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Wednesday, December 14, 2011

I woke up in such tremendous pain yesterday. I had to remind myself that the pain was from the Spinal cord Stimulator Surgery implant and open holes in my back. I tried to muscle through it, but kept crying, attacked with the question of, "what have I done?"

I began my Spinal cord Stimulator trial week as of this past Monday. The pain from my disease had pushed me to this last option sooner than I had anticipated, but a one week trial is supposed to help me decide if I want to permanently implant the device used to shock away up to 40% of my pain in my legs. It sounded so medieval and barbaric.

"What is more important to you", the device rep asked me, "the use of your arms, or your legs?" He said that I needed my hands to type, so he would opt for my arms if he was me.
"How can you ask me that?" I replied. "I need my arms to type, and I need my legs to walk. I want both".
Unfortunately, that request would require 2 implants, one in my neck and one in my tooshy.
The doctor chose for me - we were going for the legs.

I've blogged about this in the past. I fought this procedure tooth and nail. But chronic pain has a way of dictating things like daily life. My pain management docs informed me months ago that I had reached my limit of steroid injections in my spine, and was now out of options.
I kept thinking about how I needed to put all of my hesitation aside, pray about it, and be confident that all would work out. A Spark friend gave me a nice thump on the head to remind me that I needed to stop worrying. Stop trying to drive the bus myself, right? Why is that so hard???

Let me walk you through the surgery of 2 days ago:
A team of doctors and the device representative collected in the (already warm) operating room. I was told that I was going to be 'tented' since the risk of infection was high. Call me crazy, but I was under the impression that the team would be under my tent too you know? (party in my tent!!!). But I was the only one being tented; covered from head to toe in a shallow Smurfy blue tent while they dove into my back, trying to get some lead wires attached to my spinal column. I was awake and needed to be present to help them navigate things. This was very tough. I was hot, sweaty, and starting to get very sick from the anesthesia. Even though there were 6 people in the room, I felt very alone under that tent, so I prayed.
I prayed through wavs of nausea. I prayed while the device rep took over to navigate and program my spinal cord device (4 programs), while trying to find my pain threshold limit - all without trying to inflict too much of that pain on me (owie!).

After I was taped and sealed up like a holiday rack of lamb, I was moved to another room with the rep to learn how to use my remote control (my remote control?!).
He 'turned me on' from his laptop, and I felt the buzzing, crawling ants-like feeling rush down my legs to my toes. What a strange sensation. How could I describe this entire experience?

I had officially plugged into The Matrix!
I instantly felt like a Cyborg.
Was I a Bionic Woman? Hmm, not so much. I would have needed to add some false lashes and feather my hair...
Call me Elektra? Oh Lordy, although the push up bra would work wonders, I don't think that all of the tubing and bandages would be concealed under the leather bodice and pants. But I sure would have been a hottie... :)

For this trial period I was warned to avoid all scanners, and the shopping mall entirely actually, since I cannot be near those security contraptions at department store entrances.
Hey, maybe this will keep me from doing ANY holiday shopping damage? Ha!

I was also told to stay away from large electronic machinery and any x-ray machines (dentist, doctor's office, airports, etc.). This part should not be a problem for this next week, but I very painfully found out that due to bad cell phone range within my own home, the connection between my remote control and the device itself was not registering - WHILE I was urgently trying to turn it down, since it suddenly kicked into high gear on me. That scenario was a 15 second delay. Yep, I counted.

Note to self: Stop trying to use my remote control to change the channel on the TV! I swear I did this at least 5 times yesterday. AUGH!

Since I need to keep the remote with me at all times, I had to get creative. I found a new use for my husband's iPhone holster for the gym, go figure

I looked over at my husband last night, and thought about the weddings and parties and special events that we have not been a part of since I got sick. I realized that I not only need to do this trial for myself, but also for the love of my life, my husband.
I owed this to myself, my marriage and our future, right?

