Monday, October 31, 2011
Well, now that I'm more or less able to breathe and sleep more or less normally, I'm getting back into a routine. Its way too late to train for Iron Girl (its this Sunday), so I'm just going to kick it up for the holidays. I'm not usually one to gain weight around the holidays, I only ever seem to over eat on Thanksgiving Day or Christmas Day. I eat leftovers in moderation. So, I'm not terribly worried. It would just be nice to look a bit slimmer than last year in the family portraits. Assuming I actually have a normal holiday this year... so much has gone on with my family, I'm not sure what my holidays are going to hold.
Saturday, the first day that I forgot I had ever been sick, was so fun. I spent the day with two friends. We carved pumpkins, baked cupcakes, I made dinner, and got my haircut... even shorter than last time. And I took photos of all the fun!
At the pumpkin patch! Oooh, I'm so scary.
Gutting out the gourds...
Finishing up my Jack O' Lantern!
Metric Ton of cupcakes- Devil's Food & Strawberry. I made homemade frostings- cream cheese and buttercream.
Finished pumpkin masterpieces! (Mine's on the far right)
My Bender pumpkin (although I know his teeth are wrong.)
This was dinner leftovers- turkey meatloaf with cheese in it, and homemade ketchup, red potatoes tossed with garlic, butter, and parsley, and a butterflake roll.
EDIT: Forgot to show off the new haircut. You can sorta see it "before" in the pics above. Now:
Today I did my Day 2 of 28 Day Bootcamp. As part of this challenge, I need to write down my goals for this program:
My goals for this challenge are (in order of importance to me:)
1. Complete the 28 Day Bootcamp Challenge
2. Lose some weight/inches
3. Gain some physical endurance/stamina
4. Gain some physical strength
5. Transform my body in any way this challenge will allow
I decided to keep my goals the same from the first time I did the bootcamp, so that I don't have any pressure. I just want to do what I can, ya know?
Today I did a full 30 minutes of cardio, but I kept it super low intensity. I am having trouble breathing a bit still, so I set my treadmill at 2.5% incline, speed at 2.5, which is probably the weakest I've ever done a treadmill workout. Normally I set it on interval, which increases and decreases both speed and incline at "random" intervals. That usually gives me a crazy workout which I love. But, since I've been outta the game for so long, I thought it best to build up my stamina first. After that I came home and did my toning video for the day and ate some lunch:
Tuna salad made with mustard (and only 1 tbsp mayo), lettuce, tomato, pickles, and pepperoncini rings, on rye bread. Flamin' hot Cheetos with lemon juice. Very salty, so I'm drinking lots of water.
I'll add a pic of my Halloween costume tonight: Jilted bride. Gotta get some use outta that free wedding dress (since I won't use it for an actual wedding myself.)
EDIT #2: I added some here, too...
Friday, October 21, 2011
I can't believe I'm sick again... or I'm still sick from last week. I dunno! All I know is, I can't breathe outta my nose AT ALL and it's really p***ing me off! No amount of NyQuil or DayQuil or saline nasal spray or albuterol seems to be helping. I feel betrayed. Betrayed by my own immune system. Tsk tsk tsk...
Well, since all that's happening I can't sleep (even after taking NyQuil more than an hour ago). I might as well get a blog in. First of all, I didn't mean to post such a cryptic status update the other day. I said something about life changing decisions, I think. I should explain that for those on the edge of your seats. I've been studying nutrition and my plan with that is to go into a CADE certified Master's Degree program to become a Registered Dietitian (which is only done through the ADA- American Dietetics Association). In the meantime, I'm in the A.S. program at Mesa college, taking the basic nutrition classes for a foundation. There is a program at Mesa (the only one in San Diego and Imperial Counties) that is for a DSS (Dietary Services Supervisor) certificate which would allow me to work in hospitals, nursing homes, and schools. The state of California has a law (might be a new one, actually) that is going to require these types of facilities (with special needs diets) to have a certified DSS on staff 24/7. My "life changing decision" is to join this program. As it turns out, I've already taken 2 of the 6 required classes. I can take 4 more next semester, then take my practicum over summer (or in fall if I'm lazy). Then I'll be a certified DSS. Its a growing need for these DSS folks and even this semester the program coordinator knew off the top of her head 6 positions that were open immediately in various facilities. I'm also already ahead of the game (thanks to the classes I've already taken) than more than half the people that attended the DSS program orientation. They won't be getting theirs done until 2013 thanks to prerequisites. So, I'm excited. This could lead to a good job, a good paying job, and is just another stepping stone on my path to Registered Dietitian-hood.
