Sunday, February 21, 2010
For about a week and a half. I've both been looking forward to being on my own again, and not. It's nice to be part of a team.
I look forward to it because I get to eat the way I want to. No, not binging or anything -- but vegetarian (except maybe some sushi in there), partly vegan, partly raw. I don't have to worry about pleasing anyone but myself.
OTOH, I tend to stay up a bit later -- but get up at the same time -- because DH takes the dogs out at night. So they're used to going out later. I won't stay up as late as he does, but I'll stay up just a bit later so they won't be so uncomfortable.
Not to mention that they're making some noises about some weather at the end of the week. I won't lie, it was so nice to stay snug & warm in the house while DH applied the snow blower to our last snowfall.
But I'll deal with whatever comes my way. I always do.
Chester has been clingier lately. The dogs haven't really seemd to clue in to when we're going somewhere. The cats do. They know when something is afoot. They know what suitcases are.
I'm wondering if he began to realize that DH was leaving? He was howling a bit as I left to go skating Friday, which is unlike him (he suffered very severe separation anxiety, but we've moved past that and most of the time he gets downright excited when I'm getting ready to go anywhere). He was whining when I got ready to go out to the movies yesterday (by myself, so DH was looking after them).
He slept with me last night, and for a dog usually attached at the hip to me, oddly enough he usually sleeps with DH. But he willingly went into his crate when I got up this morning (mornings are dog-free time with the cats),without me even asking him to.
How do you deal when your SO is away? Is it easier, or harder? Do you prefer cooking for yourself, or can't you be bothered? Do you take it as permission to eat "forbidden" foods?
DH will be gone almost a week and a half. He has 2 meeting in CA, and then he's going up to Seattle to visit his folks. It will be very tiring for him. I know on the few occasions I traveled for business, it was tiring, but it's also somewhat freeing to be able to do what you want when you want to. Sort of like with him gone. Only I still have all the animals to care for.
And when we gets back, hopefully our kitchen will get finished!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
. . . you should talk to your doctor about whether or not you might have an eating disorder.
Let me preface this blog by saying that I know eating disorders are real, that they are very painful, and I am not in any way, shape, or form trying to hurt or anger anyone who has or has had an eating disorder.
Moving on -- I'm parphrasing what the SP Motivational calendar's message was for today. It's upstairs, and I can't be bothered to go back up & retrieve it, but it said things like if you think about food all the time, count calories, etc. you might have an eating disorder.
There is a big difference, in my mind, between disordered eating and having an eating disorder.
Am I obssessed with food? You bet. I love food. All sorts of food. I swoon almost as much for the perfect roasted brussel sprouts as I do for chocolate or my banana "ice cream" (frozen bananas + soymilk + small amount of walnuts).
I don't count calories, but I do count points.
I also know that I do not now, and have never had, an eating disorder. Disordered eating? Absolutely. As a teenager and a college student I had times when I binged. Never planned, never big -- but things like eating a whole 1 lb chocolate bar at a time, an entire box of cookies, an entire box of poptarts. In one sitting.
Those days are so far behind me.
Yet I still struggle, some days. Some days I eat totally healthy and am totally satisfied and am happy with myself. Some days I still struggle with cravings or just plain feel bad about myself. Some days I don't eat as healthy as I planned to, and I'm still okay with my eating and myself.
I'm a work in progress. We all are.
One of the biggest things I've been doing the past couple of months is to really pay attention to how what I eat makes me feel. Did it keep me full? For how long? Did I have lots of energy, or was I dragging or barely able to move? Did it satisfy me?
There are some things that I really enjoy that for the moment I've decided to take a pass on. Because they don't keep me full long enough or give me enough energy.
How I eat today may not be how I eat tomorrow or in 10 years. And that's okay. When we stop evolving, hopefully we're dead! I don't ever want to be stagnant.
How bout you? How have your eating habits changed? How do you WISH your eating habits would change? What baby steps would move you in the direction you want to move in?
I also realized I have another NSV to share. I have a pair of jeans that didn't fit me when we were in Austin. When we moved here, I was able to ear them, altho they were a bit tight. Now they're beginning to be a bit loose (still not falling off my body loose, so I can still wear them without giving myself permission to eat too much!).