Maybe this will help me get back into the world socially.
Maybe we CAN go out to dinner without me literally wiggling from pain the entire time.
Maybe I can behave like a 37 year old woman and have a girl's night out (wow!).

I've strung a lot of "maybe's" along the lead wires currently connecting me to this spinal cord device, like a laundry line between two apartment windows.
But "maybe" sounds a lot better than "never", doesn't it?

I'll keep you posted!

'Nuff said.

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TRENTDREAMER 12/18/2011 4:27PM

    I'm proud of you for going through this with as positive of an attitude as you are.

You are handling this far better than I would.

Hugs, Sparkfriend

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CTUPTON 12/16/2011 1:22PM

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But gentle hugs , of course!

Hope you feel better very soon! Chris emoticon

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MAMADWARF 12/16/2011 12:53AM

    God, you are one brave biotch.....that may be my future one day as well but right now I'm holding steady with the epidurals. I'm proud of you for fighting and not giving up. I know you feel like a freak but if it helps, then its worth it. Keep us posted. I'm your biggest fan....bzzzzzzzzz. I just zapped you!

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CATS_MEOW_0911 12/15/2011 11:29PM

    Bren, I so hope this gives you some much-needed relief--sending healing vibes your way.

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MILLIE5522 12/15/2011 1:00PM

    Sending you loads of positive thoughts. You are so incredibly brave. I feel honoured that you have shared your world with us here at SP emoticon

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LGAR519 12/15/2011 9:37AM

    Oh Been! I hate that you have had to face all this. I certainly hope that you get some relief now. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

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MRSSCHENCK 12/15/2011 5:24AM


Through all this....you are still soooo funny! How do you laugh without being in pain?

I feel so guilty now blogging about my back pain. I'm such a emoticon!

I wish you a speedy recovery.


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AAAACK 12/15/2011 2:05AM

    So much...so much! Good stuff and scary stuff, hope and fear, gaining some things and giving some up. You are the most balanced person I know, and with the least reason to be! And I know it's exactly that about you that will keep you sane through these trying days.

I had been checking for word from you since Monday evening and was so happy to see a posting indicating that you really are ok.

You rock!

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1HAPPYWOMAN 12/15/2011 1:13AM

    Wow, Bren, you've been through a lot in the past while! I sure hope the SCS implant works out so that you and your husband can go out and have a blast.

BTW, your back looks so strong in that picture. You are so strong on the inside too, even though I'm sure you don't always feel strong. Your strength is in your kindness.

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SUNFLOWER4ME 12/15/2011 12:21AM

    Firstly, my dear, your back and hips are so tiny! Props!

I have complete faith that you are going to do just fine, Bren. Borrow one of my favorite quotes for a moment now: "Life is a storm, my young friend. You will bask in the sunlight one moment, be shattered on the rocks the next. What makes you a man is what you do when that storm comes. You must look into that storm and shout. Do your worst, for I will do mine! Then the fates will know you."

You, chica, are capable of handling the best of life with your spunky free spirit, fun loving attitude, but more importantly you are capable of handling the worst of life.

Looking forward to hearing of your success. In the meantime, I leave you this creepy cheerleader to shout you some spirit and encouragement! emoticon

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CANNIE50 12/14/2011 11:50PM

    Oh, sweetpea - this made my heart ache for you. What an unbelievable ordeal for you, and R. to endure. I am praying this is the solution to much of the pain that has tormented you on a daily basis. Nice job on the blog, particularly the last paragraph. I am, as always, thinking of you and am anxious to hear how you are feeling. oxoxoxoxox emoticon emoticon

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RYDERB 12/14/2011 10:46PM

    Bren, you're so brave. Wow your surgery was such a complete ordeal for you. I had no idea. You face so many challenges everyday, and I'm praying that this surgery will be a first step for you to get more Cinderella time, in your life, because you really deserve the happily ever after ending. Besides those glass slippers will make your legs look amazing!

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    LOL...you are so funny. I love the remote control :P

I really hope it works for you Bren. You deserve to have some relief from that pain.
You deserve to have a social life.

