Friday, July 09, 2010
I've read countless weight loss books where they suggest that any system that counts something -- carbs, points, calories, fat grams -- is doomed to eventual failure. In theory I understand their point. "Normal" people don't count anything, they eat when they're hungry, they stop when they're full and they don't spend their entire life thinking about food.
Well, as I've blogged on more than one occasion and I'm sure my husband would agree, I'm not "normal".
Past history would tell me that the nay-sayers are right. That I've never truly been able to maintain my weight. Oh sure, I do it for a while, but in the end, I always end up blowing up again for whatever reason.
Yet here I am, yet again counting points. Yes, not always eating what I want to eat or how much I want to eat. Because the simple truth is that if I eat what I want and how much I want, I don't weigh what I want. And that doesn't make me happy.
Most of the time, these days, I am much happier. As I asked a while back, will I be happier if I lose my last 10 lbs? The honest answer is that no, I probably won't be. But I will be healthier, and that makes me happier, and so I suppose in a roundabout way it WILL make me happier. But if we were going on looks alone, I probably could stop right now.
And that is why I choose to eat less. Using my Ipod Touch to track my points pointed out to me (yes, pun intended) that I was still simply eating too many points. I didn't think I was, but I was. When I got more creative and ate less points, sure enough, the weight started to come off. I know over time my stomach will get used to less food.
I am not starving myself, by any means, either. I'm not into that. I have a very healthy appetitie! At the moment, tho, I want to lose those last 10 lbs more than I want to eat as much as I was. So I am working on eating smart and retraining my stomach.
There's a dessert I've been wanting to bake the last few months, and I thought I'd bake it for my parents' visit. But I realized that I don't need it, they don't need it, and so I've decided against it. I'll get to it eventually. We have another couple we've invited over for dinner sometime in August (their son is getting married at the end of July, so they're a tad busy right now).
So what makes me think this time is different? That this time I can hold onto my weight instead of balloonin back up? You are a big part of the difference. You are my support group, and I thank every single one of you that has cheered me on, offered advice, and just made me smile with your comments. The fact that I've been maintaining my weight now for almost a year gives me a lot of hope too.
Finally, the reasons I want to lose weight have definitely changed. I'm as vain as the next person, but it's definitely not as much about the looks this time.
So here's to all of us struggling with those last 10 lbs -- or just anyone that's struggling: we CAN do it. Keep the faith, keep focused, and ye shall be rewarded!
Thursday, July 08, 2010
Yup, just had no thoughts on food or weight loss et al at all yesterday. Not that I have much more today. We are in the grips of a heatwave. Thankfully, the AC in our house works well (not so much in my car, but DH tried something last night that seems to help), we haven't lost power (altho we do have a generator), and the good news is that it'll be gone in a day or so.
It really doesn't bother me too much because this was the norm during summer for 17 years of my life. I won't say I like it, but I know I can handle it.
And now I suppose I can say I'm truly a runner -- I went for my run at 5:15 am this morning. Since I'm a morning person, I finally decided I wanted to try a morning run. Before walking the dogs.
Altho I missed the peace and quiet of cuddling with the cats while eating breakfast and reading my magazines, I enjoyed the run. I didn't have to wear a hat since the sun was barely up. I only saw one other person -- ironically enough walking her dog. A pug. Pugs don't handle heat very well due to their pushed-in noses.
Then it was back to the house, feed the cats, get a quick bite to eat for myself, get the dogs, walk the dogs, feed the dogs, do a little sparking. Off to my WW meeting where I'm pleased to say I lose almost a whole nother pound -- despite the arrival of TOM.
Then a shopping trip to Marhalls (way too successful there), and a quick run thru the grocery store. And finally home to a little lunch after almost 8 hours of running around!
The best part about it was that I clocked 10,000 steps BEFORE leaving for my meeting. I just took the pedometer right off. I'll be getting more steps in during the day, in fact I still have my Insanity workout to do (a recovery workout today, which is why I chose to do a short run this morning). I don't really care about the extra steps. I mean, it's important to keep moving, obviously, but I don't feel the need to keep tracking those steps since I know I've already done good.