I haven't lost a whole lot of weight since moving, but I do have to believe that my body is still changing.
Friday, February 19, 2010
I am battling those BLTs. Fighting the good fight. Mostly winning. I didn't take a spec of the date cake I gave DH this morning (and it's healthy, as much as anything sweet is healthy). I refrained from licking the peanut butter knife after putting peanut butter in the dogs' kongs yesterday, and I ALWAYS lick the peanut butter knife.
I've also given myself permission to have something and not count the points. Not on a routine basis and not without eating it mindfully. But sometimes you just need a get out jail free card, ya know? I view it like the no weigh pass at WW (which I never use, because I always want to know the details, good, bad, or ugly).
But I will write it down. I MUST write it down. It's a moral imperative for me. And more often than not, I'm finding if I write it down, I'll count the points, too.
I'm sure some of you look at the recipes I've posted from time to time and think you eat THAT as part of a healthy lifestyle? No wonder you've been on a plateau for half a year. But I don't (usually) just willy nilly eat some chocolate. I plan for it. I make sure I can fit it in my day. And if I do veer of course, I try to figure out why. So I can learn from my mistakes. It's a constant learning curve!
I've had a couple of weeks lately where I have lost. This past week even included my chocolate oatmeal, baking some cookies, and a slice of flourless chocolate cake on Valetine's Day. And I lost 1 1/2 lbs. Weird, huh?
So I plan to review this past week. What can I learn from it?
I also know that I'm heading into pre-TOM time, and that's the dangerous BLT time, so what better time to start an anti-BLT program, right? I know that I still CAN lose weight pre-TOM. I've done it sometimes.
And here's another bonus oatmeal recipe. I took yesterday's date chocolate oatmeal and ran with it. This still falls into the occasional treat category (the apple pie oatmeal, for instance, I consider to be completely healthy, and I eat it on a pretty regular basis -- the chocolate oatmeal is an occasional treat).
So with no further fanfare, I give you:
Peanut Butter Cookie Oatmeal
1/2 cup oats
3 dates, chopped
2 tbsp peanut butter
1 tbsp dark chocolate chips
Cook oatmeal to desired doneness.
Mix in dates and peanut butter.
Top with dark chocolate chips (do not mix -- unless you really wanna).
OMG, it's like eating a chocolate chip oatmeal cookie. Sort of. The sweetness of the dates and the chocolate chips (I like Hershey's Special dark chocolate) play off so well against the slight saltiness of the peanut butter. Heaven!
How is your own battle with BLTs going? Come up with any solutions you want to share? What else is tripping you up lately?
Thursday, February 18, 2010
I adore oatmeal. I always have. Which is odd since I almost never had it growing up -- Mom wasn't too fond of it (altho Dad loves it).
So here are a few of my favorite blends (and a bonus or two):
1/2 cup oats
2 tbsp semisweet chocolate chips
2 tbsp dark chocolate chips
Prepare oats normally.
Sprinkle with semisweet chips, let melt a bit, then stir it all together.
Top with dark chocolate chips & enjoy!
This is a slight variation on a "dessert" from the Flat Belly Diet, but you know me, I eat it for breakfast. Only once or twice a week. It's still a treat, even if it's good for you. Which is why I love FBD, gotta love something that lets you eat chcoolate AND peanut butter.
I keep meaning to add cinnamon to this, but I keep forgetting.
Chocolate oats, take 2
1/2 cup oats
3 dates, chopped
1 tbsp cocoa
2 tbsp peanut butter
Put dates in oats & prepare as usual.
Stir in cocoa & peanut butter (and sweetner if you like -- I used some agave nectar).
I got this from the Real Age site, and modified it with the peanut butter for staying power. On reviewing my food yesterday, I realized I was so hungry by the end of the day because I'd had so little protein.
Not quite sure how I feel about this one yet . . . but it occurred to me this would be awesome with dark chocolate peanut butter in place of the cocoa. And still pretty healthy.
I'm not generally a big fan of fruit in my oatmeal -- apple pie or banana pie oats to the contrary, but I do love dates. Of course -- they're very sweet! But they're very nutritious, too.