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    I hope it works out great for your sake and your husband's. You are very lucky to have a good man to stay by your side through your sickness. That is a wonderful thing.

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How do YOU keep the holiday calorie elves away?

Wednesday, December 07, 2011

One of my Sparkly pals told me that she would prefer to stay home inside of her own little bubble and avoid the holiday family gatherings, since she did not want to be tempted by the treats. I asked if there was room in the bubble for me too, since I felt the same.

There are many who feel that the avoidance is practically self-sabotage, and I do agree, but that does not make me want to climb out of that bubble either : ).

Instead I suggest something sporty and active to fend off the butter filled fiendish treats.
Shoot, take part in any of these events and you'll surely burn off some extra calories too!

Its the Winter - homemade holiday confection - Olympics!!!

Cookie Tennis: When neighbors come to your door with homemade snickerdoodles, be sure to have your tennis racket handy so you can serve up a swift backhand move and launch those suckers down the block. Be sure NOT to snicker...

Oven Mitt Hot Potato: Juggle back those hot cubes of fudge that are so sugary they make my gums want to recede back in horror at the sight. C'mon back gums! I wasn't really going to eat it!

Apple Pie Discus: What a great visual, eh? No need to add a description, just warn the neighbors to stay indoors!

Mini Marshie Archery: Keep that bag of mini marshies away from the sweet potaters and fling them toward a platter used as a target. Fun for the whole family!

Hmm, this might not be the best way to react to holiday fare. Perhaps you're better off reading the recent Spark article on how to survive these next few weeks...

And maybe I should go apologize to the neighbors : )

'Nuff said. emoticon emoticon

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RYDERB 12/8/2011 9:17AM

    You had me at Cookie Tennis! emoticon
Christmas sugar cookies are my favorite, catastrophic over indulgence emoticon emoticon emoticon

Comment edited on: 12/8/2011 9:18:30 AM

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SUNFLOWER4ME 12/8/2011 8:55AM

    Is it normal that I thoroughly enjoyed thinking of different ways to dispose of MY calorie elves?

Peanut butter dodge-ball: hurl those little PB rolls at my brother, show my sibling love
Snickerdoodle smash: put those cookies like little stepping stone and jump from one to the next, all around the house (hopefully someone else gets clean up)
Gingerbread men battle: Line those little stinkers up and have them fight til the death

And anything else that comes up, calorie shot put. Proper form and all, tossing that sucker as far as I can. Can I get 10 yards you think? emoticon

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TRENTDREAMER 12/8/2011 8:09AM

    Relatives that live far away (and co-workers) can be the perfect recipients of some home made treats. Never have to mention that the home that the treats were made in wasn't yours ;)

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KRZYKAT3 12/7/2011 10:44PM

    rofl, you are too funny. I think these are wonderful ideas.

Wish I could think of one myself! lol

thanks for the smiles.

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SPARKL3 12/7/2011 10:30PM

    Your blog entries are always entertaining to read. I can always relate to them! emoticon

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    I really should wear depends when I read your blogs. emoticon

Do you ever read the Blogess? I think you would like her.


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    That sounds interesting.

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CLOVER2 12/7/2011 9:15PM

    emoticon Ok guys, so when you get it all put together, do remember to send out the invitations! I for one would LOVE to be able to spend some time maiming any number of holiday dishes!

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CANNIE50 12/7/2011 8:40PM

    My events would be "7 layer bar" discus - tossing these squares of sugary madness as far as I can possibly fling them; EggNog hurdles - jumping over and around mugs of mad amounts of fat (and I don't even mix booze in); and Frosted Cookie frisbee golf - tossing cookie after cookie after cookie at Christmas trees.....
At least you just have to apologize to the neighbors, how am I going to explain my bad behavior to my mother?

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What if the Phantom of the Opera did NOT wear that mask?

