Wednesday, June 30, 2010
In the biopic "Temple Grandin", every time Grandin sees a dead being (animal or human) she asks but where did they go? They were here, and now they're gone?
While I have never seen a dead human, I was with both my first cats when they had to be put to sleep. And nothing makes it more obvious that we are not our bodies. Because when their spirit, their life force, whatever you call it, has left their bodies, all you are left with is an empty shell.
We are not our bodies. We are not our careers or job titles, and being a mommy doesn't define you either.
So lose weight for all the right reasons:
To get healthy
To get off meds
To have more energy
And most of all, do it with love. Positve reinforcement works; negative reinforcement doesn't. Realize that your body doesn't define who you are, and you've taken the first step to loving your body for what it does for you, not for how it looks. And that's what's important.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Wow! Thanks for all the comments yesterday, guys. Apparently all you have to do if you want loads of comments is have KEAKMAN mention your blog. As I told Kate, yesterday's blog came about because I actually did it while we were out (thought to myself "I am beautiful" while walking around) and noticed the difference that made in my whole body language.
Funny how sometimes I can go weeks without any deep thoughts, and then all of a sudden I have some many good ideas I have to write them down so I won't forget them. I guess that's sort of what they call latent learning.
Anyway, on to today's subject. I am never satisfied with the way my arms look in photos. Ever. It is always disappointing. They look as tho they have no muscles at all, and yet when I look at them, I can see the muscles. Someday I'd like to be able to see those muscles in a photo, too.
But the really burning question is what would make me happy NOW? Muscles aren't going to start popping out in my photos in the next 5 minutes.
So here are a few things that would make me happy NOW:
*Feeling in control of my eating. I always feel happier when I'm not mindlessly eating food standing up in the kitchen.
*Taking some deep breaths. It always calms you down.
*Moving my body. My body wants to be active. I just don't feel right when I'm not active. My active may not be your active -- you've got to find your own active.
*Holding a warm mug of tea and slowly sipping it. Ok, not so much right now, but I really enjoy that in the morning. Even in the summer (thank God for AC).
*Knitting something. It's been way too long.
*Decluttering. Funny how I really hate to do it, but it really makes me happy in the end.
*Playing, petting, brushing, training one of the animals. They put a smile on my face -- most of the time.
So how about you? There are all sorts of things you can't control. Thing you may want that won't happen as fast as you want. What would make you happy NOW?
Monday, June 28, 2010
Say it to yourself. Better yet, get up and say it to yourself while you're walking around. Notice the difference in your body when you say "I am beautiful". I know, I know, totally corny, but indulge me.
So get up and walk around and say "I am beautiful". Do you walk a little taller? Do you make eye contact with people (or animals, if that's all that's around)? Does it put a smile on your face? A swing in your hips?
Now see what happens when you think about all the body parts you loathe. You probably walk a little slower; you slouch down; there definitely isn't a smile on your face.
Sometimes it's the simple things that make the biggest difference. Our thoughts not only effect how we walk and feel, they even effect our physiology -- they can lower or heighten our blood pressure, they can cause little chemicals to be released throughout our body -- in short, our thoughts are really, really powerful.
So how hard was that? Keep telling yourself that you are beautiful, because you are, no matter what you weigh. Hopefully, over time, you will come to believe it.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Yes, it did arrive yesterday, thank goodness. As long as the DVDs play, it sure looks exactly like what I ordered (bid on). And they shipped it extremely fast, too. Ebay shouldn't get me all worried like that.
Actually, I don't think the insanity will start til tomorrow. I'll take a stab at actually following the program. I'm not real good at following other people's program, but I'll at least try.
Still pondering how to fit the running in, too. Yes, Kate, I considered saving it til winter but that's half a year away and I feel I need a shake up now. Besides, that's part of why I have a treadmill.
I might just continue to run but make them "easy" runs. We'll see. I have a tendency to overdo things even tho I don't feel as if I am, and I'm just finally feeling normal again after almost a month of sickness so I don't want to go back there. Even shoveled some mulch again this morning.
Chester has just about made it thru a week. Which doesn't mean he's out of the woods yet. That's the nerve-wracking part. They don't normally show much in the way of symptoms, and it can take 2 weeks or more before something actually happens. But I still have faith he will be fine.
A little research on the Web this morning turned up that as rats/mice become more and more poison-resistant, the poison companies have made it more potent -- and more palatable by coating it with molasses or peanut butter. Well, no wonder he thought it was so tasty!
My mother has been calling to check up on him. She also told me that she thinks I look the best I've looked in years -- not necessarily because of my weight, which has been the same for almost a year and was actually up just a bit that weekend -- just overall. I don't think I look so different from last fall, but whatever, it was nice to hear. Maybe all those greens & grains are paying off after all.
I've continued to try to make healthy choices. We went out to dinner last night at our local fish market, which also obviously sells food. I had a seared tuna panini. Seared tuna, whole wheat, avocado & cheddar cheese. With a side order of sweet potato fries. Which were really fried, not baked, but that's ok. I almost never eat fries. Don't really much care for them anymore unless they're really good and they rarely are really good.
I didn't eat all of anything, and I didn't have any.dessert.at.all. For me, that's major. Not every fruit!
BTW, I thoroughly enjoyed Ironman 2. DH wasn't as enthusiastic, but I think it was a great summer movie. But then I do love Robert Downey Jr. But it was just enjoyable overall. Right mixture of humor and action and a little romanticism thrown in there.
Hope your weekend is going well & you are enjoying whatever it is you're doing.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
This blog is the culmination of the last couple of blogs.
Choices aren't always easy. If I eat what I want, I don't stay slim. Period. It can be a hard truth to accept, but it's still the truth and wishing I could eat like other people won't make it so.
So last night I was tired. Didn't feel like cooking. We haven't eaten out since the 5th. I do not count last weekend's pizza at my parents, since we had to drive an hour and a half to get there and of course I spent most of the time worrying that Chester might die. A little cat poop gives him diarrhea (not something he's had in a long, long time) but he can seemingly eat rat poison with no problems. Go figure.
I want to go out! Not just get pizza, I want to be pamepered and not have to clean up or prepare.
So anyway. I made leftover pizza for DH, frozen pizza for me. Amy's roasted veggie individual pizza, which is awesome, btw. And normally I eat the whole things. While it's only 410 calories, so therefore an acceptable dinner (plus a salad), it's 9 WW points -- which is half my daily points, btw.
So I chose to eat only half of it. It wasn't easy. They aren't huge. But in the end, while not completely satisfied, I didn't wake up in the middle of the night with hunger pangs like I do when I don't eat enough. Nor was I starving this morning. A little hungry, yes, but you should be hungry in the mornings. If you're not, you're probably eating too much at night.
I wanted to take the dogs to the park and go for a short run (sans dogs, DH would be walking them). He was too tired. So I told him the dogs were his responsiblility and I was going for a run in the neighborhood. I was a bit worried that running so close to my bedtime might make it hard to sleep, but once again I was fine.
I am even contemplating an early morning run one of these days. It's so nice to be able to run without having to walk the dogs first, and the only way I can do that is to go before DH leaves (or on the weekend). And right now is the time, while it's still light out in the mornings.
So there you have it. I made better choices. I was honest with myself. I want to finally shed these last 10 pounds. People do it all the time, and I know I can do it, too. I just need to make better choices and be honest with myself.
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