Saturday, May 29, 2010
Boy, that's an awkard title, eh?
We spend a lot of time contemplating the future, don't we? We're even encouraged to do so by the healthy eating gurus: think about how you'll feel when you're thin. What you'll eat. How you'll spend your time.
I do think that's good advice.
But we also have to learn how to be present, too. How is what we're doing make us feel right now? Is what I'm eating satisfying? Is it filling me up? Am I really hungry?
I am beginning to think that maybe we need to focus more on the here & now than the future. The future might never come for all we know, but we are here right now.
It isn't always easy to be present. How many times have you eaten something only to wonder how that happened? You have no actual memory of eating it because you weren't really present, and most likely you were reacting to feelings rather than hunger.
The big question is how? How do we remain present? Well, I know concentrating on your breathing (i.e., meditation by any other name) can help bring you back to the here and now. But I'll have to think on that some more. Any suggestions?
Friday, May 28, 2010
Even tho I'm a big fan of living in the now as much as possible, I'm glad June will soon be here because I seriously need to regroup.
I actually think I did fairly well on vacation and while I was sick, but boy, right after that the munchies pulled up a chair and made themselves comfortable. And I just invited them in.
Well, it's time to kick the munchies out with May. Time to figure out just what will keep me satisfied and on track. Time to light a new fire under myself. I've been letting too many little things go lately -- actually not tracking my food for a couple of days -- mostly because I couldn't bring myself to write down all that mindless munching and face what I'd done because I knew there was no way to dig myself out of that hole. Like an ostrich, if I can't see it it didn't happen, right?
I like who I am, but that doesn't mean I have to get too comfortable with myself either. If we're not growing, we're dead.
This weekend is the perfect time to do a little soul-searching and come up with a plan.
Have you got a plan for your healthy journey?
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Yesterday I blogged about loving yourself. Today, as I was walking along with the dogs, I realized how much better about myself I felt.
And here's the rub: I weighed this amount about 15 years ago. I felt so fat then. I'd struggled for so long trying to lose those extra 10 lbs (kind of like now), only unlike now, I felt like such a failure and also felt I couldn't lose the weight.
I guess now I look at myself and notice the good things about myself more often than not. Sure, I have my down times just like everyone else, but I'd like to think that I'm more positive than negative these days.
Part of that comes from having weighed so much more just a couple of years ago. Remembering how uncomfortable it made me feel, how difficult it was to find flattering clothes.
It's all relative. If you're heavier than you've ever been and you hate yourself, please start turning that negative self talk into positives. At the very least, you're aware that you weigh more than you ought to. That's something. That's the first step.
And as the weight starts to come off, remember how it felt at that weight. Notice how you feel at your new weights. Document it here. It will motivate you and keep you going when you just want to throw in the towel.
Now, right before a holiday weekend in the US, is a really good time to think about all that. And do more than think about it. So my challenge to you today is to blog about either what makes you feel good right now, what doesn't make you good, and if you've already lost some (or a lot) of weight, how that has changed.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I got this idea as I was watching Oprah yesterday. She had Julia Roberts on the show, who plays Elizabeth Gilbert in the movie version of "Eat, Pray, Love".
I read the book well before it was on Oprah, and wasn't particularly impressed the first time I read it. She seemed so whiny. But at some point, not too long ago, I read it again and it spoke to me a lot more.
And then I started to think about who would play me in a movie. I asked my husband who he would want to play him. Eventually he came up with the guy who used to play Father Guido Sarducci on SNL -- only to disocver that he's now 67, so maybe a tad old to play him.
Then I asked him who would play me. He was pretty stumped at first. I had come up with Sarah Jessica Parker (of course she'd have to go back to brunette, as whe was way back in Footloose) or maybe Winona Ryder. He eventually suggested Janine Garafolo.
Anyway. I read an interesting article not too long ago about how body distortion. The gist of it was that if you see yourself as larger than you are, even if you've lost a significant amount of weight (which is totally normal), you may not truly believe that you can lose the weight.
Now, as I said, it doesn't mean you're doomed to be fat forever or that you can't lose the weight. But it may be a sign that you need to change all that negative chatter in your head. We've all got that, too.
I have come to believe that one of the biggest paths to losing weight is to love yourself. Which isn't always easy. It's not always easy when you have 3 chins, nothing fits, your thighs could start a fire, and you don't fit into seats.
But every single one of us is deserving of love, no matter how much we weigh or what anyone else tells you. So start loving yourself -- today. Maybe just smile at yourself in the mirror. Maybe buy yourself some flowers. Maybe take a little time to read or even just sit outside. See how much better your life can be when you love yourself.
Now me, I seem to have the opposite problem this time around. I seem to see myself as smaller than I appear in photos. Even tho I could certainly still stand to lose 20 lbs, even tho I was (am?) stuck for so long, I find myself looking at myself and thinking sometimes "damn! who is that tiny person?".
But my face is almost always disappointing. It's too round. There's still that hint of a double chin if the angle isn't right. Some people have such lovely bone structure in their faces that they look good no matter how heavy they are -- I am not one of those. I swear my face is one of the first places weight shows up.
Which is why I was so surprised at the photo above (taken on Wall Street, with the bull). I was like "really? that's my face? It's actually kind of thin".
So, if your life were a movie, who would play you? Or do you have suggestions for who would play me?
And don't forget to be kind to yourself today!
Monday, May 24, 2010
So had a wonderful week in NYC, did most of the things I went there to do -- altho I really could've used another week to shop (but maybe my bank account is glad I didn't have it), but came do with a mild flu that had me on the couch all last week. I didn't eat any veggies for days and days, which is totally unlike me, but boy this weekend, when I was finally feeling better, I started craving sweets big time.
The good news is I didn't go food shopping at all last week! I ate a lot of oatmeal and whole wheat shells with "cheese" (tofu + veganaise) -- I always go for comfort food when I don't feel well.
My husband actually left on a business trip on Tuesday, came back late Wednesday night, took a class on Thursday, and then went to a shooting match on Saturday. So he was basically gone almost all week. Which had its pros and cons. I didn't have to feed him. But I sure would've liked a break from walking the dogs by Saturday. I did walk them every day, so I did get a tiny bit of exercise in.
I missed 2 WIs. I never miss a WI when I'm home, so that definitely tells you something.
I've done all my NYC photos already, but need to nab a few from DH (like the one of me about to attack a pastrami sandwich -- and the lit up Empire State buidling we could see from our hotel).
My 5k is a week from Saturday, which puts me in a bit of a dilemma. Normally I only run 3 weeks a month. I find I come back better when I take a week off from running. And this month it worked out perfectly: it would be the week before my race. Only I couldn't run last week at all. So now I have to decide whether or not I run next week.
Oh, and did I mention my SIL happens to be coming on the day of my race? And that I don't even know when she's coming yet? I'm assuming that she won't arrive til well after the race is done, but the timing on that one could've been better.
We did our 5k charity walk with the dogs yesterday. Only we cut it a bit short because the dogs were really dragging. It's not that they can't walk 5k, they can & they have, it's only that they're not used to walking with so few pit & snif stops. It took us just a tad over an hour.
At least we weren't actually last (and we did start last), altho it was close.
Which is why I could get my exercise in so much quicker without them, but it's nice to have the companionship.
So, no real points here, just a shout out that I'm back and I'll be slowly catching up with everyone.
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