Sunday, May 30, 2010
Probably the reason it's so easy to be focused on weight loss in the beginning of the year is because the days are short, and that actually gives us more time to plan. There isn't so much to do outside (barring shoveling snow), and even if we enjoy things like skiing or snow shoeing, we're more likely to call it a day earlier when the light disappears -- but we don't go to bed any earlier (or maybe not much earlier).
I know that I have to stay focused. I know that I want to stop paying at WW. And that means that I have to make better choices. Because when it's all said & done, that's what weight loss boils down to.
We went out to dinner last night, at a steak house. I don't normally eat a whole lot of steak, and when we do have it, I like the fattier cuts -- prime rib & rib eye (which is really just prime rib in disguise).
Last night I decided to try a sirloin. Anything that ends in loin is a better choice, did you know that? And it was good. In fact, DH got the surf & turf special which included prime rib, and I took a small bite of it. And I must say I actually liked my sirloin better.
Little decisions like that can really add up. I'm trying hard to be more focused and if I do eat more than I was planning on or the munchies attack, I'm trying to make sure at least they're healthy, filling foods.
And I feel much better already, no matter what the scale says!
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Boy, that's an awkard title, eh?
We spend a lot of time contemplating the future, don't we? We're even encouraged to do so by the healthy eating gurus: think about how you'll feel when you're thin. What you'll eat. How you'll spend your time.
I do think that's good advice.
But we also have to learn how to be present, too. How is what we're doing make us feel right now? Is what I'm eating satisfying? Is it filling me up? Am I really hungry?
I am beginning to think that maybe we need to focus more on the here & now than the future. The future might never come for all we know, but we are here right now.
It isn't always easy to be present. How many times have you eaten something only to wonder how that happened? You have no actual memory of eating it because you weren't really present, and most likely you were reacting to feelings rather than hunger.
The big question is how? How do we remain present? Well, I know concentrating on your breathing (i.e., meditation by any other name) can help bring you back to the here and now. But I'll have to think on that some more. Any suggestions?
Friday, May 28, 2010
Even tho I'm a big fan of living in the now as much as possible, I'm glad June will soon be here because I seriously need to regroup.
I actually think I did fairly well on vacation and while I was sick, but boy, right after that the munchies pulled up a chair and made themselves comfortable. And I just invited them in.
Well, it's time to kick the munchies out with May. Time to figure out just what will keep me satisfied and on track. Time to light a new fire under myself. I've been letting too many little things go lately -- actually not tracking my food for a couple of days -- mostly because I couldn't bring myself to write down all that mindless munching and face what I'd done because I knew there was no way to dig myself out of that hole. Like an ostrich, if I can't see it it didn't happen, right?
I like who I am, but that doesn't mean I have to get too comfortable with myself either. If we're not growing, we're dead.
This weekend is the perfect time to do a little soul-searching and come up with a plan.
Have you got a plan for your healthy journey?
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Yesterday I blogged about loving yourself. Today, as I was walking along with the dogs, I realized how much better about myself I felt.
And here's the rub: I weighed this amount about 15 years ago. I felt so fat then. I'd struggled for so long trying to lose those extra 10 lbs (kind of like now), only unlike now, I felt like such a failure and also felt I couldn't lose the weight.
I guess now I look at myself and notice the good things about myself more often than not. Sure, I have my down times just like everyone else, but I'd like to think that I'm more positive than negative these days.
Part of that comes from having weighed so much more just a couple of years ago. Remembering how uncomfortable it made me feel, how difficult it was to find flattering clothes.
It's all relative. If you're heavier than you've ever been and you hate yourself, please start turning that negative self talk into positives. At the very least, you're aware that you weigh more than you ought to. That's something. That's the first step.
And as the weight starts to come off, remember how it felt at that weight. Notice how you feel at your new weights. Document it here. It will motivate you and keep you going when you just want to throw in the towel.
Now, right before a holiday weekend in the US, is a really good time to think about all that. And do more than think about it. So my challenge to you today is to blog about either what makes you feel good right now, what doesn't make you good, and if you've already lost some (or a lot) of weight, how that has changed.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I got this idea as I was watching Oprah yesterday. She had Julia Roberts on the show, who plays Elizabeth Gilbert in the movie version of "Eat, Pray, Love".
I read the book well before it was on Oprah, and wasn't particularly impressed the first time I read it. She seemed so whiny. But at some point, not too long ago, I read it again and it spoke to me a lot more.
And then I started to think about who would play me in a movie. I asked my husband who he would want to play him. Eventually he came up with the guy who used to play Father Guido Sarducci on SNL -- only to disocver that he's now 67, so maybe a tad old to play him.
Then I asked him who would play me. He was pretty stumped at first. I had come up with Sarah Jessica Parker (of course she'd have to go back to brunette, as whe was way back in Footloose) or maybe Winona Ryder. He eventually suggested Janine Garafolo.
Anyway. I read an interesting article not too long ago about how body distortion. The gist of it was that if you see yourself as larger than you are, even if you've lost a significant amount of weight (which is totally normal), you may not truly believe that you can lose the weight.
Now, as I said, it doesn't mean you're doomed to be fat forever or that you can't lose the weight. But it may be a sign that you need to change all that negative chatter in your head. We've all got that, too.
I have come to believe that one of the biggest paths to losing weight is to love yourself. Which isn't always easy. It's not always easy when you have 3 chins, nothing fits, your thighs could start a fire, and you don't fit into seats.
But every single one of us is deserving of love, no matter how much we weigh or what anyone else tells you. So start loving yourself -- today. Maybe just smile at yourself in the mirror. Maybe buy yourself some flowers. Maybe take a little time to read or even just sit outside. See how much better your life can be when you love yourself.
Now me, I seem to have the opposite problem this time around. I seem to see myself as smaller than I appear in photos. Even tho I could certainly still stand to lose 20 lbs, even tho I was (am?) stuck for so long, I find myself looking at myself and thinking sometimes "damn! who is that tiny person?".
But my face is almost always disappointing. It's too round. There's still that hint of a double chin if the angle isn't right. Some people have such lovely bone structure in their faces that they look good no matter how heavy they are -- I am not one of those. I swear my face is one of the first places weight shows up.
Which is why I was so surprised at the photo above (taken on Wall Street, with the bull). I was like "really? that's my face? It's actually kind of thin".
So, if your life were a movie, who would play you? Or do you have suggestions for who would play me?
And don't forget to be kind to yourself today!
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