Monday, November 28, 2011

We weren’t able to travel for this past Thanksgiving to see my in-laws since I have been suffering from a nerve flare in my right hand and both feet for going on 3 weeks now - OY!!!

My wedding anniversary (lucky #13 this year!) was this past week as well, and I was fighting falling into a depression about feeling squashed by 1) tremendous pain and 2) looking at my hand and feet in horror at what they seemed to rapidly transforming into.
Let me tell you how un-sexy this can make a lady feel on those 2 special dates last week – my wedding anniversary and Thanksgiving.
Both should be joyous, and both should be a time to rejoice and celebrate overwhelming love, right?

Instead of going out to dinner or staying in a nice hotel on our anniversary, I sat on the sofa at home, wiggling with my pain, and wiping the flop sweat from my brows often (and trying not to cry anymore!). My poor husband sat next to me, trying to do anything to help. I am so lucky to have him and I know it…

So when my next door neighbor invited us to spend Thanksgiving with her family, I said that I would do my best to make it work, even though I was a bit anxious – ok honestly, I was FILLED with anxiety.
What if we couldn’t even leave the house because nature’s elements were assaulting me? Some days the sunlight, the wind or even the texture of my clothing feels like nails on a chalkboard. What if I can’t eat anything being served? What if it was warm in the room? (temps over 65 trigger my pain symptoms).
What if what if what if???
So I told my inner spaz to chill out, and decided to make it work.
I couldn’t be so selfish and steal Thanksgiving from my husband too, right?

On Thanksgiving I put on a pretty skirt and top, beautiful pearls, some nice opaque tights (to cover my nerve flare in my feet), and did the best I could with my hair and make-up. See, I am right handed and this CRPS flare is in my right hand (of course).
I packed my own dinner, and informed my neighbor that I had too many food intolerances to list, and didn’t want anyone to have to go out of their way. I swear she exhaled a sigh of relief : ).
We were about to walk out the door to the car when I looked at my hand… It was purple and red and swollen and blistered and…… gross.

I grabbed a nice scarf and wrapped it around my hand as gently as possible. This was my only solution. I mean, what if one of her many family members tried to shake my hand? Should I have bandaged it to give them a warning not to reach out?
Would the Phantom of the Opera have done others a favor by NOT wearing that mask?
Would it have been considered offensive and rude to show the painful scars and ongoing damage right from the start?
I was so confused as to what to do – or not do.

I kept the scarf on as we walked in. Her family and friends DID come up and introduce themselves by extending their right hand, to which I swiftly replied, “My right hand is injured, so I’d love to use my left hand if that’s OK”. For those I had met before, I offered more detail about my health when I was asked, and for everyone else, the left handed shake worked out fine.

I did sit myself in the corner of the room when it was time to eat though, since I still hold my fork with my right hand, and I didn’t want to offend anyone once the scarf came off. Let’s just say that my hand can be quite an appetite suppressant, and this was a Thanksgiving feast after all.

We needed to leave pretty much the moment after my husband finished his last bite of dessert, since I had hit my limit with pain, but I MADE IT! I did my best to enjoy the afternoon, and give my husband a much-needed break with friends.
My neighbor walked us to the car and told me that she thought that my scarf was a great camouflage, and she would not have known otherwise. I was glad to hear that. The night was not about me anyway, right? It was about all of us. And I was thankful for that.

As I type this with my right hand uncovered, still swollen and not fully functioning, I am thankful to be able to type. I don’t feel like I need to hide my right hand and both feet all the time, but for this Thanksgiving, I thought it would be best to just take a break from it, just for a little while…
Is that so wrong?

‘Nuff said


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AAAACK 12/4/2011 3:54AM

    You really are completely amazing. I hope you know that! And I am so thankful for your friendship. Surrounding ourselves with beautiful people enriches our lives, and you definitely enrich mine!

