I have done it. I will do it.
Lately, tho, I have been flat out exhausted. I've been laying down on the bed in the afternoons (which the dogs adore), something I almost never do. I even cut running out this week because I thought maybe I was overexercising. I haven't been doing much of anything around the house.
The only thing I'm doing differently is taking the dogs out for a walk earlier in the morning. I can't really see how that would effect my energy levels. I thought maybe I was coming down with something, but so far, knock on wood, that doesn't seem to be the case (which makes me very happy).
Well, once again, I'm sure this too shall pass. Next week is my "easy" week between months 1 & 2 of Insanity. The same workout for 6 days straight. Do I add running back in? I haven't decided yet. Yes, I do sort of miss it. Except for the waking up so tired. I'm eager to try the Treadmill Trainer podcasts I downloaded.
Today I ended up going a bit too long between meals again. It wasn't technically, it was only 3 hours, but I was really, really hungry by the time I got home from my meeting & running errands.
Sorry not a real inspirational blog, but lately I've been too tired to do much inspiring. So just remember: imagine, believe, receive. And maybe stay away from Target! (In my defense, I was there to get toilet paper and moisturizer).
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
As usual, I'm going to ramble a bit today.
How often have you thought "I really don't care about why I'm overweight, I just want to get it off"?
The key words in that sentence is "I really don't care". Because what you're really saying is that you really don't care about yourself. If you don't know why you want to lose weight, how can you hope to keep motivated? If you don't care enough to set yourself some goals, how will you stay motivated?
That's right, you're motivated when you care about yourself. Motivation doesn't mean it's easy. Motivation just means that you care enough about yourself to take the time to dig a little deeper, to figure out what makes you tick, to set some goals, to pick out some rewards.
If you don't care, why should anyone else? Don't whine about how nobody loves you if you can't be bothered to love yourself. Yes, it isn't easy. Yes, it takes hard work. But you'll be amazed at how your life seems to click into place when you find the motivation within.
So Yuri's video yesterday really spoke to me (check out yesterday's blog for the link). And again today. And you know what? He has free podcasts up on Itunes. Search on "Treadmill Trainer" (and he's got some others, too).
And I also wanted to share again the Inside Out Weight Loss podcasts. Love them!
And finally, as they say in the blog world, yesterday's dinner was holy yum. I made veggie stacks. Essentially thin slices of tomatoes & zucchini (you can use whatever veggies you enjoy most) layered with raw cashew cheese (google raw nut cheese and I'm sure you'll come up with lots of recipes). Also some rawvioli -- slices of zucchini brushed with olive oil and a little sea salt sandwiched with a cashew cheese filling.
Then the raw ice cream sandwiches from www.juliemorris.net for dessert. I ended up adding in some kashi crackers because I was missing me some grains, but the whole dinner was so totally satisfying. Thank you, DH, for having a business dinner so I could feed me soul (he would have hated it).
Oh, and this morning I decided to try making myself a tea latte. I brewed up some double chocolate matte tea (used 2 teabags). Set that in the fridge. Will add 1 cup of soymilk, and little soyatoo "whipped cream" with a drizzle of chocolate agave nectar. I'll let you know now it is. I don't drink those coffee/tea drinks, but just decided to give this a try this morning. The whole thing is about a whopping 2 points. And will give me some fuel for my workout. And some "recovery" from my walk.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
One of the nice things about DH being gone is I can be on the computer when I want & for how long I want. Except when my folks were here, of course, because then my Dad hogs it for hours at a time. And shuts down the browser even when I tell him not to. See, I can't stop whining!
But I've made some recent finds I wanted to share with y'all.
Even if you're not vegan, I think there's some good stuff here. Especially the 30 day core challenge. I'll be hitting that up when I'm done with Insanity -- my core can always use some work!
And low fat raw vegan recipes -- so often raw recipes are so high in fat. I haven't tried anything yet, but I will be trying some.
The raw brownies are AWESOME. You must try these. I've made raw brownies before, but these are very simple and really, really good. And I'm using them as a pre or post-workout snack. Mainly dates & walnuts, it's perfect.
You shouldn't reward yourself with food, but I have to admit, sometimes the thought of my post-workout snack gets me thru a workout.
I got to this one from the Vibrant Vegan site. They praise his workouts, and he had free running podcasts if you signed up for his newsletter, and I did. Haven't tried the podcasts yet, since I'm not running this week, but this video really spoke to me.
I enjoy being a fit, healthy, energized 130 lbs by Dec. 31st this year.
1. I can use the money I'm currently paying to WW either for monthly massages or perhaps to join a health club.
2. I can earn some money by working for WW.
3. I will fit comfortably in my focus jeans.
4. I will be able to run faster and with less effort (and pounding on my body).
5. My self esteem will increase due to going after and achieving my goal.
What about you? What do you really want, and why do you really want it?
And any recent finds you want to share with us?
Oh, here's another grocery store find: mini coconut milk fudge bars. Only 70 calories or 1 pt in WW parlance. Finally, a small fudge bar that doesn't have odd ingredients that I LIKE! Look for it in your organic/health food section.
