Monday, July 05, 2010
I meant to take more photos yesterday, but it didn't happen. There's my new kitchen (the old one didn't have those cabinets I'm standing in front of -- there were walls there instead) -- and you can actually almost see the muscles in my arms! They really are there.
One of the books I read recently talks about how people think that losing weight will solve all their problems. That suddenly they'll love their job, their spouse, whatever -- even if they're hating them right now.
One reason people regain weight is because when they get to their GW, they suddenly realize that they're not magically happy. That it's hard work, and if they're not happy, what's the point?
I do not believe that's why I regained weight this last time. I think it was more a matter of age, hormones, and losing myself as so many of us do.
If you've been following this blog for a while, you know that I've been struggling with the last 10 lbs forever. As so many people do.
So I have to be honest with myself and ask myself will I be happier 10 lbs thinner. I think the honest answer is that it won't necessarily make me happier -- but it will make me healthier. I do have high cholesterol, and while that's only one of my reasons for wanting to lose weight, I know that where I am right now still isn't a healthy weight for my height.
OTOH, I can also honestly say that I am sooooooooooo much happier than I was roughly 30 lbs ago. I like having my photo taken again. I have more energy. I'm not as closed in -- more willing to try things that take me out of my comfort zone (sometimes).
And with my Ipod Touch teaching me that I needed to really examine my portions closer, plus my insane Insanity workouts, I'm really hoping that I might be able to move the ticker again in a little while. I'm not expecting much this week -- TOM should arrive right around the time I step on the scale.
Yesterday was nice. We had 4 co-workers of my husband's over. One is going back to his native Switzerland in about a week (for good) and it was interesting talking to him. And many that guy can eat! Had almost a whole pound of steak and 2 helpings of pie.
Another was a couple I'd met before, who are like us in that they are dog people with no kids. And oddly enough, the wife grew up here. She actually lives about a block away from the house she grew up in! But she'd lived in TX even longer than we did, and she really misses it.
I made 2 dips from "The Kind Diet", only I used real cheese so they're vegetarian, not vegan. The artichoke dip and the cheesy guacamole dip. Both were awesome. Unfortunately, there's a lot of the cheese guacamole dip left. Not quite sure what to do with it . . . DH doesn't really like it, usually I'd send it in to work with him but it really needs to be heated . . .
I also made a fudge pecan pie from "La Dolce Vegan" -- very rich and awesome. DH doesn't normally like really rich desserts but he liked this (he really likes pecan pie and that's part of why I chose that). There isn't much left. The ice cream dessert was just ok. I'm sure my Dad will enjoy it, he's got a real thing for ice cream and always has to have some (thankfully he didn't pass that on to me -- while I enjoy ice cream, it's not my fave thing and I can pass it up).
And I'll leave you with the type of salad I often eat for lunch. This one was just so pretty I had to take a photo of it. And yes, there's a whole half an avocado in there. Avocadoes are good fat, and while you do have to watch your portion, I can still lose weight eating half of one -- if I'm careful.
Saturday, July 03, 2010
I recently read "Women, Food, & God" by Geneen Roth as recommended by Oprah. It's a quick read, but I didn't personally find much new here. Basically, you can sum up the book in you've got to be present.
I think for some people it might be helpful, and while I wouldn't say it wasn't worthwhile reading it, I'm glad I got it from the library and didn't buy it. She has some eating guidelines at the very end, and those are pretty much in line with what I already do. The one quibble I have is that I don't see anything wrong with music -- non-verbal music, that is -- while you eat. I don't have it on all that often, but occasionally I do.
She does talk about restrictors vs permitters, which I found interesting. Restrictors are very rigid in their eating. They can tell you the calorie count, fat grams, etc., on pretty much any food you might ever want to eat. They like a plan.
Permitters, OTOH, can't be bothered with plans. They eat what they want when they want and how much of it they want, thank you very much.
The interesting thing I found about these broad categories is that the end result is the same: we want to feel safe. Being in control feels safe to restrictors. Numbing their feelings with food feels safe to permitters.
As a teenager and a young adult, I was definitely a permitter. I ate large amounts of what I thought I wanted, even tho I felt sick afterwards, as a way to numb my feelings. I became a restrictor about the time I got married. I lapsed back into being a permitter after getting married, until I found WW, and I've pretty much been a restrictor ever since.
There's no real point to the categories. One is not "better" than the other. Really, I just found it an interesing conversation and wanted to share it.
I am so loving my Ipod Touch, btw. I am trying out a bunch of podcasts. It just blows my mind that this stuff is free! I really liked Inside Out Weight Loss, and would highly recommend that.
Yesterday I made the ice cream dessert. It involved spreading ice cream, chopping up pretzels and peanut butter cups. I am very happy to report the only lick I took was a teeny, tiny lick of the knife I used to chop up the peanut butter cups (one of my very favorite things) right before I rinsed it out.