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CLOVER2 11/29/2011 5:24PM

    Whenever I get a chance to share in your life, I look at my own and wonder how on earth I can be boohooing about me. You are one of the bravest, kindest, most giving people I have ever in my life come across, and you never ever stop astounding me. You are emoticon!!
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TRENTDREAMER 11/29/2011 5:23PM

    Kudos for making it through. Sorry to hear about the pain that you are going through. I really hope that you heal and this all goes away soon.

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TIGGERJEAN 11/29/2011 4:29PM


I have had a terrible skin infection the past 2 months - and I completely sympathize about the writhing in pain on the couch during your anniversary. *HUGS* I'm so glad you did go and be social - and I know how much of a challenge it was! emoticon

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LGAR519 11/29/2011 1:11PM

    It doesn't matter what your hand looks like. You are Beautiful inside where it matters. I am so sorry you have this pain. Love you!

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WINACHST 11/29/2011 4:07AM

    You are such an inspiration to me. I am so sorry that you have so much pain. emoticon

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PURESTILLWATER 11/28/2011 11:59PM

    oh my dear friend. My heart aches so much for you. I wish I could hug you. This virtual hug will have to do. emoticon

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SUNFLOWERSAVAGE 11/28/2011 10:44PM

    Bren, you are absolutely amazing. Even while suffering through that pain, you are thinking of others. You handled the situation with so much grace.
You are so beautiful, inside & out.

I truly hope you get some relief soon.


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SUSANLYNN51 11/28/2011 10:39PM

    Sounds like you have a really nice guy for a husband to be with you like he did on your anniversary. You received a true gift- the kind that money can't buy.

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CANNIE50 11/28/2011 10:30PM

    Oh, honey, I want someone to fix this for you, and take away your pain. How very elegant of you to set aside intense pain, dress in a becoming fashion, think of others (esp your man), and venture out when most humans would want to burrow into a cave of blankets, deservedly so I might add. So, the answer to your question? I think if the Phantom had not worn the mask it would be much like the soldier hero on "Dancing with the Stars". I don't watch the show, but I have been following his story. He spent his first 18 or 20 years as a handsome boy and has spent the years since his injury as a beautiful man. I think it is not revulsion that causes most people to turn aside when confronted by evidence of someone's illness or injury, I think it is empathy because many of us immediately imagine the pain involved. I am, as always, thinking of you and wishing and praying for you to get much deserved relief. oxoxox emoticon

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MALKS_ARIA 11/28/2011 10:06PM

    Hang in there!

My hands turn colors, but don't swell as badly as yours did in the pic above... I sadly know the pain too well...

Glad you made it through the Holiday Meal!!! I so know the frustration of not being able to do all you wish! Hang in there, and keep your chin up...


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RYDERB 11/28/2011 9:59PM

    Oh honey! I'm sending you gentle hugs! I hope you know how proud I am of you. You are the most selfless person I "know". I hate that your body is failing you, and there's nothing your doctors can do right now to make you feel better. I'm so glad you fought through your pain once again, and made the most of Thanksgiving day, with friends, and your hubby. I'm definitely thankful for you, your friendship, and the lessons you continue to teach me every day, about how to make the most of life.
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AZURELITE 11/28/2011 9:53PM

    Sorry that you have such intense pain. I hope your flareup calms very, very soon.

And by the way, I would not find your hand to be an appetite deterrent in any way, shape or form.
Your soul, your thoughts, your laugh, your voice are much more important to me than what you look like.

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JUDYAMK 11/28/2011 9:46PM

    Oh my gosh that looks so painful what causes this?

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Sometimes coupons = calories

Saturday, November 26, 2011

I'm frugal with certain things, like groceries. I read the weekly mailers for my local markets and try to make sure my kitchen is stocked with good food.
Every past holiday season I have baked and cooked up gifts for others.
Do you know that line about how the gifts you give are often the gifts you want? Well, that crosses over to food as well.
I baked gorilla bread saturated with butter like a cinnamon sponge topped with walnuts.
I baked double death dark chocolate chunk brownies drunk on liquor.
I squeezed enough lemons to make the house smell of citrus freshness for my lemon bars.