So I did well last week -- and my week included planned for indulgences like fudge pecan pie, cheesy guacamole dip, not to mention buffalo hot dogs & potato chips last night. This week will be every bit as challenging with my parents coming up. I need to stay vigilant this week! I need to continue with my Insanity workouts even with my parents here, even tho I absolutely hate to be watched while exercising, even tho I won't have the buffer of DH here, since he'll be away on a business trip & visiting his own folks. I need to continue planning because it works.
I just know if I keep my wits about me, I can have a weight loss this coming week, too. If I'm very lucky, I could even move my ticker a tiny amount again. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, July 06, 2010
Insanity is aptly named -- the workouts are INSANE! I've read a few reviews of Insanity vs. P90X (after buying Insanity sort of on an impulse), and apparently many people use P90X as a building block to do Insanity. One of the main differences is that there is no actual weight training in Insanity, altho I do have a DVD called upper body resistance that isn't on the schedule that I haven't checked out yet.
The workouts are very intense cardio, except for the recovery workout. Even the warmup will leave you dripping with sweat.
Speaking of the warmup, the is one of my few quibbles with the workout. It is virtually the same for every workout and that gets a bit boring (especially when you're doing it for a whole month!).
The workouts in the first month aren't actually all that long. They are on the average 40 minutes, but you spend a good 5 minutes stretching after the warmup and another 5 minutes or so stretching at the end. Which is a good think, to my mind. Stretching is important!
Unless you are extremely fit, chances are you won't be able to do everything. I know I sure can't. Even the people on the DVD drop in exhaustion sometimes. It reminds me a bit of 30DS, except I find Shaun T much more motivational than Jillian.
And if you're a beginner exercise or very overweight, I would not suggest these workouts. There are no modifications.
There is a lot of jumping, quite a few pushups in a variety of positions, lots of squat thrust-type exercises, some kicks and punches. These aren't fun workouts. Usually I go for fun but challenging, but I felt I needed something to shake me out of my rut.
You take a fit test as your very first workout, recording how many you can do of each exercise. Then you repeat the fit test every couple of weeks to see how you're progressing. The fit test alone is a very good workout, and my calves are just now forgiving me for all the insanity after a week.
One day a week is your recovery workout -- unfortunately my DVD of that workout is messed up. You do some squats and lunges, and some long held yoga poses, and while it's challenging in its own right, it isn't a sweat fest. And one day a week is pure rest.
I've added some light weight training a couple of times a week because one of the reviews I read said she actually did lose some muscle while doing just Insanity -- but it can become a time issue. I'm also trying to get in 2 easy runs a week in addition.
Speaking of running, I think this workout program will definitely help my running. I'm hoping it will allow me to go faster. We shall see.
These are the type of workouts where you dread doing them, but feel so good afterwards. And of course I have to try to make sure I don't eat too much because I feel I've worked out hard. It comes with a nutrition guide, but I'm never good at following those things and I didn't even attempt it -- altho I glanced thru it and most of the meals look good and interesting. I just like to do my own thing when it comes to food.
I'm a bit nervous about the second month . . . the workouts get longer. But that's almost a month away (there are some supposedly easier recovery workouts in the week between the first and second month).
I'll keep you posted.
Monday, July 05, 2010
I meant to take more photos yesterday, but it didn't happen. There's my new kitchen (the old one didn't have those cabinets I'm standing in front of -- there were walls there instead) -- and you can actually almost see the muscles in my arms! They really are there.
One of the books I read recently talks about how people think that losing weight will solve all their problems. That suddenly they'll love their job, their spouse, whatever -- even if they're hating them right now.
One reason people regain weight is because when they get to their GW, they suddenly realize that they're not magically happy. That it's hard work, and if they're not happy, what's the point?
I do not believe that's why I regained weight this last time. I think it was more a matter of age, hormones, and losing myself as so many of us do.
If you've been following this blog for a while, you know that I've been struggling with the last 10 lbs forever. As so many people do.
So I have to be honest with myself and ask myself will I be happier 10 lbs thinner. I think the honest answer is that it won't necessarily make me happier -- but it will make me healthier. I do have high cholesterol, and while that's only one of my reasons for wanting to lose weight, I know that where I am right now still isn't a healthy weight for my height.
OTOH, I can also honestly say that I am sooooooooooo much happier than I was roughly 30 lbs ago. I like having my photo taken again. I have more energy. I'm not as closed in -- more willing to try things that take me out of my comfort zone (sometimes).