As for my journey here and my plan: I wanted to do 28 Day Bootcamp and Couch to 5k. Well, thanks to this lame cold, I haven't done much of anything. I've worked out at a low intensity while sick before (its actually good for you to because it raises your body's temperature and cold/flu bugs need a certain temp to thrive, so by raising it, they can't do their evil thing! FUN. FACT.) Unfortunately, I can't breathe out of my nose and my asthma is all aggravated, so I'm coughing as well. Not exactly easy to walk on a treadmill, or in general for that matter, when you aren't able to take in enough oxygen, ya know? So, the chances of me getting to the Iron Girl 5k are looking less and less. Stupid body! Also a consequence is that I've had such a small appetite. I have to remind myself to eat. I can't taste anything, so I'm not really wanting to eat. My tummy is slightly queasy, which may/may not be related to gallbladder (see two paragraphs down). The lower half of my guts can't decide what they want to do- be upset or be normal. Ugh! Anyway, I went to school today and then my last day of work (more on that next paragraph), for a straight 8 hours of not healing or resting, and boy do I feel wiped out. Luckily, I have absolutely NOTHING to do tomorrow, so I will happily do that nothing in bed getting better.
So, today was my last day at work. I would like to say, yes, I know I voluntarily quit without having another job lined up. But, it was for my own mental health that I move on. That's not to say I didn't love the people there. My boss was wonderful in every way. One of the best ones I've had the pleasure to work for. She was kind, smart, understanding, and a good friend (but, a boss first and foremost). The package delivery drivers, Michelle for express and Ryan for ground, were so great, they really highlighted my day when they'd come get the packages for the day. I cried and hugged them tightly when I said bye to them today. They were truly wonderful people. I didn't cry when my boss left because I was still trying really hard to keep it together. But, I cried when I locked up the shop for the last time and carried out my notary supplies and coffee mug. I'll miss my favorite customers- Candy Banditt that would bring me goodies, the owner of an architectural firm who made it a point to learn my name when we met so we wouldn't be strangers, Bob with his millions of packages, the woman that drove to Costco up the road and came back in the rain to give me a brochure from their optical department, Jim and his flawless Spanish for an old white guy... As much as I hated what I did, and this job felt like such a waste of my time (5.5 scheduled hours a week at $8.50/hr and $5 by bus to get there- 'waste' might be an understatement), I will definitely miss the people that made my time there truly great. It was an emotional day, not to mention I felt like CRAPPPPPP!!!!, I'm just glad its over. Its time for me to move on.
I did have an appointment with my surgeon on Wednesday, the first day I woke up feeling this awful since whenever that was last week. I was prepared for a fight, and with the way I felt, I was not above being a total B to get what I wanted. Luckily, that didn't end up happening. The surgeon pretty much told me that despite what my HIDA scan said, if I was having problems due to a stone or stones, then that mother needs to come out! I was so glad because I was so afraid the HIDA was the be-all, end-all. The scan is when they inject me with a radioactive dye (I didn't even get superpowers from that- gypped!) and take a series of pictures- for 40 minutes!- of my gallbladder's ability to contract and dump out its contents into my stomach. The test was slightly painful and super boring, and said my gallbladder is functioning at 74% capacity. In other words, normally. But, I have pain within an hour or 30 minutes after I eat. I have pain at night for no reason. I have had to cut stuff out of my diet- like red meat, oatmeal, peanut butter, carbonated beverages (I don't drink soda, but I like sparkling water and hard ciders), and am unable to eat animal products of any kind in my first meal of the day. Not. Cool. So, it looks like my surgery will be taking place sometime after the holidays. WOOHOO! I'm so happy for that result.
Hopefully this junk will leave my system soon (where does this goo keep coming from!?!?!) so I can get back on track and can spend more time Sparking coherently.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
So, after a pretty tumultuous Thursday/Thursday night, my friend made me take a cold shower to alleviate symptoms that we were pretty sure were due to heat stroke (not counting the ones that were due to my evil cold). She was right. I felt so much better, slept pretty well, and woke up Friday morning feeling infinitely better! So, I hopped a train to L.A. to spend the weekend with my best friend. We're going to the L.A. County Museum of Art to see the Tim Burton exhibit. Its with a group of people from her Bible study group, so I'm excited to meet them all. I already know 2 of them, and I'm glad to be seeing them again. Tomorrow will probably be pretty chill. :-)
So, now that I'm feeling better, I'm going to get into a routine again. Its been a rough couple weeks. I made the final decision a week ago to quit my job. I don't have another lined up, unfortunately, but I didn't like what I was doing, it wasn't helping me much financially, and it started to feel like a drain on my time. So, I'm praying for something better to come along soon. In the meantime, I'll concentrate on my two classes at school and getting as healthy as possible before having surgery for this gallbladder (whenever that'll be).