Yes, I gave homemade goodies out of love, but can now see how I have also created my own homemade triggers for emotional eating. Wowsers! I have no one to blame but myself.

This year I hit my goal weight with the tools, teams and pals gained from Spark, so I know better than to immerse myself in mass amounts of butter laden fatness, or I will definitely be carrying all of those holiday items back on my thighs.

I think I'll be making infused olive oil for everyone, or perhaps something completely non-food related.

I've just tossed my prized coupons in the trash since I will not be creating clogged arteries inside the ones I love.

'Nuff said.


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MRSSCHENCK 11/30/2011 7:11PM

    emoticon Bren. Wow, throwing away coupons is like throwing away money. YIKES. emoticon Not sure if I can let go.But when I think about it, I haven't even been using my coupons since I've been eating healthier. Why don't they have coupons for the good stuff?

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SUNFLOWER4ME 11/30/2011 6:00PM

    So true. I am the same exact way with groceries, especially on a college budget! But sometimes, I sacrifice healthy for cheap, which is NO good.

I think I am going to be straight forward about avoiding sweets this year, no trying not to insult someones feelings. just NO!

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RYDERB 11/28/2011 10:09PM

    For a lot of us, food has been love, especially during the holidays, but now it's nice to know that we're changing and love means saying no to fatty yummy unhealthy foods. I love the olive oil idea. Healthy and tasty! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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1HAPPYWOMAN 11/27/2011 3:36PM

    The fact that you're not using the holidays as an excuse to go back to your traditions shows how much you've changed! Congratulations on coming so far in such a short amount of time. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    That is awesome of you! It is sad how holidays are centered around food.
The oils sound great.

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MALKS_ARIA 11/27/2011 2:47AM

    please make some healthy oils for me too.... sounds like a great plan! they may miss your baking but your hips wont! how about some marinated Motz balls or hummus with pretzels.... ? or a movie basket with a fun movie a couple bags of light popcorn and some other low fat treats people may enjoy? there are many bath / beauty ideas out there you can make too... tea cozzy coasters that can also be used as sachels ... so many hand made reasonably priced ideas you can use as a family gift that doesnt go to anyone's hips....

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MAMADWARF 11/26/2011 11:16PM

    Gah. You are like jiminy cricket, whispering in my ear to do the right thing. I bake for 4 companies that we do business with. I love it. I like being creative in the kitchen and i love to bake. Last year was really tough on me. I wonder if i really could do things a little differently or maybe cut back at least to do some things that are nit as tempting for me. I like the idea of flavored olive oils or maybe a coffee basket or pasta basket ....that is alot to think about. I hate not doing it at all...time to get creative I suppose.

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ARLENE_MOVES 11/26/2011 10:27PM

    You are doing your friends and family a favor. Glad you made the change!

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CANNIE50 11/26/2011 9:52PM

    I know that wasn't easy for you to do, traditions are difficult to give up. You are starting new traditions, less calorically & emotionally laden. emoticon

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LGAR519 11/26/2011 8:54PM

    I have to make peanut butter fudge for Hubby's friend. It's a yearly tradition. I begged and pleaded to try to get out of it. It will be a miracle if I stay out of the fudge. You did the right thing.

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    LIKE! I will not enjoy getting gifts of food this holiday season, so I say spread some cheer instead of fat!

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What I Don’t Want For The Holidays

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Let me start off by saying that I am not standing here stamping my foot and bah-humbug’ing Thanksgiving and Christmas at all. I love both holidays, and all of the sparkly lights that come to my mind when I reminisce, but I don’t want anything related to what I have made these holidays into over the years: overeating, obsessing and overkill.

I shared with a Spark pal that I’ve decided to flip things around if you will.
I don’t want to compare this holiday season to the past unless those comparisons involve wonderful joy related things.

*I will not be comparing my current health to how my disease complicates my life this holiday season or in season’s past. And I will not go into a sad dark space about missing my mom and brother for longer than would be considered fair.