And with my Ipod Touch teaching me that I needed to really examine my portions closer, plus my insane Insanity workouts, I'm really hoping that I might be able to move the ticker again in a little while. I'm not expecting much this week -- TOM should arrive right around the time I step on the scale.
Yesterday was nice. We had 4 co-workers of my husband's over. One is going back to his native Switzerland in about a week (for good) and it was interesting talking to him. And many that guy can eat! Had almost a whole pound of steak and 2 helpings of pie.
Another was a couple I'd met before, who are like us in that they are dog people with no kids. And oddly enough, the wife grew up here. She actually lives about a block away from the house she grew up in! But she'd lived in TX even longer than we did, and she really misses it.
I made 2 dips from "The Kind Diet", only I used real cheese so they're vegetarian, not vegan. The artichoke dip and the cheesy guacamole dip. Both were awesome. Unfortunately, there's a lot of the cheese guacamole dip left. Not quite sure what to do with it . . . DH doesn't really like it, usually I'd send it in to work with him but it really needs to be heated . . .
I also made a fudge pecan pie from "La Dolce Vegan" -- very rich and awesome. DH doesn't normally like really rich desserts but he liked this (he really likes pecan pie and that's part of why I chose that). There isn't much left. The ice cream dessert was just ok. I'm sure my Dad will enjoy it, he's got a real thing for ice cream and always has to have some (thankfully he didn't pass that on to me -- while I enjoy ice cream, it's not my fave thing and I can pass it up).
And I'll leave you with the type of salad I often eat for lunch. This one was just so pretty I had to take a photo of it. And yes, there's a whole half an avocado in there. Avocadoes are good fat, and while you do have to watch your portion, I can still lose weight eating half of one -- if I'm careful.
Saturday, July 03, 2010
I recently read "Women, Food, & God" by Geneen Roth as recommended by Oprah. It's a quick read, but I didn't personally find much new here. Basically, you can sum up the book in you've got to be present.
I think for some people it might be helpful, and while I wouldn't say it wasn't worthwhile reading it, I'm glad I got it from the library and didn't buy it. She has some eating guidelines at the very end, and those are pretty much in line with what I already do. The one quibble I have is that I don't see anything wrong with music -- non-verbal music, that is -- while you eat. I don't have it on all that often, but occasionally I do.
She does talk about restrictors vs permitters, which I found interesting. Restrictors are very rigid in their eating. They can tell you the calorie count, fat grams, etc., on pretty much any food you might ever want to eat. They like a plan.
Permitters, OTOH, can't be bothered with plans. They eat what they want when they want and how much of it they want, thank you very much.
The interesting thing I found about these broad categories is that the end result is the same: we want to feel safe. Being in control feels safe to restrictors. Numbing their feelings with food feels safe to permitters.
As a teenager and a young adult, I was definitely a permitter. I ate large amounts of what I thought I wanted, even tho I felt sick afterwards, as a way to numb my feelings. I became a restrictor about the time I got married. I lapsed back into being a permitter after getting married, until I found WW, and I've pretty much been a restrictor ever since.
There's no real point to the categories. One is not "better" than the other. Really, I just found it an interesing conversation and wanted to share it.
I am so loving my Ipod Touch, btw. I am trying out a bunch of podcasts. It just blows my mind that this stuff is free! I really liked Inside Out Weight Loss, and would highly recommend that.
Yesterday I made the ice cream dessert. It involved spreading ice cream, chopping up pretzels and peanut butter cups. I am very happy to report the only lick I took was a teeny, tiny lick of the knife I used to chop up the peanut butter cups (one of my very favorite things) right before I rinsed it out.
So tomorrow my plan is still to eat mindfully -- and partake of what I want. With the exception of the desserts, most of it is healthy. Sure, I could find some healthier desserts, but I don't think there's anything wrong with an indulgence now and again as long as I don't end up face down in the pie. Hopefully with 6 people -- 4 of them men -- most of it will be gone when they leave. And my parents are coming up the week after next.
Here's hoping everyone has a safe, happy, healthy holiday (for those celebrating -- and hey, no reason you can't have a safe, happy, healthy weekend if you aren't celebrating).
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