Apple pie oats
1/2 cup oats
1 apple, chopped
2 tbsp peanut butter
Cinnamon, to taste
Put oats in the bowl with liquid, add apples on top, sprinkle with cinnamon.
Microwave 2 minutes 30 seconds (or to desired doneness).
Put peanut butter on top, mix, and enjoy.
Try this with bananas, but put them on after you've baked the oats unless you like mushy bananas.
Notice I haven't told you how much liquid to add. It's a personal matter. I like my oats nice and thick, so I don't use as much water as called for (and don't use milk since I'm usually loading it up with other stuff, but they do say that makes the oats creamier).
2 frozen waffles, thawed
2 tbsp peanut butter
1 tbsp dark chocolate chips
Spread peanut butter on one waffle.
Sprinkle with dark chocolate chips.
Top with second waffle.
I use just a tiny bit of coconut oil on the outside of the waffles -- you can skip that, or use some butter or margarine or whatever instead.
Fry up in skillet for roughly 2 minutes per side. I have a bacon press that I use on top -- my home made panini press (works really well).
This one also falls into the treat category, but I'm going to play with amounts of peanut butter and chocolate chips until I can see what I can get away with and still feel satisfied. It does tide me over a good long time (and doesn't take real long to prepare).
On the weight front, my WI jeans don't feel any looser than last week. OTOH, I've upped my game with my mindful eating -- really minding my BLTs -- which isn't to say that I'm not having some, but I'm making them much more conscious and that makes me feel much more in control.
Have a favorite oatmeal recipe you'd like to share? What's your favorite breakfast? How many hours does it keep you full? Or can you not face breakfast in the morning? (I used to be that was as a teenager, but now I couldn't even think of not having a good breakfast). How are you doing with those BLTs?
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
That's what they say, anyway. That in order to solve a problem, you have to be aware that you have a problem. Of course, you also have to come up with an action plan to solve the problem, as well.
BLTs (bites, licks, & tastes) will be the death of me -- literally. I've overcome a lot -- I am now able to eat a lot of foods that used to be trigger foods for me without much problem. Chocolate. Peanut butter. Cookies.
But those BLTs? They'll get you every time. I'm not even talking about the BLTs that occur when I'm baking. I'm talking about eating the half brownie when I put a brownie in my husband's lunch bag -- and not sitting down & savoring, either. Finishing up his food -- because it's so good and I'm still hungry. Or maybe I'm not even real hungry but it's so good how can you waste it?
The irony of "the" dress is that I went shopping because I'd gained a couple of pounds. Which is rather unusual for me, but I wasn't surprised I'd gained something, only how much. I was frustrated. Enter retail therapy.
I wasn't even looking for a dress. I don't have a lot of occasions to wear fancy dresses anymore. But I was wandering around the store, wanting to make sure I hit the cookware section in the back, when the dress just caught my eye.
I had done some baking that week. I wanted to make sure we had something for dessert on Valentine's Day in case I didn't want something at the restaurant (but their flourless chocolate cake was superb). And I want my husband to have something healthy to take along on his business trip.
My face was talking to me about the sugar I was consuming: I got a couple of zits on my chin. But at least I listened.
So now the problem is that I know the problem, but do I really? So I've decided to record my BLTs. Not necessarily adding in my points, but just record them. Get a handle on how often they happen, and how much of them there truly are. That is the first step.
I am happy to say that I took a small piece of a raw candy bar I made yesterday after lunch. Because I wanted a little something. Only instead of eating it standing in the kitchen, I put it on a plate and had it after I finished my lunch. I did not count the points -- not even quite sure how many there were, considering it was just a few bites. But it felt good, even so. I felt more in control.
When I got up, I thought I'll just count every BLT & the points, too. That lasted about 5 minutes. So far now I am baby stepping my way. The first step is to be aware. The first step is to really record everything I eat, even if I don't record (or know) the points.
What about you? Do you have problems with BLTs? What is your biggest obstacle to weight loss? How can you baby step your way to overcoming your obstacle?
Remember, if you fail to plan, you plan to fail!
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