*I won’t be over extending myself to decorate the house with 1,000% holiday cheer since it adds to my pain (and glitter is just impossible to completely get out of my rug anyway).

*I will not be baking obscene and ridiculous items of dark chocolate goo to give as gifts, which are always gluten filled (so I can’t eat them anyway), yet obsess about the lingering smells that end up triggering me 24/7, and make me want to eat them anyway.

*I won’t overwhelm my husband, my pets, or my neighbors this year with a plethora of pumpkin spice and fir tree scented candles and diffusers. Who needs a pumpkin headache? That’s just sad…

*I will not wade in credit card debt from overspending on material gifts, even though my other half might feel differently. Not this year buddy.

And now for the things I WILL be doing this year:

*I will be thankful for friends and family who decided to stick around for me and support me, even as my health worsens.

*I am thankful for the community, support and friendships that I have gained since joining Spark this past April.

*I am SO thankful to feel rich in spirit, and (currently) NOT trying to eat myself into the illusion of happiness.

*I am thankful for the 30 lbs I lost with SparkPeople!

*I am thankful for the multiple blessings in my life. The ones I recognize, and especially the ones I don’t…

Well, one little apple spice scented candle won’t hurt anyone, right? : )

‘Nuff Said

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MALKS_ARIA 11/25/2011 10:35PM

    Totally.... Totally Love the plan....

I don't know if you have ever used FlyLady before... but I love her holiday advice....
>Check out her "clutter free" gifts... and suggestions for reducing stress of the holiday...

It is so worth it... I took and copied and pasted what 'ideas" I wanted to use... and kept those handy.. and let the other ideas be someone else's to use!


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TRENTDREAMER 11/24/2011 4:11PM

    "Well, one little apple spice scented candle won’t hurt anyone, right? : ) "
* Not @ all.

Sounds like you have a good perspective on the holidays.

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    I love how positive you are Bren!

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RYDERB 11/23/2011 12:49AM

    I'm with you. One little candle won't hurt, but apple spice would make me crave pie emoticon
Happy Thanksgiving!
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1HAPPYWOMAN 11/22/2011 11:46PM

    I hope your holidays are magical! You have a wonderful plan and a great attitude. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CANNIE50 11/22/2011 10:41PM

    When I am counting my blessings, you are definitely one of them. emoticon

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CLOVER2 11/22/2011 9:07PM

    What a great "agenda"! I hope you don't mind if I steal a couple of them, do you?
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JONICACALDWELL 11/22/2011 6:08PM

    emoticon Celebration doesn't have to equal food. We are here for you!

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LGAR519 11/22/2011 3:43PM

    Think the World and all of you and your spirit! Love the blog!! And agree with it.

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CTUPTON 11/22/2011 3:08PM

    Wonderful ! Have a great Thanksgiving with your family and friends!

That is what counts. Chris

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MISSB8604 11/22/2011 2:38PM

    You've got a point!!! Great blog!

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ARLENE_MOVES 11/22/2011 2:31PM

    Super good -- I came to that point when my last kid left home. If we want to celebrate we go to their houses as they have the stuff for the kids. I can come home and be calm -- it works for us!

BTW, can you please tell me what your page background is? I've been trying to figure it out but for the life of me can't.

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SUNFLOWER4ME 11/22/2011 1:36PM

    Girl, you nailed it! Except I am ALL FOR that little apple spice candle, nothing wrong with smelling good I always say! Plus my eyes and and ears are already going so I rely on my sense of smell emoticon

Also, I am thankful for YOU. emoticon

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CATS_MEOW_0911 11/22/2011 1:04PM

    Enjoy your holidays, Bren! Happy Thanksgiving!

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PURESTILLWATER 11/22/2011 12:54PM

    fantastic blog Bren.

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RUTHANNE100 11/22/2011 12:47PM

    What a healthy, positive attitude you have! Thanks for sharing--


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RHMORTON 11/22/2011 12:42PM

  I agree with u 100%.

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