So tomorrow my plan is still to eat mindfully -- and partake of what I want. With the exception of the desserts, most of it is healthy. Sure, I could find some healthier desserts, but I don't think there's anything wrong with an indulgence now and again as long as I don't end up face down in the pie. Hopefully with 6 people -- 4 of them men -- most of it will be gone when they leave. And my parents are coming up the week after next.
Here's hoping everyone has a safe, happy, healthy holiday (for those celebrating -- and hey, no reason you can't have a safe, happy, healthy weekend if you aren't celebrating).
Friday, July 02, 2010
LOL, of course I knew it, but sometimes you just have to live it.
I've blogged about watching my naturally thin SIL eat, and how she moves more & eats less. I blogged about how I'm eating half an individual frozen pizza instead of the whole thing -- how it wasn't easy but it was doable.
I started Insanity (well named -- more on that next week) Monday.
My WW app on my Ipod Touch has educated me that even using the activity and points calculator isn't quite the same as using etools.
And lo & behold I am down 2 pounds in one week.
So yeah, besides the BLTs, portion size is crucial for me. Yeah, I guess I was still just eating too much. I will admit that sometimes I was hungry this week, but most of the time I wasn't, and I still had some treats.
Or maybe it was a fluke or just my time. No matter what, yes, of course it made me happy.
This week will be challenging. We are having 4 people over on the 4th. Altho DH will be grilling steaks, pretty much the rest is up to me (one person is bringing an unknown appetizer). Although I'm making a healthy meal, there will be indulgences too. I'm making a couple of dips (veggie, of course). I making a vegan fudge pecan pie for dessert and the recipe for a vanilla pretzel peanut butter cup dessert from June's Real Simple.
I'm going to try to eat wisely all week, with some small indulgences, but allow myself what I want on Sunday. Which doesn't mean I'll go hog wild. I will try to eat mindfully and ask myself what I really want. We'll see how it goes. Oh, and did I mention that TOM is almost knocking on my door?
I will continue Insanity, which is a kick-butt workout for sure. I will try to get out for easy runs a couple of times a week. While Insanity is intense, the workouts aren't actually all that long the first month so an easy run is doable.
In fact, I did just that last night. I wanted to take the dogs to the park. It was very cool, and looked like rain, and of course DH never wants to go to the park in the first place. But I'd somehow forgotten to bring my library book when I'd donated 2 boxes of books earlier in the day, and it was due that day, and the library just happens to be near the park.
So we packed up the dogs, DH walked them, I had my easy run, it didn't rain on us, and I didn't have to pay a late fee. I like it when the universe just seems to align itself for you (although it would have been even better had I remembered the darn book the first time around).
Have you got a plan for this weekend? Next week? Spill it! You never know who you might help.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
In the biopic "Temple Grandin", every time Grandin sees a dead being (animal or human) she asks but where did they go? They were here, and now they're gone?
While I have never seen a dead human, I was with both my first cats when they had to be put to sleep. And nothing makes it more obvious that we are not our bodies. Because when their spirit, their life force, whatever you call it, has left their bodies, all you are left with is an empty shell.
We are not our bodies. We are not our careers or job titles, and being a mommy doesn't define you either.
So lose weight for all the right reasons:
To get healthy
To get off meds
To have more energy
And most of all, do it with love. Positve reinforcement works; negative reinforcement doesn't. Realize that your body doesn't define who you are, and you've taken the first step to loving your body for what it does for you, not for how it looks. And that's what's important.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Wow! Thanks for all the comments yesterday, guys. Apparently all you have to do if you want loads of comments is have KEAKMAN mention your blog. As I told Kate, yesterday's blog came about because I actually did it while we were out (thought to myself "I am beautiful" while walking around) and noticed the difference that made in my whole body language.
Funny how sometimes I can go weeks without any deep thoughts, and then all of a sudden I have some many good ideas I have to write them down so I won't forget them. I guess that's sort of what they call latent learning.
Anyway, on to today's subject. I am never satisfied with the way my arms look in photos. Ever. It is always disappointing. They look as tho they have no muscles at all, and yet when I look at them, I can see the muscles. Someday I'd like to be able to see those muscles in a photo, too.
But the really burning question is what would make me happy NOW? Muscles aren't going to start popping out in my photos in the next 5 minutes.
So here are a few things that would make me happy NOW:
*Feeling in control of my eating. I always feel happier when I'm not mindlessly eating food standing up in the kitchen.
*Taking some deep breaths. It always calms you down.
*Moving my body. My body wants to be active. I just don't feel right when I'm not active. My active may not be your active -- you've got to find your own active.
*Holding a warm mug of tea and slowly sipping it. Ok, not so much right now, but I really enjoy that in the morning. Even in the summer (thank God for AC).
*Knitting something. It's been way too long.
*Decluttering. Funny how I really hate to do it, but it really makes me happy in the end.
*Playing, petting, brushing, training one of the animals. They put a smile on my face -- most of the time.
So how about you? There are all sorts of things you can't control. Thing you may want that won't happen as fast as you want. What would make you happy NOW?
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