I'm going to start with the 28 Day Bootcamp again. It helped me a lot the first time around because it's structured and I'm told what to do. I like having something scheduled. I'm not so good at exercise on-the-fly. I think simultaneously I'll be doing the Couch to 5K program on Spark, too. I wanted to do the Iron Girl Del Mar 5k in November and was well on my way to being able to do so. Then my health took a dive. But, I think I've got it worked out now so I can safely do both. I'm not sure if I'll be up to par by the event, but I'll try anyway. I can always not do it if I feel like I'm not ready for it. There's always next year and there's always another 5k here in the sunny SD!
Well, I'm off. Tim Burton and LACMA awaits!
I'm a HUGE RAVENOUS fan of Futurama!
Friday, October 07, 2011
Side note/unrelated: You know whatís frustrating? Writing an entire blog and having your browser encounter an error and POOF! Itís goneÖ So, take 2!
Thank you to all who left a comment on my blog, page, photos, left goodies, or sent me a private message. I am very thankful to have had such an outpouring of support. I read each and every comment and message, gave them thought, and took them to heart.
And......... I've decided to stay!
I am going to make sure this journey is mine and my responsibility. My success will not be determined by how many friends I have or how much support I received. But, those elements will definitely help keep me on the right path, moving forward to better health and smaller clothes. Iím also going to work on giving support out of love, and not expecting anything in return. Getting something in return would be nice (and very helpful), though!
Iím going through each person (all 32 of them) and leaving a comment on each page to touch base, start something new, and make sure yaíll know Iím serious! If Iím so inclined, and depending on time, Iíll leave a message or two on some blogs or photos. Iíll most likely save the ďextrasĒ for another time, though, when I schedule in SparkPeople to my normal routine.
Individually, Iíd like to thank:
Additional thank yous:
Iíve left comments on some pages already. Iím working my way through the list, so youíre next! If Iíve misspelled your name, missed you entirely, or youíre new to the party, let me know and Iíll amend the list!
Once again, I canít thank you all enough. I feel very blessed.
And, on a lighter note, Iíll leave you with some photos of foods Iíve made this week. (I warn you in advance, I am obsessed with the RetroCam app for Android!)
This is chicken paprikash with whole wheat dumplings (and corn/peas)- from scratch!
This is vegan lentil chili (with a not-so-vegan dollop of sour cream!)
This is my homemade artichoke and kalamata olive hummus!
Hot cocoa... not homemade... in a cauldron mug!
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
I have a confession: I'm not sure I'm going to be sticking with Spark or not in the near future. I feel very disconnected from the community on here in general. I know it's no one's job to be my keeper or even my friend for that matter, but I'm feeling lonely and isolated on the Spark webs.
I'm not doing so well on my journey right now. I'm stuck with a gallbladder that interferes with a decent portion of my life. I get lazy, lose motivation easily, and haven't made it out to a rally in some time. Its the people that are struggling that need the most encouragement, and sometimes (and this is my perspective only- I'm not saying this is the absolute truth for everyone) it seems like people are only congratulating and encouraging people that are doing well on their journey or who have reached their goals. Just how I see it, at least right now... Not always true, like I said.
Not to point fingers, because I know I take a lot of blame for this. I don't get to make it to rallies (I don't have a car and the buses are very limited on weekends) anymore like I used to. I dropped off the face of the SparkPeople earth for a while, so I'm sure many people just forgot about me. And I don't blame them at all. I came back after finding new motivation, a new spark... I completed the 28 Day Bootcamp, but only had a few cheerleaders on that journey (thank you for the encouragement, by the way! You know who you are!) I had a few friends add me, but then where did they go? They already have established SparkFriendships to nurture. I tried to reach out. I left comments on pages and blogs, left some Goodies here and there, huddle with my favorite team- Spark San Diego! I made myself blog a little more than I had been (which still didn't amount to much).
I feel like I put in some effort and got [next to] nothing in return. Hell, I'm not even sure who is actually going to take the time to read this blog.
I've enjoyed being on Spark. I love their trackers, not that I like tracking food, but exercise and other goals are usually worth my while. I read lots of the articles, utilize some of the recipes... I'm always reading people's blogs, but hardly ever comment since it doesn't seem to spark any sort of conversation. I feel like I don't have Spark Friends anymore. And I don't have anyone in my "real" life going on this journey (or a similar one) with me.
I feel like such a whiner with this blog. Like I'm being so negative. Like I'm accusing people of being bad friends. That's not what this blog is about. Its my honest feelings about how I really feel right now.
I can't even guarantee to always be there for someone else, either, and maybe that's the problem. Like a lot of people, life gets in the way sometimes. I get busy with homework or work or life in general and forget that there are people who need encouragement from me. I think I'd be more on top of checking in with people on their journeys if I had a little more consistent/established SparkFriends, too. If they check on me, I'll remember to check on them. And vice versa. Until, like exercising regularly or eating healthy, it becomes a habit- a part of this lifestyle change we're all trying to make.
I'm not asking to be convinced to stay. I'm not asking for permission to leave. I'm not asking for anything except a few minutes of your time to read this blog. Thank you.
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