Monday, July 19, 2010
That's what I told a spark buddy recently. Our bad weeks don't define us; our good weeks do. There WILL be bad weeks, it's just a fact of life.
Last week was definitely not one of my best. Nothing major, but just all those little things piled on top of each other really get to you after a while:
The first wasp sting. I didn't even know for sure I'd been stung -- I wasn't quite sure what was going on, only that it HURT. Nests behind your mailbox door (which you are totally unaware of) are bad business.
This preceded the epic 2010 parent visit without my husband here to act as a buffer. Not even that was all bad -- my mom & I did have some interesting talks.
Followed by the second sting. Worse reaction to this one, probably because it was on the back of my leg and got really irritated by all that exercise.
My camera stopped working for reasons unknown.
I managed to take out 2 mugs at once. I use heavy ceramic bowls for the animals, and one slipped -- chipped one of the brand new mugs I'd just bought at Marshalls (cat mugs -- so cute) and took out the handle on the only mug I ever bought while living in Austin.
Yesterday the raw lemon bars I had in the fridge did a swan dive, getting banana puree all over the refrigerator and floor. I was literally screaming in frustration. It took about half a roll of paper towels to clean the mess up, and poor Chester was quivering on the landing (despite it not being his fault and my not being mad at him -- altho of course I'd told them not to even think about touching it -- which they weren't about to because when I'm truly angry, they stay far away from me).
I feel as tho I am on the verge of coming down with something. I'm hoping not. I have been totally exhausted the last couple of days, and wasn't even hungry last night. I've decided to take a week off from running this week, while continuing with my Insanity workouts. Next week is supposed to be an easy week before starting the second month.
Still, aside from the one day dive into sugar, I've eaten well. While I hope to lose weight this week, I'd be happy to maintain. I've been totally into unbaking the last couple of days -- raw desserts. Raw really hits the spot in the summer!
I made some raw brownies that are awesome and a great post-workout snack (being mainly walnuts and dates). I made a raw strawberry cheese cake for my folks, and they actually liked it. Throw lots of fat & sugar at them and they're happy -- they can be picky about healthier fare. I didn't tell them what it was until after they'd eaten it. I made some no-bake cookies yesterday that had way too much sugar in them. I'd actually made one of them before, and cut back on the sugar because they were too sweet, but I need to try a different sweetner or cut back even more. Oddly enough, they did not at all cause me to crave more sweets. I made the infamous raw lemon bars (haven't had them yet, no idea how they taste but they're simple and ought to be good).
I did some pushups to account for the licks & tastes.
So just remember: it's not about what we've done wrong, it's about what we've done RIGHT. What are you doing right today?
Friday, July 16, 2010
My mom doesn't get it. Despite my having been a WW member for 20 years, she's never gotten it. And boy, she made me angry right before she left.
Anyway, she walks around telling people (including my Dad) how "good" I'm being. Judy's being very good, she says. She doesn't get that there's no good or bad, there are only choices. Some choices are good, some choices are bad, sure. But a healthy lifestyle isn't about being "good", it's about making good choices most -- but not all -- of the time. Which leads me to point #2.
My mom often asks "you eat that on your diet?". Yes, you see, she has a diet mentality. Either you're dieting or you've blown it. She doesn't get that indulging in your favorite foods, in a mindful way, keeps you from overindulging in them without really tasting them.
Yesterday she told me how good I looked in my jeans as I left for my WI, and wished me "luck". I didn't feel as tho I'd lost weight, which I'd told her, but I can't always tell. When I came back, she asks if I'd lost weight. I said no. She said you didn't gain weight did you (insert horror here)? When I replied I had, she said "that's not good".
Sigh. She doesn't get it. I know she doesn't get it. At her age, she'll never get it. So she complimented me and pushed all my buttons within about 2 hours.
And yes, it brought back all those "you're not good enough" feelings. The message has always been you're not good enough if you're not thin. Congratulations if you've lost weight, disapproving silence if you've gained.
And yes, I soothed myself with some sugar last night. I'm not proud of it. I tried so hard not to do it, but in the end, I caved. I was hungry yesterday afternoon, and realized I hadn't drunk enough water yet. So I put dinner in the oven early, since DH isn't here, and drank 3 glasses of water. Ate my nice healthy dinner. And decided that yes, I really did want to finish off that pint of chocolate peanut butter coconut milk -- there was only one serving left. I could work it in. And that would have been fine if I'd stopped there.
But no, I had to have some of the chocolate peanut butter caramel bars my SIL brought over a month ago. They'd melted at some point, and they weren't even all that good anymore. Even after I ate 2 (maybe the size of half a Snickers bar) I still wanted more. But I threw out the other box -- they really weren't worth it (the coconut milk so was worth it).
They do say awareness is the first step. It's pretty rare that I eat emotionally these days, but I guess we all have those days.
I have a whole week til my next WI. Can I overcome the feelings, remain on tract, indulge sensibly, and actually lose some weight this week? Stay tuned.
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